yet another day

Hello.... haha... been awhile since i wrote blog everyday liao right... well so happen that i am online i will write...

Anyway, the day wasn't as bad as i expected... as least i didn't rot my way at home, slowly breaking away from my 'depression' i guess... a little fresh air always helps... Was thinking of trying my luck at sir building (to collect my passport) but unfortunately my luck wasn't that good as they were not open on public holiday, so i went over to beach road to have lunch... After lunch slowly walked to bugis...didn't really did much shopping at bugis though, because i have been there juz a few days ago... Instead, i went to the temple and pray since i am nearby... from there, i actually walked all the way to orchard road... haha dunno what have got into me but i was juz bored and since i am alone so what the heck i guess...heez... First stop PS, was strolling at the shops aimless looking at things as well as the people shopping... notice how typical singaporean can actually be, when there is a sign stating 'clearance sales' the place is filled with people... haha... anyway, bumped into one of my poly mate, Micheal, he was doing a fashion show on stage... haha cannot blame he is rather handsome i must say... heez... didn't really got a chance to talk to him as he was rather busy, then next stop was in the heart of town, where i went (shopping) center hopping... again walking aimlessly... haha i guess that is what happens when u are shopping alone and have nothing to buy in mind i guess... When i passed by paragon, saw Singapore youngest busker on the sidewalk playing his jazz set... his name is Osthen, 5 this year, and man i have to say he is really good with the drums... stand around for awhile before moving off to DFS to look around...saw the burberry wallet that i was looking for.... but it cost $350, that is my month's pay... haha... guess i can see only but have put it on my 'wishlist' already heez... after that went to far east for more glancing before calling it a day.... took a gentle stroll back to ps to take the nel... leg was feeling the ache once i set down in the train... think i really did alot of walking today... heez... Might be boring but beats staying at home i guess... That is my day... plain isn't it... heez... Ming tian hui gen hao ba...i believe... ciaoz

Loneliness.....

hello there... its back on ryan's weekly again, well i must say life is really not a bed of roses, there is bound to be high and low, and this is definately a time of low for me... Maybe its just me... but well i am experiencing some depression i guess... it comes once in awhile, usually will last quite awhile... haiz... life is really lonely, when u think they are there... they are not really there and that is when u really feel the sudden emptiness in life and all... Am i a pest? sometime or rather most of the time i wouuld ask this question, will i bother other people? am i making use of other people juz to make myself elss bored... will they mind? all this question have been going through me for the past 2 weeks... whenever i look at my phone glancing through the list to see who i could find, most of the time i would end up with none as all that questioning would just come to me....haiz... fan le... WHERE ARE U WHEN I NEED U??? WHEN I NEED SOMEONE TO TALK TO??? WHEN I NEED SOMEONE TO LISTEN??? WHERE... WHERe...WHEre...WHere...Where...where....

Alright, now back to the week... its been a pretty tiring week i must say, tiring in the sense there is more training then usual... that is because there is a paid performance for us next week... so everyone isi required to work extra hard for it as it is paid for... besides that there is also a number of other parades lining up so we are pretty much packed with activites for the coming couple of weeks... hopefully helps me to get past this stage fast.... we had a performance at botanic gardens last week.. ended at about 7 so left camp at about 8, got offday the following day, so went oout for a little mission with allison, karen and sherine, shall not go into details, caught "Swing girls" nice movie, dun mind watching again if there is a chance.. hehe... found the things we plan to buy and allison bought something already.... tues and wed is been drills drills and more drills, finally there is a new batch of trainess... looking at them reminds me of when i first entered the band... fond memories... Anyway, today did a POC at Istana, one arrival, fast deployment, by noon we are back in camp, then after lunch was more practise for the paid deployment, playing Olympic fanfair, how lame can it get... but anyway... job is job i guess... heez.. not sure what i am going to do for the next three day yet... guess its juz a step at a time then... thats all lah.... nothing much to blog le... Ciaoz... Oh yah... to all those having exams.. all the best... to all those that have already completed their exams... enjoy ur holiday to the fullest man...