Today, was feeling bored and looking back at past photos, the one taken in Australia in particular. Its a strange experience, but in a good way. Looking at those pictures actually brought be back to that particular period of time, and its very very fond memories.
Comparing my past to the present, its seems that I have lost alot of laughter and fun times. It got me thinking whether losing all that weight was worth it... Seems to me I am happier and more carefree when I was fat. Needless to worry about how others look at me, at least that wasn't my major concern (unlike now). I wonder did I lose the fun ryan with lots of smiles and laughter times in the process of my weight loss. Did it go off together? I wonder...
Today, last practise before the actual tml, everything went pretty smoothly. After practise,went to makan, along they way, they made alot of noise chasing each other and all. I used to be one of them... but tonight I seems like I really dun fit in at all... I see what "Generation Gap" means for the first time. I hate it when I contridict myself.... here I am saying I will stop meddling in NYPSB problems, but there I was, worrying for their future, their current states. I have to stop this, its not who I am, I was "professional" last time, leaving after prac and no worries about anything. RYAN GET A HOLD OF URSELF... find back the past fun and laughter... anyone hu knows tell me how... I am getting myself too involved... and its not good... haiz...
Well off to prepare for tml liao... Nightz!!!
Thursday, April 26, 2007
Wednesday, April 25, 2007
Musical...
I am finally taken a breather from all the rehearsal this past few days, returning home close to midnight every night. Missed home cooked food, and free time, reaching home before the suns set,etc. I miss home... hehez...
Now move on to my day, its a day of work and gym basically. Got down to office in noon to do some work. We are shifting, likely location being thomson, serangoon garden or geylang. OMG!!! all pretty inconvinent (except for gardens). Saw quite a number of victims to fashion disasters today. Not that I am fantastic in fashion or what, but those people literally have and invisble signboard hanging around their neck with "I AM A FASHION DISASTER! LOOK AT ME!" written on it. I shall name one example. While i was heading to the gym from work, I was in the train when this girl came on the train a few station after me. Her overall colour was black. She is a tall girl. She wore a baby doll top with white floral print with a flary bottom layer, accessoried with a black thin glossy belt. den her bottom, she wore super skinny jeans and to end off her horror, a pair of rubber "crocs" alike shoes. Might sound ok to some of u... but its not lah... the flare from her top and the skinny jeans didn't compliment her hip at all making her look very broad on her mid section. She is tall and her top was very short, which make her proportion what? 20 to 80? it was that bad... worse her skinny jeans seems too short, exposing part of her ankel, so its like neither a full jeans nor a 3/4. Thus the shoe was just "icing to the cake" yah thats the fashion disaster example, she is averaging looking but she definately needs a waredrobe make over man....
Worked pretty hard in the gym today. My weight have been stagnent at 75ish for a very long while now... thou this is my inital target, my new target is 72kg, which seem harder then climbing to the top of mount everest. But I have no one but myself to blame lah, my diet is screwing up, abstaining from eating at the wrong time, ended up eating and snacking late at night, going to bed feeling bloated. Haiz... Time to revise my diet again. Apart from that, the shoulder is still restricting me from doing push-ups. Delaying my plans to get to the level of fitness i want. Damn...
Well thats all for today lah, been raining the entire day, hopefully tml is gonna be bright and sunny as I am going for a tan!!! so SUN PLEASE COME OUT!!! other then that, more rehearsals for musical as the actual is on Friday and Saturday, starts at 7pm till 8ish i suppose. Cya pples!!!
Now move on to my day, its a day of work and gym basically. Got down to office in noon to do some work. We are shifting, likely location being thomson, serangoon garden or geylang. OMG!!! all pretty inconvinent (except for gardens). Saw quite a number of victims to fashion disasters today. Not that I am fantastic in fashion or what, but those people literally have and invisble signboard hanging around their neck with "I AM A FASHION DISASTER! LOOK AT ME!" written on it. I shall name one example. While i was heading to the gym from work, I was in the train when this girl came on the train a few station after me. Her overall colour was black. She is a tall girl. She wore a baby doll top with white floral print with a flary bottom layer, accessoried with a black thin glossy belt. den her bottom, she wore super skinny jeans and to end off her horror, a pair of rubber "crocs" alike shoes. Might sound ok to some of u... but its not lah... the flare from her top and the skinny jeans didn't compliment her hip at all making her look very broad on her mid section. She is tall and her top was very short, which make her proportion what? 20 to 80? it was that bad... worse her skinny jeans seems too short, exposing part of her ankel, so its like neither a full jeans nor a 3/4. Thus the shoe was just "icing to the cake" yah thats the fashion disaster example, she is averaging looking but she definately needs a waredrobe make over man....
Worked pretty hard in the gym today. My weight have been stagnent at 75ish for a very long while now... thou this is my inital target, my new target is 72kg, which seem harder then climbing to the top of mount everest. But I have no one but myself to blame lah, my diet is screwing up, abstaining from eating at the wrong time, ended up eating and snacking late at night, going to bed feeling bloated. Haiz... Time to revise my diet again. Apart from that, the shoulder is still restricting me from doing push-ups. Delaying my plans to get to the level of fitness i want. Damn...
Well thats all for today lah, been raining the entire day, hopefully tml is gonna be bright and sunny as I am going for a tan!!! so SUN PLEASE COME OUT!!! other then that, more rehearsals for musical as the actual is on Friday and Saturday, starts at 7pm till 8ish i suppose. Cya pples!!!
Monday, April 23, 2007
Awesome Weekend!!!
This weekend is one of the best weekend that I had since ages ago, not that its was much different from other weekend, just that I attended one of the best musical ever written, The Phantom Of the Opera, and it didn't disappoint. Will go into more details of it later on...
Saturday, met up with the gang, with old and new cliques (Old being Meiting and Sasa, new would have to be Jing Si, Sarah and that guy, which i cannot remember his name... oppz sorri). Anyway met them in town, they had lunch and since I had a filling breakfast, I forgo lunch. That table continues with its "never ending battle" story, hehez, I guess only those present will understand where I am heading. I shared abit of my views and hopefully not inflicting too much pressure on anyone. After lunch (which was like 4pm) we went for a little window shopping. Initally wanted to catch a movie but there wasn't any good slots. In the evening, Meiting and sarah left us, the guy left earlier after lunch to meet his frens. So its left with Sasa, Jing Si and Me. we followed Jing Si to PS, as she wanted to check something out at creative. But after a LONG consideration, we still left the place empty handed (hehe guess I was putting too much pressure on Jing Si, sori arh...) hehez... Xiu came to meet us during that period of time, and after dinner, everyone being as ON as they are, decide to go KTV (2nd weekend in a row). We sang our hearts out, and as Sasa wasn't in her best condition, she still managed to perform fairly in a different class. hehez... its was really enjoyable, and I must say, Jing si can sing. Would classify her under the Hebi (from SHE) and Faye (from FIR) range. but she can sing. Ended off the session at 1am, and its was still alot of laughs in the cab home.
Sunday, initally wanted to get a tan at Sentosa, but my lazy bone got the best of me, and ended up slacking home the entire day. Prepared myself for the big night an hour early (I can be quite a lady, when comes to dressing up, haha love taking my own sweet time, hehez...) Was suppose to meet with Sasa and Karen for dinner, which ends up as a romantic dinner for 2 as Sasa "fly the plane" at the very late min. Dinner was enjoyable as we chatted and waited for the rest to arrive. When everyone has more or less arrived, we head down to the esplande for the show I have been waiting and looking forward to for the longest time. It was also a reunion for me and my bestie Shi Jia, haven't seen her in awhile and she is still as helpless when it comes to my "wet blanket" jokes.. hahaha (i can get pretty evil at times *muahahaha, but only to people I know very well lah... hehez..) Shortly after we enter and when every is seated down, the show commences, and it was like we were literally transported to another world. Everything from the costumes to the lightings to the props was excellent, and every scenes seems like paintings on the wall. Not to mention, the singing was superb, listening to them will definately have a whole new meaning to me when I play the concert piece in the future. Its no wonder its one of the longest running music around. Words are really unable to describle how good it was, all I know was that when it was all over, I applaured till my hand hurt, and there was this one particular scene, where I was so moved, that a tear actually rolled down my cheek, it was that good.
Apart from the great singer, there was also a great orchestra that backs them up. From the sounds of its, I was expecting at least a 70 or 80 strong Orchestra to be backing them up. But as the show ended, we went forward to check out the orchestra and was amazed by what we saw... Its was just shocking... Overall, a wonderful night, and once again the feeling of "Unreal" just came back to me, like when I was at holland to compete in WMC, it just feel like it didn't just happened in that period of time. I was also taken aback by the number of friends I met in just one night. Hehe
As it was a Sunday night, we headed straight home after the performance. Would really love to sit and chat about the performance with them, but considering everyone gotta work the next day, we had no choice. Went back with Shi Jia (considering we stay 15 mins apart), on the way we talk and catch up abit. As usual, there will be a topic touched on me being single and who I am targetting, blah blah blah. Its nothing but everytime this topic is brought up, its would get me thinking alot, like "why?" and all that kinda stuff... True, I really would love to be in a relationship, but its not like I have much of a choice when the right person doesn't not appear right? I wonder at times, even if I meet the right girl, how am I to approach? In the past, even when I didn't meet the right girl, but my "over-warm" attitude, almost ruin friendship. So should I take the "soft" approach? hmm... hahah see how much it made me think.
I am not sure if this happens to u... but do you ever feel uneasy when u have a very close friend, the type where you can literally make fun of and know he/she is not gonna be angry type, is with her spouse and you reaction would be like a total stranger towards him/her, even when her bf/gf is also a fren of ur? Its like this barrier is there, making me feel very uneasy and just avoid them altogether. Guess partly due to past experience i suppose... HEHE love the last sentence shi jia left me with when i sent her home. "hope u dream of your girl tonite." Thx alot girl!!!
Anyway, a evening of masquerade and music of the night its was really a point of no return... hehez... Worth every SGD spent... Contented...
Saturday, met up with the gang, with old and new cliques (Old being Meiting and Sasa, new would have to be Jing Si, Sarah and that guy, which i cannot remember his name... oppz sorri). Anyway met them in town, they had lunch and since I had a filling breakfast, I forgo lunch. That table continues with its "never ending battle" story, hehez, I guess only those present will understand where I am heading. I shared abit of my views and hopefully not inflicting too much pressure on anyone. After lunch (which was like 4pm) we went for a little window shopping. Initally wanted to catch a movie but there wasn't any good slots. In the evening, Meiting and sarah left us, the guy left earlier after lunch to meet his frens. So its left with Sasa, Jing Si and Me. we followed Jing Si to PS, as she wanted to check something out at creative. But after a LONG consideration, we still left the place empty handed (hehe guess I was putting too much pressure on Jing Si, sori arh...) hehez... Xiu came to meet us during that period of time, and after dinner, everyone being as ON as they are, decide to go KTV (2nd weekend in a row). We sang our hearts out, and as Sasa wasn't in her best condition, she still managed to perform fairly in a different class. hehez... its was really enjoyable, and I must say, Jing si can sing. Would classify her under the Hebi (from SHE) and Faye (from FIR) range. but she can sing. Ended off the session at 1am, and its was still alot of laughs in the cab home.
Sunday, initally wanted to get a tan at Sentosa, but my lazy bone got the best of me, and ended up slacking home the entire day. Prepared myself for the big night an hour early (I can be quite a lady, when comes to dressing up, haha love taking my own sweet time, hehez...) Was suppose to meet with Sasa and Karen for dinner, which ends up as a romantic dinner for 2 as Sasa "fly the plane" at the very late min. Dinner was enjoyable as we chatted and waited for the rest to arrive. When everyone has more or less arrived, we head down to the esplande for the show I have been waiting and looking forward to for the longest time. It was also a reunion for me and my bestie Shi Jia, haven't seen her in awhile and she is still as helpless when it comes to my "wet blanket" jokes.. hahaha (i can get pretty evil at times *muahahaha, but only to people I know very well lah... hehez..) Shortly after we enter and when every is seated down, the show commences, and it was like we were literally transported to another world. Everything from the costumes to the lightings to the props was excellent, and every scenes seems like paintings on the wall. Not to mention, the singing was superb, listening to them will definately have a whole new meaning to me when I play the concert piece in the future. Its no wonder its one of the longest running music around. Words are really unable to describle how good it was, all I know was that when it was all over, I applaured till my hand hurt, and there was this one particular scene, where I was so moved, that a tear actually rolled down my cheek, it was that good.
Apart from the great singer, there was also a great orchestra that backs them up. From the sounds of its, I was expecting at least a 70 or 80 strong Orchestra to be backing them up. But as the show ended, we went forward to check out the orchestra and was amazed by what we saw... Its was just shocking... Overall, a wonderful night, and once again the feeling of "Unreal" just came back to me, like when I was at holland to compete in WMC, it just feel like it didn't just happened in that period of time. I was also taken aback by the number of friends I met in just one night. Hehe
As it was a Sunday night, we headed straight home after the performance. Would really love to sit and chat about the performance with them, but considering everyone gotta work the next day, we had no choice. Went back with Shi Jia (considering we stay 15 mins apart), on the way we talk and catch up abit. As usual, there will be a topic touched on me being single and who I am targetting, blah blah blah. Its nothing but everytime this topic is brought up, its would get me thinking alot, like "why?" and all that kinda stuff... True, I really would love to be in a relationship, but its not like I have much of a choice when the right person doesn't not appear right? I wonder at times, even if I meet the right girl, how am I to approach? In the past, even when I didn't meet the right girl, but my "over-warm" attitude, almost ruin friendship. So should I take the "soft" approach? hmm... hahah see how much it made me think.
I am not sure if this happens to u... but do you ever feel uneasy when u have a very close friend, the type where you can literally make fun of and know he/she is not gonna be angry type, is with her spouse and you reaction would be like a total stranger towards him/her, even when her bf/gf is also a fren of ur? Its like this barrier is there, making me feel very uneasy and just avoid them altogether. Guess partly due to past experience i suppose... HEHE love the last sentence shi jia left me with when i sent her home. "hope u dream of your girl tonite." Thx alot girl!!!
Anyway, a evening of masquerade and music of the night its was really a point of no return... hehez... Worth every SGD spent... Contented...
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