Last of 2009, 365 More of 2010!!!

12 hours left of 2009.... please enjoy what's left and have an awesome 2010 ahead!!!

Holiday Mood

I am in a Holiday mood.....seriously.... super duper bored in office, not that I dun have things to do in office, just that I really dun feel like doing.... Today time is passing super duper extra slowly too... OMG OMG OMG!!!

Nothing much to share today probably just some pictures then...


Me and Trixy at J&J house warming/wedding bash.... can you believe i have been talking to this women GIRL online but this is like the 2nd time we actually met.... first was ages ago while she is still training!!! hahaha

This year Christmas gathering with my flute section. Its has been what....4 to 5 years running... so glad I managed to attend everyone and its always good to meet them =P.

Then another long time no meet up friend aka MODEL, Carol Lee. haha fantastic time... Congraz and a great year ahead k...!!!

hmm....thats all for today... plenty to settle today... a recent event woke me up and dragged me to reality. Really need to plan for 2010... Everything has been too Sunny, so much so that I have not prepare myself for rainy weather.. so yeah.....

TRAIN TRAIN TRAIN....SAVE SAVE SAVE~!~!~!

New Year Resolution!~!~!

Pondering what my 2010 is going to be like.... Kinda excited yet fearful....very mixed feeling I know. This kinda struck me while writing my Xmas and New Year wishes to my friends last week and also a comment by my fren, Trixy just now. She mentioned "Aiya, you blog always about working out....sibei Sian lor" (Haha) I know there is nothing wrong about sports and I am happy doing them, but it can't help but get me wondering is that the impression I give to others about me... HAHAH, I am not all no life guys... believe me =p HAHAHA i just try to enjoy moderately... really refusing to go back to my pang pang self...

Anyway, yeah, will have a good think about what I really do wish to achieve (apart from sports, which i am all excited about). Get featured again? Join ManHunt 2010? Fly? HAHAHA crazy thinking but hey....BRAINSTORMING K~!!~!~hahaha

Something never change thou, new year resolution that is renewed every year - Stay Happy, make sure those around me are happy, and be a better me... and of course good health to everyone.

okok enough of that, now to daily life.... well a couple of must watch movies, Avatar and Sherlock Holmes. MISS IT AND REGRET IT!~!~!~ hee.. yeah its that good... Started my cycling, borrowed the bike on Sat from Cindy (THANKS BABE!~!~) and cycled from town back, passed by Ubi so got the seat adjusted and it started pouring DINOSAURS!~!~!~

Went to Ice Cold Beer with 2 lovely ladies, Sherine and Wai Leng, Had the legendary (but rather sinful) chicken wings and yes... they still taste awesome!!! sometimes it doesn't really take alot to make a wonderful day, just a couple of frens, a good place to chill, couple of beer, a camera (since i am a cam lover - aka whore) and you are in for a good nite (woot woot)

Mid week seems extra enticing this week as this week is really short... CANNOT WAIT LIAO!~!~! ROAR... Party hard one last time and it time to go hardcore!!! dun worry this place will not be filled just with sports regime, but hopefully other colours in my life...

Keep Posted.... Ryan....OUT!!!

Boxing Day!!!

Happy Boxing day everyone..!!! hope the rain didn't dampen off any festive spirits!!! =P Phew, just came back from a friend's place, coz I borrowed her bike (as in bicycle...not vroom vroom bike), and YES I MADE IT BACK ALIVE!~!~!~ muahahaha

Need a bike to start training for OCBC in march, but before that will try to squeeze in a long cycle with the gang (hopefully no work on that weekend) in Jan. Hee... its been a long time since i cycle, and I must say... the feeling is awesome!!! thou I dun have long hair that flies against the wind, but the feeling is still shiok nevertheless. +p

Christmas day was a good boy... stayed home and cleared my clothings.... some are going to salvation army since i am not wearing them no more. while packing yesterday, then I realised that alot of my tees are actually from running events, and boy do i have many of them... NEXT YEAR WILL HAVE MORE!~!~!~

Thats all for today... OH YAH... HAPPY BIRTHDAY SHERINE!~!~!~

Its Christmas!!!

In less than 24 hours we will welcome the festive season.... Rather exciting I must say. Having a little gathering with a few mates for dinner. Hopefully it will be really fun!!!, or rather it will be REALLY FUN I AM SURE!!! alot of catching up to do (as we seriously have not met for ages)

Today's entry will be dedicated to my EVIL TWIN!!! Debster!!! HAPPY BIRTHDAY BABEZ!!!! It was yesterday btw, but hey never too late.
This is my evil twin, thou we might just have met this year, but it just felt like we known each other for ages!!! missing our long coffee sessions and evil moments.HAHAH... Just want to say thank you for everything. Age is definitely a number for us as we are all kids within!!! HAPPY BIRTHDAY once again and Happy Holidayz!!!

Went for her party yesterday, was a simple affair, her with a few good friends, and well... kinda odd as I am one of the rare DB frens she invited, but strangely didn't really felt that out of place like I would in other parties. Probably coz her friends are all in similar lines thus there are always something to talk about. First time I partied till late on a weekday (reached home like 1am) hahaha.... so had a little difficulty waking up today, but lucky coffee does the trick for me.... probably might have to do another shot just to keep me going for the entire day (fyi: usually try to still to one shot per day)

Lots to do after work!!! but kinda looking forward to it!!! woohoo its the holiday holiday holidays... haven't felt the festive mood in a long time!!!

Merry Christmas everyone!!! PARTY HARD and if you drink...please dun drive...=P

Merry Christmas!~!~

Merry Christmas everyone!~!~ I know its abit early but hey... just in case I do not managed to blog by then... Foresee a busy week (nothing new). Anyway, this is from the 2nd most liked paddle of the year (1st is River Regatta), this is the Chrismas Paddle!!! hee... absolutely love this bunch of pple...

Anyway, it seems that everyone is falling ill this festive season... probably all too excited and are partying hard so that they can party harder on the actual day. Nevertheless, my wishes to all out that who are feeling a little under the weather, hope you guys regain good health by tomorrow and prepare to PARTY THE NIGHT AWAY FOR MR. HO HO HO festival!!!

Saturday Saturday!~!~!

Yes, I am in the office, taking a little time off to blog. Was actually planned to come in on boxing day... but i changed it... OF COURSE RIGHT!~!~!~who wants to come back on a long weekend!!! hahaha

Today will be Xmas paddle, a light paddle which i really enjoy and pretty much sum up the year's paddling. So without that for a few Saturdays to come, I would really need much determination not to stray too far away from my regime. (aka DUN GROW FAT!!!! ahaha)

Hmm.... next 2 weeks, very busy, with personal things I suppose, alot of packing to welcome the new year... really need to get to cleaning my ROOM!!! OMG OMG OMG... daunting task... Its the time of the year to really reflect on the year that have past. All the SOUR, SWEET, BITTER, SPICY things that has taken place, have them orgainised, kept and start to plan how the new year is going to be like. Like mention 2010 is going to be a rather exciting year... but I foresee a number of uncertainty ahead... but shall face it with an open heart and see where the journey takes me. I currently have a vision ahead, which, ironically is an entirely different path as I wanted to take on 2 years back. Honestly if you ask me, I never expected myself to consider this path before, but at least with this "vision" I can hopefully work something out. GAMBATE NEH!~!~

As I end 2009 soon, would just like to give my gratitude to all my friends, those old ones that have stood by me all these year, or newer ones that I knew throughout this year. You guys have made my life that much more exciting, and adding colours to my black and white world. Of course, the year was not smooth sailing, so just want to say to my "friends", I forgive you, but will not forget what you do to me. Every wound leaves a scar, so thank you for "disfiguring" me further. To all of you out there, you didn't manage to kill me, now I AM EVEN STRONGER!!!

Everyone's favorite segment to welcoming a new year is to set a new year resolution, and honestly by far I have only hit one resolution (which is to lose weight and get featured in a magazine - which i got featured in 2!!! hahaha) but anyway, I already have my mind set on my resolution for 2010. Just have to bite the bullet and attain it. To those that have been setting resolution and not hitting them and think well I will just let it snowball, let me tell you, attain ur resolution is a very satisfying feeling.!!! You should really try it!!!

Anyway that's for all, I am really just waiting for time to fly, or rather to pass so that I can end work for the week. May everyone have a wondering couple of weeks ahead... ITS TIME TO PARTY!~!~!~wooHooo

Lucky Lucky end of the year for alot of my friends....

TGIF!!! been looking forward to this day since Monday (I bet I am not the only one right??? =P) Thou I still have half a day of work tml, but nevertheless, weekends are worth looking forward to...

Its been a rainy morning for the past 2 days.... never really life raining starts to the day, "dampens" the mood. Thank god today the sun peep through the cloud as I was leaving home.

Hmm...about the week... nothing much actually. Just doing alot of sourcing work, keeping as low profile as possible to prevent stepping on my boss's tail. She has been pretty "sensitive" lately, the slightest movement in the office annoys her. So as usual the office is as quiet as a graveyard (PRAISE THE PERSON WHO INVENTED HEADSETS!~!~!~ AND YOUTUBE!~!~!~)

Recently, or rather this week alone, I witness 2 super duper lucky friend... One is Jacp, my dragonboat friends, who just decides to attend the Blackberry 9700 launch event, and eventually won herself a BB9700!!! its like OMG OMG OMG lucky and blessed lah... hahaha

And to think thats all, NO, today just saw another fren, Amelia, my NYP band friend. Well its not exactly her, but her sister, took part in some snapple bottle cap contest... and she won a CANON EOS D500. OMG OMG OMG right?!?!?

Its lucky to have such lucky friends around I suppose coz I believe that good luck can be influenced (or I choose to believe lah =p). So yeah, congraz to everyone who have ended their year in a lucky/blessed note.... I just cannot wait to get this year done and over with and looking forward to 2010 already!!!

Did a pact with a friend yesterday and we both have something to look forward to this new year!!! GAMBATE NEH JACP SAN!~!~!~

So close to Christmas and I have yet to do anything about it. HAHAHA well not a big festive person to begin with, but will be nice to meet frens, chat up, and CAM WHORE~!~!~hahaha

Alright ba... thats all for today.... staying low profile till the day is over... Ryan...OUT!~!~!

Slow Tuesday...

Looking at my clock and thinking its almost lunchtime....but only to realise its only 10.30am!!!! long way to lunchtime....Time is crawling pass really slowly I must say. I suppose its because the work have kinda tone down and the holiday mood is really starting to set in...

Went to the gym yesterday, after 2 weeks.... (or was it 3 weeks) of not working out AT ALL... and I tell you... I am aching...yes me... haha.... but definately in a good way cause I feel so alive again... It was a love/hate affair in the gym yesterday. I was out of breath super fast and my heart was pumping so heart I was pretty sure it was going to stop at some point of time... but yet the adrenaline going through was so great. Have start my 16 weeks regime all over again (due to the break) and this time hopefully I can complete it... the last time I did this regime i "died" off at the 12th to 13th week i suppose. So yeah with the whole list of event lining up... really hope I can discipline myself to do so... Lots to achieve in the coming year. Anyone want to fund me? =P

Haven't really mentioned much about my weekend, was kind of a long but rather fun weekend I have to say. Saturday we had the Singing competition in JCC again. I realised our muslim frens really dun have a fancy sitting on chairs, its uncomfortable I suppose. Anyway glad the entire thing is over despite the massive overrun and minor hiccups here and there, nothing major happened and everyone left with a smile on their faces. After which I met my girls for dinner, a long awaited gathering so to speak, with our guest of honor, Ms Carol Lee, which have MIA for quite awhile and finally able to meet up. =P Dine and booze the night away (a rather sinful but definitely enjoyable night) Sunday was a lighter affair as I met up with my ex-colleagues for a little dinner and "gossips" Kind of a farewell for one of them as well as she is returning back to Malaysia. Overall was a pretty good weekend spent...

This week is really looking awfully long... just biting on and hanging on... No training no nothing means nothing to look forward for the weekend. will work something out I suppose.

Oh yah.... HAPPY BIRTHDAY TRISA... hee my fellow Sagi.... May you have an awesome day and a beautiful year ahead, throw the past behind and look forward to a brighter future... haha sounds so "motivation speech" =P

That should be all for today I suppose... will be gymming this few days to condition myself back to the regime before sending myself into HELL mode again. The only thing that keeps me going now anyway.

Have an awesome day ahead everyone... 3 more days to the weekends!!!

Happy Birthday Lisa!~!

Happy Birthday Babe!~!~!

Start now... or never....

Just realized that my engine is coming to a haul once again. I am eating normal (or more than normal) but I HAVE NOT BEEN WORKING OUT!~!~!~ all the weight lost during the marathon have came back and even doubled... so its about time i do something about it...

Anyway... I am going back to drilling myself into shape again. So i hereby give my sincere apologies to everyone out there. Its not that I will totally neglect my friends of course, but if there is going to be any outing, please give me prior notice so I can make necessary arrangement to my schedule to accommodate the outing/ plan. I really cannot tell how my schedule will looking like but it should pretty much follow this order:

Monday: Gym
Tuesday: Run (Cardio)
Wednesday Gym
Thursday: Run (Cardio)
Friday: Gym
Saturday: Dragonboat
Sunday: Rest (or Dragonboat prior to the race dates)

So yeah... I am trying very hard to attain something in life, miss that feeling of achievement for awhile already its time to fight and see how far i can push myself this time.

Another apologies and also pointer is Diet, I am trying to restrict my diet too maximise on my workout regime, so I apologise if I restrict myself to not eating somethings, *disclaimer: please do not feel bad if you all eat what you all eat, coz its the choice i make. And also please do not think that whatever you all made is not nice whatsoever k... *

I see 2010 as a very exciting year ahead. I actually listed down some of the major events that I am likely participating and the list is pretty long already!!! ready??? here is goes:

1) MH Urbanathanlon - 12.5km
2) National Vertical Marathon
3) 2 XU Run @ Sentosa (Signed Up) - 12km
4) Sundown Marathon - 42km
5) Army Half Marathon - 21km
6) OCBC Cycling - 20km team (Signed Up)
7) Mizuno Wave Run - 16km (according to this year distance)
8) New Balance Real Run - 15km
9) Nike Human Race - 10km
10)Newton Run (Signed Up) - 30km
11) Passion Run - 10km
12) Run for Hope - 10km
13) Standard Chartered Marathon 2010 - 42km

This is excluding all the Dragonboat races that I might also do: Singapore Dragonboat festival, Sava Sprints, MR500, River Regatte, etc....

So as you can see... PACKED PACKED PACKED... thus I really need personal discipline and also support from all my friends around me.... can use all the luck I can get too... Hopefully its a really really good and fruitful year ahead...talking about it is already getting me excited

LET'S DO IT!~!~!~ I invite those interested to join. my motto remains... If I can do it, everyone can!!! JIA YOU... OOoosshh.....

New Skin

Something new to usher in the new year!!! will keep updating and hopefully evolving to suit my needs lah... Keep watch!!!

End 2009 with a good note....looking forward to a challenging 2010

2009 has been full of ups and downs... but at least I ended it with a bang with a last min marathon, yes you heard me... I only decided to run this marathon like less than a month ago... and yes, am currently "enjoying" the consequences. Came in with a timing of 5hrs 26 mins, nothing compared to my last timing (which is 4 hrs plus) but still, an achievement just completing it.

As 2009 comes to a close, I would like to thank everyone, for whatever contribution they made to my life... each year is a learning experience, and I am really looking forward to an exciting and challenging 2010 ahead, more things to learn, more people to meet, more challenges to conquer and more MEDALS TO WIN!~!~!~

Nothing much has changed on my to buy list... in fact its just growing longer each day (like DUH right?) haha time to pack off the old, send it of to the Great Samies and then bring out the new...

Sports Item on my list

- Shoes (got a new pair of Nike, but will definitely need something more suited for long distance run)
- Bag (Oakley's mouth is getting bigger each day... replacement please appear)
- Compression Tights (Finally got my SKINS.... 2XU next?)
- Shade (lose my shade yet again, need to get cheap on for water sport and a good one for running and land sports)
- Watch (saving for a G shock- old and faithful)

Non sports items...

Too many to mention.... haha

Have alot plan for the new year... there will definitely be pain involve... but hey remember, what don't kill you makes u stronger... so look out world!!! Stronger and meaner me coming right up!!!

End of one... start of next....

Back... 2 weeks of back to back training has taken a toll on my body.... still lack both strength and stamina.... we all know what that means... MORE TRAINING!~!~! HARDER TRAINING.... am going to try put myself through the original 16 weeks training all over again. probably will do so after my current one is up... am at week 15 for this one. Significant change to my body... cannot be the judge coz well i have been looking myself at all time... and as usual, THERE IS ROOM FOR IMPROVEMENT. Discipline is still not there... diet is still really screwed... :( Need to do something about it... and fast...

This weekend, Sava Sprints, well not very confident that we can win anything, but hey, good warm up for the November one. which I am really really keen to repeat my glory, my gold medal need some company. There is only one way around it... make A boat, and how, good time trials... JIA YOU!~!~!~

Starting to like OC, but the distance still killing me. Oh yah, my shades snapped... Freaking hell a week before the race... and i always have difficulty finding a pair that suits my face, and so when there is so many things already on my to buy list... OMG!~!~!~ hahaha tink will source for cheaper alternative liao... Currently items that I will likely be buying over the coming months will be:

A pair of runners (Newton or Asiscs)
A pair of running tights (long)
A long sleeve compression top (optional- can wait)
A Bag

now A pair of shades...

MONEY MONEY COME!~!~! hahaha

Not to mention the many clothes that caught my eyes... HAHAHA i guess i haven't been shopping for a long time... so many things seems to be appealing to me... HAHA hopefully I can work myself into a good shape to look good in them. HAHAHA

Apart from dragonboat racing, there is the number of up coming runs.. (FUN FUN FUN) First up would be Nike run, follow by NB run, then will be Run for Hope and then the fun walk... still recruit more pple to do so... so yeah... its all for a good cause... Likely going for the 100km one... not sure am going to survive, sure will try... hahah good way to end off the year... hehe

Alright lah... off to watch TV liao... NITES ALL... sorry if I have neglected anyone due to my regime... need to get some discipline back in life... and also in my diet... pray for me... i can use all the prayers i can get... HAHAHA

OOSSHHH....

Quick Entry.... Siong Weekend...

Thought I just drop by before heading of to watch Criminal Mind... Monday ain't exactly blue for me... but things went pretty smoothly for me I should think. Just need to get my logistics cleared... and more planning and I am more or less set. Hate last min amendments, but that's how things runs i suppose.... its never a smooth ride... hehe.

Enough about work, now toOoOOOooo..... Training HAHAHA well nothing much to write about it... just that it is SIONG liao..which i like... hahah abit sadist but I still feel its not up there yet... not when we are only 2 weeks from the race... I got the feeling there are pple in the boat with the "I am new, so i can slack and give up mentality" abit sian when kana such a thing... but yeah... what to do... things really did change over the years... only thing i can do is to instill discipline in myself and hopefully influence the rest to do so too... 2 weeks from race.... normally by now there will be a drive and urge that medals are near... this time... NOTHING... dun even think we can qualify if you ask me... haiz... praying for the best and hopefully enjoy a good race... thats all i can ask for... Well probably because so many regulars are not rowing... and I am not even close to the rest of them... RYAN you really need to learn to be more chill and socialble.... JIAYOU

Sunday was the ultimate killer.... almost fainted out at sea... Word of advise for those that is planning to do OC after DB... HAVE LUNCH!~!~! its better to puke than to starve... that for sure... shall not go into details but have never yearn to return from training so much for the first time... shall work our something different this coming week. Alright lah... nothing much to share liao... shall not bore you with my training story anymore... 3 weeks to end my first set of regime... 2 weeks to the races.... OOOSSSHHHH jia you!~!~1

Finally...

Just realised its been really really long since I have entered an entry.... Tot I scribble something before it start to develop cob "web" (get it... haha... okok bad joke) Anyway, for those that don't know, I have already started work, slightly over 2 months already, closing the end of my probation period. Intention of leaving, but yet, weighing things out at the present situation and still stuck in the middle. Don't get me wrong, its not that the job is not fun or anything, just that its not the line i intend to stay for long, eventually would still love to enter the great world of the hospitality line. All the rotating shift, smiles of customers, complaints... *sniff* arh.... I can smell them already.

Anyway about life, nothing much to talk about actually, pretty much lost much of it ever since I left school. Its true that the best time of your life are really spent in school. Frens, endless gossips and complaining together, rushing assignments to the wee hours of the morning just to meet impossible deadlines. Maybe abit sadist, but I do miss and would love to go back to that again someday... Convocation has been confirmed. Its going to be on the 30th October 2009 at Hilton Hotel. Didn't ask my parents to come, partly felt its abit ex for them to come see me recieve a cert, which i rather used the money for a nice family portrait. Guess I will be alone then. So Frens if you wish to come support. PLEASE DO DROP BY!~!~ hahaha

Have been feeling moody since Monday, thou its been a public holiday, we get to rest and all that, i kinda prefer to work as it keeps my mind occupied and dun allow it to stray to 'other' things. Well many might think its over for so long liao... why am I still brooding over it. The only answer is, if it is so easy, it will not be called love. HAHAHA damn chim right...

I guess I am feeling it a little bit more because... well... this friday will supposedly be our anniversary, 2nd year to be exact. The same day 2 days ago, I embark on a new journey, and then again 2 years later, things have pretty much gone back to how I was long long time ago, the only difference is a scar that still occasionally bleeds from time to time. Thinking back on all that have went past these 2 years, is both sweet yet kinda painful... but never once have I thought this is how love felt like. A friend once shared with me, Break ups are like climbing a monkey bar, you have to learn to let go in order to move on. I understand that quote, but accepting it is an entirely different matter. Till today, I still do not have the courage to do alot of things, I know this is a battle with myself, coz only I can decide when to move on and all. I also realised its a Heart vs Mind thing again, like back then when i tried to lose weight, thats why I have been keenly working out, training up my mind to take control once again.

Giving up has never been through my mind, in all the things I have done in my life. But when force to do so... you just feel really really helpless I suppose. After not blogging for so long, I almost forget that this is one avenue that I can still release the pressure within when I have no one to turn to (or rather dun wish to bore my fren with all this bullsh*t anymore).

Like mentioned, I still lack courage in many many things, and all this lingers... and is really tying me down, when will i ever take action on them? I guess I will never know, but another thing i used to conqure myself would be that, the other party will not know the suffering I am going through, its not much that I wish for her to know in the first place, I rather suffer alone, dun hurt my family, my frens, and all that care about me. I have learn to put on a mask for the first time in my life, for such matters.

Comparing to others, I guess I am fortunate, as I get to tasted what it is like to be loved and to love. Well, it really does things to you I guess. But I will consider it as one of the hardest fall I have ever took in life by far. I deserve to pad myself in the back coz, yes I am indeed numbing myself by flooding my brains, but at least I do not hurt my body, I train it to be stronger.

Without realising it, I have already typed out so much feeling, pouring out is always good, feels slightly lighter. KTV visit dun even seem the same anymore, pehaps now I can sing with more feeling... HAHAHA shall test it out the next time.

Well enough about that, hmm... apart from that has been working my ass off to attain the figure i wish to get, there is alot of work still left to be done, and I am already into the final month of my 16 weeks regime. Gymming is tiring but I always feel good after "surviving" the routine. But I must say, its taking away alot of my social life. I will also take this opportunity to apologies to all my friends out there that I have fly plane these few months. I dislike the me now thats why I am improving myself, but changing myself physically has a price to pay i suppose. All my friends are important to me. I promise to change and manage my time better. PLEASE GIVE ME A SECOND CHANCE.

Guess thats what I have for now, enough for all the months of not blogging for now i suppose. Promise I will not make all of you wait that long for the next entry, will blog more regularly. Time to get myself a good camera so that I can post pictures on the blog too... HEHE will be posted soon, for now... good night, sweet dreams, sleep tight..... *sore throat*....

Ten Rules for Being Human by Cherie Carter-Scott

1.	You will receive a body. You may like it or hate it, but it's yours to keep for the entire period.
2.	You will learn lessons. You are enrolled in a full-time informal school called, "life."
3.	There are no mistakes, only lessons. Growth is a process of trial, error, and experimentation. The "failed" experiments are as much a part of the process as the experiments that ultimately "work."
4.	Lessons are repeated until they are learned. A lesson will be presented to you in various forms until you have learned it. When you have learned it, you can go on to the next lesson.
5.	Learning lessons does not end. There's no part of life that doesn't contain its lessons. If you're alive, that means there are still lessons to be learned.
6.	"There" is no better a place than "here." When your "there" has become a "here", you will simply obtain another "there" that will again look better than "here."
7.	Other people are merely mirrors of you. You cannot love or hate something about another person unless it reflects to you something you love or hate about yourself.
8.	What you make of your life is up to you. You have all the tools and resources you need. What you do with them is up to you. The choice is yours.
9.	Your answers lie within you. The answers to life's questions lie within you. All you need to do is look, listen, and trust.
10.	You will forget all this.

Great Trip.... Great Memories....

Just found a block of time before I head out for band prac, yah, you heard be correctly... band prac... hahaha been trying to find time to do so... finally have sometime (in fact, lots of it now) hahaha...

Today's blog will be on my trip to KL, a very enjoyable overseas trip. Got to know very friendly people, Claudy and Chris... and of course, a new and cute friend... BULLET will let pictures do most of the talking... This was the Labour Day weekend... its truely very fun, which now thinking back still brings lots of smile one my face...



This is taken while meeting Serene at Tanah Merah, waiting for the train to the airport... never fail to have a nice post and glam smile for the camera... hee



This was on the plane, taken while we took out our Strategic Management books to read, yes I know its holiday, but at that point of time, both of us just couldn't stand assignment piling up.. so in order to enjoy the trip, we have to make use of whatever spare time we have to read...read... ReAD!~!~! hahaha



This is the first stop... haha the very mission we go to neighbouring country for... haha and of course its ice cream waffle is fantastic, thou the person got the flavor wrong... but its still taste good coz its A&W!~!~!~ haha



And introducing... this is the new fren we made while we are over there... his name is Bullet... haha adorable little thing with endless amount of energy... haha when he pants it seems like he is smiling... its Cute lah... hehe


And this are the wonderful people that hosted us during our short trip, claudy on the left and chris on the right... Thank alot guys... really had loads of fun during the trip...

As much as going overseas might be fun, its equally important who you go with... if you go with someone that you dun enjoy with... be it Paris or Maldives the trip will be meaningless. But traveling with the person u love... and enjoy being with... even sentosa or a trip to the zoo seems like endless fun.... I am glad I had this opportunity and chance to experience this...

So this is the blog for now... will see if there is more wonderful to share soon... cheers!~!~

New chapter...

I am officially an undergrad... (that is if nothing goes wrong in my final semester). My final paper for this entire course ended on Monday, and I am now kinda trying to adapt to life without having to rush for assignment, attending night classes, and returning home close to midnight. Not that any of that matters, its kinda sadist, but I actually enjoyed those moments, becoz attending class allow me to meet my wonderful classmates, the crazy bunch of people that endure through this 2 years with me. We never fail to smile and joke about the things we learn and also share pointer. Yes, some politics is inevitable, but nothing major really did blew up... which is kinda nice...

Remember 2 years back, when I was lost, searching for a course to enroll in, and walking into orientation feeling the beginning of this entire thing... and now, looking back, those are really wonderful wonderful memories. I get the feedback from alot of people, who are really puzzled when I told them that I am from a part time class, coz my class is really united despite their own work committments. What I gain from this 2 years is definately more than what I have bargained for.

I came with nothing, but left with plenty of friends, knowledge, and a bulging tummy !~!~ hahaha well that can be worked on now that i have all the time in the world. I am FREE MAN!~!~ woo hoo!~!~

Final Run

Counting down and its approximately one month left for this much dreaded course to be over, never knew what an easy life I have been leading right up to now... Not complaining, and guess many out there will be saying i am just looking at the tip of an ice berg, i agree with everyone who thinks that way, what lies ahead is much greater and challenging... Am I up to it? I start to wonder...

"Who are u to wait for jobs to look for you?" these words echo in me, and have been imprinted in me, yes i admit that I have been so fortunate to be meeting people that can get me job so far in life, but guess that have put me in a wrong state of mind thinking that the "Shou zhu dai tu" (wait under the tree for the rabbit to come out in chinese) method really works. Glad to be pulled back to reality, hit hard, but will pick up. Its like falling down in a run, when u are comfortable, sometime u forget how painful it is to fall, but a sudden fall will make u realise and be more careful and focus i guess. What a metaphor huh? hee

So many activities lies ahead, but all that have been flooding my brains are Strategic Management, Food Service Operations, Facilities & Risk Management... am sure i am not alone in this, kudos to those that have to work and do work at the same time. I kowtow to all of you. I look forward to the long break after. maybe go to a place where i know no one... and just find peace again?

I am inferior, I am jobless, I am not as fit as i used to be, I am nothing... i stop working for myself already, which pretty much lose the meaning of working, so what am i working for? I really dono... to compete? to stay competitive amids a very strong competitor, or just to show i can hold my line as well and protect the things I love? I wonder... I hate myself for doubting myself, for the lack of flare, for lack of proactiveness. I hate myself for being scared of everything, thinking that i will fail before i try, know that i will not fail if someone gives me a change to prove myself and yet not seeking hard enough for that someone to give me that chance.

What makes you tink you are better then everyone else? who are you? when are you going to wake up and realise that u are not the king of the world... in this vast world.... you are a nobody... nobody...

I am not loving myself again

Why Why Why!~!~ one question I hate to ask myself, but time and time have to face... Its not a finger pointing situation where I can blame anyone else but myself. Blame it on school stress, assignment commitment... who am I kidding man!~!~!

This is a random entry for me to vent out i guess.... feeling very vexed... a mixture of alot of things, Lost, Stress, Inferior, Low self-esteem, Anger, and many many more, all negative air....

I really wan to break free, I wan better, I keep comparing, to my past, my fun times, and ask why isn't it like in the past.... what happened? Why dun i have moments that i laugh from the heart anymore, why are my happy moments getting shorter and shorter... why is there so many things in my head...

I guess the crunch time is finally getting to me... and saying age is catching up is utterly bulls*it but i am afraid thats that only excuse I can find for myself. Time management down the drain, multi-task my foot, motivated to hell with...

I need to love myself again.... but how?...

Chill... have a laugh

Signboard Outside A Prostitute's House:
Married MEN Not Allowed.
We Serve The Needy, Not The Greedy...
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Lady : Is this my train?
Station Master : No, it belongs to the Railway Company.
Lady : Don't try to be funny. I mean to ask if I can take this train to New Delhi .
Station Master : No Madam, I'm afraid it's too heavy.
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A drunkard was brought to court.
Just before the trial there was a commotion in the gallery.
The judge pounded the gravel on his table and shouted, "Order, order."
The drunkard immediately responded, "Thank you, your honor, I'll have a scotch and soda."
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Man Quits Smoking Because Of Will Power.
He Quits Drinking Because Of Will Power.
But He Quits Womanizing Because He Has The Will But No Power.
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Customer : Waiter, do you serve crabs?
Waiter : Please sit down sir, we serve everyone.
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Customer : Waiter, is this a lamb chop or pork chop?
Waiter : Can't you tell the difference by taste?
Customer : No, I can't.
Waiter : Then does it really matter ?
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Little Susie came running into the house after school one day,shouting,
"Daddy! Daddy! I got a 100 in school today!"
"That's great, Sweetheart," said her daddy.
"Come in to the living room and tell me about it."
"Well," began the confession, "I got 50 in spelling, 30 in math's and 20 in science."

Customer : Waiter, there's a dead beetle in my soup.
Waiter : Yes sir, they are not very good swimmers.
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Customer : Waiter, there's a fly in my soup.
Waiter : That's all right sir, he won't drink much.
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Waiter : I've stewed liver, boiled tongue and frog's leg.
Customer : Don't tell me your problems. Give the menu card.
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Customer : Waiter, there's a fly swimming in my soup.
Waiter : So what do you expect me to do, call a lifeguard?
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Customer : Waiter, what's the meaning of this fly in my tea up?
Waiter : I wouldn't know sir, I'm a waiter, not a fortune teller.
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1st thief : Oh ! The police is here. Quick! Jump out of the window!
2nd thief : But this is the 13th floor.
1st thief : Hurry! this is no time for superstitions .
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Man : How old is your father?
Boy : As old as me.
Man : How can that be?
Boy : He became a father only when I was born.
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Customer : Waiter, this soup tastes funny.
Waiter : Funny? But then why aren't you laughing?
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Teacher : Peter, why are you late for school again?
Peter: Well, Miss, I dreamed that I was playing football and the game went into extra time.
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An absent-minded man went to see a psychiatrist.
'My trouble is,' he said, 'that I keep forgetting things.'
'How long has this been going on?' asked the psychiatrist.
' How long has what been going on?' said the man.
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Girl : Do you love me?
Boy : Yes Dear.
Girl : Would you die for me?
Boy : No, mine is undying love.
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Wife : Do you want dinner?
Husband : Sure, what are my choices?
Wife : Yes and no.
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Customer : If I post this letter tonight, will it get to Delhi in two days time?
Post Master : Yes sir, it definitely will.
Customer : I bet you, it won't.
Post Master : Why not?
Customer : It's addressed to Mumbai.

Enough is enough....

Today is more of a vending out session, I have been complaining about the organization i am studying now for such a long while that I have lost count on the amount of blog I have wasted giving them 'free publicity', but honestly enough is enough... Despite being the last semester, the administration side never fail its duties to throw us shit. As much as they hate us, I feel that the feeling is pretty much mutual. Time and time again we have endure whatever that has come our way, but this semester is really pushing all of us into the red zone.

This school is ugly, all the publicity it does is really covering up the ugly truth about its internal problem. Its like a spider web, nice to look at... but once u get urself entangled in one... its goodbye to you... I am pretty certain that this will be my first and final time having any affiliation with this organization. If ever I have the need to further my education, they will NOT even be in my list of considerations. I dare say that this school have provided me nothing my just a room to obtain my education, which honestly I can get so anywhere else too... but in every pile of rubbish, there is bound to be some treasure, and i do pity those kind soul in the organization that is trapped in there for watever reason.

Another thing, is teamwork, currently have a love hate relationship with this term. Supposingly teamwork should lighten burden of individual as the workload is being shared among more many others within a team. However, thats the nice picture about teamwork. When its not that way, burden seems to increase and even double as it seems. What i mean by increase workload, does not have to be physical, but mental. For instance, having your teammate to wait for you, worry about your progress while they communicate and one just decide to stay out of the loop, and having to constantly chase you for ur contribution. I mean come on, this kinda thing we do back then in secondary school man. And when we finally get the work, its CRAP, literally. so I mean why do we have to go through this kinda thing, and in the end all get the same grades. I believe in equal contribution, but am proven time and time again that some are just out to hitch a free ride on others... is that call working smart while other work hard? Honestly I can't do that feeling guilt free.

Anyway, I pretty much made my mind up about rotten apples, to remove them before they damage the rest of my crops... I have enough of free riders!!!!

ANGRY ANGRY ENTRY

Back for the final time...

Don't get me wrong... the blog is not closing down, for those that are worried... haha the final time simply means I am into my final semester of my uni life with MDIS. Its a love hate situation; cannot wait for it to fly past... at the same time can't bare it to chapter of my life to end. Like many people will say, life is full of contradiction, when u work, you desire to go back to school life, and when u are in school, you are raring to join the workforce, a cycle indeed. Fortunately (or unfortunately to some extend) I dun fall under that situation. I know it sounds kinda sadist, but given the choice I dun mind studying for life... hahaha Sick right? well its one of my goal in my future I guess... Will eventually step into the workforce, if not money will not fall from the sky and into my bank account right? hahaha but time to time, I guess I will take time off to upgrade my skill, continue learning... Honestly it is after I join uni that I found fun in learning, I used to think studying is a chore (dun get me wrong, it still is, just more enjoyable =P) reading and "using my brain" will be the last thing I would opt to do if given a choice. But interacting with people and also participating in meeting and all makes it all really enjoyable, especially the suprise you get when u marvel at others' knowledge and vice versa. There is so much to share...

Alright enough on the sudden interest in study... Reality sets, and yes... my internship period with MacroVic has end (in a rather positive note) and also my reservist. Dreaded reservist initally, having the thought of meeting a bunch of guys that I don't know and also having it so far away from home. But when found that most of us have a common thinking, the bond kinda came, and also expanded my circle of frens. It can be nice to get away from the hussle and bustle of life and slip into ur "greenie" I guess. Hahaha yet another sadist thought. I guess I felt this way coz the course is enjoyable, so was the company. Nevertheless its over, and next one is likely next year!~!~ (PLEASE PLEASE!~!~!) hahaha. Well, now, I am offically unemployed.. am considering finding another job as this sem is super packed... and the assignments are already piling up. The down side is my balance in my bank is dropping as fast as the financial market. I am slipping into a mini financial crisis, who will be give me a bailout??? HAHAHA

As I sort my thoughts out... and weighing my options... I will keep my eyes out and start changing my personal thinking then... I have personal issues to settle, to sort out. It was made clearer to me, especially in this tough times... Other out there are stronger then me, and they are losing job, and the market ain't giving much supply which is causing a surplus in demand (hahah been learning econs lately, many are going to kill me coz I am exempted fromt he module but i still attend lesson) so yah... need to change my pespective soon.

Anyway thats all I have for now.... So far this year, I got more indepth knowledge into events, and also a new licence!~!~ woohoo and also a song that I heard from army, that I think I should share... nice... and the mv is pretty touching... enjoy

Army daze

Since I am going into army next week... tot i share with you a farnie song i found online... enjoy... its meaningful... hahaha

MEN ARE JUST HAPPIER PEOPLE

NICKNAMES

If Laura, Kate and Sarah go out for lunch, they will call each other Laura, Kate and Sarah.

If Mike, Dave and John go out, they will affectionately refer to each other as Fat Boy, Godzilla and Four-eyes.

EATING OUT

When the bill arrives, Mike, Dave and John will each throw in $20, even though it's only for $32.50. None of them will have anything smaller and none will actually admit they want change back.

When the girls get their bill, out come the pocket calculators.

MONEY

A man will pay $2 for a $1 item he needs.

A woman will pay $1 for a $2 item that she doesn't need... but it's on sale.

BATHROOMS

A man has six items in his bathroom: toothbrush and toothpaste, shaving cream, razor, a bar of soap, and a towel.

The average number of items in the typical woman's bathroom is 337. A man would not be able to identify more than 20 of these items.

ARGUMENTS

A woman has the last word in any argument.

Anything a man says after that is the beginning of a new argument.

FUTURE

A woman worries about the future until she gets a husband.

A man never worries about the future until he gets a wife.

SUCCESS

A successful man is one who makes more money than his wife can spend.

A successful woman is one who can find such a man.

MARRIAGE

A woman marries a man expecting he will change, but he doesn't.

A man marries a woman expecting that she won't change, but she does.

DRESSING UP

A woman will dress up to go shopping, water the plants, empty the trash, answer the phone, read a book, and get the mail.

A man will dress up for weddings and funerals.

NATURAL

Men wake up as good-looking as they went to bed.

Women somehow deteriorate during the night.

OFFSPRING

Ah, children. A woman knows all about her children. She knows about dentist appointments and romances, best friends, favorite foods, secret fears and hopes and dreams.

A man is vaguely aware of some short people living in the house.

Need a breather...

I have an excitingly boring week thus far... Exciting coz plenty has happen this week, but boring coz I HAVE TO DO A STUPID REPORT TO MARK THE END FOR MY INTERNSHIP~!~~!~ 5000 WORDS LAH, and guess what THIS IS A NON GRADING MODULE!~!~!*&(@*#&$(@*#&$

So since I am having a mental block for that... tot I post a blog entry instead... hehe... This entry marks my 500th entry!!! *applause* been doing so over this year... finally hit the great five. hee.

Lets start with the week headlines... monday, while walking for lunch... found a bird being stuck in the drain, must have falling in, kind of a baby state coz it still cannot fly, and since there is the factory near my area that has been pouring out cemented water, the drain is flooded with muddy clay like substance, I could help seeing it struggling so i just grab a plastic bag and 'rescue it' the bird looks muddily wet, and not knowing what to do (like duh... i was heading for lunch, cannot possibly bring it along and treat it kopi can't i) I left it under a tree using a few branch to cover it. When I return, its still there, which pretty much confirm my assumption that it is a baby. So I called the SPCA, and they say they will come and collect it. In a series of miscommunication, they did not come and only came the next day, so we place it in a cage in the office.

Here is the sad part, just hours before the SPCA arise, someone life the bird on the floor (which was initally on a table, so the papaya in it attracted ants, and since the bird is along in it... they started to attack it too... I was devastated to see the state the bird was in.... its horrifying... its BIG ASS ANTS MAN i quickly drench the bird with water getting some of the ants out. When i past the bird to the man from the SPCA, I felt so sorry for the little fellow, its seems like my rescue for it turn out to be his final journey as i know there is no way they will keep it alive at the state its bring brought in. The bird was not died and looked at me one last time before the SPCA took it away... thinking about it now still brings back horrible memories...

Thats the headline, now down to entertainment news, There is this play that is currently going on at the Victoria Theatre call the Dark Knuts. I managed to catch its opening night thanks to Sarah for her invite. Its a good show, will not talk about the content of the show (dun wan to spoil the fun) but all i can say is that its a gigantic spoof act. So its good for movie lover, play lover, and tv lover. Recommended to watch (NOTE: more local humor)

Next, just heard on the radio today that Ip Man is such a success that they are planning a sequel to the show... For those that have no idea what movie I am refering to... this is it

Its pretty much the bibliography of this kung fu legend and an art that was pretty much lost and apparently the teacher of kung fu legend Bruce Lee, Legend of a legend lah... hehe so anyway, this movie was about his young age... the sequel will likely be about the time he has with bruce lee... and speculation thus far the person they have in mind to play that role is.........>AARON KWOK!!!!

I mean give me a break already which part of aaron look like bruce lee.... I am just going to let the picture do the talking... you be the judge...



i tink the bad guy from kung fu hustle has a closer looking feature man... HAHAH *roll eye*

Niu year! MOOooOOO

Halo everyone... hope you guys have alot of fun collecting angbaos and all... hehe... anyway didn't take any picture for chinese new year this year. all this picture that you are going to see is all not taken by myself... hahaha partly coz my camera cannot make it anymore after its terrible fall awhile ago... been rather senile lets just put it that way. Anyway, this year CNY wasn't off to a very good start for me, coz my mum was ill on chu yi... so i stayed home to take care of her... the onli visiting i did this year was chu er, to Auntie Angie's and Serene's place. Apart from that, the rest of my new year is spent protecting the nation.. hahaha

here is whatever I have... enjoy...


This was taken on chu xi.... pretty much count down to the year of the ox with these buddies of mine... haha been frens for so many years... its great to have them to usher in the new year with me... hehe... its a post majong shot... hee



As for these ladies, wanted to go chinatown for abit of a festive mood... haha but well let just say our tummy was on strike so just after 1/2 hour there, we were off to NEWTON CIRCUS!~!~ to have the gong gong and the la la (yah to be stupid singers!~!~! hahahah) it was an enjoyable night.. OH YAH IRENE!~!~ I WAN THE PICTURES LEH!~!~! hee...



And finally the only CNY pictures I took, hee must be think why there is only 2 of us, well I AM SHY!~!~! hahaha nah... there is the senior clan (or serene calls them the "fossil clan") and the youngsters clan, of course i mixed around the youngsters lah, its too stressful being around the other clan... so this is taken while we are happily chatting up over dinner... and there was Serene's cousin, whom I met for the first time... so yah... hehe SHY lah... hehe but it was really enjoyable...

Thats about it for my CNY... people make new year resolution, but I make NIU year resolution, which is for everyone to have good health, faster recovery of the economy and of course jobs for everyone... So Ms. Universe right... okok something for myself then... I want to look like Jason Statham from the Transporter... haha know the dream is abit far fetched... but dare to dream and u will succeed... donno hu i heard it from... but whatever lah.. hehe HAPPY NIU YEAR EVERYONE!~!~!~

Sentosa

Was out last weekend to sentosa, hoping to get a tan... but ended up basking under the clouds so took a few pictures instead...and with a little modification, it looks something like this...

Emo day...

This week is a bad week.... today is a bad day... running sux... not only today, just because I have not been working out... I am losing it... ARGH!~!~! I hate it... I hate it whenever I get in the flow... things arises and distrupt... I hate myself, I hate my discipline... I just hate myself... hopefully it will not persist...

I Got Tagged

Directions:Once u've been tagged,you have to write a note with 20 random things, fact, habits or goals about you. At the end, choose and tag 10 ppl,listing their names & why you choose them.

* im being tagged by Peili =) *

1) I am happily attached with dearest...

2) I adore donnie yen & Jason Statham!!!

3) I want to do something drastic to my hair...

4) I am called back for reservist!~!~! WHY!!!!

5) I miss poly life...

6) I miss the beach...

7) I love to cook simple home cook meal with Serene

8) I should really start my spring cleaning.... at least for my room.

9) I need retail therapy!~!~!~

10) I miss working out in the gym...

11) My Cousin is PREGNANT!~!~! I am gonna be an uncle soon!!!

12) I am currently reading Time Traveller's Wife

13) I cannot feel the CNY mood. *partly coz it means i have to go back for reservist...

14) I wan a dog... a shiba inu will be good!~!~

15) Am looking like la bi xiao xin.... need to do something with my brows.. haha

16) I own the most number of shoes at home... haha

17) I need to start running again...

18) I am as fair as snow white....

19) Thinking of doing a tattoo..

20) I was fat. well everyone knows haa, but am still fat :~(

im tagging Serene (chia), Wai Leng, Cindy, Fong Cheng, Sasa, Karen, Joyce, Fen, Chuance, Dennes

The Past....OMG!~!~!~

Was packing through my cds when i found a stack of cd that I burned before my previous harddisk decide to crash on me... Inside are fond memories... photos from many past event. Although there are plenty that I have lost during the crashed I am thankful for the few that I have burn as looking through them brings back many many wonderful memories. So much so that I have to blog to share a few... haha... What you are going to see from here on might be disturbing... so if you have a weak heart or cannot take shock... i suggest u close the window immediately... hahaha

Picture 1: taken while first landed in Aussie on my school trip while waiting for our bus...


Yes... in case you are wondering... the man in the picture is me... haha trying to make a farnie face which ended up looking pretty scary... i got a fright myself too while browsing... the lady in my background is Sherine... guess she is taking in fresh air from foreign soil... wonder if i should tell her I farted at that point of time... HAHAHAHA P.S. I still have that pair of specs... its from Okealy...

Picture 2 taken on one of my haircut sessions....


This was my poly days... haha you should have seen me doing mohawk... hahah with golden mane... I really look like the horse from the Hong Kong Golden horse awards man... HAHAHA

Picture 3 was also taken during my trip to aussie, in Bathurst.

While i was ever the fortunate one to be taking pictures with the pretty ladies with 'killer looks'... i too have the "killer Look"... haha my HAIR!~!~ whatever was I tinking I donno... i just remember using alot of gatsby super strong hold gel(back then it was still gel yah) and wah la!~!~ it can withstand the wind and definitely puncture someone man... dun play play arh... hehe that was later know as the Shit hairstyle or "dai bian tou" as it resembles the shape and the colour of shit -___-"'

Picture 4 was during one of my shopping trip after working hours.... remember it was sale in BI so we just went it tried and took picture with it... hahah remember how we always had the 'model' dream... hahahaha



Fun times back then...

Last picture was my first encounter with felicia chin... haha during my unit Dinner and Dance so exciting...




I was new... so that explains my hairstyle.... erm... what hairstyle... hahahah i mean the lack of hairstyle... hee...


Time files... and looking back all these serves evolves many wonderful memories, at the same time teach me alot... I thank the invention of cameras... without it... there is really nothing to look back and laugh on... HAHAHA

Interpretation to life

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New Year!!!

Happy new year to ALL!!! hee barely felt 2008 and already its 2009...time really flew and looking back at 2008, i really cannot figured out what happened man... hahaha...

Quite a few resolution for the new year.... starting with the more brief ones

1) Good Health to my family and friends, especially Serene, whom haven't been in the pink of health for a long time

2) Happiness to all...

3) Less war/man-made disasters

3) To get a job after my attachment (any lobang please intro k =P)

Now for the more specific one

1) Drop weight healthy to 70kg (my ideal) currently hovering around 75-76kg

2) More active in sports (go back to dragonboat pehaps)

3) Improve to be a better person (both in charater and also attitude)

That's all i can think of for now... Have a great year ahead everyone!~!~!