Its finally friday! the start to a weekend, the first weekend of the new year... excited? definately, because the concert is this Sunday! my first concert after a very long while, and what more at VCH, a place that I miss dearly and have alot of wonderful memories in.
Lets talk about practise yesterday, was there slightly late, hmm overall, practise was fun. Finally got a feel of the full strenght of the band, and we sound not too bad. Was kinda worried about our performance, but from yesterday, seems like I am just over worried. I guess I am a big lier? hmm, or rather, a good pretender. The best things a Sagi can do is hiding feeling I suppose. Shall leave it here... hehez... shall not continue on my sad life. Back to band, kinda left as soon as band prac ended. 2nd time walking out of school alone, first was on saturday. Strangely, the feeling is totally different. Saturday as I walked out, there was an air of loneliness, like I was the only person left on earth. But yesterday, I felt relieved, I cannot explain my feeling but it felt good and very calming. Guess my isolation phrase is gonna set in. Haha, starting to sound like a depressed child isn't it? hehez...
Anyway, today, got plenty of things done before heading to work, settle my army claims on my little dislocaton, and also went to collect my home theatre set. Apparently its out of stock, and will only arrive in 2 weeks or 1 month time, meaning its not going to meet the timeing to my TV OMG!!! haiz... just hope it all make it before Chinese New Year! After that, since i was around the area, went to pray at the temple first before heading to work. Lucky things is i still managed to make it to work on time. hehez. After work today, will probably be heading down town to get tie for the concert. If nothing is plan, pehaps catch a movie? The Queen pehaps? got very good ratings on it. so yeah, this is likely the plan for the day. Enjoy the weekend pple!
Friday, January 05, 2007
Thursday, January 04, 2007
First day of work for the new year!
After a moody tuesday, recuperated at home yesterday just to sort out my thinking and "educate" myself on the dos and don'ts just to get myself out of the image of the BIG G!!!
While still recovery from my "sudden depression" I managed to finish watching "Gong, My Sassy Princess". Review, its dame nice lor! Looking at the dress sense of the Crown Prince, quite a number of his colour combination is pretty feminie, my mum even mistaken him as a girl. But yet no one calls him G! haiz, its a cruel world. Dressing like that in Singapore will definately draw alot of attention, but I absolutely love the dressing, and I am sure it definately comes with a price (both monetary and image wise).
Read in today issue of URBAN, it reads "Singaporeans in general are always safe, unadventurous and traditional in their dressing. At best, it is nothing but an echo of whatever that is happening in Milan, London or New York - and even then, it is usually six months to a year late". Its very sad to hear such comments, and me being a fashion freak and all, is pretty sad to admit I too still fall under that category. But that statment is very true thou. Lets not say the guys, honestly speaking, guys that can dress in Singapore is like say 5% and out of the 5% I suppose most work in design or related field.
But then again, saying Singapore have bad dress sense, its not totally fair to us too i feel. Its not that we don't want to dress, but our climate dun allow as to dress, can u imagine wearing a nice top or slightly thicker top, fashionable, yes, but imagine it with perspiration stain, with our climate, a short walk down orchard road on a sunny day will make most people pespire. So with that in consideration, most people in Singapore obviously cannot dress as fanciful comparing to those country with 4 seasons. No doubt, if we compare to countries like New York, Milan, and even Asia country like Japan, HK and Taiwan, Singapore is no where in the league in terms of fashion. But there no denial that we are pretty fashionable in our region.
There is a line I read, and feel made alot of sense and think we should reflect on would be "Singapore tries to be a First World Country but has a Third World mentality" There is nothing wrong in keeping some roots. But well, Singapore I feel is still pretty conservative in her thinking, maybe overly conservative. Thus "cultivating" majority her people to take the safe approach in things, for this case fashion.
Bottomline is, to change fashion trends in Singapore is not an easy job, as majority have already got used to the "Jap-trend" or the "Korean-trend" and even the "Taiwan- trend", mostly influenced by those drama serials they have come out with. I myself admit, got quite a number of my ideas from there too (especially the Jap and Korean ones). So I mean there is really no right or wrong dress sense, as long whatever you wear can represent your your character, you are able to feel comfortable in it, I suppose its fine. I know its easier said then done, I myself is still trying to get over the fact that people think my dress sense is too feminie when I think is prefectly fine.
Hmm.. guess that my 2 cents worth on fashion, there is plenty more, but I guess if i carry on, I can start a book on it already. So yeah, strange from watching vcd at home I can related to fashion. But after today's issue of URBAN, I better understand the current situation of our country "fashion state" and hopefully will one day get out of the common circle and pehaps a fashion setter? Who knows right? Alright thats all for now... Cheers!
While still recovery from my "sudden depression" I managed to finish watching "Gong, My Sassy Princess". Review, its dame nice lor! Looking at the dress sense of the Crown Prince, quite a number of his colour combination is pretty feminie, my mum even mistaken him as a girl. But yet no one calls him G! haiz, its a cruel world. Dressing like that in Singapore will definately draw alot of attention, but I absolutely love the dressing, and I am sure it definately comes with a price (both monetary and image wise).
Read in today issue of URBAN, it reads "Singaporeans in general are always safe, unadventurous and traditional in their dressing. At best, it is nothing but an echo of whatever that is happening in Milan, London or New York - and even then, it is usually six months to a year late". Its very sad to hear such comments, and me being a fashion freak and all, is pretty sad to admit I too still fall under that category. But that statment is very true thou. Lets not say the guys, honestly speaking, guys that can dress in Singapore is like say 5% and out of the 5% I suppose most work in design or related field.
But then again, saying Singapore have bad dress sense, its not totally fair to us too i feel. Its not that we don't want to dress, but our climate dun allow as to dress, can u imagine wearing a nice top or slightly thicker top, fashionable, yes, but imagine it with perspiration stain, with our climate, a short walk down orchard road on a sunny day will make most people pespire. So with that in consideration, most people in Singapore obviously cannot dress as fanciful comparing to those country with 4 seasons. No doubt, if we compare to countries like New York, Milan, and even Asia country like Japan, HK and Taiwan, Singapore is no where in the league in terms of fashion. But there no denial that we are pretty fashionable in our region.
There is a line I read, and feel made alot of sense and think we should reflect on would be "Singapore tries to be a First World Country but has a Third World mentality" There is nothing wrong in keeping some roots. But well, Singapore I feel is still pretty conservative in her thinking, maybe overly conservative. Thus "cultivating" majority her people to take the safe approach in things, for this case fashion.
Bottomline is, to change fashion trends in Singapore is not an easy job, as majority have already got used to the "Jap-trend" or the "Korean-trend" and even the "Taiwan- trend", mostly influenced by those drama serials they have come out with. I myself admit, got quite a number of my ideas from there too (especially the Jap and Korean ones). So I mean there is really no right or wrong dress sense, as long whatever you wear can represent your your character, you are able to feel comfortable in it, I suppose its fine. I know its easier said then done, I myself is still trying to get over the fact that people think my dress sense is too feminie when I think is prefectly fine.
Hmm.. guess that my 2 cents worth on fashion, there is plenty more, but I guess if i carry on, I can start a book on it already. So yeah, strange from watching vcd at home I can related to fashion. But after today's issue of URBAN, I better understand the current situation of our country "fashion state" and hopefully will one day get out of the common circle and pehaps a fashion setter? Who knows right? Alright thats all for now... Cheers!
Tuesday, January 02, 2007
Argh!!!
Strange to be blogging twice in a day! but even stranger how things affect my mood.... Freaking hell lor... dame fustrated now... was ok a moment ago... WHATS WRONG WITH ME!!!
My life is a mess, 22 years old, mid life crisis? I honestly doubt. But strangely, I feel I lived a life of a clown, people making a fool out of me, or rather I making a fool of myself just that people around me have a good laugh. All the thing about GAY, when I say i got used to it...i lied, honestly, which guy enjoys being called a GAY, when he is actually straight. Pressure around me mounts i suppose with this kinda remark. But who can be blamed but myself, accepting all that comments with smile and ignorance.... Thought that it will all be over if I just take it, people would just grow tired of calling me that, and stop.... but no... it lingers... Whats wrong with having good dress sense, guys on tv drama dress 10 time more "glam" then me, and there is no one calling them gay, and me, just wanting to look more presentable or rather, dress comfy for occasion get the "colour lens" look (aka you se de yan jing kan wo). Do I have to ask permission from anyone just to dress myself, pamper myself, for all the sacrifies I have made for what I achieve now? Call me over sensitive, but at times when people pass comment, it might seem that I dun give a damn, and even laugh it off... but my heart is already scarred. Frens or foes i have, I am really unsure. Its not fair for me to pass judgement on anyone, cause they probably all innocent, not knowing the damage they have done, and the real power of words. The fault lies with myself I suppose. Call me cheap, slut, whatever, its seems that by keeping quiet and even laughing at their supposedly jokes! I am actually encouraging more comment to come! ITS ALL MY FAULT!!!
I hate myself! I hate the fact that i always seem to know alot, but actually know NOTHING! I hate my oversensitivity, I hate my lack of self confidence, I hate my looks, my character, my "Gayness" act or what ever aura within me that give pple the impression that I am one. I HATE MYSELF period.
Everytime, I would think of ways to change things, but never once I dare say I am successful, its pretty much NATO (No Action Talk Only) I am not saying all this to get pity from friends, attract attention to myself whatever not. But its really time I should reflect on my own character. I need a mentor, but I suppose the best mentor would be myself, no one knows me better then myself I guess. Fustration takes over me now... can't believe I can type so much despite a blank mind now. Issues that I have bottom inside me for a long time, in here i would say are those that are already unable to contain, plenty I wish not to speak off.... How I wish I can have a pair of wings, fly to another place far far away, and start everything anew. New environment, new surroundings, new people, new everything.... who can save me? i wonder...
My life is a mess, 22 years old, mid life crisis? I honestly doubt. But strangely, I feel I lived a life of a clown, people making a fool out of me, or rather I making a fool of myself just that people around me have a good laugh. All the thing about GAY, when I say i got used to it...i lied, honestly, which guy enjoys being called a GAY, when he is actually straight. Pressure around me mounts i suppose with this kinda remark. But who can be blamed but myself, accepting all that comments with smile and ignorance.... Thought that it will all be over if I just take it, people would just grow tired of calling me that, and stop.... but no... it lingers... Whats wrong with having good dress sense, guys on tv drama dress 10 time more "glam" then me, and there is no one calling them gay, and me, just wanting to look more presentable or rather, dress comfy for occasion get the "colour lens" look (aka you se de yan jing kan wo). Do I have to ask permission from anyone just to dress myself, pamper myself, for all the sacrifies I have made for what I achieve now? Call me over sensitive, but at times when people pass comment, it might seem that I dun give a damn, and even laugh it off... but my heart is already scarred. Frens or foes i have, I am really unsure. Its not fair for me to pass judgement on anyone, cause they probably all innocent, not knowing the damage they have done, and the real power of words. The fault lies with myself I suppose. Call me cheap, slut, whatever, its seems that by keeping quiet and even laughing at their supposedly jokes! I am actually encouraging more comment to come! ITS ALL MY FAULT!!!
I hate myself! I hate the fact that i always seem to know alot, but actually know NOTHING! I hate my oversensitivity, I hate my lack of self confidence, I hate my looks, my character, my "Gayness" act or what ever aura within me that give pple the impression that I am one. I HATE MYSELF period.
Everytime, I would think of ways to change things, but never once I dare say I am successful, its pretty much NATO (No Action Talk Only) I am not saying all this to get pity from friends, attract attention to myself whatever not. But its really time I should reflect on my own character. I need a mentor, but I suppose the best mentor would be myself, no one knows me better then myself I guess. Fustration takes over me now... can't believe I can type so much despite a blank mind now. Issues that I have bottom inside me for a long time, in here i would say are those that are already unable to contain, plenty I wish not to speak off.... How I wish I can have a pair of wings, fly to another place far far away, and start everything anew. New environment, new surroundings, new people, new everything.... who can save me? i wonder...
Clean Clean Clean...
Today its yet another public holiday! haha its hari raya haji, so get to slack at home for yet another day. But the day was not wasted thou. Help mum with abit of spring cleaning as we usher in the new year.
Was initally thinking of going to the beach to get a tan, but the sore of my shoulder changed my mood entirely. So I decide to stay home instead. Haiz, this injury have once again cause my engine to stall man. Just hopefully i can get back to the gym real soon. ARGH, the bordem is killing me. Heez, not reallly a good start to a new year u might say. Then again, new year = Stress for me, coz to be honest, I haven't have a direction in life. Study? Work? I mean I have a path, that I tell everyone, which is to work, and see where my passion lies, from there I carry one my studies so to pursue my job. But the problem is, what do i want to do? everytime when i face that question, i turn to something else. I know its not nice to keep avoiding, and it does not solve it at all. But I am indeed at the point of lost. Till i sort things out, my main concern at the moment i suppose is to get into tip top shape, so that at least when I enter the workforce, I will just have to maintain. So hopefully my shoulder can get back to shape ASAP!!! pray pray pray....
As for today, as i said, help my mum in some do some spring cleaning, making myself useful at home. Nothing happening as usual, normally this time will be packing up ready to go for muay thai lesson, but today, haiz... no need to go, not planning to do it for the next 1.5 months. Fustrating. Have been feeling weird since the night at Jac's place. hmm, its not the sick type of feeling weird, just emotionally feeling weird. I suppose the sight of all that emotion that night kinda affected me in one way or another. I hate myself sometimes, for my over sensitivity, but I just cannot help it, its in me... hmm maybe my resolution for this year is to change my character. Change to become cold and heartless... girls seem to like that alot... haha Tough challenge, but I will try.
Ok ba, I suppose thats all for today. Oh yah, concert is this coming sunday (Jan 7th) , details are as follows
Venue: Victoria Concert Hall
Date : 7th Jan 2007
Time: 5pm
Price: SGD 10 (free seating)
Would say a concert not to be missed coz I am performing again... haha okok bhb, but honestly a good concert (I hope). Looking forward to performing again, and hope to see u there... Muackz...
Was initally thinking of going to the beach to get a tan, but the sore of my shoulder changed my mood entirely. So I decide to stay home instead. Haiz, this injury have once again cause my engine to stall man. Just hopefully i can get back to the gym real soon. ARGH, the bordem is killing me. Heez, not reallly a good start to a new year u might say. Then again, new year = Stress for me, coz to be honest, I haven't have a direction in life. Study? Work? I mean I have a path, that I tell everyone, which is to work, and see where my passion lies, from there I carry one my studies so to pursue my job. But the problem is, what do i want to do? everytime when i face that question, i turn to something else. I know its not nice to keep avoiding, and it does not solve it at all. But I am indeed at the point of lost. Till i sort things out, my main concern at the moment i suppose is to get into tip top shape, so that at least when I enter the workforce, I will just have to maintain. So hopefully my shoulder can get back to shape ASAP!!! pray pray pray....
As for today, as i said, help my mum in some do some spring cleaning, making myself useful at home. Nothing happening as usual, normally this time will be packing up ready to go for muay thai lesson, but today, haiz... no need to go, not planning to do it for the next 1.5 months. Fustrating. Have been feeling weird since the night at Jac's place. hmm, its not the sick type of feeling weird, just emotionally feeling weird. I suppose the sight of all that emotion that night kinda affected me in one way or another. I hate myself sometimes, for my over sensitivity, but I just cannot help it, its in me... hmm maybe my resolution for this year is to change my character. Change to become cold and heartless... girls seem to like that alot... haha Tough challenge, but I will try.
Ok ba, I suppose thats all for today. Oh yah, concert is this coming sunday (Jan 7th) , details are as follows
Venue: Victoria Concert Hall
Date : 7th Jan 2007
Time: 5pm
Price: SGD 10 (free seating)
Would say a concert not to be missed coz I am performing again... haha okok bhb, but honestly a good concert (I hope). Looking forward to performing again, and hope to see u there... Muackz...
Monday, January 01, 2007
Welcome 2007!!!
Helo one and all!!! First of all, I would just like to wish everyone a HAPPY 2007 ahead! May all your new year resolutions be accomplished this new year!!!
Anyway, yesterday was alot of fun I must say. Needed to settle somethings at home initally, and was thinking of meeting the gang only in the evening for steamboat and all. But as i finished my stuff earlier, and the gang decided to meet up a little later than expected, we met at 3, and for some reason they are late, and they were dame worried I am angry can! haha ok sure, I dun like late-comers or people that cannot keep to time, but I suppose good weather and the fact that its the eve to a new year kept my spirit alright. Met up with the gang (Trisa, Karen, Pei yi, Tommy, Xiu and Jun Hong) for a little KTV session. And after that, we head off to Bugis for some Mala huo guo. Jac (together with Gwen and Keenan) and Herbert joined us. Food was fantastic, and we all left with a satisfied look on our face. Next we headed off to the bay to catch the fireworks. Singaporeans are really crazy when it comes to this kinda thing man. 10 mins of fireworks and the place is packed to the max. Honestly, I don't feel its worth it... hehez.. After that, I was in the "party" mood, but its soon dull off due to the unusual flow of people, kinda dampen the mood. We sat about boat quay for awhile before deciding to head over to Jac place to continue this "party". When we got the her place, we got the booze flowing and it was dame fast. We finished a liter of volka in like 1 hr... haha crazy isn't it? haha all thx to me and my recommendation of INDIAN POKER!!! hehe... we also had another bottle of gin, which didn't lasted too long either, but still managed to keep flowing till the wee hours in the morning (with only me and keenan left standing, haha) The rest got dead drunk, dun blame them, i guess they are not used to taking in that much of alcohol. Well, after almost everyone got drunk, things got a little emotional, there were quite abit of tears for the ladies. Good to let out their feelings once and for all i suppose. Then, I had to take up the task of "nursing", escorting the drunk to the toilet as they puke their guts out... haha, and yes its all through the night. I had to clear the mess as well (haha someone have got to do the dirty work i suppose.) Left in the morning when things kinda in control.
Today, the moment i woke up, its was hydrating all the way man... haha, down water like nobody's business. Took the entire day to rid whatever left in my system. Hehe, i suppose my birthday party have once again bring up my level or tolerance on alcohol. But definately destroyed my stamina man. Went running and was back to my panting days (when I am fat).
So thats pretty much how my New Year Eve went. Fireworks, Booze, Laughter, Tears, Puke but hell lotsa fun... hehez. As for resolutions for the New Year, nothing much have change for me in the past years but here they are anyway... hehez....
* Good Health for my family and friends
* LOSE WEIGHT : Trying to get my ideal weight in a month and maintain from there.
* Get a Job that can pay for my shopping
* Find that special someone...
Thats all i can think for now... hehez... the last one haven't change for many years already. Kinda losing hope on it... but hey, as they say, love is strange, the more u look for it, the more u cannot find it. But once u stop looking, it comes knocking at ur doorstep. So I am taking things easy lah... hehez. TAKE CARE PPLE and have a great year ahead of you!!! 363 days to go!!!
Anyway, yesterday was alot of fun I must say. Needed to settle somethings at home initally, and was thinking of meeting the gang only in the evening for steamboat and all. But as i finished my stuff earlier, and the gang decided to meet up a little later than expected, we met at 3, and for some reason they are late, and they were dame worried I am angry can! haha ok sure, I dun like late-comers or people that cannot keep to time, but I suppose good weather and the fact that its the eve to a new year kept my spirit alright. Met up with the gang (Trisa, Karen, Pei yi, Tommy, Xiu and Jun Hong) for a little KTV session. And after that, we head off to Bugis for some Mala huo guo. Jac (together with Gwen and Keenan) and Herbert joined us. Food was fantastic, and we all left with a satisfied look on our face. Next we headed off to the bay to catch the fireworks. Singaporeans are really crazy when it comes to this kinda thing man. 10 mins of fireworks and the place is packed to the max. Honestly, I don't feel its worth it... hehez.. After that, I was in the "party" mood, but its soon dull off due to the unusual flow of people, kinda dampen the mood. We sat about boat quay for awhile before deciding to head over to Jac place to continue this "party". When we got the her place, we got the booze flowing and it was dame fast. We finished a liter of volka in like 1 hr... haha crazy isn't it? haha all thx to me and my recommendation of INDIAN POKER!!! hehe... we also had another bottle of gin, which didn't lasted too long either, but still managed to keep flowing till the wee hours in the morning (with only me and keenan left standing, haha) The rest got dead drunk, dun blame them, i guess they are not used to taking in that much of alcohol. Well, after almost everyone got drunk, things got a little emotional, there were quite abit of tears for the ladies. Good to let out their feelings once and for all i suppose. Then, I had to take up the task of "nursing", escorting the drunk to the toilet as they puke their guts out... haha, and yes its all through the night. I had to clear the mess as well (haha someone have got to do the dirty work i suppose.) Left in the morning when things kinda in control.
Today, the moment i woke up, its was hydrating all the way man... haha, down water like nobody's business. Took the entire day to rid whatever left in my system. Hehe, i suppose my birthday party have once again bring up my level or tolerance on alcohol. But definately destroyed my stamina man. Went running and was back to my panting days (when I am fat).
So thats pretty much how my New Year Eve went. Fireworks, Booze, Laughter, Tears, Puke but hell lotsa fun... hehez. As for resolutions for the New Year, nothing much have change for me in the past years but here they are anyway... hehez....
* Good Health for my family and friends
* LOSE WEIGHT : Trying to get my ideal weight in a month and maintain from there.
* Get a Job that can pay for my shopping
* Find that special someone...
Thats all i can think for now... hehez... the last one haven't change for many years already. Kinda losing hope on it... but hey, as they say, love is strange, the more u look for it, the more u cannot find it. But once u stop looking, it comes knocking at ur doorstep. So I am taking things easy lah... hehez. TAKE CARE PPLE and have a great year ahead of you!!! 363 days to go!!!
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