Saturday, March 31, 2007

Last day of the month, next 2 months is crucial...

Had a rather good last day of the month, also marks one month after my operation. Since it have already been 4 weeks after my operation, I think its time to stop procrastinating and whip myself back into shape. For the past few weeks, I have been constantly "bluffing" myself that its ok to slack, due to my arm, but this signs of "self-pity" have got to come to an end, as my body is starting to show clear signs from over-excessive slacking. My diet is screwed, hardly and muscle mass left, its depressing.

Anyway, m0re about my plans later, now for happenings of today, wasn't sure what to do today, made my way for band prac, first time after concert in january. The crowd was disappointing, with 5 members, our section was the biggest section of the day. I am sure you can tell how pathetic attendance was. However, all hope was not lost, suprisingly, we still sounded pretty decent, with me showing clear signs of lack of practise as I kept hitting wrong notes here and there. But overall it wasn't too bad. After which proceeded down to The Oasis at Kallang to meet Jayz, Yi Xin and Dawn for dinner, and kind of a get together session. It took me 1 1/2 hours by bus to reach the place (including waiting time), kinda got there on time, thank god I got all the time in the world. Well, Jayz was there first, followed by myself den the girls, on my way there, bumped into Raena, Hazel and Shobani, had a little chat. Hazel looked at me and gave me a worried looked, she is worried I might turn to the 'dark side' (turning gay) just by judging from the way I dress. Usually, I would be very bothered by such comments, but I guess I kinda sorted things out regarding that already, so I didn't feel much about it. I am comfortable with the way I dress I suppose, and if people would to think good dress sense as signs of turning gay, then I really have nothing much I can say.

Anyway, back to dinner, Jays was abit under the weather, came for the gathering despite having a fever. Take care man. Well, dinner was pretty nice, something that I like, porridge with sweet potatoe, together with side dishes. Was a pretty hearty meal. After which, we head down to bugis for a little dessert. Then after, we went over to bugis village to look around. I wanted to find myself a bag so they were sporting enough to come along. Thou I came back empty-handed, it was not a wasted trip as Jay managed to get himself a couple of CDs. After that, we called it a night since Jays isn't feeling very well. Dawn is pretty enthu about the next outing, and I am too looking forward to it. Thats pretty much my day, not alot, but its enough.

Come to think about it, my heaviest meal would have to be my breakfast and dinner today. Had 4 slices of bread for breakfast and that porridge for dinner, my lunch and snacks are settled with just 2 energy bars, an apple and a plum. Haha.... Anyway, strict diet starts from tml, gonna push myself and hopefully results will show in 2 months... JIA YOU!!!

Friday, March 30, 2007

Long awaited blog...

Just realised I haven't blogged for at least half a month now, terribly sorry people, have been feeling alot of ups and downs this couple of weeks, physically, emotionally, u named it (pretty much all about myself). I know I shouldn't be whining about life, but I guess I will call this phrase of my life a "mini mid life crisis". However, things are already pretty much sorted out, and will just waiting for some answer and finding solutions to some problems at hand and I am pretty much back on the right track. Now for what have been happening the past few weeks.

Hmm, despite problems, I still had time to hang out with my friends, latest being last weekend, having attended a fashion festival and also the recent COC (change of command) ceremony and makan session organised by band A. First the fashion fest, before the show, me and Azre went on a little shopping trip, pretty much popping by sales. First stop was suntec convention halls, things are pretty cheap with many different brands, however looking at the "crowd" and the way things are place, we were doubtful on how genuine the goods are. With that, we decide to head down to Club 21 Bazaar @ Holiday Inn instead at least the goods can be trusted. Thou things are cheap but the untidiness and the ugly sight of "hungry" Singaporean never fails to turn me off from shopping, and believe me, its very difficult to turning me off, especially shopping, so good buy would be like a Kelly Song's gown for $5, its those moments where you ask yourself why u are not a girl. Haha, anyway, had to leave the place empty handed and head back to raffles city for the show. Azre managed to get tickets for the show on sunday at Raffles city, would say its a pretty nice experience. Tickets are courtesy of Max, a junior from SAF band, nice chap, not very talkative for someone in his trade thou, hehe a rare breed for someone working in his profession, oh yah, he is a designer FYI. hehe, Anyway we attended Ecolux, pretty much showcased design that promotes saving the environment and saving resources. For the fact that its an "eco-friendly" show, I give credits to all the designers efforts as some of them are indeed pretty nice. However, its overall a pretty disappointing show as what is showcased didn't really wow me, and thing coming from a fashion newbie, its big news. Most of the piece displayed I would say is pretty much already in the current market I would say, except probably for the final designer, who inspiration I suppose came from her own backyard. I am not critising, just stating what I feel. But one thing is for sure, according to Max, the materials are special thus I guess you have to be in it to feel the difference, but overall, a good first experience, but a pretty disappointing one. Anyway, after that show, had a great get together session, as we met up with some of the ex band mates, people like Nasser, Zul, Azmi and Wei Ming and boy did we created a commotion at lao pasa, haha if there was a award for noisest crowd, I am sure we are top of the league man. In conclusion we had a smashing time.

Next, the makan session, its great to meet the guys after such a long time, and already I donno half the people in it, but I am sure glad to see some of them, people I haven't met ever since ORD, people like mervin. Overall its a simple makan session, pretty formal due to the change of command, but still food was not that bad. After which was shopping for me, Tuan Hao, Azre and Max. Max was abit under the weather, or just tired so he didn't join us for long. As for the 3 of us, we had quite a good time looking around and chit chats. Found a lane @ haji lane selling local designer goods, pretty neat, courtesy of Azre. After that we walked to raffles place and chilled at Ben Jerry's for a short while before we did more shopping. and from suntec we walk back into town when we realise that suntec have really nothing left to shop. Did alot of walking that day, but was really fun.

What else happened? hmm, oh my arm, is on a slow but progressive recovery, stitches are offical off, and sling is off as well, have done my first physio, and got advise on things I should do at home to aid in speeding up the recovery time. This shoulder have pretty much been the root of my problems this couple of weeks. To be honest, I have not workout ever since my last dislocation which is 19th of feb, not even running. To be honest, that got me worried and sinking into depression. The thought of simply putting on weight and all the hard work that I have put in before was to waste depresses me. After my operation, I tried going for long walks, but as I was used to more intesive stuff, walks just dun seem to work for me. After stitches came off, tried to do running straight after, but when I met the physio a few days after, I was discourage from running as jerking that shoulder might not be helpful for the healing wound. So again, my workout plan terminates. Been looking after my diet thou, but everytime I look in the mirror, I worry. I know this is already abit sick in the mind, as in causing me to be mentally unstable, just like those people in Tyra's show, seeing in mirrors and crying saying they look like a monster and all. I used to get quite mad watching that on TV, thinking to myself, whats the point of whining and crying and saying you are fat and in the end of the day doing nothing about it. Now, I too, have turn into them, the only difference is, I want to do something about it but I am not allowed to do anything. My recent visit to the doctor however, changed things around, he gave me permission to run, that is like god sent new I tell you. Went running the following day and i felt great!!!

Now that I have been offically given the green light to exercise, I will definately not gonna stop at just running, will be planning ahead for more things to do, like gym trainings on other part of my body, aim is to hopefully make it into the boat for the November race. Talking about race, was at the recent MR500 race, first time meeting up with them since the last race, and I am glad I was welcomed warmly. Yong think I have shrunk, and so did many others, which is depressing to hear, as all I have lost is muscles and not weight. Overall, the race was not as good as I expected as the team go back empty handed, first time after a long time. Just hope that everything goes well enough and I will be back in no time. Wait for me guyz!!!

Hmm apart from that... I guess thats all I have to update for now, will be going into my strict diet days, with a planned routine of workout really soon, hopefully get back some of my "form" and train a new form really soon. NO PAIN NO GAIN!!! wish me luck guys.... Cheers