Its been raining since yesterday, definately floods expected in low lying areas again. More cleaning up for residents of that area again. Pity them man. Monsoon came pretty late this year, and it seems to take longer to leave as well. Used to hate the weather, but the longer it persist, kinda adapted to it, and at least it keeps the tempreture cooling, like having "mini winter" in Singapore, good!
Completed the Korean show i borrowed from Sherine the other time yesterday night. What seems like a definate happy ending have a weird twist leading to a very sad ending. Really admire korean men, for their lack of fear in showing their emotions. Real men do cry I suppose, all those things that crying means weakness, I am thinking otherwise already. Of course when I say cry, I don't refer to the whining and pouring type of cry, but simply tearing when you are sad, I guess thats that the limit a guy can go to when he gets emotional. Overall, would say its a pretty nice show, love the longs the drama used, both the english ones and those written for the show.
Yesterday, went for a little makan session with my SAF band people, so glad and contented that I got a warm welcome the minute I stepped into SAKURA (at Downtown east). Everyone seems pretty glad to see me, from the officers to my (ex) fellow bandmates. Guess all that hard work did pay off in the end. For once after so long, I forget about the blues I am having since donno when, was just enjoying the company of all my friends. Hearing things like "Ryan, wah really missed you playing the bassdrum" and "Hey the bunks seems pretty quiet wo!" make me felt so missed in camp. My presence did make a difference in one way of another I suppose. After that, me and a few others, mainly my brunei gang, went for a little walk in town, shopping and all. Met up with Tuan Hao for awhile. Then as the rest left, only me and Azre continued shopping till late. Have a number of things on the "to Buy" list but have to scout out for the best bargain. Shopping always gives me extra energy man, sometimes I wonder if I should even be born a man, judging from the interest I give in shopping. lolx.
Alright, I am glad to say, things are slowly turning for the better, now that the mess within me, is more or less controlled. But still need time, probably by the end of the month... hopefully. Meanwhile, I am enjoy the life of a loner, doing everything alone, seeing things alone. No company might not be such a bad thing afterall. Everyone fears loneliness, I for one adores it. Really like living in the world of my own. But I hope my isolation period won't inflict any damage on my relationships with my friends. Well I guess we will see how thing goes, will take things a step at a time then... Alright den, have a great week ahead. Cheers!
Friday, January 12, 2007
Tuesday, January 09, 2007
Where is the sun?
Well, when I am down, I suppose everything just won't go right for me. Was suppose to go tanning today, ended up spending the entire day at home, coz its been raining for THE ENTIRE DAY!!! even the sun is hating me. haiz.... To make matters worse, I am sick, haha yes, I am down with running nose and a slight fever. For a person that have not been sick for the entire year of 2006, this doesn't seem like a good start at all. But whats consoling is at least I fall ill after the performance is over. Thankful for that.
As i said, spent the entire day at home today. Phone hardly rang, or at least i didn't bothered checking in the first place. Spent the day watching vcd i borrowed from Sherine. A pretty nice show I must say. Thou its just a show, but its got my emotions going, felt like I was in the movie, and the actors and actress are actually my frens facing that problem. Have yet complete it, taking my time to do so, coz I really have no idea what I can do if I finish it all at one go. Something to keep me occupied is always good.
Mum and Dad are back to normal liao, thou I am sure this have leave a scar in the relationship, but guess time will heal all wound and mend all scars. At least that means one last thing for me to worry. As for myself, honestly speaking, I have not find the source of my biggest problem. But all I can say is I am waiting it to pass, the depressed feeling make me breathless at times, but goes away after sometime. But the re-occurance rate seems to be increasing, should I seek medical help? At times I really want to talk it all out, but I donno what to say, where to begin, or what to begin with. I am really in a state of confusion. How I wish I have a pair of wings now, and just fly off to a place that no one knows me, start things anew.
The thought of migrating have been hovering in my mind lately. Australia seems like an ideal spot. Mum have told me once that Dad have been thinking about that idea for awhile. For me its easier, I already have relative there, all I need is to get an education there, stay in the country for more then 3 years, get a job and pretty much secure a spot. By then I can fetch my parents over. Its not really a bad idea. Pondering.
Well, I guess thats all for the day, another day have passed, the sun rises again tml, hoping tml to be a better day! Take care and enjoy the week pple. Cheers
As i said, spent the entire day at home today. Phone hardly rang, or at least i didn't bothered checking in the first place. Spent the day watching vcd i borrowed from Sherine. A pretty nice show I must say. Thou its just a show, but its got my emotions going, felt like I was in the movie, and the actors and actress are actually my frens facing that problem. Have yet complete it, taking my time to do so, coz I really have no idea what I can do if I finish it all at one go. Something to keep me occupied is always good.
Mum and Dad are back to normal liao, thou I am sure this have leave a scar in the relationship, but guess time will heal all wound and mend all scars. At least that means one last thing for me to worry. As for myself, honestly speaking, I have not find the source of my biggest problem. But all I can say is I am waiting it to pass, the depressed feeling make me breathless at times, but goes away after sometime. But the re-occurance rate seems to be increasing, should I seek medical help? At times I really want to talk it all out, but I donno what to say, where to begin, or what to begin with. I am really in a state of confusion. How I wish I have a pair of wings now, and just fly off to a place that no one knows me, start things anew.
The thought of migrating have been hovering in my mind lately. Australia seems like an ideal spot. Mum have told me once that Dad have been thinking about that idea for awhile. For me its easier, I already have relative there, all I need is to get an education there, stay in the country for more then 3 years, get a job and pretty much secure a spot. By then I can fetch my parents over. Its not really a bad idea. Pondering.
Well, I guess thats all for the day, another day have passed, the sun rises again tml, hoping tml to be a better day! Take care and enjoy the week pple. Cheers
Monday, January 08, 2007
Bad start to a week = bad week?
Finally, the concert draws to a close yesterday. So glad to have people coming to support me for the concert. I personally can say its pretty successful, very strong sound, and lots of positive feedback from the crowd. Was very contented to be once again able to play for a band. The feeling is just wonderful. Thx to all that took time off to come watch the concert. Especially to my camp pple, or should I say Ex-camp mates, Azre, Jin Cheng, Derrick and Victor, and also my dragonboat pals, Mina san, Jays, Kim and Vandy. Was kinda suprised that Vandy came actually, for the fact that I just met her once, at a party quite sometime ago. Thx again everyone.
Its has not been a good start to the new year for me. My personal problem have yet to be solved and another problem arises, not with me, but my parents. Was happily thinking of where to go after concert when I recieved a msg from my dad saying something happened at home and its pretty urgent. So after the photo taking session, I rushed home to see what happened. Apparently, they had a big row over a very trival matter again, its really making a mountain out of a molehill matter man. It really breaks my heart to see such things happen in the family. Whats worse, I have to shoulder all these. I know they care for each other so much, and its pretty much their different view in things that cause this argument, so I suppose time will dissolve their problem. But the scar they leave in me will take awhile to heal, and I suppose it will be longer this time since my heart is already wounded in the first place.
At times, I really hope I can return to time when I am a kid, just cry out and forget it... its not possible now. even how hard I tear, I cannot forget and the pain lingers. I used to say those people that jump off building are stupid, how can they give up life just like that, but now I think otherwise, with all the stress building, it gives people the strength to just want to end it once and for all. Don't worry, I will not do anything foolish. On the surface, my parents think I don't care about them, in actual fact I do. I mean which child will not care about their parents? But I mean there is nothing much I can do isn't it. Something my Dad told me yesterday made an impression on me. He said ever since my sis left, he understand that its must be difficult for me, as I was all alone, and there is pretty much no one I can approach to share my feelings with. That, to be honest, is really true... Who can I really share my problems with? or what right do I have to trouble other people with my problems when I clearly know that I am not the only one that have problems around here. I guess thats what holding me back. Really glad and thankful for the inventor of blog, a personal space for me to write out my feelings, at least letting some load off my chest. Other than that, i guess i just have to swallow it all down and hopefully time can lighten off my load.
Didn't realise I have already been typing so much, my chest feels lighter already. My world is so full of dark clouds at the moment, when will I see my first ray of sunlight? feel the warm from the sun within again? I really wonder, but I will go strong no matter what, one thing in my process of gym training strengthen most I would have to say will be my mind power, my determination. Thou, I am not sure how long I can hold, but I will try to remain as positive as possible. At least time is on my side. Wish my parents will patch up soon...
Have a great week ahead people, take care and live well!!!
Its has not been a good start to the new year for me. My personal problem have yet to be solved and another problem arises, not with me, but my parents. Was happily thinking of where to go after concert when I recieved a msg from my dad saying something happened at home and its pretty urgent. So after the photo taking session, I rushed home to see what happened. Apparently, they had a big row over a very trival matter again, its really making a mountain out of a molehill matter man. It really breaks my heart to see such things happen in the family. Whats worse, I have to shoulder all these. I know they care for each other so much, and its pretty much their different view in things that cause this argument, so I suppose time will dissolve their problem. But the scar they leave in me will take awhile to heal, and I suppose it will be longer this time since my heart is already wounded in the first place.
At times, I really hope I can return to time when I am a kid, just cry out and forget it... its not possible now. even how hard I tear, I cannot forget and the pain lingers. I used to say those people that jump off building are stupid, how can they give up life just like that, but now I think otherwise, with all the stress building, it gives people the strength to just want to end it once and for all. Don't worry, I will not do anything foolish. On the surface, my parents think I don't care about them, in actual fact I do. I mean which child will not care about their parents? But I mean there is nothing much I can do isn't it. Something my Dad told me yesterday made an impression on me. He said ever since my sis left, he understand that its must be difficult for me, as I was all alone, and there is pretty much no one I can approach to share my feelings with. That, to be honest, is really true... Who can I really share my problems with? or what right do I have to trouble other people with my problems when I clearly know that I am not the only one that have problems around here. I guess thats what holding me back. Really glad and thankful for the inventor of blog, a personal space for me to write out my feelings, at least letting some load off my chest. Other than that, i guess i just have to swallow it all down and hopefully time can lighten off my load.
Didn't realise I have already been typing so much, my chest feels lighter already. My world is so full of dark clouds at the moment, when will I see my first ray of sunlight? feel the warm from the sun within again? I really wonder, but I will go strong no matter what, one thing in my process of gym training strengthen most I would have to say will be my mind power, my determination. Thou, I am not sure how long I can hold, but I will try to remain as positive as possible. At least time is on my side. Wish my parents will patch up soon...
Have a great week ahead people, take care and live well!!!
Friday, January 05, 2007
Friday, first weekend of the new year!
Its finally friday! the start to a weekend, the first weekend of the new year... excited? definately, because the concert is this Sunday! my first concert after a very long while, and what more at VCH, a place that I miss dearly and have alot of wonderful memories in.
Lets talk about practise yesterday, was there slightly late, hmm overall, practise was fun. Finally got a feel of the full strenght of the band, and we sound not too bad. Was kinda worried about our performance, but from yesterday, seems like I am just over worried. I guess I am a big lier? hmm, or rather, a good pretender. The best things a Sagi can do is hiding feeling I suppose. Shall leave it here... hehez... shall not continue on my sad life. Back to band, kinda left as soon as band prac ended. 2nd time walking out of school alone, first was on saturday. Strangely, the feeling is totally different. Saturday as I walked out, there was an air of loneliness, like I was the only person left on earth. But yesterday, I felt relieved, I cannot explain my feeling but it felt good and very calming. Guess my isolation phrase is gonna set in. Haha, starting to sound like a depressed child isn't it? hehez...
Anyway, today, got plenty of things done before heading to work, settle my army claims on my little dislocaton, and also went to collect my home theatre set. Apparently its out of stock, and will only arrive in 2 weeks or 1 month time, meaning its not going to meet the timeing to my TV OMG!!! haiz... just hope it all make it before Chinese New Year! After that, since i was around the area, went to pray at the temple first before heading to work. Lucky things is i still managed to make it to work on time. hehez. After work today, will probably be heading down town to get tie for the concert. If nothing is plan, pehaps catch a movie? The Queen pehaps? got very good ratings on it. so yeah, this is likely the plan for the day. Enjoy the weekend pple!
Lets talk about practise yesterday, was there slightly late, hmm overall, practise was fun. Finally got a feel of the full strenght of the band, and we sound not too bad. Was kinda worried about our performance, but from yesterday, seems like I am just over worried. I guess I am a big lier? hmm, or rather, a good pretender. The best things a Sagi can do is hiding feeling I suppose. Shall leave it here... hehez... shall not continue on my sad life. Back to band, kinda left as soon as band prac ended. 2nd time walking out of school alone, first was on saturday. Strangely, the feeling is totally different. Saturday as I walked out, there was an air of loneliness, like I was the only person left on earth. But yesterday, I felt relieved, I cannot explain my feeling but it felt good and very calming. Guess my isolation phrase is gonna set in. Haha, starting to sound like a depressed child isn't it? hehez...
Anyway, today, got plenty of things done before heading to work, settle my army claims on my little dislocaton, and also went to collect my home theatre set. Apparently its out of stock, and will only arrive in 2 weeks or 1 month time, meaning its not going to meet the timeing to my TV OMG!!! haiz... just hope it all make it before Chinese New Year! After that, since i was around the area, went to pray at the temple first before heading to work. Lucky things is i still managed to make it to work on time. hehez. After work today, will probably be heading down town to get tie for the concert. If nothing is plan, pehaps catch a movie? The Queen pehaps? got very good ratings on it. so yeah, this is likely the plan for the day. Enjoy the weekend pple!
Thursday, January 04, 2007
First day of work for the new year!
After a moody tuesday, recuperated at home yesterday just to sort out my thinking and "educate" myself on the dos and don'ts just to get myself out of the image of the BIG G!!!
While still recovery from my "sudden depression" I managed to finish watching "Gong, My Sassy Princess". Review, its dame nice lor! Looking at the dress sense of the Crown Prince, quite a number of his colour combination is pretty feminie, my mum even mistaken him as a girl. But yet no one calls him G! haiz, its a cruel world. Dressing like that in Singapore will definately draw alot of attention, but I absolutely love the dressing, and I am sure it definately comes with a price (both monetary and image wise).
Read in today issue of URBAN, it reads "Singaporeans in general are always safe, unadventurous and traditional in their dressing. At best, it is nothing but an echo of whatever that is happening in Milan, London or New York - and even then, it is usually six months to a year late". Its very sad to hear such comments, and me being a fashion freak and all, is pretty sad to admit I too still fall under that category. But that statment is very true thou. Lets not say the guys, honestly speaking, guys that can dress in Singapore is like say 5% and out of the 5% I suppose most work in design or related field.
But then again, saying Singapore have bad dress sense, its not totally fair to us too i feel. Its not that we don't want to dress, but our climate dun allow as to dress, can u imagine wearing a nice top or slightly thicker top, fashionable, yes, but imagine it with perspiration stain, with our climate, a short walk down orchard road on a sunny day will make most people pespire. So with that in consideration, most people in Singapore obviously cannot dress as fanciful comparing to those country with 4 seasons. No doubt, if we compare to countries like New York, Milan, and even Asia country like Japan, HK and Taiwan, Singapore is no where in the league in terms of fashion. But there no denial that we are pretty fashionable in our region.
There is a line I read, and feel made alot of sense and think we should reflect on would be "Singapore tries to be a First World Country but has a Third World mentality" There is nothing wrong in keeping some roots. But well, Singapore I feel is still pretty conservative in her thinking, maybe overly conservative. Thus "cultivating" majority her people to take the safe approach in things, for this case fashion.
Bottomline is, to change fashion trends in Singapore is not an easy job, as majority have already got used to the "Jap-trend" or the "Korean-trend" and even the "Taiwan- trend", mostly influenced by those drama serials they have come out with. I myself admit, got quite a number of my ideas from there too (especially the Jap and Korean ones). So I mean there is really no right or wrong dress sense, as long whatever you wear can represent your your character, you are able to feel comfortable in it, I suppose its fine. I know its easier said then done, I myself is still trying to get over the fact that people think my dress sense is too feminie when I think is prefectly fine.
Hmm.. guess that my 2 cents worth on fashion, there is plenty more, but I guess if i carry on, I can start a book on it already. So yeah, strange from watching vcd at home I can related to fashion. But after today's issue of URBAN, I better understand the current situation of our country "fashion state" and hopefully will one day get out of the common circle and pehaps a fashion setter? Who knows right? Alright thats all for now... Cheers!
While still recovery from my "sudden depression" I managed to finish watching "Gong, My Sassy Princess". Review, its dame nice lor! Looking at the dress sense of the Crown Prince, quite a number of his colour combination is pretty feminie, my mum even mistaken him as a girl. But yet no one calls him G! haiz, its a cruel world. Dressing like that in Singapore will definately draw alot of attention, but I absolutely love the dressing, and I am sure it definately comes with a price (both monetary and image wise).
Read in today issue of URBAN, it reads "Singaporeans in general are always safe, unadventurous and traditional in their dressing. At best, it is nothing but an echo of whatever that is happening in Milan, London or New York - and even then, it is usually six months to a year late". Its very sad to hear such comments, and me being a fashion freak and all, is pretty sad to admit I too still fall under that category. But that statment is very true thou. Lets not say the guys, honestly speaking, guys that can dress in Singapore is like say 5% and out of the 5% I suppose most work in design or related field.
But then again, saying Singapore have bad dress sense, its not totally fair to us too i feel. Its not that we don't want to dress, but our climate dun allow as to dress, can u imagine wearing a nice top or slightly thicker top, fashionable, yes, but imagine it with perspiration stain, with our climate, a short walk down orchard road on a sunny day will make most people pespire. So with that in consideration, most people in Singapore obviously cannot dress as fanciful comparing to those country with 4 seasons. No doubt, if we compare to countries like New York, Milan, and even Asia country like Japan, HK and Taiwan, Singapore is no where in the league in terms of fashion. But there no denial that we are pretty fashionable in our region.
There is a line I read, and feel made alot of sense and think we should reflect on would be "Singapore tries to be a First World Country but has a Third World mentality" There is nothing wrong in keeping some roots. But well, Singapore I feel is still pretty conservative in her thinking, maybe overly conservative. Thus "cultivating" majority her people to take the safe approach in things, for this case fashion.
Bottomline is, to change fashion trends in Singapore is not an easy job, as majority have already got used to the "Jap-trend" or the "Korean-trend" and even the "Taiwan- trend", mostly influenced by those drama serials they have come out with. I myself admit, got quite a number of my ideas from there too (especially the Jap and Korean ones). So I mean there is really no right or wrong dress sense, as long whatever you wear can represent your your character, you are able to feel comfortable in it, I suppose its fine. I know its easier said then done, I myself is still trying to get over the fact that people think my dress sense is too feminie when I think is prefectly fine.
Hmm.. guess that my 2 cents worth on fashion, there is plenty more, but I guess if i carry on, I can start a book on it already. So yeah, strange from watching vcd at home I can related to fashion. But after today's issue of URBAN, I better understand the current situation of our country "fashion state" and hopefully will one day get out of the common circle and pehaps a fashion setter? Who knows right? Alright thats all for now... Cheers!
Tuesday, January 02, 2007
Argh!!!
Strange to be blogging twice in a day! but even stranger how things affect my mood.... Freaking hell lor... dame fustrated now... was ok a moment ago... WHATS WRONG WITH ME!!!
My life is a mess, 22 years old, mid life crisis? I honestly doubt. But strangely, I feel I lived a life of a clown, people making a fool out of me, or rather I making a fool of myself just that people around me have a good laugh. All the thing about GAY, when I say i got used to it...i lied, honestly, which guy enjoys being called a GAY, when he is actually straight. Pressure around me mounts i suppose with this kinda remark. But who can be blamed but myself, accepting all that comments with smile and ignorance.... Thought that it will all be over if I just take it, people would just grow tired of calling me that, and stop.... but no... it lingers... Whats wrong with having good dress sense, guys on tv drama dress 10 time more "glam" then me, and there is no one calling them gay, and me, just wanting to look more presentable or rather, dress comfy for occasion get the "colour lens" look (aka you se de yan jing kan wo). Do I have to ask permission from anyone just to dress myself, pamper myself, for all the sacrifies I have made for what I achieve now? Call me over sensitive, but at times when people pass comment, it might seem that I dun give a damn, and even laugh it off... but my heart is already scarred. Frens or foes i have, I am really unsure. Its not fair for me to pass judgement on anyone, cause they probably all innocent, not knowing the damage they have done, and the real power of words. The fault lies with myself I suppose. Call me cheap, slut, whatever, its seems that by keeping quiet and even laughing at their supposedly jokes! I am actually encouraging more comment to come! ITS ALL MY FAULT!!!
I hate myself! I hate the fact that i always seem to know alot, but actually know NOTHING! I hate my oversensitivity, I hate my lack of self confidence, I hate my looks, my character, my "Gayness" act or what ever aura within me that give pple the impression that I am one. I HATE MYSELF period.
Everytime, I would think of ways to change things, but never once I dare say I am successful, its pretty much NATO (No Action Talk Only) I am not saying all this to get pity from friends, attract attention to myself whatever not. But its really time I should reflect on my own character. I need a mentor, but I suppose the best mentor would be myself, no one knows me better then myself I guess. Fustration takes over me now... can't believe I can type so much despite a blank mind now. Issues that I have bottom inside me for a long time, in here i would say are those that are already unable to contain, plenty I wish not to speak off.... How I wish I can have a pair of wings, fly to another place far far away, and start everything anew. New environment, new surroundings, new people, new everything.... who can save me? i wonder...
My life is a mess, 22 years old, mid life crisis? I honestly doubt. But strangely, I feel I lived a life of a clown, people making a fool out of me, or rather I making a fool of myself just that people around me have a good laugh. All the thing about GAY, when I say i got used to it...i lied, honestly, which guy enjoys being called a GAY, when he is actually straight. Pressure around me mounts i suppose with this kinda remark. But who can be blamed but myself, accepting all that comments with smile and ignorance.... Thought that it will all be over if I just take it, people would just grow tired of calling me that, and stop.... but no... it lingers... Whats wrong with having good dress sense, guys on tv drama dress 10 time more "glam" then me, and there is no one calling them gay, and me, just wanting to look more presentable or rather, dress comfy for occasion get the "colour lens" look (aka you se de yan jing kan wo). Do I have to ask permission from anyone just to dress myself, pamper myself, for all the sacrifies I have made for what I achieve now? Call me over sensitive, but at times when people pass comment, it might seem that I dun give a damn, and even laugh it off... but my heart is already scarred. Frens or foes i have, I am really unsure. Its not fair for me to pass judgement on anyone, cause they probably all innocent, not knowing the damage they have done, and the real power of words. The fault lies with myself I suppose. Call me cheap, slut, whatever, its seems that by keeping quiet and even laughing at their supposedly jokes! I am actually encouraging more comment to come! ITS ALL MY FAULT!!!
I hate myself! I hate the fact that i always seem to know alot, but actually know NOTHING! I hate my oversensitivity, I hate my lack of self confidence, I hate my looks, my character, my "Gayness" act or what ever aura within me that give pple the impression that I am one. I HATE MYSELF period.
Everytime, I would think of ways to change things, but never once I dare say I am successful, its pretty much NATO (No Action Talk Only) I am not saying all this to get pity from friends, attract attention to myself whatever not. But its really time I should reflect on my own character. I need a mentor, but I suppose the best mentor would be myself, no one knows me better then myself I guess. Fustration takes over me now... can't believe I can type so much despite a blank mind now. Issues that I have bottom inside me for a long time, in here i would say are those that are already unable to contain, plenty I wish not to speak off.... How I wish I can have a pair of wings, fly to another place far far away, and start everything anew. New environment, new surroundings, new people, new everything.... who can save me? i wonder...
Clean Clean Clean...
Today its yet another public holiday! haha its hari raya haji, so get to slack at home for yet another day. But the day was not wasted thou. Help mum with abit of spring cleaning as we usher in the new year.
Was initally thinking of going to the beach to get a tan, but the sore of my shoulder changed my mood entirely. So I decide to stay home instead. Haiz, this injury have once again cause my engine to stall man. Just hopefully i can get back to the gym real soon. ARGH, the bordem is killing me. Heez, not reallly a good start to a new year u might say. Then again, new year = Stress for me, coz to be honest, I haven't have a direction in life. Study? Work? I mean I have a path, that I tell everyone, which is to work, and see where my passion lies, from there I carry one my studies so to pursue my job. But the problem is, what do i want to do? everytime when i face that question, i turn to something else. I know its not nice to keep avoiding, and it does not solve it at all. But I am indeed at the point of lost. Till i sort things out, my main concern at the moment i suppose is to get into tip top shape, so that at least when I enter the workforce, I will just have to maintain. So hopefully my shoulder can get back to shape ASAP!!! pray pray pray....
As for today, as i said, help my mum in some do some spring cleaning, making myself useful at home. Nothing happening as usual, normally this time will be packing up ready to go for muay thai lesson, but today, haiz... no need to go, not planning to do it for the next 1.5 months. Fustrating. Have been feeling weird since the night at Jac's place. hmm, its not the sick type of feeling weird, just emotionally feeling weird. I suppose the sight of all that emotion that night kinda affected me in one way or another. I hate myself sometimes, for my over sensitivity, but I just cannot help it, its in me... hmm maybe my resolution for this year is to change my character. Change to become cold and heartless... girls seem to like that alot... haha Tough challenge, but I will try.
Ok ba, I suppose thats all for today. Oh yah, concert is this coming sunday (Jan 7th) , details are as follows
Venue: Victoria Concert Hall
Date : 7th Jan 2007
Time: 5pm
Price: SGD 10 (free seating)
Would say a concert not to be missed coz I am performing again... haha okok bhb, but honestly a good concert (I hope). Looking forward to performing again, and hope to see u there... Muackz...
Was initally thinking of going to the beach to get a tan, but the sore of my shoulder changed my mood entirely. So I decide to stay home instead. Haiz, this injury have once again cause my engine to stall man. Just hopefully i can get back to the gym real soon. ARGH, the bordem is killing me. Heez, not reallly a good start to a new year u might say. Then again, new year = Stress for me, coz to be honest, I haven't have a direction in life. Study? Work? I mean I have a path, that I tell everyone, which is to work, and see where my passion lies, from there I carry one my studies so to pursue my job. But the problem is, what do i want to do? everytime when i face that question, i turn to something else. I know its not nice to keep avoiding, and it does not solve it at all. But I am indeed at the point of lost. Till i sort things out, my main concern at the moment i suppose is to get into tip top shape, so that at least when I enter the workforce, I will just have to maintain. So hopefully my shoulder can get back to shape ASAP!!! pray pray pray....
As for today, as i said, help my mum in some do some spring cleaning, making myself useful at home. Nothing happening as usual, normally this time will be packing up ready to go for muay thai lesson, but today, haiz... no need to go, not planning to do it for the next 1.5 months. Fustrating. Have been feeling weird since the night at Jac's place. hmm, its not the sick type of feeling weird, just emotionally feeling weird. I suppose the sight of all that emotion that night kinda affected me in one way or another. I hate myself sometimes, for my over sensitivity, but I just cannot help it, its in me... hmm maybe my resolution for this year is to change my character. Change to become cold and heartless... girls seem to like that alot... haha Tough challenge, but I will try.
Ok ba, I suppose thats all for today. Oh yah, concert is this coming sunday (Jan 7th) , details are as follows
Venue: Victoria Concert Hall
Date : 7th Jan 2007
Time: 5pm
Price: SGD 10 (free seating)
Would say a concert not to be missed coz I am performing again... haha okok bhb, but honestly a good concert (I hope). Looking forward to performing again, and hope to see u there... Muackz...
Monday, January 01, 2007
Welcome 2007!!!
Helo one and all!!! First of all, I would just like to wish everyone a HAPPY 2007 ahead! May all your new year resolutions be accomplished this new year!!!
Anyway, yesterday was alot of fun I must say. Needed to settle somethings at home initally, and was thinking of meeting the gang only in the evening for steamboat and all. But as i finished my stuff earlier, and the gang decided to meet up a little later than expected, we met at 3, and for some reason they are late, and they were dame worried I am angry can! haha ok sure, I dun like late-comers or people that cannot keep to time, but I suppose good weather and the fact that its the eve to a new year kept my spirit alright. Met up with the gang (Trisa, Karen, Pei yi, Tommy, Xiu and Jun Hong) for a little KTV session. And after that, we head off to Bugis for some Mala huo guo. Jac (together with Gwen and Keenan) and Herbert joined us. Food was fantastic, and we all left with a satisfied look on our face. Next we headed off to the bay to catch the fireworks. Singaporeans are really crazy when it comes to this kinda thing man. 10 mins of fireworks and the place is packed to the max. Honestly, I don't feel its worth it... hehez.. After that, I was in the "party" mood, but its soon dull off due to the unusual flow of people, kinda dampen the mood. We sat about boat quay for awhile before deciding to head over to Jac place to continue this "party". When we got the her place, we got the booze flowing and it was dame fast. We finished a liter of volka in like 1 hr... haha crazy isn't it? haha all thx to me and my recommendation of INDIAN POKER!!! hehe... we also had another bottle of gin, which didn't lasted too long either, but still managed to keep flowing till the wee hours in the morning (with only me and keenan left standing, haha) The rest got dead drunk, dun blame them, i guess they are not used to taking in that much of alcohol. Well, after almost everyone got drunk, things got a little emotional, there were quite abit of tears for the ladies. Good to let out their feelings once and for all i suppose. Then, I had to take up the task of "nursing", escorting the drunk to the toilet as they puke their guts out... haha, and yes its all through the night. I had to clear the mess as well (haha someone have got to do the dirty work i suppose.) Left in the morning when things kinda in control.
Today, the moment i woke up, its was hydrating all the way man... haha, down water like nobody's business. Took the entire day to rid whatever left in my system. Hehe, i suppose my birthday party have once again bring up my level or tolerance on alcohol. But definately destroyed my stamina man. Went running and was back to my panting days (when I am fat).
So thats pretty much how my New Year Eve went. Fireworks, Booze, Laughter, Tears, Puke but hell lotsa fun... hehez. As for resolutions for the New Year, nothing much have change for me in the past years but here they are anyway... hehez....
* Good Health for my family and friends
* LOSE WEIGHT : Trying to get my ideal weight in a month and maintain from there.
* Get a Job that can pay for my shopping
* Find that special someone...
Thats all i can think for now... hehez... the last one haven't change for many years already. Kinda losing hope on it... but hey, as they say, love is strange, the more u look for it, the more u cannot find it. But once u stop looking, it comes knocking at ur doorstep. So I am taking things easy lah... hehez. TAKE CARE PPLE and have a great year ahead of you!!! 363 days to go!!!
Anyway, yesterday was alot of fun I must say. Needed to settle somethings at home initally, and was thinking of meeting the gang only in the evening for steamboat and all. But as i finished my stuff earlier, and the gang decided to meet up a little later than expected, we met at 3, and for some reason they are late, and they were dame worried I am angry can! haha ok sure, I dun like late-comers or people that cannot keep to time, but I suppose good weather and the fact that its the eve to a new year kept my spirit alright. Met up with the gang (Trisa, Karen, Pei yi, Tommy, Xiu and Jun Hong) for a little KTV session. And after that, we head off to Bugis for some Mala huo guo. Jac (together with Gwen and Keenan) and Herbert joined us. Food was fantastic, and we all left with a satisfied look on our face. Next we headed off to the bay to catch the fireworks. Singaporeans are really crazy when it comes to this kinda thing man. 10 mins of fireworks and the place is packed to the max. Honestly, I don't feel its worth it... hehez.. After that, I was in the "party" mood, but its soon dull off due to the unusual flow of people, kinda dampen the mood. We sat about boat quay for awhile before deciding to head over to Jac place to continue this "party". When we got the her place, we got the booze flowing and it was dame fast. We finished a liter of volka in like 1 hr... haha crazy isn't it? haha all thx to me and my recommendation of INDIAN POKER!!! hehe... we also had another bottle of gin, which didn't lasted too long either, but still managed to keep flowing till the wee hours in the morning (with only me and keenan left standing, haha) The rest got dead drunk, dun blame them, i guess they are not used to taking in that much of alcohol. Well, after almost everyone got drunk, things got a little emotional, there were quite abit of tears for the ladies. Good to let out their feelings once and for all i suppose. Then, I had to take up the task of "nursing", escorting the drunk to the toilet as they puke their guts out... haha, and yes its all through the night. I had to clear the mess as well (haha someone have got to do the dirty work i suppose.) Left in the morning when things kinda in control.
Today, the moment i woke up, its was hydrating all the way man... haha, down water like nobody's business. Took the entire day to rid whatever left in my system. Hehe, i suppose my birthday party have once again bring up my level or tolerance on alcohol. But definately destroyed my stamina man. Went running and was back to my panting days (when I am fat).
So thats pretty much how my New Year Eve went. Fireworks, Booze, Laughter, Tears, Puke but hell lotsa fun... hehez. As for resolutions for the New Year, nothing much have change for me in the past years but here they are anyway... hehez....
* Good Health for my family and friends
* LOSE WEIGHT : Trying to get my ideal weight in a month and maintain from there.
* Get a Job that can pay for my shopping
* Find that special someone...
Thats all i can think for now... hehez... the last one haven't change for many years already. Kinda losing hope on it... but hey, as they say, love is strange, the more u look for it, the more u cannot find it. But once u stop looking, it comes knocking at ur doorstep. So I am taking things easy lah... hehez. TAKE CARE PPLE and have a great year ahead of you!!! 363 days to go!!!
Saturday, December 30, 2006
2007.... looking ahead!!!
It happened again... after 2 years, many times have it almost happened, 2 days ago... its finally did... My shoulder dislocated again....
Thursday, wet wet day, have a bad hunch that something will go wrong, rainy weather always make me tink that way. But bordem bought over me, and headed out for muay thai training. Got there to the carpark (spot that we train when it rains). Did skipping and push up to warm up, felt weirdly humid in that spot. Everything was fine, and even got to learn something new, sparring, literally fighting an opponent, but not with full force. At first was with legs, I was fortunate to pair with Gary, a friend that is very friendly in all aspect. But an unexpected collision of knees left him sitting out since he had knee problem. Then we were told to put on gloves, thats when the fun really start, as i was paired with Alvin, the coach. He have many time asked if I am interested to fight in a competition, but as i wasn't sure, i have not gave him an answer. But that night, he seemed all fired up to see the amount of pain i can endure. Thou his punches to the face is slightly lighter, but those 2 the ribs and all seem pretty powerful, many a times knocking the air out of my lungs. Me on the other end, really didn't dare fought back, didn't even hit with full force. and there is definately a level of control i exercise. Many a time he asked me to hit him and i would tapped him. We "fought" for so long, so much so, everyone else are already sitting there watching us fight. As the intensity rises so did the strenght of the punches. Thats when the accident happen, was giving him a right hook, which i guess i extended to far, worse was i missed, so my shoulder flung and I immediately could feel my shoulder out of the socket. Thats when I told Alvin my hand dropped out... Initally Alvin tried putting it back, but it didn't work, so the rest just help me out of my gloves, hand wraps and stuff. Alvin recommended his fren, a chinese sinseh, to help me relocate my hand, but from past experience, i know that won't work, so I ask Gary, who was so kind, to drive me to TTS instead. The procedure was faster den I thought. By 11 I am all relocated and was back home. Did inform my mum, who was worried sick when i broke the news to her, Sorry Mum. She recommended me to do an operation, but i didn't wan as the recovery is gonna take a long time. Still considering thou.
Yesterday, watched "The Holiday" with Sherine at suntec. Is not too bad a show, not that I am gay or wat, but Judd Law is nice looking lah, the smile those eyes... OMG... haha, after that walked about, shopped abit before heading for band. Actually saw a pair of jeans at Guess going at 50 bucks, dame tempting, but didn't get in the end, Sherine said the pocket was weird... haha besides, i have too many pairs of jeans, i can always wait for the next sale... when i got money... hehez... Got dinner in school before heading to band prac, lao shi actually came down (which he usually doesn't, but i guess it too close to the concert) and the practise was tiring, but glad we went thro the repertiore.
Today, headed down to town to get my hair trimmed, didn't do a major cut, coz i told the person I am leaving it long, so she just trimmed bits here and there to make the "growing process" a smoother one. hehez. the was off to Topman, was determine to spend the voucher that my fren Azre got for me. Spent on a belt and a cap instead. Got the cap for Teohui, since its his birthday lah... hehe HAPPY BIRTHDAY MATE!!! hehez... after that head to band prac for more practise. Hmm, really not sure if we are ready, I mean regulars like me and andy, i would say we can more or less handle the pieces, but not sure about the rest. To be honest, there is alot of people that I think shouldn't play for the concern given the amount of practise they have attended, but I guess the decision is not up to me... besides I dun wan to be the "bad guy". So enough said. After band, I walked out of school ALONE, haha haven't done it in a long time, usuallywill be accompanied by many friends, so its pretty strange feeling... hehez, didn't have anywhere to go, so came home and loaded myself with carbs instead. Know i shouldn't be doing so, but i can't help it... was dame hungry. And with my arm, i cannot exercise, JIAT LAT MAN!!!
Tml, New years eve... really haven't got any plans, looking forward to go out, dun really wan to spend it at home, best if i can get myself dead drunk again... haha coz its will be the last time i drink before the coming year and i start working out again... So any plans call me k... hahaha Have a great new year in advance pple!!! LOVE RYAN
Thursday, wet wet day, have a bad hunch that something will go wrong, rainy weather always make me tink that way. But bordem bought over me, and headed out for muay thai training. Got there to the carpark (spot that we train when it rains). Did skipping and push up to warm up, felt weirdly humid in that spot. Everything was fine, and even got to learn something new, sparring, literally fighting an opponent, but not with full force. At first was with legs, I was fortunate to pair with Gary, a friend that is very friendly in all aspect. But an unexpected collision of knees left him sitting out since he had knee problem. Then we were told to put on gloves, thats when the fun really start, as i was paired with Alvin, the coach. He have many time asked if I am interested to fight in a competition, but as i wasn't sure, i have not gave him an answer. But that night, he seemed all fired up to see the amount of pain i can endure. Thou his punches to the face is slightly lighter, but those 2 the ribs and all seem pretty powerful, many a times knocking the air out of my lungs. Me on the other end, really didn't dare fought back, didn't even hit with full force. and there is definately a level of control i exercise. Many a time he asked me to hit him and i would tapped him. We "fought" for so long, so much so, everyone else are already sitting there watching us fight. As the intensity rises so did the strenght of the punches. Thats when the accident happen, was giving him a right hook, which i guess i extended to far, worse was i missed, so my shoulder flung and I immediately could feel my shoulder out of the socket. Thats when I told Alvin my hand dropped out... Initally Alvin tried putting it back, but it didn't work, so the rest just help me out of my gloves, hand wraps and stuff. Alvin recommended his fren, a chinese sinseh, to help me relocate my hand, but from past experience, i know that won't work, so I ask Gary, who was so kind, to drive me to TTS instead. The procedure was faster den I thought. By 11 I am all relocated and was back home. Did inform my mum, who was worried sick when i broke the news to her, Sorry Mum. She recommended me to do an operation, but i didn't wan as the recovery is gonna take a long time. Still considering thou.
Yesterday, watched "The Holiday" with Sherine at suntec. Is not too bad a show, not that I am gay or wat, but Judd Law is nice looking lah, the smile those eyes... OMG... haha, after that walked about, shopped abit before heading for band. Actually saw a pair of jeans at Guess going at 50 bucks, dame tempting, but didn't get in the end, Sherine said the pocket was weird... haha besides, i have too many pairs of jeans, i can always wait for the next sale... when i got money... hehez... Got dinner in school before heading to band prac, lao shi actually came down (which he usually doesn't, but i guess it too close to the concert) and the practise was tiring, but glad we went thro the repertiore.
Today, headed down to town to get my hair trimmed, didn't do a major cut, coz i told the person I am leaving it long, so she just trimmed bits here and there to make the "growing process" a smoother one. hehez. the was off to Topman, was determine to spend the voucher that my fren Azre got for me. Spent on a belt and a cap instead. Got the cap for Teohui, since its his birthday lah... hehe HAPPY BIRTHDAY MATE!!! hehez... after that head to band prac for more practise. Hmm, really not sure if we are ready, I mean regulars like me and andy, i would say we can more or less handle the pieces, but not sure about the rest. To be honest, there is alot of people that I think shouldn't play for the concern given the amount of practise they have attended, but I guess the decision is not up to me... besides I dun wan to be the "bad guy". So enough said. After band, I walked out of school ALONE, haha haven't done it in a long time, usuallywill be accompanied by many friends, so its pretty strange feeling... hehez, didn't have anywhere to go, so came home and loaded myself with carbs instead. Know i shouldn't be doing so, but i can't help it... was dame hungry. And with my arm, i cannot exercise, JIAT LAT MAN!!!
Tml, New years eve... really haven't got any plans, looking forward to go out, dun really wan to spend it at home, best if i can get myself dead drunk again... haha coz its will be the last time i drink before the coming year and i start working out again... So any plans call me k... hahaha Have a great new year in advance pple!!! LOVE RYAN
Wednesday, December 27, 2006
Movie Marathon!!!
Just got back from work an hour ago... dame tired can... haha was at work like 8 today, coz i couldn't make it yesterday resulting in having to work extra hard today... haha but it was worth it, since I went for a Movie Marathon yesterday!!! haha
Was up at 830 yesterday, was suppose to meet at 10 but was delayed due to the rain, so ended up meeting at 1130. Was on the dot, so waited awhile before Adeline showed up, then, met Wai Leng, outside the station. Apparently there was something wrong with her Starhub line and no call can get to her (SINGTEL RULZ!!! heez) . Anyway we got to cine, and bought our tix, started the day off with Curse of the Golden Flower. After we got the tix, we when to get lunch while waiting for Sherine, who was late as she got locked in her house AGAIN!!! hahaha... Anyway she arrived just in time for the movie. Would say its not too bad a movie, love the colours in the entire show, but well some inconsiderate people behind us have to narrate the story to her friend, so at some point of time in the movie, we got "live commentary" from behind (yes, it was THAT LOUD). whats worse, she mistaken the movie as a ktv lounge, haha after the movie, she sang along to the jay chow song, with her "beautiful" vocal *pukez... haha. We carried on with "Charlotte's Web", indeed a kid show, entertaining, but not really worth the money i would say, its because I read the book in my secondary school literture that I wanted to watch the movie. The geese looks dame FAKE can!!! but the storyline is still pretty accurate (based on memories from sec 2, i tink...hehez) . But as I said, its a kid show, so as expected, its like watching a horror film, anytime, an unexpected scream will get u jumping off ur chair. We ended the evening session with "Night in the Museum". Its not too bad, rather funny, thou the storyline is pretty shallow, but well if you just watch it as a comedy, it can sure tickle ur funny bone.
After all the movie, we went to Xin Wang Hong Kong Cafe for dinner, had pasta with pork chop for dinner, not too bad, guess i was feeling a little hungry. Then we were off to hereen to walk walk. Was being the devil in shopping again.. haha tried to psycho Wai Leng to get an adidas bag, haha it was pretty nice i must say. Then we went up to 4 skin to look for peili, haha becoming a routine that whenever we go herren, we are bound to visit peili. hehe... So happen that Sherine met her cousin fren, which in one look is GAY!!! haha and he dragged sherine one side, occasionally glancing at me... After we left, as expected, that guy was asking if I am Gay... HALO! Good dress sense doesn't make GAY CAN!!! haiz... but since I got it so often, I kinda got immued to it already. Then we headed off to Doby Ghaut where we took a train home... OMG and guess how "lucky" we are to meet a "fren" in the train station, we walked on after saying hi... Heez... fun day!
Today, got up 7ish, reached work at 8, thought there will be tonnes of work waiting for me. But hu knows. there wasn't, as a matter of fact, by mid day i was done with all the outstanding work, and was back to my brainless data entries... haha, knocked off on the dot man.. Tml and friday not working, but really looking forward to tml's Muay thai, missed yesterday coz of the marathon, ready to vent some steam on the pads man... haha.... might be meeting Sherine for The Holiday, a movie we say to watch since god knows when...haha Yay Movie again!! haha... Alright i guess thats all i hafta update den, gonna do some skipping downstairs... been doing minimum exercise and maximum eating lately, the killer combo to get me "back into shape" shape of my yester years that is... haha okok den Cheers!!!
Was up at 830 yesterday, was suppose to meet at 10 but was delayed due to the rain, so ended up meeting at 1130. Was on the dot, so waited awhile before Adeline showed up, then, met Wai Leng, outside the station. Apparently there was something wrong with her Starhub line and no call can get to her (SINGTEL RULZ!!! heez) . Anyway we got to cine, and bought our tix, started the day off with Curse of the Golden Flower. After we got the tix, we when to get lunch while waiting for Sherine, who was late as she got locked in her house AGAIN!!! hahaha... Anyway she arrived just in time for the movie. Would say its not too bad a movie, love the colours in the entire show, but well some inconsiderate people behind us have to narrate the story to her friend, so at some point of time in the movie, we got "live commentary" from behind (yes, it was THAT LOUD). whats worse, she mistaken the movie as a ktv lounge, haha after the movie, she sang along to the jay chow song, with her "beautiful" vocal *pukez... haha. We carried on with "Charlotte's Web", indeed a kid show, entertaining, but not really worth the money i would say, its because I read the book in my secondary school literture that I wanted to watch the movie. The geese looks dame FAKE can!!! but the storyline is still pretty accurate (based on memories from sec 2, i tink...hehez) . But as I said, its a kid show, so as expected, its like watching a horror film, anytime, an unexpected scream will get u jumping off ur chair. We ended the evening session with "Night in the Museum". Its not too bad, rather funny, thou the storyline is pretty shallow, but well if you just watch it as a comedy, it can sure tickle ur funny bone.
After all the movie, we went to Xin Wang Hong Kong Cafe for dinner, had pasta with pork chop for dinner, not too bad, guess i was feeling a little hungry. Then we were off to hereen to walk walk. Was being the devil in shopping again.. haha tried to psycho Wai Leng to get an adidas bag, haha it was pretty nice i must say. Then we went up to 4 skin to look for peili, haha becoming a routine that whenever we go herren, we are bound to visit peili. hehe... So happen that Sherine met her cousin fren, which in one look is GAY!!! haha and he dragged sherine one side, occasionally glancing at me... After we left, as expected, that guy was asking if I am Gay... HALO! Good dress sense doesn't make GAY CAN!!! haiz... but since I got it so often, I kinda got immued to it already. Then we headed off to Doby Ghaut where we took a train home... OMG and guess how "lucky" we are to meet a "fren" in the train station, we walked on after saying hi... Heez... fun day!
Today, got up 7ish, reached work at 8, thought there will be tonnes of work waiting for me. But hu knows. there wasn't, as a matter of fact, by mid day i was done with all the outstanding work, and was back to my brainless data entries... haha, knocked off on the dot man.. Tml and friday not working, but really looking forward to tml's Muay thai, missed yesterday coz of the marathon, ready to vent some steam on the pads man... haha.... might be meeting Sherine for The Holiday, a movie we say to watch since god knows when...haha Yay Movie again!! haha... Alright i guess thats all i hafta update den, gonna do some skipping downstairs... been doing minimum exercise and maximum eating lately, the killer combo to get me "back into shape" shape of my yester years that is... haha okok den Cheers!!!
Monday, December 25, 2006
Christmas!!! merry???
Merry Christmas everyone!!! hope everyone had a great time opening pressies and pigging out on all the christmas feast and desserts. As for me, christmas have been somewhat different for me this year, there is not fancy parties to attend and no gathering from any friends, just a very warm xmas eve spent at home with my parents, a bottle of red wine, and "Love Actually" on tv.
Just realised my blogging frequency is turning into a weekly thing, less frequent compared to last time. So sorry, its not that I have been busy, but just LAZY!!! haha. Anyway, let me just update on the happenings for my weekend. Friday, was suppose to met up with Sherine for movie, but as she got last min plans, it was cancelled, so i went to shop for my cousin & niece pressies instead. Afterwhich was gym at YCK before proceeding to band prac. The crowd was relatively small, and flute only had me and andy, but generally we sounded not too bad i must say.
Saturday, band practise was horrible, not musically, but technically, as lao shi played challenging song one after the other, and not once, but many times. Was totally drained after the session was over. Went for Sherine's party, the crowd was pretty good I must say, and thank god it didn't rain coz its open air. Help took quite a number of pictures (just being myself, camera whore) and since i didn't want to go home that early, i decided to stay and see what sherine and her gang of frens plans were after the party. We ended up singing Ktv in town. I feel so odd, as i was the only "outsider" from all her secondary school mates. but boy can they sing, all singing like semi pro. hehez... left the place at 4am, and as some left, the rest (including me) sat at long john sliver (cine) and chit chat while we waited for the first train/bus/and no more mid night charges. There is when I got to know more about her frens, and their secondary school life, etc, pretty nice bunch of pple i must say. Poor dylan, must have been dame tired, coz he was dozing off as the rest of us chat the night away. about 6, we got a cab home, initally sherine was suppose to rest over at peili's place before heading home, but ended up having breakfast with me, haha and we talk till about 8ish before heading home.
Yesterday, after i got home, showered, rest for about 1 1/2 hrs before going out again, this time to meet herbert for a little gym session. then we headed over to his place before heading to vivo to walk around. The place was damn packed man, people everywhere. We were there till about 9 plus before calling it a night and head home.
Home, opened a bottle of wine, and shared with my parents. My dad was having a craving for it too. haha. Watched love actually, was not too bad and before i realised, Christmas was here. Honestly, haven't spent christmas alone for a very long while, and there was alot of mixed feeling I got. Feelings that are very difficult to explain, so I got myself more to drink before calling it a night. Always works for me.... heez..
Today, slacked the day away, oh right not totally, went out for awhile and did some gadget hunting... haha was at herbert's place yesterday and saw their new tv... and was pretty affordable, so went to the same place and got myself one set too! haha! FREAKING BROKE now... but happy coz i am finally gonna get a home theater system. Whats best is its gonna be in my room!!! all of it... muhahaha here is a sample of how my lastest gadget is gonna look like, but not exactly the same model lah... hehez...
Nice right? haha, however its so popular that its out of stock, thus i have to wait till January 15 where new stock will come and they will deliver it to my place. haha so excited. As for the freebies, i would need to find time to drop by bencoolen to collect. Wee!!! now i really need a job to cover it liao.. OMG money money money!!! thats all I have for now... ciaoz...
Just realised my blogging frequency is turning into a weekly thing, less frequent compared to last time. So sorry, its not that I have been busy, but just LAZY!!! haha. Anyway, let me just update on the happenings for my weekend. Friday, was suppose to met up with Sherine for movie, but as she got last min plans, it was cancelled, so i went to shop for my cousin & niece pressies instead. Afterwhich was gym at YCK before proceeding to band prac. The crowd was relatively small, and flute only had me and andy, but generally we sounded not too bad i must say.
Saturday, band practise was horrible, not musically, but technically, as lao shi played challenging song one after the other, and not once, but many times. Was totally drained after the session was over. Went for Sherine's party, the crowd was pretty good I must say, and thank god it didn't rain coz its open air. Help took quite a number of pictures (just being myself, camera whore) and since i didn't want to go home that early, i decided to stay and see what sherine and her gang of frens plans were after the party. We ended up singing Ktv in town. I feel so odd, as i was the only "outsider" from all her secondary school mates. but boy can they sing, all singing like semi pro. hehez... left the place at 4am, and as some left, the rest (including me) sat at long john sliver (cine) and chit chat while we waited for the first train/bus/and no more mid night charges. There is when I got to know more about her frens, and their secondary school life, etc, pretty nice bunch of pple i must say. Poor dylan, must have been dame tired, coz he was dozing off as the rest of us chat the night away. about 6, we got a cab home, initally sherine was suppose to rest over at peili's place before heading home, but ended up having breakfast with me, haha and we talk till about 8ish before heading home.
Yesterday, after i got home, showered, rest for about 1 1/2 hrs before going out again, this time to meet herbert for a little gym session. then we headed over to his place before heading to vivo to walk around. The place was damn packed man, people everywhere. We were there till about 9 plus before calling it a night and head home.
Home, opened a bottle of wine, and shared with my parents. My dad was having a craving for it too. haha. Watched love actually, was not too bad and before i realised, Christmas was here. Honestly, haven't spent christmas alone for a very long while, and there was alot of mixed feeling I got. Feelings that are very difficult to explain, so I got myself more to drink before calling it a night. Always works for me.... heez..
Today, slacked the day away, oh right not totally, went out for awhile and did some gadget hunting... haha was at herbert's place yesterday and saw their new tv... and was pretty affordable, so went to the same place and got myself one set too! haha! FREAKING BROKE now... but happy coz i am finally gonna get a home theater system. Whats best is its gonna be in my room!!! all of it... muhahaha here is a sample of how my lastest gadget is gonna look like, but not exactly the same model lah... hehez...
Nice right? haha, however its so popular that its out of stock, thus i have to wait till January 15 where new stock will come and they will deliver it to my place. haha so excited. As for the freebies, i would need to find time to drop by bencoolen to collect. Wee!!! now i really need a job to cover it liao.. OMG money money money!!! thats all I have for now... ciaoz...Tuesday, December 19, 2006
Rain Rain Rain!!!
Its been raining since yesterday, pouring to be exact, and now its still drizzling outside. Perfect weather to be snoozing in bed. But here I am, starting work... Just realised its been awhile since I last blog. Guess the weather is making me really lazy. But well this is what that have been happening this past week.
Last Friday, didn't have to work, and was a gathering with my section, kind of an Xmas gathering to be exact. So got out of the house earlier as Wai leng and Sherine wanted to do some last min shopping. Well, I did want to go for blood donation that afternoon before meeting up with them. But as i found out, i cannot donate as i got my wisdom tooth extracted 2 months ago, and the SOP is that no blood donation for at least 3 mth after the operation. damn! super waste of my time going so early. Nevertheless, went walking about at PS waiting for the ladies. Met up with them at about 2, before heading into town to do abit of shopping. Meet up with Jasmine shortly, the ladies bought a number of things, but both Wai leng and Sherine ended up buying shoes as heels are giving them abit of a problem. Afterwhich, we headed on to Raffles City, where we all met up for dinner off at Season Reasons restaurant. The ambience and all is pretty nice, we got the little corner seat. Was suppose to be a cozy corner, but well honest, felt pretty odd. Guess the festive mood wasn't really in yet, this year's gathering didn't felt as good as last years. After dinner, we all had a drink off at TCC, got myself coffee as I forsee its gonna be a long night for myself. After that, the gang split and we headed to DXO for trisa's birthday. Was suppose to have a family gathering, but was cancelled in the end. Party was crazy, but we didn't manage to get the birthday girl drunk... haha well ladies night, but the ladies didn't drink as hard as i expected man... suggested opening a bottle, but since majority was ladies... i decided to keep the suggestion to myself. Left the place at about 4, was neither here nor there, so decide to not go home at all. Sherine, adeline, Wai leng and Karen, was kind enough to accompany me, they were all heading to Karen's at first. Thanks Ladies. We hang around boat quay, had alot of laugh just being crazy. About 6ish, we headed to Maxwell to have breakfast before heading back. Everyone was dead tired man. Reached home at about 8am, slp for 2 hours, before heading out to Azre's place to get some songs and for band pract after.
Saturday, band pract was fun. had dinner with the rest before heading home to rest. Turned in at about 11 pm.
Woke up at 10am the next morning and head for band prac. After band prac, had lunch with the gang before heading for KTV with karen, sasa and waileng. Was dame fun lah, we sang a few English songs (including 12 days of Christmas just for the fun of it)and really had plenty of fun. Got home at about 9pm.
Yesterday, nothing much happened. Went to the gym despite pouring rain. Been very reluctant in working out... Think I am falling back into the slp mode, like that time when I am on alot of vacation overseas. FESTIVE SEASONS!!! love them and hate them... good time for meeting up friends and getting FAT haiz... Oh well, thats pretty much how my past week have been. Its been pretty quiet this week so far, just hope it stays this way for awhile lah... hehez... Cheers!
Last Friday, didn't have to work, and was a gathering with my section, kind of an Xmas gathering to be exact. So got out of the house earlier as Wai leng and Sherine wanted to do some last min shopping. Well, I did want to go for blood donation that afternoon before meeting up with them. But as i found out, i cannot donate as i got my wisdom tooth extracted 2 months ago, and the SOP is that no blood donation for at least 3 mth after the operation. damn! super waste of my time going so early. Nevertheless, went walking about at PS waiting for the ladies. Met up with them at about 2, before heading into town to do abit of shopping. Meet up with Jasmine shortly, the ladies bought a number of things, but both Wai leng and Sherine ended up buying shoes as heels are giving them abit of a problem. Afterwhich, we headed on to Raffles City, where we all met up for dinner off at Season Reasons restaurant. The ambience and all is pretty nice, we got the little corner seat. Was suppose to be a cozy corner, but well honest, felt pretty odd. Guess the festive mood wasn't really in yet, this year's gathering didn't felt as good as last years. After dinner, we all had a drink off at TCC, got myself coffee as I forsee its gonna be a long night for myself. After that, the gang split and we headed to DXO for trisa's birthday. Was suppose to have a family gathering, but was cancelled in the end. Party was crazy, but we didn't manage to get the birthday girl drunk... haha well ladies night, but the ladies didn't drink as hard as i expected man... suggested opening a bottle, but since majority was ladies... i decided to keep the suggestion to myself. Left the place at about 4, was neither here nor there, so decide to not go home at all. Sherine, adeline, Wai leng and Karen, was kind enough to accompany me, they were all heading to Karen's at first. Thanks Ladies. We hang around boat quay, had alot of laugh just being crazy. About 6ish, we headed to Maxwell to have breakfast before heading back. Everyone was dead tired man. Reached home at about 8am, slp for 2 hours, before heading out to Azre's place to get some songs and for band pract after.
Saturday, band pract was fun. had dinner with the rest before heading home to rest. Turned in at about 11 pm.
Woke up at 10am the next morning and head for band prac. After band prac, had lunch with the gang before heading for KTV with karen, sasa and waileng. Was dame fun lah, we sang a few English songs (including 12 days of Christmas just for the fun of it)and really had plenty of fun. Got home at about 9pm.
Yesterday, nothing much happened. Went to the gym despite pouring rain. Been very reluctant in working out... Think I am falling back into the slp mode, like that time when I am on alot of vacation overseas. FESTIVE SEASONS!!! love them and hate them... good time for meeting up friends and getting FAT haiz... Oh well, thats pretty much how my past week have been. Its been pretty quiet this week so far, just hope it stays this way for awhile lah... hehez... Cheers!
Wednesday, December 13, 2006
Pretty smooth week so far!
Helo everyone, it is me, here to whine about everything about life again. Alright maybe not whine, B**** pehaps. heez... The week have been pretty alright for me thus far, other then money issues, I must say life is pretty smooth sailing, but hey, since when is my life no entangled in money issue. But one thing is for sure, I am slowly getting life before army back. Very thankful for it.
Recap on the past couple of days. Monday, caught the movie "Dejavu", with 2 lovely ladies, Sherine and Trisa after work, since we all work pretty nearby, that pretty much explains the trio lah. hehe... Anyway, the show was pretty now bad I must say, storyline is pretty straightforward, pretty much what the title says. shall not get into too much of a detail just in case you have not watch and is intending to catch it. Worth watch. Looking forward to many good movies to come!!! Tuesday, settle some billing problem then went for muay thai. The class was all male that day, felt pretty much like a boxing training camp. Muay thai is getting more and more interesting, at least I am enjoying every session of it, can't wait to go thailand and get my own set of gears!!! After that, was suppose to go home and finish up my packing, but met up with Yi Xin and Angie instead. Had my dinner, chat for awhile before calling it a night, Jayson was suppose to join us, but wasn't able to make it in the last min due to work, poor guy man, really slogging like a bull now. Got home, and did packing till my eyes can bearly stay open, den was off to bed.
Today, worked again, finish quite abit of it, should be abit to complete by next week ba, then what? holiday? haha i wish thou, but the thought of no income scares me. shall take a step at a time lah. Friday will be a fun filled day. My plan for the day i suppose will be blood donation first, was thinking of getting it done over the weekend, but then again, since I am already heading to town and its along the way, might as well get it done and over with. Then I suppose I will meet up with Sherine and Waileng first, coz the rest will be only meeting up in the evening. After that there is Trisa birthday, more drinking! OMG, not good at all man. I have been putting on weight, and its only mid of December, and with all the festive season coming up, damn! will definately go back to square 1 lah!!! *sob* pray hard and training hard whenever i can....
Oh yah, the post to the concert is ready, to all those that haven't got my email, probably because I don't, here it is.
Recap on the past couple of days. Monday, caught the movie "Dejavu", with 2 lovely ladies, Sherine and Trisa after work, since we all work pretty nearby, that pretty much explains the trio lah. hehe... Anyway, the show was pretty now bad I must say, storyline is pretty straightforward, pretty much what the title says. shall not get into too much of a detail just in case you have not watch and is intending to catch it. Worth watch. Looking forward to many good movies to come!!! Tuesday, settle some billing problem then went for muay thai. The class was all male that day, felt pretty much like a boxing training camp. Muay thai is getting more and more interesting, at least I am enjoying every session of it, can't wait to go thailand and get my own set of gears!!! After that, was suppose to go home and finish up my packing, but met up with Yi Xin and Angie instead. Had my dinner, chat for awhile before calling it a night, Jayson was suppose to join us, but wasn't able to make it in the last min due to work, poor guy man, really slogging like a bull now. Got home, and did packing till my eyes can bearly stay open, den was off to bed.
Today, worked again, finish quite abit of it, should be abit to complete by next week ba, then what? holiday? haha i wish thou, but the thought of no income scares me. shall take a step at a time lah. Friday will be a fun filled day. My plan for the day i suppose will be blood donation first, was thinking of getting it done over the weekend, but then again, since I am already heading to town and its along the way, might as well get it done and over with. Then I suppose I will meet up with Sherine and Waileng first, coz the rest will be only meeting up in the evening. After that there is Trisa birthday, more drinking! OMG, not good at all man. I have been putting on weight, and its only mid of December, and with all the festive season coming up, damn! will definately go back to square 1 lah!!! *sob* pray hard and training hard whenever i can....
Oh yah, the post to the concert is ready, to all those that haven't got my email, probably because I don't, here it is.
Date: 7th January 2007, Sunday
Venue: Victoria Concert Hall
Time : 5pm
Price: SGD 10 (free seating)
Please come and suppose k! its my first concert after a year or more not touching flute. Some must be wondering, I just got out of SAF band so what am I talking about right. Well, the truth is, I have been playing the bass drum for my final year in army, so my chances of playing the flute was ZERO for the year... that explains why i am so keen on this concert. My flute revivial concert man... hehez come support k...
Alright, thats all for me for now... shall update more about the weekend to come... when I got the time that is. For now, Ciaoz!!!
Venue: Victoria Concert Hall
Time : 5pm
Price: SGD 10 (free seating)
Please come and suppose k! its my first concert after a year or more not touching flute. Some must be wondering, I just got out of SAF band so what am I talking about right. Well, the truth is, I have been playing the bass drum for my final year in army, so my chances of playing the flute was ZERO for the year... that explains why i am so keen on this concert. My flute revivial concert man... hehez come support k...
Alright, thats all for me for now... shall update more about the weekend to come... when I got the time that is. For now, Ciaoz!!!
Monday, December 11, 2006
Birthday filled weekend...
These few weekends are going to be birthday filled, last week was Tommy's, coming is Trisa's and the following is Sherine's. Looking forward to them but my schedule is pretty packed too.. so hafta really see how things goes. Now recap on the pass few days.
Friday, the ever so fortunate me, met up with 4 pretty ladies (Jacqeline, Sherine, Trisa and Karen - name in no particular order FYI =P) after work to do a little shopping for Tommy's pressie. Xiu was suppose to meet us, but didn't in the end as she had OT. Anyway, we looked at the new GAP off at Wistma, not too bad, the things are alright i must say. Then just walked around town before deciding to dine at Ding Tai Feng, Wistma. Waited dame long as the queue was bloody long, lucky the food was worth the wait. After that we head on to hereen and cine for more shopping, and the girls obviously cannot resist the temptation and ended up buying things for themselves too. Oh yah, went in to Jean Perrie at Hereen, a shop I promised myself never to stepped into ever again (last time), got a top from there for ah tom, was really reluctant to go in there but under that circumstances and time, there wasn't much of a choice left. The staff there sure are a bunch of desperate guys, haha, never seen such good customer service before, I am sure the credit goes to my "girlfriends". When it got late, the girls called it a night while i join Jayson and angie at Ice cold for a beer, got introduced to Jessica, a pretty bubbly and dame Singaporean girl. hehez. Yi Xin join us later, sat down and chat, as usual Jessica was suprised when he know my age, I LOOK OLD, yes i admit... Well can tell that the both of them was dame tired from work so we called it a night at about 2ish.
Saturday, got up, settled some stuff before heading to band prac... band practice was fun man. Andy Koh was there and so was many NTU people, making our section the strongest for the day. Anneson and Tong Ho came down slightly later increasing the strength of our section. Hehez, it feels good to be playing among good players. After band prac, loitered around the band room for awhile before heading to ah tom birthday bash! We were among the first few to be there, and since I was in a "party" mood, got kinda carried away with my actions at times, haha really no image already. Can feel pairs of eyes constantly looking at me, but did nothing about it. Glad Ah tom like our pressie, guess its bye bye to that old bag of his? haha hopefully, if not our plan of revamping ah tom won't work. After that, they went on to club while i head off to Holland Village to meet up with Lisa and gang. There wasn't many left when I got there (not suprised considering i got there about 12ish). Got introduced to some of her frens, her brother and her BF. Moved over from Wala to Baden for another drink before call it a night. Hitch a ride home on Lisa BF car, he was kind enough to give everyone a ride back, thx man.
Sunday, got up and head to band. Band size was pretty decent, not as big as sat but better than last sunday. After practise had lunch with Zhi Sheng, Andy and Fong Cheng at Sumo House again. After that, met up with Azre in town for a little shopping. He gave me a treat, kinda belated birthday lunch, and i treated him dessert later in the night before we call it a night. I enjoys his company, but the attention that we gets kind of bothers me abit...haha, all the "woo, a couple" look.. haha EWww... hehe. but its really fun to do shopping never the least.
And that sums up my weekend, enjoy the week to come and will try to update when i have the time den. Cheers!
Friday, the ever so fortunate me, met up with 4 pretty ladies (Jacqeline, Sherine, Trisa and Karen - name in no particular order FYI =P) after work to do a little shopping for Tommy's pressie. Xiu was suppose to meet us, but didn't in the end as she had OT. Anyway, we looked at the new GAP off at Wistma, not too bad, the things are alright i must say. Then just walked around town before deciding to dine at Ding Tai Feng, Wistma. Waited dame long as the queue was bloody long, lucky the food was worth the wait. After that we head on to hereen and cine for more shopping, and the girls obviously cannot resist the temptation and ended up buying things for themselves too. Oh yah, went in to Jean Perrie at Hereen, a shop I promised myself never to stepped into ever again (last time), got a top from there for ah tom, was really reluctant to go in there but under that circumstances and time, there wasn't much of a choice left. The staff there sure are a bunch of desperate guys, haha, never seen such good customer service before, I am sure the credit goes to my "girlfriends". When it got late, the girls called it a night while i join Jayson and angie at Ice cold for a beer, got introduced to Jessica, a pretty bubbly and dame Singaporean girl. hehez. Yi Xin join us later, sat down and chat, as usual Jessica was suprised when he know my age, I LOOK OLD, yes i admit... Well can tell that the both of them was dame tired from work so we called it a night at about 2ish.
Saturday, got up, settled some stuff before heading to band prac... band practice was fun man. Andy Koh was there and so was many NTU people, making our section the strongest for the day. Anneson and Tong Ho came down slightly later increasing the strength of our section. Hehez, it feels good to be playing among good players. After band prac, loitered around the band room for awhile before heading to ah tom birthday bash! We were among the first few to be there, and since I was in a "party" mood, got kinda carried away with my actions at times, haha really no image already. Can feel pairs of eyes constantly looking at me, but did nothing about it. Glad Ah tom like our pressie, guess its bye bye to that old bag of his? haha hopefully, if not our plan of revamping ah tom won't work. After that, they went on to club while i head off to Holland Village to meet up with Lisa and gang. There wasn't many left when I got there (not suprised considering i got there about 12ish). Got introduced to some of her frens, her brother and her BF. Moved over from Wala to Baden for another drink before call it a night. Hitch a ride home on Lisa BF car, he was kind enough to give everyone a ride back, thx man.
Sunday, got up and head to band. Band size was pretty decent, not as big as sat but better than last sunday. After practise had lunch with Zhi Sheng, Andy and Fong Cheng at Sumo House again. After that, met up with Azre in town for a little shopping. He gave me a treat, kinda belated birthday lunch, and i treated him dessert later in the night before we call it a night. I enjoys his company, but the attention that we gets kind of bothers me abit...haha, all the "woo, a couple" look.. haha EWww... hehe. but its really fun to do shopping never the least.
And that sums up my weekend, enjoy the week to come and will try to update when i have the time den. Cheers!
Friday, December 08, 2006
Weekend... lifeless???
Last time, weekend is all about Dragonboat, and I always look forward to it... now its about band, and I too look forward to it, just not as enthu to it as compared to DB. So many things are happening now that the year is coming to an end. Shops have extended their shopping hours to cater to pre Christmas shopping. And good news to tai tais out there, Club 21 shops are having sale. Branded goods like Gucci, YSL and Furla are also having sale. so happy shopping pple!!!
Yesterday was a very sucky day man, sudden depression almost killed me lah... abit better today, maybe cause it the weekend and last night did workout to vent out the fustration within. spent an hour skipping and practising my muay thai moves. Was really got workout, coz I was worn out man... by far the best workout I have in awhile, since Hellweek sprinting day i suppose.
Today, after work will be meeting up with a few pretty ladies to do shopping in town, as usual it will be window shopping for me as I have not done any packing up at home year, not to mention still haven't got the list that i wan to shop.
Tml will be band followed by a couple of party to attend. First will be Ah Tom's 21st, den will be Lisa 21st, its at Wala wala, a place with lots of memories... haha those that are there will know only. so yeah guess i won't have much time to blog tml. Anyway, sunday should be going to do some shopping after band prac too, see if there is any kakis... and that pretty much settles my weekend... No dragonboat and thats how life goes... I am getting fairer, not a good sign at all.. so tanning anyone? hehez... Cheers
Yesterday was a very sucky day man, sudden depression almost killed me lah... abit better today, maybe cause it the weekend and last night did workout to vent out the fustration within. spent an hour skipping and practising my muay thai moves. Was really got workout, coz I was worn out man... by far the best workout I have in awhile, since Hellweek sprinting day i suppose.
Today, after work will be meeting up with a few pretty ladies to do shopping in town, as usual it will be window shopping for me as I have not done any packing up at home year, not to mention still haven't got the list that i wan to shop.
Tml will be band followed by a couple of party to attend. First will be Ah Tom's 21st, den will be Lisa 21st, its at Wala wala, a place with lots of memories... haha those that are there will know only. so yeah guess i won't have much time to blog tml. Anyway, sunday should be going to do some shopping after band prac too, see if there is any kakis... and that pretty much settles my weekend... No dragonboat and thats how life goes... I am getting fairer, not a good sign at all.. so tanning anyone? hehez... Cheers
Thursday, December 07, 2006
Time for isolation!!! feeling sucky!!!
Not sure if the gloomy weather at the end of the year is affecting my mood, but all I can say its bad with a capital B!!! and the worse of all is I haven't the idea whats causing it!!! I haven't had this feeling since the period of time after my sister left... The feeling is so aweful, I don't like, please make it go away.... someone help!!!
I am in a state whereby I lost all interest in things about my surronding, be it friends, family, whatever! Just sick and tired of life in general! No idea what is causing it. Yesterday was chatting with angie online about all the up coming parties coming up. The more I talked about it, the more turned-off I got, I am even starting to lose interest in celebrating Xmas and New year already! Whats happening to me? I really wonder?
But one thing never really got affected, which I am glad, is gyming and training, the passion for it have weaken abit after my bday, but not totally gone yet. But now that I have stopped going for dragonboat temporary, weekend seems somewhat more dull. Not that I am not enjoying playing music, its just that, the feeling is of a different class of its own.
Was heading out of the house today, forget so many things, worse was my contact lenses, actually forgotten to put them on, only realised after I touched my specs. My mum even can sense that I have loads to worry, which I replied with a smile, nothing else. For the fact I am not sure what I am worry about worries me...
Izit girlfriend issue? have I been alone for too long that i am desperate for some love? or izzit money issue? Am i really such a miser army have trained me to be with that pathetic pay? or what izit? this question are revolving around my head now, making me very confused about life and all. Where am I heading? is there a clear path ahead? all I see now is a misty path, and i cannot even see the end of the road. Am I head to a cliff? or to paradise? Strangely when people encounter such problem, I usually can provide a sensible solution to try and help them. Now when I am in such problem, I wonder where all my solutions have gone to. I guess is true when they say the greatest healer can heal everyone but himself.
I maybe going into personal isolation for a few weeks just to sort out myself. Thus, if you cannot find me, or if I can't make it for gatherings and all, please forgive me. I would love to go on a trip now, but no place for me to head to now. Hopefully time can sort out everything for me. VEXED!!!
I am in a state whereby I lost all interest in things about my surronding, be it friends, family, whatever! Just sick and tired of life in general! No idea what is causing it. Yesterday was chatting with angie online about all the up coming parties coming up. The more I talked about it, the more turned-off I got, I am even starting to lose interest in celebrating Xmas and New year already! Whats happening to me? I really wonder?
But one thing never really got affected, which I am glad, is gyming and training, the passion for it have weaken abit after my bday, but not totally gone yet. But now that I have stopped going for dragonboat temporary, weekend seems somewhat more dull. Not that I am not enjoying playing music, its just that, the feeling is of a different class of its own.
Was heading out of the house today, forget so many things, worse was my contact lenses, actually forgotten to put them on, only realised after I touched my specs. My mum even can sense that I have loads to worry, which I replied with a smile, nothing else. For the fact I am not sure what I am worry about worries me...
Izit girlfriend issue? have I been alone for too long that i am desperate for some love? or izzit money issue? Am i really such a miser army have trained me to be with that pathetic pay? or what izit? this question are revolving around my head now, making me very confused about life and all. Where am I heading? is there a clear path ahead? all I see now is a misty path, and i cannot even see the end of the road. Am I head to a cliff? or to paradise? Strangely when people encounter such problem, I usually can provide a sensible solution to try and help them. Now when I am in such problem, I wonder where all my solutions have gone to. I guess is true when they say the greatest healer can heal everyone but himself.
I maybe going into personal isolation for a few weeks just to sort out myself. Thus, if you cannot find me, or if I can't make it for gatherings and all, please forgive me. I would love to go on a trip now, but no place for me to head to now. Hopefully time can sort out everything for me. VEXED!!!
Wednesday, December 06, 2006
Mid week well spent!
For once I didn't waste my day at home doing nothing all day, did plenty of packing up, since the year is coming to a close, I reckon there is bound to be things to be dumped away, and indeed there is plenty, now the place look more decent, and the good news is, I have not even started on my waredrobe yet. That is a major project that requires an entire day to do so man... and when those unwanted clothes are dumped... then is MORE SHOPPING!!! woo hoo...
Need to find a good tailor to alter all my shirt i bought last time, way oversized for me... any good recommendation? anyone? cheap and good prefered, hehez, me being a typical singaporean. Anyway, yesterday was my 9th lessson of Muay thai, haha finally over the "beginner" phrase (first 8 lessons). Not that there is any advancement, but well at least my technique is improving. Let me recap more about yesterday before I start talking about muay thai again. Yesterday, met up with Jacqueline in town to do some shopping, met her at Paragon after she get her brows nicely trimmed. She had a list of item to buy, so we went around places "hunting" those item down... Haha okok maybe hunting seems like a little overboard, well, looking around, doing the routine window shopping. Me on the other hand, was looking for my blue top. After scouting through paragon, we went on to taka, and looked for Carol at her workplace. The place was super packed can, wonder where all this people get all the money to buy all the things in there.. haha DAMN EX LAH!!! after that was more shopping and getting my top (FINALLY!!!), before we settle at a Hong Kong cafe in the basement of taka for a light meal. After that, Jac was off for her little movie session with her frens and a bunch of her kids, it was pouring elephants and hippo man, and thx to my laziness, there was an umbrella in my bag. So I walked Jac to the bus stop, gave her the brolly and make my way back to Wistma, had to dry off before doing more window shopping. Managed to get to hereen, half drenched that is, met Peili at her workplace and finally got "GONG" from her, yayz something to do during my free time liao!!! She was kinda poor thing, so many things to do, so many responsibilities... but hey that is part and parcel of promotion i suppose... hehez.. Gambate neh!!!
Then after was off to Muay Thai practise. As it was pouring, we had it in the carpark, and boy was it humid man. The air was so dense, I had difficulty catching my breathe, it was horrible. Began the session with light skipping for about 5 mins. Then did a couple of rounds with Alvin, and when the crowd starts coming in. we practise different kneeing methods and taking blows, etc. Was very fun. As the lesson was about to come to an end, got a chance for another round of pad work with alvin. Must say it was intensive man, there is no break, blows after blows, and i can tell Alvin was all fired up, and so was I. Punctured when we were reaching the end, and was nearly breathless man by the time I was done... Took awhile before I can regain my proper breathing and all. After that was dinner with gary and ginny, before heading back home.
Today, spent sometime packing my room, cleared alot of old things, bills dated 2 years ago and all... haha no wonder my room was in a mess. Well in the mess there was some "treasures" too, photos of my old self. The yesterday ryan, and when i see them, boy do they bring out my memory man... After all the packing, went to the gym to do some weights, before retiring home for a good dinner... Tml will be working, kinda tried to work after so many days rest, but hey no work no income, no income means no SHOPPING man!!! so yah... hehez.. Anyway, thats about it, Packed weekend all the way for the month of December!!! scary man... a part of me wish that it passes really quickly, another hope that 2006 dun come to an end yet, as I am still far from my target, and mission... hehez... Alright, thats all for now... will blog again real soon... Cheers!
Need to find a good tailor to alter all my shirt i bought last time, way oversized for me... any good recommendation? anyone? cheap and good prefered, hehez, me being a typical singaporean. Anyway, yesterday was my 9th lessson of Muay thai, haha finally over the "beginner" phrase (first 8 lessons). Not that there is any advancement, but well at least my technique is improving. Let me recap more about yesterday before I start talking about muay thai again. Yesterday, met up with Jacqueline in town to do some shopping, met her at Paragon after she get her brows nicely trimmed. She had a list of item to buy, so we went around places "hunting" those item down... Haha okok maybe hunting seems like a little overboard, well, looking around, doing the routine window shopping. Me on the other hand, was looking for my blue top. After scouting through paragon, we went on to taka, and looked for Carol at her workplace. The place was super packed can, wonder where all this people get all the money to buy all the things in there.. haha DAMN EX LAH!!! after that was more shopping and getting my top (FINALLY!!!), before we settle at a Hong Kong cafe in the basement of taka for a light meal. After that, Jac was off for her little movie session with her frens and a bunch of her kids, it was pouring elephants and hippo man, and thx to my laziness, there was an umbrella in my bag. So I walked Jac to the bus stop, gave her the brolly and make my way back to Wistma, had to dry off before doing more window shopping. Managed to get to hereen, half drenched that is, met Peili at her workplace and finally got "GONG" from her, yayz something to do during my free time liao!!! She was kinda poor thing, so many things to do, so many responsibilities... but hey that is part and parcel of promotion i suppose... hehez.. Gambate neh!!!
Then after was off to Muay Thai practise. As it was pouring, we had it in the carpark, and boy was it humid man. The air was so dense, I had difficulty catching my breathe, it was horrible. Began the session with light skipping for about 5 mins. Then did a couple of rounds with Alvin, and when the crowd starts coming in. we practise different kneeing methods and taking blows, etc. Was very fun. As the lesson was about to come to an end, got a chance for another round of pad work with alvin. Must say it was intensive man, there is no break, blows after blows, and i can tell Alvin was all fired up, and so was I. Punctured when we were reaching the end, and was nearly breathless man by the time I was done... Took awhile before I can regain my proper breathing and all. After that was dinner with gary and ginny, before heading back home.
Today, spent sometime packing my room, cleared alot of old things, bills dated 2 years ago and all... haha no wonder my room was in a mess. Well in the mess there was some "treasures" too, photos of my old self. The yesterday ryan, and when i see them, boy do they bring out my memory man... After all the packing, went to the gym to do some weights, before retiring home for a good dinner... Tml will be working, kinda tried to work after so many days rest, but hey no work no income, no income means no SHOPPING man!!! so yah... hehez.. Anyway, thats about it, Packed weekend all the way for the month of December!!! scary man... a part of me wish that it passes really quickly, another hope that 2006 dun come to an end yet, as I am still far from my target, and mission... hehez... Alright, thats all for now... will blog again real soon... Cheers!
Tuesday, December 05, 2006
Photos to share!!!
Just realised I haven't been blogging for a long while, ever since the day before i turned 22, and also tonnes of photos not shared with my frens... haha but here they are... on my big day!!!
After the cake cutting, pretty much everything else that happens after is a blur, till today, alot of stuff my fren told me i do, i still didn't believe i did it... haha... But was a smashing day lah... getting f**k drunk is fun... but the hangover is a killer thou... so yah... more parties to come by... coz its the end of the year!!! woo hoo!!!
After the cake cutting, pretty much everything else that happens after is a blur, till today, alot of stuff my fren told me i do, i still didn't believe i did it... haha... But was a smashing day lah... getting f**k drunk is fun... but the hangover is a killer thou... so yah... more parties to come by... coz its the end of the year!!! woo hoo!!!
Thursday, November 30, 2006
The day...not quite there yet...
This week have passed really fast, its already thursday! Tml will be the big day!!! haha know it happens every year, but still it only comes once in a year and that still makes me excited.
Today, took leave from work (for today and tml) just to get enough rest, but was already up by 9+, and wanted to snooze but just couldn't so i figured i better get out of bed as i can feel a headache coming on. Have my day pretty much planned out for me. Will be heading to gym, then down to gardens to rackee the place for tml, and den off to town, do somemore window shopping and movie with my muay thai mates!!! hehe watching HAPPY FEET haha the most talked movie for now... so yeah. that will pretty much be my day...
Past few days have been pretty much calm, have been in office doing my work. The only little drama i suppose was at gym on monday, this guy I think for a moment was going into a stroke, then shortly recovered, very scary... Luckly, he is alright, saw him yesterday at gym again. Reckon he should rest for awhile, but I understand his devotion lah, aren't I also in the same "Gym is life" theory. haha Alright i guess that for now... will head to gym later in the afternoon.. meanwhile take care all... and have a great weekend ahead... 2 more days TAHAN!!!
Today, took leave from work (for today and tml) just to get enough rest, but was already up by 9+, and wanted to snooze but just couldn't so i figured i better get out of bed as i can feel a headache coming on. Have my day pretty much planned out for me. Will be heading to gym, then down to gardens to rackee the place for tml, and den off to town, do somemore window shopping and movie with my muay thai mates!!! hehe watching HAPPY FEET haha the most talked movie for now... so yeah. that will pretty much be my day...
Past few days have been pretty much calm, have been in office doing my work. The only little drama i suppose was at gym on monday, this guy I think for a moment was going into a stroke, then shortly recovered, very scary... Luckly, he is alright, saw him yesterday at gym again. Reckon he should rest for awhile, but I understand his devotion lah, aren't I also in the same "Gym is life" theory. haha Alright i guess that for now... will head to gym later in the afternoon.. meanwhile take care all... and have a great weekend ahead... 2 more days TAHAN!!!
Tuesday, November 28, 2006
3 More days!!!
Its already tuesday, and things have not really been settled, argh what a rash move man... Now just dame worried it will not come true... and den its a malu situation man... *praying hard*. Just hope people turns up and have a good time.
Anyway, enough on that, just made me "older" by a few years worrying about that. Let me just briefly go through my pampered weekend. It started of at the beach with our paddle up to brewerks, but that was a disappointment as we weren't allowed access into the boat quay area as we didn't have the permit to do so. We have been doing this every past year and there wasn't a problem, with exception to this year. All thanks to the change in authorities. Anyway, we brought our disappointment back to the beach, and luckily we had some to drink there. Angie prepared a cake for me and everyone started singing happy birthday, and i knew what was coming after, a Down Down (a tradition of Aussies to finish a cup of beer at one shot, while they sing a song to go with it, of course the faster u drink the better.) and everyone had a fair share of the cake. Was thinking of going home after which as I had the 4-80 challenge the next day, but was pyschoed into going for the dragonfest, which eventually i did, and have a swell and really pampered time. And i had a great time taking many pictures, being the cam whore that I am. But as the night went, haha think fatique took over and with the booze, i became very slpy, sleeping on any flat platform i can find. Thank god angie gave me a ride home, think this is the 2nd time she saw this... haha feeling honored Angie? hehe... thx alot thou.
As expected, I missed the morning challenge, woke up at about 9ish, after washing up, had to start running errands for my mum. Then, met up with dawn, yi xin and jayson for some shopping in town. Ended up at vivocity, we had a pretty good time I must say. Then as they headed back home, I met up with herbert and navin to catch the Man U/ Chelsea match. Got home at about 2am and that pretty much sums up my weekend.
Today, got to see another ugly sight of Singaporean again. Was in the train, and this pregnant lady walked in, and had to stand because no one offered their seats. There is no wat u cannot tell she is pregnent as i guess she was already close to delievery, her tummy was pretty big already. Guess who offered a seat in the end, an old lady, should be in her 80s, at that point, I was really disappointed to be a Singaporean. I mean, ok the old lady was getting off thats why she offered her seat, but she offered it before the train have reached the destination, which means she still stands. when when we reach the station, then people start to stand and alight. I mean can't they just do it abit earlier, will standing a min kill them or something. I really don't understand where all the basic manners of all this people have gone to man. Most of them are older than I am, so no excuse on not being educated by all the "courtesy begins with me" campigns. ARGH is so fustrating to see this kinda thing man... Utterly disappointed.
Anyway, back to work, guess will be leaving office earlier to settle somethings, having cold war with my mum over a damn dumb issue. Shouldn't be an issue in the first place, but just dumb lor. haha Anyway back to work. Ciaoz. MUAY THAI TONITE YAYS!!!
Anyway, enough on that, just made me "older" by a few years worrying about that. Let me just briefly go through my pampered weekend. It started of at the beach with our paddle up to brewerks, but that was a disappointment as we weren't allowed access into the boat quay area as we didn't have the permit to do so. We have been doing this every past year and there wasn't a problem, with exception to this year. All thanks to the change in authorities. Anyway, we brought our disappointment back to the beach, and luckily we had some to drink there. Angie prepared a cake for me and everyone started singing happy birthday, and i knew what was coming after, a Down Down (a tradition of Aussies to finish a cup of beer at one shot, while they sing a song to go with it, of course the faster u drink the better.) and everyone had a fair share of the cake. Was thinking of going home after which as I had the 4-80 challenge the next day, but was pyschoed into going for the dragonfest, which eventually i did, and have a swell and really pampered time. And i had a great time taking many pictures, being the cam whore that I am. But as the night went, haha think fatique took over and with the booze, i became very slpy, sleeping on any flat platform i can find. Thank god angie gave me a ride home, think this is the 2nd time she saw this... haha feeling honored Angie? hehe... thx alot thou.
As expected, I missed the morning challenge, woke up at about 9ish, after washing up, had to start running errands for my mum. Then, met up with dawn, yi xin and jayson for some shopping in town. Ended up at vivocity, we had a pretty good time I must say. Then as they headed back home, I met up with herbert and navin to catch the Man U/ Chelsea match. Got home at about 2am and that pretty much sums up my weekend.
Today, got to see another ugly sight of Singaporean again. Was in the train, and this pregnant lady walked in, and had to stand because no one offered their seats. There is no wat u cannot tell she is pregnent as i guess she was already close to delievery, her tummy was pretty big already. Guess who offered a seat in the end, an old lady, should be in her 80s, at that point, I was really disappointed to be a Singaporean. I mean, ok the old lady was getting off thats why she offered her seat, but she offered it before the train have reached the destination, which means she still stands. when when we reach the station, then people start to stand and alight. I mean can't they just do it abit earlier, will standing a min kill them or something. I really don't understand where all the basic manners of all this people have gone to man. Most of them are older than I am, so no excuse on not being educated by all the "courtesy begins with me" campigns. ARGH is so fustrating to see this kinda thing man... Utterly disappointed.
Anyway, back to work, guess will be leaving office earlier to settle somethings, having cold war with my mum over a damn dumb issue. Shouldn't be an issue in the first place, but just dumb lor. haha Anyway back to work. Ciaoz. MUAY THAI TONITE YAYS!!!
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