HAHA got tagged by Sherine, first on the list is ME!!!! Thx leh... hahaha
1) Are your parents married or divorced? - Married to each other... DUH!!!!
2) Are you a vegetarian? - Tried... I LOVE MEAT!!!!
3) Do you believe in Heaven? - Better then burning in HELL. HAHAH
4) Have you ever come close to dying? - A couple of times...
5) What jewelery do you wear daily? - Bling Blings...
6) Favorite time of day? - All day!!!
7) Do you eat the stems of broccoli? - Bring in the brollis man!
8) What is your hair styling agent? - Ahh..... can give you Gastby!~!~!~!`
9) Ever have any surgery? you should ask which part have i not undergone surgery...hahaha oppz.
10) Do you color your hair? - Yes.... Black is so yesterday!!
11) What do you wear to bed? - singlet and boxers... comfy...
12) Have you ever done anything illegal? - Hmm... cannot recall (sinister smile...)
13) Can you roll your tongue? - Like DUH!!!
14) Electric razor or blade? - BLADE!!!!
15) What kind of shoes usually? - Runners and sneakers
16) Do you condone Abortions? - Yes I do!!! everyone deserve a chance to see the world.
17) What is your Hair color? - Brown?
18) Future child's name? Boy or girl? - child? what child... no plans as yet... haha
19) Do you snore? - I my best not too...
20) If you could go anywhere in the world where would it be? - USA!
21) Do you sleep with stuffed animals? Nope...
22) If you won the lottery, what would you do first? - really have to depends how much? hehe
23) Gold or platinum/white gold? - Show me the GOLD!!!
24) Hamburger or hot dog? Which one comes faster? - neither...
25) If you could only eat one food for the rest of your life, what would it be? - Chicken Rice
26) City, beach or country? - Country (Yee Har!!!)
27) What was the last thing you touched? - My brother the MOUSE!!! (beside the keyboard)
28) Where did you eat last? - Home (brekkie)
29) When's the last time you cried? - haven cried in ages, just tears...
30) Do you read blogs? - Yeah...
31) Would you ever go out dressed like the opposite sex? - Not really thou am sure i will look pretty stunning... hahaha
32) Ever been involved with the police? - Its all in the past now...
33) What's your favorite shampoo and soap? - anything that keeps me clean and smells good of course.
34) Do you talk in your sleep? - not that i know of
35) Ocean or pool? - Ocean (Surfs up dude!!!)
38) Window seat or aisle? - change from time to time, mood dependable
39) Ever met anyone famous? - yes... depends on how u define famous i guess...
40) Do you feel that you've had a truly successful life? - yes but more room to explore
41) Do you twirl your spaghetti or cut it? - Twirl
42) Ricki Lake or Oprah Winfrey? - Oprah Winfrey
43) Basketball or Football? - Football, Aussie Foodie!!!
44) How long do your showers last? - from 5mins to 25mins
45) Automatic or stick shift? - Stick shift man... hehez
46) Cake or ice cream? - no particular craving (till lately... )
47) Are you self-conscious? - VERY!!!! OVERLY sometimes if I might add.
48) Have you ever drank so much you threw up? - eh... quite a few time Gross!!!
49) Have you ever given money to a begger? - yeah...
50) Have you been in love? - Yesh..
51) Where do you wish you were? - Anywhere but here!!!
52) Do you wearing socks with your shoes? - yeah Hygiene man!!!
53) Have you ever ridden in an ambulance? - Yeah... once or twice...
54) Can you tango? - No... but would be fun to try...
55) Last gift you received? - words of encouragement
56) Last sport you played? - dragonboat... and i miss it terribly
57) Things you spend a lot of money on? - Mainly food... at times on shopping
58) Where do you live? - Serangoon
59) Where were you born? - KK Hospital baby!!!
60) Last wedding attended? - Ages... even i dun remember
63) Most hated food(s)? - Celery, Ladies finger and bitter gourd.
64) What's your favourite?- Having friends... never a down moments with them...
65) Can you sing?- I dun croak like a frog if thats what you mean... hahaha
66) Last person you instant messaged? Trisa... hehez
67) Last place you went on holiday? - Perth, WA
68) Favorite regular drink? - Water, tea, and BEER (not regular thou) heez...
69) Tag 5 friends: - hmm... Apel, Azre, Serene, Carol and erm.... Peili!!!
70) Current Song? - Can't you hear it from my blog??? hehe Enjoy

OH the HEAT.... I AM MELTING.......

The weather these few days have been really really really really bad... ITS SUPER DUPER HOT LAH!!!! for once I am complaining, coz the sun will BURN man... its been a long time since the sun have been this strong... Is the world goint to end really soon, coz the weather is sure showing signs of it... But well for now... PLEASE USE SUN SCREEN!!!! am going to get some later... hehez..

Its gonna be an all English Final for Champions league, Man U Vs Chelsea, the second clash after that defeat of Man U, going to be a revengeful night for Man U, and now with a stronger squard I am sure. Chelsea Vs Barcalona match was exciting man... Paul Scholes winning goal was a screamer... like the old Scholes I knew... but honestly, can tell that age is catching up on him... he is not as aggressive as in the past. Maybe because Roy Keane no longer around? Donoo... hehez...

The match between Liverpool and Chelsea was a good game as well... with both sides showing plenty of skills and determination. The penalty was really un-called for and liverpool was also obviously denied a penalty... Oh well... both teams played to their best... so NO REGRETS MAN!!!

Been a pretty slack week for me I have to say, why? coz I haven't really started working out as planned (OMG!!! I HATE PROCRASTINATING!!!) progress have been slow, but moving along steady. Will hopefully improve it next week...

OMG i am super late... shall write more some other time then... have a great weekend and Cheers peepz

Battle scars.... and talking FATS!!! ARGH!!!!

My limbs is decorated with many 50cents, 20 cents, 10 cents and 5 cents coins... hahaha wonder how I got such small bruise on my hand anyway... think it must be from the way i hold the pads ba...

Anyway yesterday's training was pretty fun, intense but not fulfilling as they did sparring, not enough cardio for me I guess... Will look into improving my stamina in the coming months as i prepare for 2 up coming runs, namely, Singapore Passion Run (15km) and the Shears Bridge Run (21km). I have to change my mentality and start training from scratch, haven't been running and have to stop thinking that since i have completed a marathon, what are these distance to me... IT IS DIFFERENT ALREADY!!!!

Have a survey over MINDEF later this afternoon, then will be heading off to school gym for a workout, which i missed on monday as I had no class. looking to work on my chest and my legs today... and maybe abit of my abs too...

I dread standing infront of the mirror now.... coz the fats around my tummy is talking to me... hehez... its gaining back fast on me... Not a good sign at all have to make it go away again!!!

There is this thing going around regarding having to wear seatbelts in mini bus following the death of a little boy... Singapore being such an advance and developed country... I really wonder why is it that time and time again, we only react to a problem when it happens. Oversea school locally can do so why not locals? And whats with increasing fare? fetching lesser student? so lesser earning? PLEASE LAH... what is the lifespan of seat belt, like it last all the way till the van is scrape lah... using this as an excuse to increase charges is simply ridiculous lor... But having the driver to pay all seems abit harsh as well... So solution would be our trusty government... SPONSOR PART OF IT PLEASE!!!! hehez... I mean our govt is very smart lah... if they sponsor, am sure they will make it a law, then catching anyone not doing so....AND FINE!!!! woohoo...earn it all back.. hehez... but nothing wrong about it I guess... since they offered to help, pple would just have to abide by the law. I feel the bit about driving lesser quite weird too.. I mean lets not talk about those big bus, we are looking at those mini vans... I thought there is no standing allowed in such van, so seats are basically the capacity. So whats with driving more or less... really don't understand...

Oh well thats what i have to say.... Pretty dumb to begin with, if they followed examples of United World Collage and Australian School of Singapore, then such tragedy will not happen in the first place. Singaporean, having lived in the comfort zone, under the protective arms of Singapore for so long, have taken everything for granted, that accidents will never happen to them, so precautions need not be taken... and solving problem when it come...well... some problem does not have a solution, stop taking the "learning from mistake" approach, rather, take a "prevention is better then cure" approach. it doesn't kill to be extra caution. This is one very good example... a lost of a very young life...

Fulfilling yet VERY SINFUL EVENING!!!! AM I THE ONE??? heez

Just home from a very sinful Mutabak supper with Serene and Herbert, what was suppose to be shared by the three of us, ended up having to try finish it by 2 if us (serene and I), eventually we didn't and am now feeling super bloated... so I thought of blogging to get my mind off the bloated-ness for the time being...

Before that, we went to support Louis Fong for the "Wei Wu Du Zun" aka "You are the one" Competition, tonights theme was "Sunshine Boys" (that would be me!!! haha acting like NONO that is... hahaha, an inside joke, only those that know me long enough would know... heez) Anyway, my man, M6 Hong Jing Peng, did a stunning show tonight, making the audience laugh have have a huge group of supporters behind him today... All was well and he was leading in every round... but the final result was the stunner as M7 came from behind to steal the win... Unbelievable, oh well sportmenship lah... I really think he did really well tonight... but as usual, I would guess the fumble is at the 45sec Q&A, M7 really impressed everyone with his answer with "I am the sun in the winter, abit of it is enough to bring warm to those around me" *clap clap clap* BUT I STILL SUPPORT MY MAN, M6 LOUIS FONG!!! PPLE PLEASE SUPPORT HIM!!! HEEZ.... (free advertising)

Well, Serene have different taste, she liked M5 as she found him adorable... hahah cute act and all... hehe, and M8, the to-die-for for every girls... But overall, I finally know how its done live... Its really different from watching at home... as really... many things ain't what it seems to be... HAHAHAHA....

Alright.... 5 months, tonight, my last sinful supper, I am determine to find my old diet back... so to all my friends out there... please help me along... I mean I am more then delighted to go out supper with u guys... just that I might just have a milo and watch you guys eat... if you don't mind. Cheers guys... NIGHTS TO ALL AND HAVE A GREAT WEEK AHEAD!!!!

Slow day...

Doing brainless admin work in office today... so boring so thought i steal a break and blog for awhile... Yawnz.... its always coming to working and doing such things the spurs me to look for a job elsewhere lah... hehez.. oh well... if not for the flexible hours... HAHAHA... tahan till better oppotunity comes by ba.

Today makes 7 years since she is gone... Time really flies... if she is around she would be? 25 years old? I was actually reminded... if not its honestly slipped of my mind... but once reminded, that very evening flash past my mind like it was only yesterday. The sound of the heart rate machine, the scenes at ICU... the feeling of being lost.. and honestly not believing as it all happened so quickly. Yes... today is the day my sister have left us....

Will not be going for class tonight, simply because i don't have to... Going to catch "you are the One" competition, supporting my fren M6, Louis Fong, Hong Jing Peng in mandarine. Just what to see whats going on live and while they go for commercial breaks... hehez... hope its gonna be fun...

Workout regime have yet to begin... for the simple reason that my day was packed... was thinking of going this morning, but thought of the rush from here to there, I gave up the tot, something i would not do it the past... guess my determination is not quite there yet... but all i know is I have a deadline to meet... and if i don't do anything about it... then nothing will happen... So Jia You ba!!!

All have been quiet today... Slow day... hoping it to pass faster....

Yet another Dragon Lost....*sob*

Splashed all over today's front page. Another dragonboater is lost. This time to a car accident, a taxi driver, obviously speeding to a certain extent. This time its one of the strong ladies from the Pink Paddlers, better known as the Team of Survivors of Breast Cancer. Its kinda sad to see such a thing happening as these people are all heroes in their own ways, able to conquer cancer is really an achievement in life many can't. Being able to stand up to it and face the world with it is even a harder thing to do... so its very sad to see such tragedy.

Those left behind have my deepest condolences, I understand how hard to lose a close one. No matter how harsh these words might sound, but life honestly goes on. Coz sooner or later, you will be reunited when your turn to cross over comes.

Enough on that sad story. Now for a segment called "PLACES YOU SHOULD AVOID". One place honestly would be Harry's @ CHIJMES. Was there to watch the big match with a bunch of my friends yesterday and the service was 'unbelievable'. We thought we got a good seat, at the couch with a 42" TV to ourselves and the aircon right above us. Sounds like nothing was going to spoil our time there right? WRONG!!! First, I guess being in a corner like that, its pretty un-noticable, so we took quite awhile to order our drinks. But the drinks came really quick so as we settled the bill for the drink, we ordered some wedges to go with the beer... First half went past and it never came... and I am sure its not the excitement of the game (coz its wasn't too exciting to start with) but we are feeling the heat and the aircon dun seem to be working. So as Dennes approach the counter to ask for our wedges, Serene ask the lady who served us our drink if there is something wrong with the ventilation, she simply say "No, i don't think so" and walked away doing her thing. Its like RUDE lah, i mean i am giving her the benefit of a doubt that she is suffering from some pregnancy illness or something. But the wedges is ridiculous. It didn't come even till the match ended. Honestly, it was like watching a soccer match in a sauna room, left the place with my t-shirt have soaked, and Dennes was also sweating despite being in a dry fit jersey... So much for airconditioning. I honestly would ask whoever that is planning to go there to reconsider as there is definately many other nicer branches around. But if you are looking for good service and a comfortable place to rest and relax, trust me... there won't be it... Despite having the money to have big screen tv and all, they could not afford to turn their aircon up just a little to comfort the crowd. Disappointing.

Thats all for yesterday's entry, and of course we had a beautiful evening after we left that dreadful place. Have a great Sunday everyone, whats left of it that is... Cheers

Doggie World

After so long, I went back to SPCA. No, I didn't give any dog up for adoption. In fact, I witnessed what I thought I would never see - PEDIGREE dogs given up by their owners!!!! Given up would be too kind; abandon is a better word I'd say. It's sad to see so many of them from Huskies to Boxers, German Shepherd to noisy Jack Russells. Where happen to those day where X-breed were most of the population, not that they aren't there now... its just now more pure breeds are ruling that place... ITS WRONG!!!!

Got to know a couple of goodie doggies.... Namely Alex (2 years old German Shepherd) and Carrot (not the veggie, but a 1 1/2 years old boxer) both pretty little thing... and huge dog which needs alot of running space... So its kinda sad seeing them walking around in circles in what seems like the space of the toilet on a plane. Alex in particular brings much feelings. The look on his face is priceless. According to those pple that found him. He has just been abandon (curse you who ever you are!!!), he looked like he is super lost... and will only be there for a short while before his owner comes claim him back, but that day will never come. Carrot, the boxer is such a healthy and sweet little thing. Kinda remind me of Mr. Black that belongs to Serene. Except its a girl. Its a memorable time back in SPCA... guess will be doing it more often in the future.... sure is different doing it with someone else than alone thats for sure... hehe... sharing common interest is really important man!!!

This short trip has educated me once again... Dogs are life that equally important than any of us human. Will you keep your baby till they are like 5 years old and no longer cute and abandon them? Think hard before thinking about having a dog... its alot of commitments, and if you are really sure about having one... ADOPT ONE... they are all pretty dog that really yearns for a place to they can call home... Please BOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO...woof woof

Entry with special guest, Ms Serene Chia... hahahaha

Unfairness.... BIG TIME!!!

Unfair incident #1
The most unfair things happened in class today... Late submission with no penalty imposed... wassup with that? I mean if they are going to get let off so easily just because of the blunder made by SCU side... then where goes the effort of those that hand in on time. What make those that submitted late so special, are the paying more then us? are they "white horses"? are they more good looking? I wonder....

Unfair incident #2
We had a toastmaster session today in class for communication lesson on presentation skills. everyone was suppose to talk for 2 mins infront of the class on a picked topic and pretty much just blabbering... No matter how unwilling we are, we all had to do it. But the strangest thing happened. This girl from China named Shu Ping was actually exempted, I mean whats with that, at first I thought to myself it could be the language barrier, but later thought that couldn't be as the lecture was conducted in English. Some of my mates even say she can speak (not perfect but ok) English. It so unfair why she can be excused while the rest have to take a chance. Izzit because she is from China she is paying the school more? or because they are holding the Olympics so they are a big deal (hahaha just sour grapes....BUT ITS UNFAIR!!!)

Anyway, all this is a bunch of bulls if u ask me... I cannot believe things can turn so ugly, but I honestly have very unhappy about everything that happened. Its like people getting away from crime unpunished... I cannot tolerate such nonsense, but can only voice out here as its my personal space. I know its kinda redundent, as i guess not many pple can do anything about it. But well, its not about doing anything about it... but more of a place to vent it out rather than holding it in... Its feels terrible.

Oh well... Good night to all and shall update more some other time... Cheers!

New blog changes...

Hey there... a new skin... a new tune... time to change things around here... hehez... Think its been a rocky 2008 thus far... Emotional and all... But pretty much picking up the pieces and now coming back to here. Guess it really doesn't pay to hold it in too much at time... Thank god i have a blog to allow me to blabber everything out...

Oh well today... its 7th month anniversary already... hehez... time really flies HAPPY ANNIVERSARY... in 3 days will be my sis's 7th year anniversary too... how coincedental. From today, I am on a mission. Coz 5 months from now I will need to change alot about myself. The bulk of my mission is to get into the shape I really want to... Seem to have lost focus after i attained my goal of getting featured in Men's Health. No more NATO (No Action Talk Only) I have prove to myself once, I believe i can do its again. here is how its been broken down.

1) Drop to my ideal weight of 72kg (am currently 76kg)
2) Drop the love handles PERMANENTLY
3) Featured in Men's Health again (different sections pehaps)

I can't see a better time to attain this then now given the time I have since I am still studying. Will attain it before my attachment and also a promise I made, that I have to keep. The future blog entires might be boring for some I guess... coz its pretty much gonna be a journal of my workout and all my feelings... perhaps some before and after pictures too... hehez...

Ultimately, its to keep trim and fit... I believe that is the best I can do for myself. I have seen my confidence coming with my regime... so I am hoping to find it back once again... and alot of support from all my friends is crucial.

Anyway, enjoy your day... and STAY FIT PPLE!!! cheers

What is dreams.... where are my directions????

This things seems to hit me in waves... and more so when I age... guess its for the fact that what lies ahead is still a blur... What do I want? what exactly do i want? Honestly I haven't the slightest clue. I choose to tell myself many things... I know it but I am still doing it... Which can be pretty sucky at times. I whine that I am caged, but m I really? or did i chose to be?

I should already count my blessings as life have been pretty kind to me thus far. Guess I have been pampered till this stage, so much so that I don't really know what it is like to fail, or get rejected, or fall. But yet i do not feel happy, more worried. The "what ifs" just keep attacking me from all directions. Why can't i get on with life, get a vision of how my future is going to be and work towards it? What is this inner fear that comes out more frequently to haunt me? So much so till a point i feel consumed in it already.

Many opportunities are coming my way now... yet what i look forward to initially has excuses formed within to reject them all. why am i like that... I really don't know. Have I lost the urgency of life? I really wonder.

"I don't know what I want", What exactly is dreams, what do I wish to achieve in life... Do guiding star exist... if so... where is mine? i wonder....

Expression on the Triple sharing room in NTU.... FARNIE LAH!!!

Voicing out indeed!!! hahaha cute lah...

Funny Clips....

Enjoy pple!!!

Poly Vs JC: thinkers?

Was just watching on TV the repeat telecast of BlogTv on CNA. Rather interesting the point of views they have. Some seems pretty sensible... while some seems crappy... hehe but does its mean that poly student are less a thinker as compared to JC student in today's context... please share ur view...

What the hell is wrong with me!!!

The heart is fill with discontentment... and unhappiness about myself... why me? This is crappy feeling... Just wan to hit something now... Muay Thai seems so much more interesting to me than class.... WHAT THE HELL WENT WRONG!!!!!!

MCP Vs Submissive Guys???

In the papers lately have been reports and views about guys carrying their girlfriend's handbag while out togther. A sissy act some say, while others think its the act of pampering you love one... what do u think? Male ego playing prankz... share your views....

Love Love Love???

Hello everyone... My new semester just kicked off 2 days ago... and already I am dreading it... hahaha not that i dread my classmate, but rather the new people in my class. The new batch, it is HORRID LAH! (at least for the monday class) All ah pek and ah soh, some even older enough to be my dad lah i feel...

Monday class was all about communication, indeed an important skill to acquire in all aspects of ur life, be it in your working life, social life, between friends, lovers, etc. Many things that the lecturer say is close to heart and when reflected do make alot of sense. Communication does resolve many issues, but not only through communication, but also the way u converse, the tone u use, and all plays a very deciding factor... I like this module... Hopefully can do fine for it....

The been 2 consecutive weeks of fun with my classmate, first was gathering at my place. Everyone had a good laugh and talk and makan. Got to know them so much better. After which was over at Serene place for majong and card games and all... That was till super late, very emo night, but most people had fun, which was most important i guess. Ultimately, I am really glad I got to know the rest of the class so much better.

I always feel that I have a barrier between me and some of my classmates, I wonder if its them? or just myself. But I am sure it can be resolve with so many class activities installed. Make me think of my poly days...

Talking about poly, one of my closest friend, Xin Yan have lost her battle against cancer and has left us on the 13 of feb 2008, age 23, a close friend during my poly time, very smart girl and a kai xin guo in our class... she will never be forgotten... MY GOOD FREN, Redang buddy. U will be remembered...

Many must be wondering what is with my headline... am I already facing problem with my relationship.. NO LAH... so dun worry k... Its just that many of the people around me are trapped by these 4 letter word. So it make me really wonder if this 4 letters is a bliss or a disaster. Being in it is blissful I guess, but losing it can make one feel like they have lost everything. The wonder of these word.... Some are worried about getting into it due to bad past of losing it last time. While others are just unwilling to let go of it.. Its so universal but yet have such great powers beyond explanation. Know I shouldn't be discussing this things, but it really got my attention. Its something that you have to experience it to understand the pain... am sure its like losing someone close, or worse, I know how that feels...

Anyway this word LOVE brings lots of happiness and sadness to many around the word. My conclusion as of now still remains as: It really depends how u define LOVE, when u truly understand this word then you know how to go about loving....

To end off... here is a nice song... sad song... but nice

Happy New Year ALL!!!!

Hi there all, as the Piggy is gone and here is the Rat, I hereby wish all Happy New Year!!!! Hope that everyone have many red packets from this beautiful year and had hearty feast of all the wonderful food (but do look after your waistline too lah)

Haven't been doing much today, basically just alot of work work and more work, yes i didn't do much visiting today. New year is just like any other day to me now.

Sorry but feeling a little emo at the moment... so nothing much to write, and I do not want to spoil your mood. So will just keep this entry short. GONG XI FA CAI!!!!!

Sickly end to Piggy year! WELCOME MY YEAR!!!

As everyone is busy with last min spring cleaning, or shopping for nice clothes to wear on the first day of the lunar new year... I am here recovering from a cough and a possible flu... hahaha seems like the "exercise-free" life is taking a toll on my health. Not forgetting the endless nights of assignments... hahaha its the last min mad rush season again!!!

First of all allow me to wish everyone a HAPPY AND PROSPEROUS LUNAR NEW YEAR!!!! heez... and congraz my classmate DAVID on the born of his second son on the 1st of Feb... all child born on the 1st is smart... (like me!!!!) hahahahahaha kidding lah... but he is so cute lah...

Assignments assignment then Exams exam... then its a week before this horrid month comes to an end... dry and a fast month man... and then there is few more to go... hehez...

Plenty of things left to do... haven't pack my old clothes, haven work out my diet plan, and the list goes on and on, but most importantly is to get well first. TOP PRIORITY!!! heez... without good health, alot of things cannot be done.

Anyway, just wish the coming year will be a blessed one... more oppotunities and all... Recession is likely to hit... so one word of advise.. PLEASE START SAVING!!! that is one of my key too... GONG XI FA CAI PPLE!!!! Win big money on the poker table and get lots of ang baoz!!! HUAT ARH!!!~!~!~!~

Clocked 109.595KM

Just made a simple calculation... I ran a total of 109.595km from last June 2007, This only includes all my events runs that i have participated, and not all the normal run i did... Woo hoo... that is alot lah... hehez... plenty more to come I am sure!!! heez

New Year Fresh Start!!!

Wah... Just realised I have not blog for close to a month... hahah even got difficulty coming into blogger just now... hehez... Been freaking busy with school, work and everything else under the sun...

Will give a one sentence summary of my current condition. I am BROKE, FAT and VERY BUSY!!! hahaha let me elaborate, BROKE means my pocket... haha my belt is at my tightest for the very first time for a very long time... Haha, I guess was that I have party too hard last year... making recuperation extra tough to go by... Furthermore, the peanuts pay that I am getting is not even enough to cover. Its like covering a VALLEY with a PEBBLE!!! heez...

Now to the FAT part, know I am going to get alot of scolding for these. But I AM INDEED GROWING FAT!!! Firstly, I have stop workout completely, don't ask me why, coz i cannot answer it myself. No motivation what so ever, though am still determine to get my dream body lah. Second, my diet is rather bad at the moment, lost control of portion control and have turn back to eating some of my comfort food last time. But I am not too worried about diet as I know the willpower to change is still there. Lastly, with the coming festival...OMG... i dun even dare to tink further... hehez... FAT FAT FAT!!! woo hoo!~!~!~

Now to BUSY, this semester is awfully short, and thou deadlines are not that short compare to last sem, the work load for each assignment have increase as the demand increases. MDIS adminstration side is still constantly giving us alot of crap... haiz... wonder if I really made the right choice... but there is really no turning back isn't it??? Assignments after assignments, then will be examz... AFTER CNY... like yah I am going to bring a book around with me to relative place to study... haha and when play card... OMG lose $$$ (due to shu = book) hahahaha

My months ahead am pretty much planned... If everything goes my way that is... Working towards a better and toner figure will be my top priority. I know i can go further... and its really up to me to prove myself right... Feeding my wallet fatter also, without neglecting my studies that is... 3 major things to juggle. Let see if i can handle it... JUST BRING IT!!!! COZ ITS MY YEAR!!!! Muahahahahaha

Alright then... enough for the new year... be sure to come often yah... hehez.. will be updating often again.. I promise... to many things to be writing liao.. just could not find the time... now can (taking abit of 'eat snake' time) heez... Alright, Back to work... take care guys.. and do catch up k... Cheers!!!

Look Hu's Back!!!

Hello People!!! its been a long time, I know, and i apologies for MIA-ing, its just that life have been so busy all of a sudden!!! School, work, and something new, LOVE!!! heez... for those that donno, yes I am in a relationship, nothing to hide, coz dun see the need to anymore. Sorry to all the ladies (or 'gentlemen') that have crushes on me out there, U will find better out there (Chey.... Like real like that arh!!! lolx)

Well, apart from school... its still more school, with that occasional work and all, I am not even going to mention anything about diet... COZ ITS JUST SCREWED!!! FOR THE FACT ITS DECEMBER!!! the month of many celebrations... FAT FAT FAT....

Now, school, this sem is worse then the last, as the topics are so much drier and the assignment seems to get more and more challenging. Been trying to work at a constant pace to prevent doing the same as last sem (last min hug buddha leg). But seems pretty inevitable with the last assignment submission, had to do an entire day marathon to settle it too, but glad i did make it.

After that, spent a nice weekend up north in KL for a study tour. VERY FUN LAH!!! hehez... would love to share pic but maybe next time... hehez.. busy at the moment.

Hmm... really cannot think of anything to add already coz all that is in my mind right now is assignment... so i better get to it already... Cheers pple!! HAPPY HOLIDAYZ!!!!

Suay day...

Its been a long long long long long long long long long long while since i last updated... had to spend sometime clearing of the 'web' before coming in here (get it... world wide web... yah?? nvm). Well... cannot really recall exactly what happened in details so will just recap the key events that have happened in these few weeks, in a random order (whatever that have come to my mind first).

Hmm...first of all, Congraz to the Auschamp for clinching both Gold and Sliver spot for the Expat race these year in the Regatta 2007!!! U guys rox and totally kicked ass out there. Was so raring to race only to find out that it clashes with my exams... but u guys do well without me, nevertheless, as arnie (mayor of califonia) will say: "I WILL BE BACK" hahaha.

Exam for semester one is done and over with. Just glad that its over, thou not too sure that i will do as well. But still glad that its over. Just started off my new sem yesterday, yes, just one week break, which was over even before I can blink my eye for this case. But the week was well spent on earning some quick bucks and spending quality resting time. All the way for this sem then, 1 down 5 to go!!!

Last week was working for an event called the "Morgan Stanley Summit", all the big shots were there, CEOs, COOs, all the rich pple... haha but cannot be bothered coz working hours have been crazy. dog tired after the few days, but got to know more people and made more friends, both local and international. so its was not too bad afterall.

Last friday marks laoshi's (aka Mr. Luk) last performance as he stepped down as conductor and offically retires from the music scene, it was an emotional sight as buckets of tears were pouring from many people's eyes, mine included. The only reason why I stayed on was for him, he is definately a great teacher and not only though us how to interpret music, he also teaches us alot about life. Its a pity to be losing him, but well, I guess everyone deserve a break at one point of time. He was a mentor, a fren, and even almost like a grand dad to me. Lao shi, thank you...

Enough on that before i get all emotional again.... Today have got to be the most unlucky day of this year yet... Got my friend to come look at my computer today, was tinking must be problem with my C: as I was using it halfway before it overloads and restarted itself yesterday. But today, was given the most shocking news ever.... MY HARDDISK CRASHED!!! and nothing can be recovered from within... my heart shattered thinking the amount of things I have inside, all my pictures, my songs, my memories... OMG.... the feeling is like when my ipod died but many times worse... What made matter worse was that thats not the only thing that need to be fixed, my wallet and watch is also spoil and need to be sent for repaired... $$$ can u please drop from the sky please!!!!! later going down to braun buffel to get my wallet check. before going down to muay thai to let off some steam and burn some calories.

Talking about steam, or anger rather, brought me to this topic. What's wrong with being a Free Lancer? I know alot of people out there have this misconception that free lancers have all the time in the world, equvialent to a bum, only that we are getting pay. I am telling you, that is not true, some free lancers (like myself) so happen to be more busy then ur regular 8-5 jobs, we work under more den one boss and sometime while u guys are already slping in ur comfortable bed, we are still working as our bosses is from the other side of the globe. The only advantage as freelancers is yes, we do have our freedom in time, however, that is also possible only with good time management. So please think twice before u tink of venting ur anger on free lancers next time. They are not as free as you think they are. Blame it on ur bad time management skills alright...

What inspired me to say that was just from a situation that was not suppose to be one in the first place... but well just need a place to vent it out. Anyway thats all I have for now, 2 weeks before stand chart... alot of work to do... and honestly i can say i am not ready, but just doing it nevertheless. Wish me good luck den.

Cheers peepz!!!

A day have past....

After an entire day, thou have been busy at work and all, its have never got my mind off the matter, however, I managed to sort and clear things up quite abit. Though I am still in the process of slowly picking myself up... this process is made faster as there is someone waiting at the end of the line for me. Its no longer about myself now.

Will improve myself to improve us.... cheers!!!

What Use have I???

What do you want Ryan??? This question have been going through me... for the moment I open my eyes... its was with me before i close my eyes yesterday... and today, wishing it will go away... it didn't...

What give me the right to hurt others? I didn't mean to... that's just an excuse I am using currently I feel... Whats my fear? I don't know. I just know that I am a F**King bad guy... I dun deserve anyone to be in my life... Its nobody's fault that I feel this way about myself. The problem with my upbringing? Have I been too "pampered" and "over sheltered" to even take this kinda thing? Worse is when I know I am at fault, yet you have to come console me, what use have I?

Life is really screwed for me now, my diet is screwed, order in life is screwed, and the realization of my own character is screwed have really brought be to rock bottom... I need time to sort it out, will you be there to wait for me? or what.... i wonder?

I am a great pretender, thats for sure, my strong front deceives even those that are hypersensitive people. Outer shell, I am this strong, witty, happy person, how i wish I am like this in the core too.. but guess what, inside its empty. I am just an empty shell...

I contradict alot of my own words, I realised it. I remember I say I do not feel sorry about myself, and yet I am here saying what a LOSER in life I am (and its true, I am). But I am sure I will not stay a loser, its just takes time for me to see the light and pick myself up again.

I am sorry to you, for causing u to be in so much pain and suffering. My existence turned u into a liar, something I am sure you never was. I seem like nothing but bad company, and yet u are still ever so understanding, saying its ok and all.

What initially was pain inflicted by me to u, ended in u having to console me despite the one being hurt is you. What use have I? I say to myself... At this point of time... even I despised myself. Ryan is a coward, a useless Bum, a NATO (No Action Talk Only) ass.

Bottomline is... I am sorry... I am.... I really am....

Funny... and very innovative!!! hahaha

Enjoy!!!

Busy busy busy

Just realise its been awhile since i last visited here... let along blog... been pretty busy lately rushing assignments of all sorts... not that its finally submitted, there is finally abit of breathing space as well as time to prepare for the final exams. The word exams... haven't heard of it for 2 years... now its all coming back to me...

Have been feeling really good lately... till pehaps today... not too sure y... its the weekend, usually everyone would be all excited and all... but don't seem that way for my case. Got off the wrong side of the bed I guess. Cannot be stress, coz I haven't had that in many years, have learn to look at the lighter side of things. Then what exactly is bothering me... i really donno... could it been all the emotional songs that i have been listening to lately that is causing all this? I doubt it... haha.. thou it does affect me at time when the right song came at the right moment...

Missed muay thai on tuesday, so paid back yesterday... the session was alright, thou it could be better... Was very keen to have 3 - 3mins rounds of pad work with alvin, but he was very occupied by the new students and also by Ryan and Chee Leong... but it was still a good to see good and proper technique... learn alot...

Busy busy weekend... then its down to 2 weeks before exam... have to plan and start my studies... thou I have already started abit on HSM... but had to pause due to assignment... so its back on that and HRM too... I am fortunate to only have 2 modules this sem... so am going to make the best of it... Jia You... and to all my friends out there whose exams is due very soon as well... Work Hard.... Score with flying colours!!!

Time to find back my discipline... In life, in diet, in my studies, in my sport, in my determination. Been really distorted lately, due to many factors, and thou I am aware about it... my body or rather the mind refuses to do anything about it... If i carry on at this stage... its going to put me back to square one.. which i cannot afford and will not allow... For the coming weeks its going to be studies and workout... play will have to wait... and after exams will be alot more training for the standard chartered run.

I am always there for u... u will always be there for me... is there such a perfect world??? i wonder...

The photo....

This is a clearer picture for my menshealth... thx to Mel.. Cheers mate!!!

Busy Busy Busy

Yay!!! its finally out. My article in Men's Health. But had alot of explanation to do due to the title. So I am going to say it here once and for all. What I told Melvin was I made alot of girlfrens after I lost weight, and not I have a gf after I lost weight... So I guess it did cause a dent in my reputation lah, if there is any to begin with, and not that it matters to me... hahaha. here is the article


Busy busy busy lately, school is really piling up with assignment and with exams looming closer, stress level is really piling up. This is not including the fact that all these stress have caused me to eat like my past. Which is worrying my alot letting all my effort goes down the drain, which I am trying very hard not to let it happen. Final burst, time to study already, training to take a back seat and diet is all i can control for now. Life have been very monotone, doubt i will be doing the November race, for the fact i missed the time trials, and i really have no time to train. I officially missed one season. Hopefully I can cover some ground by next year. This year is just alot of running for me. Lose weight lose weight!!! ultimate aim, need to drop weight to 70 kg by Nov. A must not i will try... am determine. But now the priorities will be school first.

Nothing really happening thus far. Will keep this page posted. Cheer everyone!!!

BUSY BUSY BUSY!!!

Just realised I have not blog for one week, thats because I have been really busy week for me. Had a BBQ over the weekend, thou the crowd wasn't too big, but it was fun nevertheless as its been ages since i last bbq-ed. My weekend was very well spent.

The week is study week, but have been rushing my HRM assignment till now as its due coming friday. Its becoming a habit, the "last min hug the Buddha leg" syndrome, but well, I guess I work well under pressure. =P Taking a moment off to blog....

ARGH!!! THE STRESS!!!!

All Fired Up!!!

Just when my fire for working out is about to run out... Along came a torch and ignited my flame stronger... So motivated to push on... But first major issue, have to start watching what I put in my mouth.

Haven't been able to bring my diet to control ever since last week pigging out session after the run, been eating like there is no tml, which is starting to worry me. Whats worse is, I know I am eating alot, yet my mind is not reacting, rather its pushing myself to eat more. ARGH!!! wake up you bloody idea RYAN KOH!!!

Weight myself at the gym today, its 74kg, gain back 1 kg, was 73kg last week... OMG!!! when will I reach my goal of 70kg with my current stage, to be honest, NEVER is the word, unless I do something about it.

Went to watch a Muay thai match just now, was great man.. and there was really the torch, not to be on the ring, but to have their figure... OMG all of them are damn lean lah... would love to reach their build, it would be fantastic, but i guess alot of determination, time and effort have to be put into it lah. It was great match lah, thats all I can say, motivate me to train in that art harder.

Alright short term goal:-

1) Improve on my current physic (stamina and BMI)
2) Drop weight to 70kg before stand chart
3) bring my muay thai stamina to another level

JIAYOU X 3

Bye vertical marathon....*sob*

Haiz... due to having exam on the same day of the vertical marathon, I am forced to abort that, thank god I have not registered for it... WHY HAVE TO BE ON THE SAME DAY!!!! sianz.... fated i guess... will use the first 3 weeks of that month to train for my marathon and study for exams den... haiz, so sad....

Tired monday... way to start my week.. woohoo

Its been a crazy past week and a very fun weekend. Not to mention an increase dosage of caffine to keep me awake. haha... Here is how my weekend gone by...

Saturday, started the day early in school for project discussion, something that was meant to have settled last week. After that was lesson, which was pretty enjoyable. But was abit letargic as i usually goes to class after a good shower after gym, but due to discussion, gym session was cancelled. After class went for Keng Seng, attendance was better and was able to get a decent sounding band. After band, hung around town and caught a movie with a friend. Then we hang around a little later, alright alot later like 3ish before going back, chit chating and all.

Sunday, overslept for my terry fox run! haha woke up only when Jayson called me at 730 (the run starts offically at 8), rush to shower grab the stuff i packed the "earlier" (after i gpt home from movie, packed, shower, before retiring into bed like 4 close to 5) . Took Nel there, thx god got there about 815. There was no baggage deposit station, i buckled up my bag, strapped it tight to me, and ran with it, took it as training den. Lucky for the early shower before the run, the weather was perfect for a run. Finish, pretty quickly I must say. Met up with Jayson and Yi Xin at the finishing point, apparently they took me as the "beacon of light" to find each other just in cased they got lost as i wore a rather bright blue top. We then headed off to Tiong Baru market for brunch, and that place is awesome man, alot of good food and we just PIGGED OUT!!! After that, we walk around the wet market just to digest out satisfied tummy before Yi Xin, who was so kind, gave us a ride into town. Jayz went back to work, and initally was thinking of heading home for a rest, took to window shopping instead. Met up with Herbert to get things for bbq, then head on to beach road for some yummy tang yuan before heading to vivo to meet my flute section for a little get together cum celebration for karens coming bday. Initally was tinking of ktving after dinner, but was called off as everyone need to work today. So we ended up doing a little shopping at vivo after dessert in Bens and Jerry, which of course I gave a miss after a day of so much good food. Was abit cranky over dinner and shopping yesterday, guess the lack of rest really did got on nerves, and i guess one more thing that sparks its are the game consoles, haha I mean, games are fun, but I guess its best done alone, or when you are bored? kinda thing, not in a gathering. haha. well from a none gamer point of view obviously...

Seen so many thing i wan to buy lah... Lets start from Pull and Bear, saw a couple of nice tees there. The design is secondary, but the quality and fit is primary factors that attracted me. Then Topman, I have not gave up hope on skinny jeans, and yesterday managed to try on a piece that is so nice, fitting and got "Good" from the panel of judges. Was damn tempted to get as its the last piece (found it at the "Last chance to buy" rack), but decided not too as I have not plan out my finances. Realised I have to plan before spending any money now, its become a habit ever since I started working. Guess its because I used to be such and impulsive shopper in the past, now that I know how it feels like buying things with hard earn money, that made me think and plan.

That was my well spent weekend. 2 more weeks, it will soon come... woohoo, excited to see man... my dream being fulfilled, my ultimate aim for weight lost I set for myself in camp last time... 2 weeks and counting...hope its good...

OT!~!~!~

Yes I am in office again, finishing up on work, was suppose to go for a movie but was postpone... all plans down the drain. Initally was suppose to go for IMC aka International Muay Thai Competition, but kinda called it off for the movie, now... haiz... nvm lah... got work to do anyway.

Yesterday dinner was very funny, all thx to Ms Apel, I dun tink I will ever go back to amk hub fish and co. I shall not get into details but just say that she tried to "sell" me to one of the staff there. its like OMG lah...*ROAR*. But well its fun lah going out with her... always not short of a little laugh thou sometime I become the victim of the jokes. HAHAHA

Today, went to see cousin thomas for a routine checkup, was tinking of getting one done long time ago, but only manage time today. After seeing so many sudden death, and the age being so young, its starting to worry me abit. So far so good, just waiting on my Xray, blood and urine test. ECG and blood pressure was fine. After that head to the gym to do some workout, concentrated on cardio. Realised I am getting more and more letargic, think my "engine" is going to stall again very soon. Worried. After gym, went home to drop off some stuff and here I am, at work to finish off whatever work I have not done.

Will go light on dinner later i guess... looking at the time, probably settle on some dao huay *yummy* shoulder aching since yesterday, the op one, wondering if i over strained it? haiz... guess i have to bring my workout level down a knot a and concentrate more on leg and stamina building man... haven't really got to do marathon traning proper man. and its 2 months away. OMG DIE!!! all the best to me den.

Alright lah... time to head home... Enjoy your weekend pple... Cheers

Starting to get a little more back on track

The week have been pretty good for me so far, since I worked on Sunday, decided to take Monday off and rest at home, and I literally rest, alright except for the fact i went to hougang gym and did a little workout. The rest of the day was pretty much slacked away for my mind to take a break.

Yesterday, started my day off at the physio, Jennifer (my doc) was one leave so this new girl took over. Can tell she is new from the way she talk and all. Gave me an assessment and taught me a few new moves. Kinda progress to the next stage, but I am not too sure as i haven't been doing what Jennifer have told me to do. Oh well, after that, went down to esplanade library to do some reading and kinda spends time before heading down for Muay Thai lessons in the evening. Got 2 new bruise on my forearm, this time around its from Alvin (my coach). Did some pad-work with him and I can tell he wasn't giving his 100%. I wonder how this guys train to be so strong and yet have the stamina to sustain... More work to be done den! Oh yah, something that kinda amazed me and disgust me at the same time happened before i went for class. Was "yum cha-ing" at this eatery at MS, and throughout my entire process there, the aunties from the shop are flirting with some customers, uncles alike, but wah I tell you, they sound damn er can... haiz... all old enough to be my parents and still going at it like they are back in the 60s... hahaha...

Lessons tonight, think will be heading to school earlier for gym training, before going for class. guess I might give my back a break and focus on my core muscles, and maybe my bum too, since i have been getting alot of comments saying that my ass is gone. hehez...

Why are you giving me the cold shoulders? Why am I so affected? i really donno. I thought I have sort things out... I really thought so... but I guess I was wrong...

Sorted Out....

Nothing beats a good gym session, at least for me... all the perspiration and adrenaline, as good as giving myself a good session of muay thai, which I would be doing tml.... During the breaks in between my sets and also in the shower, managed to sort things out and "de-vexed" myself...

My conclusion is that I have been too stress by all the pressure from work, studies, and everything else that even little things cause me too think into details, complicating simple things. I have now decide that Studies will be my top priority for the coming 2 years, followed by leading a healthy life and pushing myself to greater heights in terms of sports. As for social life (or love, relationships, etc), will take a back seat i suppose, and will see if it comes by then. Not going to rush into any, or hope for any... Making friends and knowing more people will be my aim for now.

Time really flew, without realizing it, Hungry Ghost Festival is already over, and Lantern Fest is coming up really soon. Nothing special thou, not that I have anyone to spent it with, or in any case, celebrate it, to begin with... hehez... Alright... feels good to have sort things out, dun wan to think too much, dun care, get my priorities set...

Remember words of wisdom from Jayson sometime ago, which kinda enlighten me and help me sort out my thinking. He told me "Be accepted for being who u are, and not for who they want you to be". I guess all this while, I have been trying too hard to please everyone in the best way that I can, trying to be "likable" by all. But well, certainly in life, you cannot be Mr. popular with everyone, and there is no use trying to be well liked by everyone, you are who u are. I am trying very hard to remind myself that all the time. That people should like me because of who I am, rather than I try to accommodate to others so as to get them to like me. Its just too tiring... From now, I live for myself, you don't like it... leave... if not... like me for who I am....

Thinking..... Thinking.... Vexed...

Woke up feeling really vexed. Or rather, my mind was up the entire night again, not cause by sugar rush today... But just alot to think about, about a conversation, some sentences said...

Why did u react in that way? why was there is strange feeling after that conversation? Why do I feel at fault in mentioning some things? Why am I so bothered about what I say? Did I say anything wrong? To me there is none, but somewhere within told me I did...

Haven't been so affected before, especially by a conversation. Am I taking the situation too lightly? or too seriously? Am I complicating a very simple issue, which might not even be an issue in the first place, or is it just my brains making up this issues and causing all this now...

My best solution for now I guess is avoidance, thou many a times I would advise my friends with problem to face up to the problem, but now I choose to avoid as I am not sure if its even a problem in the first place. Vexed.... what have I got myself into?... I wonder...

Busy Busy Busy...

I feel drained... more mentally then physically. I guess I challenged myself physically too often, so much so that I don't feel physically fatigue that easily. But its my mind that cannot handle that much stress. I need a vacation desperately.

Friday was suppose to go work, but ended up going to the beach with a Apel and Jovie as the sun was just too tempting... calling us out for a tan. True enough, the entire day was scorching, and I got abit toasted. After that, went shopping around with them at vivo. Tired after that, but still managed to meet up with Peili and Sherine for a drink at Alley Bar, one of my favorite hangout. Did a little chit chat before going home.

Saturday, hit the gym a little later, but still managed to do a little workout, with Serene before heading for class. After class, headed over to Kim Seng for band practice. After band prac, was still not ready to end of my sat, so got the the Cathey and watch No Reservation with Serene. Haha, its was a nice show i must say, Love Catherine Zeta Jones... After that, we went for a little rochor dao huay before heading back. Yummy, always love my dao huay.

But, all that sugar really got into me bad, had sugar rush the entire night, my body is resting but my mind was awake the entire time. Got up before my alarm sounded this morning and went for dragonboat training, after a very long break. Training was good, as next week was the race, so it wasn't as relax, always love the feeling of grasping for air after every set, and the sun was scorching today as well, making training more unbearable when it make contact with my burnt areas. Have to constantly water it. After training, spent the rest of the day in the office finishing up work that i was suppose to do on friday... haha. Can say my brain is dead at this moment.

Tml a new week... new challenges and alot of work awaits... time to buck up and take on the new challenges... JIA YOU X 3!!!

Can someone please tell me how to duplicate myself?

There is a saying... don't wear that big a hat when u don't have that big a head.... I guess that is what best descibe me now... I am wearing an oversized hat.... trying to stuff myself with more then I can handle.... worse of all, its is suppose to be enjoyable, and now it turns out to be a burden... let me explain...

Currently core routine (meaning things I will do despite anything else) is basically work and studies, work is mon and thurs, and studies is on wed and sat. Then, things starts piling up, tuesday I have my Muay Thai lesson, and sat after class i have Kim Seng practise. Other spare time I would used to train for whatever coming event (say for the next would be Run for Hope and New Balance Real Run). However, there is more, Lao shi (conductor from my NYP band) is offically retiring, and I would very much love to perform for that concert, but since my tues and sat is pretty much taken, I am left with thurs evening practise. Dragonboat, something I wan to take back for a very long time, and one of the vetern last race in nov... and i would love to do that... so the onli time i can make practise is sunday, definately not enough to train to standard... but really hope i can... that now the onli day I am left free would be friday, where i need to balance on studies and training.

Over pilled isn't it... so many things i wish to do... but if only there was more me... can be at more then one place at one time. That would be great... I wish... praying... someone tell me... how can i do it all..??? please.....

Monday: Day: Work, Evening: Free
Tuesday: Day: Free, Evening: Muay Thai
Wednesday: Day: Free, Evening: School
Thurday: Day: Work, Evening: Band (NYP)
Friday: Free so far
Sat: Day: School, Evening: Band (Kim Seng)
Sunday: Day: Dragonboat Evening: Free

So far its like that, free time is used usually for studies and training... please give me strenght..... end this entry with one of my all time favorite singer... enjoy

Recap

Last week was a busy but really fun week, busy, but really fun week. but with happiness came sorrow too...

After the passing of the officer for the run, another person under the age of 40 have died, and this time its closer to heart as I knew this person. His name, Sonny Leong, a flautist from Kim Seng Winds, someone that I met a weekend before his death, and I really didn't expect that would be the last time I will see him. Surprisingly, he was from NYP band, which I guess I have no idea since I only got in there in my year three. But all I remember during his last practise is that I played him a tuning note, the first note I played for him... and to think its now the last note, sad to be losing a talented player, but I am sure his music stays with all his friends. Its nice knowing u Sonny. FYI, he died peacefully in his sleep, suddenly, but peacefully...

Now back to last week, its been a busy week completing assignments for HRM, stupid internet went down on me at the time i need it most, so I had to complete my assignment in my office, lucky Cedric didn't mind. Apart from that is just alot of training, not sure whatever for, but it always feels good after a good workout... Been going back to my focus training, meaning focusing on particular group of muscles in each workout, and the post workouts aches get back to me is SHIOK lah... hehez... sadist? I dun think so, I take its as a good workout... hehez...

But with good workout, I also did alot of good food this weekend. Went for ma la guo with Herbert, last weekend, been having a craving and since i was near the area I jio-ed him to it. Good, not too spicy, and very very filling, took me hours to digest, haven't felt so full in a long time. Sat, had ding tai feng, more good food, yum yum, reward is always sweet after awhile...

Yesterday, spent the entire day at the beach, tanning, and despite passing shower, we still managed to look like lobsters when we leave the beach, its true that if company is good, nothing can really dampen ur spirit despite lousy weather. Went to the IT fair after, to scout for pricing for laptop, and realised its ain't that much cheaper neither. So forgo a hasty buy. Decide to think it over before purchase.

Lately, cash have been flowing out like a leaking tap man, and with all on my to buy list, I forsee myself eating bread till the end of the year... haha.... Here is a brief outline of things I planning to get.

1) Lappy aka Lap Top
2) Handphone (coz my current one battery is really CMI)
3) new pair of runners, probably NB (dun forsee my current acis [3 months old] is going to last me till Stand Chart run)
4) Digital watch to keep track of timing (Polar RS 200 prefered)

Just these 4 item alone is enough to used up everything i have been saving man. Argh, and kind sponsors, willing to donate to the "Ryan Needy Fund" hahaha...

Anyway, got to prepare for work already lah... gotta work to earn money, to get all I want!!! jia you jia you!!!! ciaoz...


Shall end my entry with a word of advise, Life is fragile, no one knows what is going to happen tml, so be sure to leave your life to the fullest everyday and with no regrets...

My condolences....

Read on today's newspaper about the captain that died on Sunday 21km run. Its a pity to lose yet another outstanding athlete. Not surprised that all his friend's and family was shocked by his passing, I would too if I knew him, who would expect a strong guy like that to just collapse and die. All this seems freaky, like Death Note (for those who watched the movie would know what I am talking about) really exist. All these death have inflicted a fear in me when running, I think before stepping on the acceleration, will have doubt if i should push myself to my limits. Its not that I fear death, but I have to consider the grief stage that my parents and friends have to go through if anything happens to me. I know how it feels like losing someone close, its worse den slicing a piece of meat off you, trust me.

Went to watch Evan Almighty with Herbert yesterday, funny show, but nevertheless learn quite abit from some of the conversations on the show. 2 particular sentence caught my attention and i would really love to share. First being "Changing the World by is simply doing one act of random kindness at a time" and "Prayers are asking god for an opportunity" Shall not go into details for the 2 sentence, you will know more about it when you watch the movie. Its pretty good.

Yay...tonight got Muay Thai training, something I look forward to every week, thou i get all bruised up after, but the feeling of relief and fatigue is always rewarding. Erm, guess thats is for today, nothing pretty much interesting to blog. Have been feeling uneasy for the past few days, have plenty to think about but cannot really put them into words... just assuming it school stress taking a toll on me, and leaving it at that for the moment. Alright then, shall leave it at that for now. will update again as soon as I can find the time. Cheers!!!

Singapore Bay Run

Just got back from the run awhile ago, it was good, and now I am feeling more of sleepy rather than tired. Legs are not sore, caught my breathing back almost immediately after crossing the finishing line, but this time didn't managed to catch where the camera was... so cannot cam whore. hehez...

5am, drag myself out of bed (went to bed at 1am as i prepared for the run), showered and forced 2 toast down my throat, usually have not much appetite in the morning, but its not good to run on empty stomach. After that, got a cab and picked up Jayson from his place before heading down. The place was already pretty packed when we got there... Thank god I didn't wear my army singlet, coz there were tonnes wearing it, as the event is also know as Army Half Marathon in the past, but due to overwhelming response to the event, they had to change the name to cater to the public. Deposited our bag, then headed off to the starting point at One Fullerton.

Running in the city is indeed a fun thing to do, especially when u get to run in the middle of the road not worry about getting knocked down by the cars. The views are fantastic, the air is alright considering it is a Sunday. However doing it alone and with thousands of people plays tricks on your brains. You tend to want to go faster, to pass people. So at some point of time, u feel more or less fatigue. But as I ran, and when I finally saw the finishing line, the feeling is good . Yet another event completed.

After the run, waiting for bag collection is a headache, but was much better compared to Mizuno Wave Run. After that me and a very hungry Jayson went to MS to hunt for food, and ended up having Carl's Junior, my first time having it. The salad is good, burger is good, everything is good, partly because I am hungry too I guess... didn't really care much, took it as a reward for my run. After that went down town, to register for the Run For Hope next month before heading home... and that pretty much is the end of my run. Hopefully my picture turn out fine. hehez...

Oh yah, just got news that a captain died from the run, collapse after passing the line. haiz... poor chap...

Alright then...thats all folk about my run... shall blog if there is something interesting then....

Health Tips: Never Run in with an empty stomach and know ur limits, its always great to exceed ur limit, but not at the expense of ur life....

No Progress...

Haiz... blogging in office before calling it a day. Yes close to 7, still in office, by far the latest I have stay here man in this new place. feel the need to settle all unfinished business before the week ends rather.

Yesterday, went to see the doc, my surgeon, he says my shoulder is doing good progress, and should be able to engage in my old sports (like dragonboat and muay thai) in another 1 and 1/2 months time. Today, went for physio hoping to get the same confirmation, ended in disappointment. "No Improvement on ur back muscles, still lack support", those were her words. DB or MT have to be determined on the progress of my next visit. One side my doc, the other side is my physio, who should I follow... I wonder.

Finally caught 881 yesterday with Apel, its nice for a local production, and I am sure the actors and actress had fun wearing all the costume man... think if i ever going to have a theme party, I would have a "881 theme party" lah... haha... Plot was ok, the songs are all power, brought back many wonderful memories of my childhood where I will get to play around all the getai. Got to wonder how they managed to find such fitting clothing for Qi Yu Wu thou...haiz.. Its ending brought some tears in my eyes thou, managed to not let them flow out. The scene where small papaya started losing hair is where got me the most. Reminded me of my sis, when she had her treatment. *sniff sniff* but thats in the past already...

Rather tired, having to stare at the com all day, I guess this is what spur me to take my current course anyway, not to be staring at the come all day in the future. hehez. Considering if I should go home and get change or just head down to town. Its neither here nor there now, and I am a walking fashion disaster. T-shirt, jeans and TRACK SHOES!!! damn old school, back in the days where I book out from camp man. haha. I cannot never carry out this look thou some of my fren can. HAHA. Have class tml, will likely be going to school earlier for a workout as usual. Trying to plan a trip to short trip up Phuket sometime mid sept, but see lah... chances of making it comes true seems slim hehez...

Alright lah... guess thats all I have for now, everyone have a great weekend. Time to lose more weight, and do something to my sickening face!!! hahaha Cheers!

End with a nice song from 881

Magazine Interview!!! woohoo...

This morning had an appointment with Men's Health magzine, was invited to be featured in the "Tummy Off Club" column. For those that doesn't know, that is the column featuring "success" stories of fat bastards (like myself) in terms of transformation of looks and physically. Was not sure if I made the cut thou, someone actually send my "story" in on my behalf (thank you whoever u are) and the people emailed me to arrange an appointment. Thought it was a prank initally, but realised its not when they ring me up to cfm the appointment.

So got to SPH at Genting lane this morning. Was first interviewed by Melvin, a very nice and friendly person, gave me a copy of this month's issue of men's health. Then after which was send for the photoshoot, which in my opinion was a disaster, nothing to do with the crew or anything, just me. Was asked to make a few Muay Thai poses, so I ended doing more knees coz its very traditional Muay Thai move. Being a cam whore that I am, I feel very uncomfortable not smiling infront of cameras, but the thing is fighting sports is suppose to be serious... so I ended up with only one look, which was pretty sadz. Hopefully they can do some editing to make it look better.

Having said that, I must say its an eye opener for me, felt so pampered for the short 2 hours, having people do my hair, my face and all. really felt like a celebrity for that moment. Not too sure which issue I will be featured yet thou. From my judgement, it should be the October issues since its already mid this month, Sept issue should be about completion. Will keep updated den.... Pray hard the pic turn out alright.... haiz...

Brand New Week

Been starting off the day with very sudden wake, not on purpose, but seems like my biological clock have been tempered with. But at least I do not wake up feeling tired and lethargic.

Now for the week to come, this week is pretty much packed to the brim, except today I am free the rest of the day are already planned I supposed. Realized that its been a month since I started studying, time really flies but lucky things aren't as bad as I thought, at least my brain is starting to open up to accepting new ideas and learning new things. Having said that, I feel I am lacking behind in terms of personal revision, can't put the blame of others as its pretty much personal effort, guess I have to sort out my thinking and really get myself back on track before its too late.

My class is slowly opening up, getting to know more and more people in class, and glad that there is no "politics" (so far at least) hehez... Been getting alot of feedback from my new friends, not intentionally, but just passing a comment about me, which after some thought made me realise many things. Realised that I have been very committed to workouts, thou I personally feel that I have slacked off quite abit in my fitness, many people that just got to know me thinks likewise, and I concluded thats the reason people labelled me gay, not for the fact that I work out alot, just that my interests is more on workout comparing to girls as seen to many. Time to reflect on that. Thats just one example.

Packed packed week, but looking forward to everyday! nothing left.... will update again soon... great week ahead!!!

Lousy Sunday!!!

Today is such a bad day, got up early in the morning, thinking of making it for a paddle, rush there in a cab thinking I was going to be late, end up only me , John, Angelina and Leslie turned up. So it was called off. Sianz... Ended up getting my Muay Thai shorts at Golden Mile before coming home. Thought of head out for a tan instead but the sky turned grey after... ARGH!!!

Now with regards to my week, erm... must say its been a pretty fruitful week, thou not in terms of fitness, but been meeting up with many friends, so kinda good too. My financially depleting also lah, so hafta tighten the belt abit for the coming weeks, concentrate more on training. So many things to get, my phone is giving me problem, I need a watch, looking at a POLAR RS200, and an Ipod, these 3 item will be close to 1000 bucks already lah... haiz... who wanna sponsor me?

Yesterday was out with my gang, to a Japanese place at MS, food is nice, twice i been there, twice they did not disappoint, would go back there again. After that, went singing with my regular gang, was pretty enthu about it... but slowly lost the mood... donno why. But it was still a very enjoyable night.

Coming week, alot of check ups and appointments. week's schedule is almost packed. Got some assignments to settle too. Woohoo 15 weeks and counting to standard chartered.

Health Tips: Eat everything in moderation, no point abstaining and eat more later... know your limit!!!

Please don't judge me....

As much as I want to blog about the happy times I had today with my flute section at Sentosa,My mood have been pretty affected lately by a series of events that constantly surround one topic. Which is GAY!

I have to make myself clear, I have nothing against gays, and I respect the fact that everyone have the privilage to what they want in life. With that said, you guys must be wondering who that guy is... For your information, that was me, some years back. Don't be taken aback, but yes thats me. I do not deny that there have been some transformation from the me then and the me now. Apart from my appearance, I can feel the change in my character, attitude, and confidence.

However, recent events have been really troubling me, to which aspect in they way I lead my life is misleading people to misinterpret my gender preference, aka that I am Gay. First thing I consider is they way I dress, my dress sense, often (from the feedback I got) is one factor. But I must say I find nothing wrong with the way I dress. I lived my entire life envying other people on they way they dress, how they compliment the clothes, I used to look at them and look myself in the mirror thinking if I would ever wear clothes like theirs. Now that I am finally reaping the fruits to my "success", yet people classify me as being Gay. Another point that I dress the way I dress, is to prove to everyone out there that there is still guys in Singapore that bothers to dress up, and not the typical singlet, berms and slippers that everyone claim. Singapore still have guys that have fashion sense, and the trend is picking up, so I am just the minority (for now) that makes effort to look more presentable in the public, and what do i get back, perceptions that I am Gay... No logic...

Another issue that lead to many people thinking I am gay, is for that fact that I am still single at 23. I mean, yes being single all my live do get me thinking "whats wrong with me?" at times. My logical explaination I suppose is my upbringing and the environment that I was brought up in. For majority of my education years, I have been in a pure boys school, and since school was so close to home, there wasn't any real chance for me to know people outside from class. My only interaction with the "real world" was when I first stepped into poly. My main goal was to just open up and be friendly to everyone, and of course open up to the opposite sex. That was kinda my way of working with things ever since, making and getting to know more friends. From there, I am not sure if I was getting a phobia of talking to guys already since I have been doing so for the last 10 years, I seem to click better with girls then with guys. Last time seems like and act of "chee hong-ism" (meaning buaya in malay terms) but nowadays is seems like people associate it with "gayism"

That is currently the 2 reasons that comes to my mind as to why people from all walks of life have the impression I am gay. Let me make it straight once and for all, I AM STRAIGHT! and I will not be bothered to go all out to prove that I am, coz I really don't see the need to. I am clarifying myself for the simple fact that all this unneccessary comments are FUCKING my life up. It hurts to know that people I thought have faith in me thinks otherwise. Feels a deep sense of betrayal. Dressing well do not make one gay, isn't it only fair to pamper myself after all the hardwork I have put in? Showing off the result from all the many hours of run, gym session, all my blood, sweat and tears. Whats wrong with being 23 and still being single, why am I gay just because I have been single all my life. What make you think I never thought of going into a relationship? everytime a Vday past, I will always say to myself maybe I will not be alone for the next. things like that I am sure nobody knows. I do wan to get into a relationship, but its easier said then done, and just as my confidence is starting to pick up, shit like this happens, shattering everything I have build... Now that I wan to get into a relationship, I worry if people thinks I am using this as a cover-up to my "real identity". Yes u guys must be laughing and think I am being to senstive, but I am not, as I have experience such things before... so I know...

When will such status be taken away from me I don't know, all I know is I am hurt... and its painful... but I will not go down without a fight... so BRING IT ON!!! I will be waiting for what uglier things there is... I will fight to my every last breath if I have to... I need to.......

Post NDP...

Happy 42nd Birthday Singapore!~!~!~ know I am a day late, but well the nation did indeed have a good great birthday. Looking at the parade segment reminds me of my participation 2 years ago when Singapore was 40, time really flies...

Shall start on pre NDP, wednesday, had to work due to NDP being on thurs, thus spoiled my plan of going to the gym before class. Took wednesday off then. After work headed to class. Kinda slowly blending into my class culture and environment already, and kinda start filtering already. Know its mean to be doing so, but well it uni no matter what. Got to know a new classmate Serene better. Very out-spoken and cheerful girl, but the thing is she have an impression that I AM GAY!!! OMG... haha but well everything is made clear now, I hope. After class met up with the guys for a movie at the cathey. While waiting for them, we walked around cathey looking at some of the new shop that open there. Some of the designs of their things are not bad i must say. Watch "Rush Hour 3", plot was very predictable, but Chris Tucker never fail to make me laugh till my guts hurt. Not forgetting Jackie, thou aged but still as agile as every, not considering the speed lah.. heez... After that went for supper at Wendy's hut, good food, sinful food... stayed there till 3am plus before retiring home.

National Day itself, went for a good workout in the gym, to compensate wednesday session missed. Spent a good 2 hours working out. A girl in the gym did 15 chin ups, guy style, its damn power lah, great upper body strenght, no doubt got everyone's attention, including mine. RESPECT. After that, spent the rest of the day at home. Caught "Shutters", its scary lah, talking about picture and photo taking. But that is not enough to stop me cam whoring thats for sure... haha.. Later in the evening, met Jac for a drink at Grapevine, chit chat the evening away. As the place was closing, we settled down at my place for awhile before she gone home. Its good to just chit chat once in awhile, helps one unwind in one way or another. Got home, took a shower, slept at 4ish.

Today, had to the pool for my routine swim, partly feeling guilty for the drinks and finger food i had the evening before. Will be doing some reading up about class for tml, and joining herbert for a light jog in the evening i suppose. Tml will be a long day i forsee, going earlier to school for a little workout and group discussion. After which would be class, then heading down to PS to catch whatever match that is left for the Muay Thai Competition. woo hoo, Sunday is outing with Adeline and gang, hopefully everything runs smoothly!!! Alright then, thats all for my plans... school is getting harder to cope, but well I guess I can manage lah... wish me luck... cheers!!!

Tired but contented.... Yawnz....

Today is mid week and yet I already can't wait for the weekends to come by... Don't get me wrong, its in a good way since my week have been going so well, kinda excited to see is coming up next. After last weeks ordeal with my parents, would say everyone is now in a "polite" stage of life. Haven't really got to see my dad thou, for the fact that he is off to work before i wakes up and by the time i get home everyday, he is already asleep. Can't really blame me for not having a topic with him, or rather act like complete strangers at home lah, I suppose.

Enough on that matter, trying my best not to think about it, I know avoidance is not the best solution to problems, but when there is no solution to the problem to begin with, then avoidance is the best resort. Lets do a recap of the past 2 days. Monday, went for a swim to loosen up on my leg muscles after that long run on sunday. Then head of to work, work was a pretty short day I must say. So since I had a short day, I was pretty early from my movie plans with a friend. A new classmate from school to be precise, met her for the first time. For the fact that we actually clique off well kinda suprised me, so glad the day didn't turn out to be a Q&A session. But the day was not all well thou, after the movie as we were leaving from the theatre, we were so engrossed in our conversation that my friend tripped over a pit in the middle of the walkway and sprained her ankle, felt terrible that such terrible things have happened, currently in the process of settling the matter with HDB hub and Cathay, hopefully they give me a good explaination to why was there a stupid hole in the middle of a walkway, not cover whatsoever, and being a cemented floor, the visiblity of the hole was even worse. Argh, pissed even thinking about it. Lucky my friend was still able to walk with a little assistance. Ended up having dinner at Pepperlunch, food there is not bad, first time there and I like it. The rest of the evening we spent chit chatting in there, till we were the last 2 customer left. Haha, chat about everything under that sun lah... Accompanied her back to her place in a cab, before returning home, no way I was going to let her home alone with that kinda injury. That pretty much ends of my monday, fun but not perfect due to the fall.

Yesterday, nothing much happening in the day, but yesterday Muay Thai training was superb, felt like i am back to my before operation day, with consideration for my right shoulder thou. But that is after a very long time I used so much strength and panting after the session. Probably because I had Alvin to do pad work with me, as the rest of the season fighters are resting for their fight on Sat. All the best guys!!! my left thigh is aching after being "human pad" for one younger fighter to practise his kick.. hahah but the pain is "enjoyable" hehez... had applied some oilment when I got home.

Today, felt the effects from yesterday's training, legs are aching (especially my left), my back and shoulders are too. This feeling is GREAT LAH!!! haha... must be thinking I am sadist and like pain, but trust me, this kinda pain is different from the rest, its call "accomplishment pain" (invented by ryan koh =p) yes, its tiring, but just have to rest awhile and everything will be alright. Haven't felt this pain in awhile, guess i haven't been pushing myself hard enough in training till yesterday, haha good good good... a new level. Going to class later in the evening thou, so kinda regret putting in so much yesterday. Now I am not sure if i will snooze in class later, lolx, hopefully not coz HRM have been alot of issues for me. But still trying to adapt lah.. at least my brain is starting to work again...

Alright lah, just blogging in the mids of my work. going back to it, hopefully can finish it soon and return home already... Cheers pple

Pushing myself

I have finally did it, after much thought and motivation, I will be doing the full Standard Chartered Marathon. Something I have never done in my life, never thought of doing ever last time. Training starts from this week 115 days and counting.

I didn't make this decision just on the spot. I reassured myself after i push myself to the limits yesterday. Decided to go for a run along the NEL route. So the inital plan was furthest to Doby Ghaut Station so I started running. Potong Pasir, Boon Keng, Farrer Park, then avoid Little India and too the Sim Lim route, not to be racist, just that its a sunday and the place is packed. then reached SMU. Still felt really energetic, as a matter of fact, I was just getting warmed up, so next destination, Esplande. As soon as I ran to the bridge, I start to feel even better, so thinking how far I can push myself, I aimed Vivocity, harbourfront, the final stop of NEL line. Run run run, not too sure about whether I am on the right track, check at the bus stop for a familar, continued till i see the familiar lights from Vivo. I MADE IT, from seragoon to vivocity, when to grab a drink and some bananas and rest at the roof for awhile doing some light stretching, and strangely my legs didn't feel strained at all, ok, maybe a little.

After that took a train to Outram, and from there run to CHIJMES to meet up with Navin and Herbert to catch the match between Chelsea and Man U, and off course Man U won (woohoo!~!~) through a superb penalty shootout (3-0 to Man u) After that head for some supper, a place recommended by navin serving superb food. must go there again, before heading home, that was when the latic acid really started acting from the legs... so after hydrating myself, i called it a night. Tired but achieved alot.

So today first thing in I did when I entered the office was to register for standard chartered marathon so as to not allow myself to procrasitnate anymore. Time to bring my body to a whole new level. Time to fulfil my dream and cast my old self into the shadows, something I am sure I will not want to go back and will not allow it to happen. Shoo old Ryan, a new Ryan is born!!! wish me luck people... I will do the best I can! Please support me.... here is a rough idea to the list of events I will likely be participate/ or have already registered and some that i had participated this half of the year.

July:
Passion Run 2007 (10km) [DONE]
Run for Hope (charity run) (31 rounds around track = 12.4km) [DONE]
Mizuno Run (10km) [DONE]

August
Singapore Bay Run (12km)

Sept
Run for Hope (Cancer charity run) (8km)

Oct
New balance real run (15km)

Nov
Swisshotel Vertical Marathon (TBC) (73 Storey)

Dec
Standard Chartered Marathon (42.195km)

Enough is enough... haiz

Didn't think it would ever come to this day, a sucky way to start of a beautiful weekend, and all due to some ridiculous nonsensical subject. So ridiculous that even I feel ashamed saying it. Just fucking annoying...

It the topic about "gayhood" again. Yes, my friends make fun of me with it, saying I am gay and all, but I took the situation lightly cause everyone needs a little laugh in their life and at time, if being called gay or doing a little "girly" gesture can earn some worthy smiles or laughter from my fren, I don't mind being the clown at times. But now to the point that even my parents think so... its fucked up lah! Back then when my mum told me dad was worried that I might turn gay due to not having a girlfriend at my age. I found it totally hiliarious, so did my mum to be honest. But yesterday, the table took a turn as finally everything was made clear to me.

Why can't I have some private space, why must I report everything that I do, where I have been, who am I out with? am I some kinda criminal? I am 22 going on 23 for god sake. Everyone needs some private space. Yes, I know I am love and you guys are just "protective" over me, but do you all know these so called "love" is actually a heavy burden on my end. After my sister's passing many years ago, I was force to grown up and I dare say, have been leading a very compromising life ever since. All that for just one simple reason, "I am the only one left". But the least I can ask from you guys, my parents, is a little faith. Yes, in every parents eyes, their kids will always be a kid. But you guys will still have to accept the fact that kids grow up and you cannot treat them like they are when they are in secondary school, or even younger! I was very disappointed to hear those words coming from their mouth, my own parents. Showing no faith in the things I do whatsoever. I really run out of ideas on what to do, I am sick and tired of the life that I have to prove myself all the time.

My dad say he worries were not made with no facts, claims he has been "observing" me, and say it seems to him that "I have no interest in girls". I really have no idea where he based his observations to be honest. For the fact that I always hung around my guy friends like Herbert and gang, or for the fact that we don't even communicate at home. We don't have a family problem, if you were wondering, just that I am not out-spoken, since young, and my dad is no talkative person either. So he claims we don't talk at home, when he is in the living room, I will be in my room using the computer, and if he is in his room, I will be out in the living room. To be honest, I don't do that on purpose, just that I found 2 person staring at a TV with nothing to talk very awkward, and for the fact I cannot channel surf as another person is watching kinda make it boring for me, so I will go do something more useful. Is that wrong? I am still very curious on what basis made my father thinks that way. During his time, yes he is a playboy, but does that neccessary make me a playboy as well? How can I put that across to him? During his time, he changes cars every month, he was rich, but TIMES HAVE CHANGE! I here on the otherhand is taking public transport, not that I have any complains off, just to emphasis that time have changed. How can I make them see that? How can I "modernise" them just that little bit.

What made things worse, my mum, who I feel have more faith with me then my dad, was also suspicious of me, which kinda dragged me down ALL THE WAY!!! She is also being racist with my company, using again, "past experience" she hear from others as an excuse for her racism. How can she be so judgemental even before knowing my friends? Where have all the teachings of "Never judge a book by it cover" gone?

For those who read this and is laughing, I don't blame you, yes thats how "cute" my family is, worries about their son turning GAY, believe it or not, i am laughing to myself thinking about it too, just that my heart bleeds from within... Need company to talk to... Need drinking kaki (don't usually do this, as in drinking to sorrows, but extreme times call for extreme measures), need some fresh air... and A LITTLE MORE FAITH... am I demanding for too much? I wonder...

Sun is back!!! Yippie

After an entire week of wet wet weather, I finally saw the sun on Monday!!! haha thou rainy day is very nice to sleep in as many would love. But for me, I kinda dread gloomy weather, cause it really does affect my mood.

Anyway, just these three days, apart from revision on my modules (something rare) did quite abit of sports, pretty determind to shed off my excess tire, but my diet is still crap. By hook or by crook have to see improvement by 21 Aug. More determined when a date is set.

Still considering over Standard Chartered Marathon, slightly more then 100 days from it. Not sure if my legs can go the entire distance. Would be a good way to hit 23 thats for sure. Someone please guide me along...

Ran on Sunday, to amk hub and back from home, met Peili on the way back, she ask me to join her for a run, she needed it, so I did, before running home. Monday and today was swimming except today I had Muay thai lessons in the evening. Todays lessons was pretty intense, but judging from them number of FIT pple in class now, and competitions coming, Alvin (coach) brought things up a notch (or 2). Kinda injuried my elbow... donno how, but there is a sharp pain when I did push-up just now... so kinda opt out of it... guess it will take awhile for it to recovery lah. meanwhile will do running and cardio ba. Stuck at 76 kg... need to lose 5 to 6kg!!! someone teach me how!!!

Lesson tml, gonna do some light reading before the lecture, Nitez!!!