Friday, September 14, 2007

OT!~!~!~

Yes I am in office again, finishing up on work, was suppose to go for a movie but was postpone... all plans down the drain. Initally was suppose to go for IMC aka International Muay Thai Competition, but kinda called it off for the movie, now... haiz... nvm lah... got work to do anyway.

Yesterday dinner was very funny, all thx to Ms Apel, I dun tink I will ever go back to amk hub fish and co. I shall not get into details but just say that she tried to "sell" me to one of the staff there. its like OMG lah...*ROAR*. But well its fun lah going out with her... always not short of a little laugh thou sometime I become the victim of the jokes. HAHAHA

Today, went to see cousin thomas for a routine checkup, was tinking of getting one done long time ago, but only manage time today. After seeing so many sudden death, and the age being so young, its starting to worry me abit. So far so good, just waiting on my Xray, blood and urine test. ECG and blood pressure was fine. After that head to the gym to do some workout, concentrated on cardio. Realised I am getting more and more letargic, think my "engine" is going to stall again very soon. Worried. After gym, went home to drop off some stuff and here I am, at work to finish off whatever work I have not done.

Will go light on dinner later i guess... looking at the time, probably settle on some dao huay *yummy* shoulder aching since yesterday, the op one, wondering if i over strained it? haiz... guess i have to bring my workout level down a knot a and concentrate more on leg and stamina building man... haven't really got to do marathon traning proper man. and its 2 months away. OMG DIE!!! all the best to me den.

Alright lah... time to head home... Enjoy your weekend pple... Cheers

Wednesday, September 12, 2007

Starting to get a little more back on track

The week have been pretty good for me so far, since I worked on Sunday, decided to take Monday off and rest at home, and I literally rest, alright except for the fact i went to hougang gym and did a little workout. The rest of the day was pretty much slacked away for my mind to take a break.

Yesterday, started my day off at the physio, Jennifer (my doc) was one leave so this new girl took over. Can tell she is new from the way she talk and all. Gave me an assessment and taught me a few new moves. Kinda progress to the next stage, but I am not too sure as i haven't been doing what Jennifer have told me to do. Oh well, after that, went down to esplanade library to do some reading and kinda spends time before heading down for Muay Thai lessons in the evening. Got 2 new bruise on my forearm, this time around its from Alvin (my coach). Did some pad-work with him and I can tell he wasn't giving his 100%. I wonder how this guys train to be so strong and yet have the stamina to sustain... More work to be done den! Oh yah, something that kinda amazed me and disgust me at the same time happened before i went for class. Was "yum cha-ing" at this eatery at MS, and throughout my entire process there, the aunties from the shop are flirting with some customers, uncles alike, but wah I tell you, they sound damn er can... haiz... all old enough to be my parents and still going at it like they are back in the 60s... hahaha...

Lessons tonight, think will be heading to school earlier for gym training, before going for class. guess I might give my back a break and focus on my core muscles, and maybe my bum too, since i have been getting alot of comments saying that my ass is gone. hehez...

Why are you giving me the cold shoulders? Why am I so affected? i really donno. I thought I have sort things out... I really thought so... but I guess I was wrong...

Monday, September 10, 2007

Sorted Out....

Nothing beats a good gym session, at least for me... all the perspiration and adrenaline, as good as giving myself a good session of muay thai, which I would be doing tml.... During the breaks in between my sets and also in the shower, managed to sort things out and "de-vexed" myself...

My conclusion is that I have been too stress by all the pressure from work, studies, and everything else that even little things cause me too think into details, complicating simple things. I have now decide that Studies will be my top priority for the coming 2 years, followed by leading a healthy life and pushing myself to greater heights in terms of sports. As for social life (or love, relationships, etc), will take a back seat i suppose, and will see if it comes by then. Not going to rush into any, or hope for any... Making friends and knowing more people will be my aim for now.

Time really flew, without realizing it, Hungry Ghost Festival is already over, and Lantern Fest is coming up really soon. Nothing special thou, not that I have anyone to spent it with, or in any case, celebrate it, to begin with... hehez... Alright... feels good to have sort things out, dun wan to think too much, dun care, get my priorities set...

Remember words of wisdom from Jayson sometime ago, which kinda enlighten me and help me sort out my thinking. He told me "Be accepted for being who u are, and not for who they want you to be". I guess all this while, I have been trying too hard to please everyone in the best way that I can, trying to be "likable" by all. But well, certainly in life, you cannot be Mr. popular with everyone, and there is no use trying to be well liked by everyone, you are who u are. I am trying very hard to remind myself that all the time. That people should like me because of who I am, rather than I try to accommodate to others so as to get them to like me. Its just too tiring... From now, I live for myself, you don't like it... leave... if not... like me for who I am....

Thinking..... Thinking.... Vexed...

Woke up feeling really vexed. Or rather, my mind was up the entire night again, not cause by sugar rush today... But just alot to think about, about a conversation, some sentences said...

Why did u react in that way? why was there is strange feeling after that conversation? Why do I feel at fault in mentioning some things? Why am I so bothered about what I say? Did I say anything wrong? To me there is none, but somewhere within told me I did...

Haven't been so affected before, especially by a conversation. Am I taking the situation too lightly? or too seriously? Am I complicating a very simple issue, which might not even be an issue in the first place, or is it just my brains making up this issues and causing all this now...

My best solution for now I guess is avoidance, thou many a times I would advise my friends with problem to face up to the problem, but now I choose to avoid as I am not sure if its even a problem in the first place. Vexed.... what have I got myself into?... I wonder...

Sunday, September 09, 2007

Busy Busy Busy...

I feel drained... more mentally then physically. I guess I challenged myself physically too often, so much so that I don't feel physically fatigue that easily. But its my mind that cannot handle that much stress. I need a vacation desperately.

Friday was suppose to go work, but ended up going to the beach with a Apel and Jovie as the sun was just too tempting... calling us out for a tan. True enough, the entire day was scorching, and I got abit toasted. After that, went shopping around with them at vivo. Tired after that, but still managed to meet up with Peili and Sherine for a drink at Alley Bar, one of my favorite hangout. Did a little chit chat before going home.

Saturday, hit the gym a little later, but still managed to do a little workout, with Serene before heading for class. After class, headed over to Kim Seng for band practice. After band prac, was still not ready to end of my sat, so got the the Cathey and watch No Reservation with Serene. Haha, its was a nice show i must say, Love Catherine Zeta Jones... After that, we went for a little rochor dao huay before heading back. Yummy, always love my dao huay.

But, all that sugar really got into me bad, had sugar rush the entire night, my body is resting but my mind was awake the entire time. Got up before my alarm sounded this morning and went for dragonboat training, after a very long break. Training was good, as next week was the race, so it wasn't as relax, always love the feeling of grasping for air after every set, and the sun was scorching today as well, making training more unbearable when it make contact with my burnt areas. Have to constantly water it. After training, spent the rest of the day in the office finishing up work that i was suppose to do on friday... haha. Can say my brain is dead at this moment.

Tml a new week... new challenges and alot of work awaits... time to buck up and take on the new challenges... JIA YOU X 3!!!