Awesome Weekend!!!

This weekend is one of the best weekend that I had since ages ago, not that its was much different from other weekend, just that I attended one of the best musical ever written, The Phantom Of the Opera, and it didn't disappoint. Will go into more details of it later on...

Saturday, met up with the gang, with old and new cliques (Old being Meiting and Sasa, new would have to be Jing Si, Sarah and that guy, which i cannot remember his name... oppz sorri). Anyway met them in town, they had lunch and since I had a filling breakfast, I forgo lunch. That table continues with its "never ending battle" story, hehez, I guess only those present will understand where I am heading. I shared abit of my views and hopefully not inflicting too much pressure on anyone. After lunch (which was like 4pm) we went for a little window shopping. Initally wanted to catch a movie but there wasn't any good slots. In the evening, Meiting and sarah left us, the guy left earlier after lunch to meet his frens. So its left with Sasa, Jing Si and Me. we followed Jing Si to PS, as she wanted to check something out at creative. But after a LONG consideration, we still left the place empty handed (hehe guess I was putting too much pressure on Jing Si, sori arh...) hehez... Xiu came to meet us during that period of time, and after dinner, everyone being as ON as they are, decide to go KTV (2nd weekend in a row). We sang our hearts out, and as Sasa wasn't in her best condition, she still managed to perform fairly in a different class. hehez... its was really enjoyable, and I must say, Jing si can sing. Would classify her under the Hebi (from SHE) and Faye (from FIR) range. but she can sing. Ended off the session at 1am, and its was still alot of laughs in the cab home.

Sunday, initally wanted to get a tan at Sentosa, but my lazy bone got the best of me, and ended up slacking home the entire day. Prepared myself for the big night an hour early (I can be quite a lady, when comes to dressing up, haha love taking my own sweet time, hehez...) Was suppose to meet with Sasa and Karen for dinner, which ends up as a romantic dinner for 2 as Sasa "fly the plane" at the very late min. Dinner was enjoyable as we chatted and waited for the rest to arrive. When everyone has more or less arrived, we head down to the esplande for the show I have been waiting and looking forward to for the longest time. It was also a reunion for me and my bestie Shi Jia, haven't seen her in awhile and she is still as helpless when it comes to my "wet blanket" jokes.. hahaha (i can get pretty evil at times *muahahaha, but only to people I know very well lah... hehez..) Shortly after we enter and when every is seated down, the show commences, and it was like we were literally transported to another world. Everything from the costumes to the lightings to the props was excellent, and every scenes seems like paintings on the wall. Not to mention, the singing was superb, listening to them will definately have a whole new meaning to me when I play the concert piece in the future. Its no wonder its one of the longest running music around. Words are really unable to describle how good it was, all I know was that when it was all over, I applaured till my hand hurt, and there was this one particular scene, where I was so moved, that a tear actually rolled down my cheek, it was that good.

Apart from the great singer, there was also a great orchestra that backs them up. From the sounds of its, I was expecting at least a 70 or 80 strong Orchestra to be backing them up. But as the show ended, we went forward to check out the orchestra and was amazed by what we saw... Its was just shocking... Overall, a wonderful night, and once again the feeling of "Unreal" just came back to me, like when I was at holland to compete in WMC, it just feel like it didn't just happened in that period of time. I was also taken aback by the number of friends I met in just one night. Hehe

As it was a Sunday night, we headed straight home after the performance. Would really love to sit and chat about the performance with them, but considering everyone gotta work the next day, we had no choice. Went back with Shi Jia (considering we stay 15 mins apart), on the way we talk and catch up abit. As usual, there will be a topic touched on me being single and who I am targetting, blah blah blah. Its nothing but everytime this topic is brought up, its would get me thinking alot, like "why?" and all that kinda stuff... True, I really would love to be in a relationship, but its not like I have much of a choice when the right person doesn't not appear right? I wonder at times, even if I meet the right girl, how am I to approach? In the past, even when I didn't meet the right girl, but my "over-warm" attitude, almost ruin friendship. So should I take the "soft" approach? hmm... hahah see how much it made me think.

I am not sure if this happens to u... but do you ever feel uneasy when u have a very close friend, the type where you can literally make fun of and know he/she is not gonna be angry type, is with her spouse and you reaction would be like a total stranger towards him/her, even when her bf/gf is also a fren of ur? Its like this barrier is there, making me feel very uneasy and just avoid them altogether. Guess partly due to past experience i suppose... HEHE love the last sentence shi jia left me with when i sent her home. "hope u dream of your girl tonite." Thx alot girl!!!

Anyway, a evening of masquerade and music of the night its was really a point of no return... hehez... Worth every SGD spent... Contented...

I am getting all Phony!!! hehez...

Its is down to this 2 models...

The Sony Ericsson W660i


Sony Ericsson W580i

Both phones are currently not out in the market yet, hopefully they will be out soon so that by the time I buy them, the price will be better. Initally, I have many options to choose from, like the O2 Graphite, Nokia 6300, and initally the W880i from Sony Ericsson. After a "friend-wide" vote, Sony Ericsson seems to win the votes of many. So the brand was more or less decided. Then was the phone, was considering a walkman phone (W880i) or the cybershot phone (K800i). But when I finally decided on the phone i wanted, reality slapped me in the face. My plan for my previous phone is not complete yet. ARGH!!! so now I just have to wait, hopefully the phone will be out soon... do give me comments yah... if u all have other better ideas... thx thx

Updates...

A week have past since I last been here. Plenty of things to update but donno where to begin. Well lets start from saturday then.

Saturday, got up pretty early to go Pulau Ubin for a cycles with my flute mates. Its been a long time since I last visited the place, and was kinda looking forward to it. The changi pier changed a whole lot, thou i still prefered the old one, the new one just doesn't bring back anymore memories. As we set foot on Pulau Ubin, the place haven't change abit. We were still welcomed by bicycle shop owners eagerly promoting their bikes to us. We finally settled on a stall and rented bikes for the entire day. I had to share a bike with my Wai Leng as she doesn't know how to ride a bike. Honestly was kinda reluctant initially, but things kinda became alright, and I did enjoyed sharing a bike with her, its my first experience. hehe and its a good one, amazing things tag team can do man... hehez... We all cycled till we were drenched to the skin, den constantly hydrate ourselve with litres of water. Haha... but we pratically covered the entire island, taking pictures along the way. Its was alot of good fun, for that fact that its really something out of the norm. After a day of cycling, we had a hearty meal at pulau ubin, thou it wasn't fantastic, its wasn't too bad neither. Was thinking of ending the night late with some ktv, but unfortunately the branch at Tampines have been closed down, and there isn't any near by. Declined Sherine's offer for majong at her place, as I didn't feel comfortable going to someone elses place stinking from a day of activites. So, after that, we all decide to call it an early night, and headed home...

Sunday, worried about the uneven tan i would get from Ubin, I headed down to the beach for a little tan. The beach was packed, and thou the sun was not very strong, due to the clouds, I still managed to get a pretty even out tan. After which, walked around vivocity, updated myself on the "fashion" scene before heading home.

My week was pretty much all band, been going for practise on Monday and Wednesday, both days are rehearsal for this little musical the school is putting up to celebrate its 15 years anniversary. I must say its pretty fun lah. Tuesday was out shopping with a couple of my friends, Azre and Max. Must say its a pretty enjoyable day, thou we are stuck in the rain half the time. we still managed to cover a few spots where there are nice things to look around at. We end up at starbucks by Fullerton Point, and really had a very good conversation. Found out more about Max, and well, and pretty much gossip more. After that we called it a night lah...

Today, must be the only time I felt alive again after such a long while, as I went for training with Angelina and the dragonboat team. Its so fun, finally able to run again, and pushing myself to complete all the circuit training. Thou I couldn't do some of the stuff the guys did, like pushups and chinups, but i didn't feel leftout as I replaced them with other exercises. Was totally drenched with rainwater and pespiration by the time we got back to wayne's place. Had a little wash up before heading home. Feeling tired now, but really satisfied.

Guess thats all I hafta say man... shall end with some photos from my ubin trip then...enjoy

BORING!!!

I cannot believe that its holiday tml, and yet here I am, stuck at home doing nothing much. Ok pehaps I am lazy, but I mean, whats the point of going out when you donno where to go, what to do, right? Guess its gonna be running for me shortly again.

Let's do a recap on my day today, actually there isn't much worth mentioning, except maybe i went to the gym again. Yes, went to demoralise myself once again, carrying super light weights and I am amazed at how weak my right hand have become. Fews sets of those super light weights and its already starting to feel weak. As I saw those guys "enjoy" killing themselves to look good, it reminded me of my past, and well made me even more no mood to workout. Nevertheless, i still manage to get abit of abs done, light on the biceps and my forearm. Reach home, had dinner, and have been slacking ever since. Looked up on some videos online, The first words that came to me was "muay thai", not sure why but I guess I missed the sport too much. looking that those pple throwing punches really got me worked up, so i switches to something else, more on core exercise. And this is some of what I have found that can help build a nice core... hehe for those looking for a 6 pack, here is what you can do...







realli haven't got many things to say, guess its off to running already lah... update soon! cheers

Result from a little online test

This is a little test done... interesting result... haha... pretty true to some sense (in fact, alot of sense...)

Koh, your destiny is to be a Provider


Whether you know it or not, this is the role that is most in tune with who you are at your core. As a Provider, you have a genuine nurturing concern for the welfare of others and you're eager to serve them. You can recognize exactly what people need and your friendly, helpful, social nature makes them feel comforted. With your kind and generous heart, you are personable, talkative, and outward with your emotions, and your openness and sensitivity makes you concerned about the way others view you. Along these lines, be careful not to blame yourself when things go wrong. You cannot prevent bad things from happening, even though your tendency to be orderly with a strong sense of right and wrong may lead you to believe you can. Accept that you do what you can to take care of things and that this will get you far in the world.

SO TYPICAL OF TCS 8 Drama!!!

As usual, channel never fails to give it to me straight in the face, tell me its indeed a drama we are talking about here! After watching the last episode of "Making Miracles", It was really a miracle that i try my best to follow through the entire series. It was bad, period.

I don't even know where to start, when I first started watching the show, its was pretty alright for me, I really thought it was going to be not too bad, thats what got me to continue watching it. As the show progresses, at some point there are many minor misconduct here and there, but well considering its a local production, I didn't took it to point. But tonight, after the final episode, It really got me so boiled up that I really needed the medium to vent out all that is bottom inside me. The start of the show was the very typical "kipnapping" scene in all tcs drama, but what puzzled me was the "efficency" of the police. Not to say our police ain't efficent (don't want to offend our forces here, they are doing a good job keeping us safe and i thank them for it). But how the hell they managed to find the place with no reports being made? Didn't the doc have to pass fields, run in the sewage, just to make sure the police was not able to follow? Or is GPS is so advance there is a possibility they tracked him down using GPS?

This is just the minor part, Its the last 1/2 hour that made me feel watching the show is a complete waste of my time. First would have to be the earthquake, who was saying that saving lifes is more important then looking for someone? with all that is going on, how can someone still identify a T-shirt out of the thousands that is injuried, so lucky? Well, let say alright, its for saving time if not this show will run like "Holland Village".That aside, after being trapped in the rumbles, we all see the "excellent collapse" scene, but it was after that got me laughing my guts out. First, judging from the state of the collapse to be honest to escape with a scar on Fann Wong's arm is very very lucky indeed. But the scene under the table was "classic" man. Already under so much danger, the last thing you would worry about is that the girl beside you will run away, and guess what, Li Ming Lun have to present the ring and ask for marriage, others might think "wah, damn romantic lah", me I really think "Come'on! get real man!". The rescue I guess is pretty much a scene that is set to feature the complex equipment that SCDF possesses (which is good, shows that we are in good hands of SCDF). However, just think that the rescue was too rush and the narrator would really have to do his homework before thinking of such rescue mission like that. I mean I might not be an expert, but well, if you watch Twin Tower, rescue missions ain't something that can be done in one afternoon, and yes the guys are well equiped but as they drill through boulders with that "Big Guns" where is there safety gears? ear muffs? Does Terence Cao have a head of steel? In times of such danger, he was still able to follow the rescue team into the rumbles. I am impressed but the "professionalism"of the rescue team man. With a boulder coming down on Li Ming Lun leg, it would have been fractured, but no they don't need a stretcher to help him out, they just drag in out, then put them on a stretcher. NICE!!!

After all is over, the last scene got me sighing again. Doctor anxious running to see if his gf face get safe, thats allowed in the hospital? Even though I am not working in the hospital, but I know that running around in the hospital is not acceptable behavior, moreover he is a doctor. All in all they decide to end with a saving the people from the wreak scene. I would rather they end of with the individual actors feeling of acting in the roles they play rather then the posing man... THERE IS NO LINK!!!

Thats all I have to say about "Making Miracles", good start to a terrible ending. with so much remarks I will still give credit to the narrator thou, as he still manage to convey problem face by doctors that public dun usually see on screen. That I must say is pretty good. Now that everything is out, i feel so much better, I have to state that all I say is base on my impression of the show and nothing else. No hard feelings or anything, will still be a fan of Television no matter what, my one stop to entertainment man... hahaha Cheers!

Nice Sunday and slow start to my program...

Today, didn't really haven't got off on a great start at gym, firstly I was kinda reluctant to go in the first place, so that was already off to a bad start. Shall continue on it later on... now just something about yesterday then.

Sunday, happily joined the guys (Trisa, karen and Wei Xiang) for a little ktv session down in bishan, something I haven't done in awhile and was kinda looking forward to. Got there on time, they said they wanted lunch, and since I too haven't had lunch, I obliged. I was told to wait at the coffeeshop as they were on the way to fetch karen (who is a bend away, according to wx). What was suppose to be a short 5 mins wait dragged on to 45 mins. It was really a test of my endurance, and ever since I ORD, I admit my patience level have drop drastically. Many a times, I really wanted to leave, but the "angel" within me convince me to wait just 5 more mins. Till the end, when they finally arrived I was really on the verge of erupting. But one thing I am certain about myself, no matter how mad I am for that moment, it stays at that moment, after the storm blew by, its clear skys once again. Besides, whats that point of waiting all these while and spoil everyone's mood right? After lunch was 4 hours of crazy singing. Well not exactly crazy as all the song we sang was pretty slow and love songish type. But we did enjoy ourselve never the least. Maybe it was due to the absence from singing for awhile, I can't seem to find the right pitch. sad but very true. After that we went for dinner at J8, while the rest indulged in Long John Sliver, I satisfied myself with a nice subway sandwich. However, the night will have to end with a twist, I lost my debit card. Just discovered it on the way to gym just now. Glad nothing went wrong after that and a replacement will be sent to me in days. Rotten luck.

As for gym today, got on the weight machine and thank god, the damage from my 1 1/2 months of absence was not that unbearable. However, the right shoulder did restrict me from many activities. Decided to stick to something simple today, my biceps and triceps. Felt very inferior the moment i stepped into the "free weights" section. Brought be back memories when I first started out gym man, everyone staring at a "den fat ass" doing "sissy" weights. Tried many times to reassure myself, and kept telling myself "I am just like everyone else, wanting to look better" but staring into the mirror demoralised me alot, not much no my size, but the shoulder, I didn't think the difference is going to be so drastic, my left shoulder is at least half the size broader then my right. Demoralised and all, I still managed to spent 2 hours in the gym, working on my biceps and tricep with weights lesser then 10kg (for someone that usually starts from 15kg up, its a big deal). Ended my workout with abs exercise, it was den that i realise how un-conditioned I am, slacking for 1.5 months really took alot from my abs, yes, i do see rough shapes of the pecs, but the core is WEAK MAN!!! I figured that since I am not able to use most of the machines in the gym, I will forgo that for the time being and will focus my training in running and stamina. Think I will also invest in resistant band to work my muscles for the time being. Haiz, a disappointing day at the gym today, usually I leave the gym refreshed, after pumping all that iron, that long awaited hot bath that follows... but today, thou the hot bath was still great, but that sense of achievement was no where to be found. When can i find my past glory? or have it really past... i wonder....

Off to dinner, still not really satisfied with my workout for the day, probably will go for a run later. Bye for now...

Last day of the month, next 2 months is crucial...

Had a rather good last day of the month, also marks one month after my operation. Since it have already been 4 weeks after my operation, I think its time to stop procrastinating and whip myself back into shape. For the past few weeks, I have been constantly "bluffing" myself that its ok to slack, due to my arm, but this signs of "self-pity" have got to come to an end, as my body is starting to show clear signs from over-excessive slacking. My diet is screwed, hardly and muscle mass left, its depressing.

Anyway, m0re about my plans later, now for happenings of today, wasn't sure what to do today, made my way for band prac, first time after concert in january. The crowd was disappointing, with 5 members, our section was the biggest section of the day. I am sure you can tell how pathetic attendance was. However, all hope was not lost, suprisingly, we still sounded pretty decent, with me showing clear signs of lack of practise as I kept hitting wrong notes here and there. But overall it wasn't too bad. After which proceeded down to The Oasis at Kallang to meet Jayz, Yi Xin and Dawn for dinner, and kind of a get together session. It took me 1 1/2 hours by bus to reach the place (including waiting time), kinda got there on time, thank god I got all the time in the world. Well, Jayz was there first, followed by myself den the girls, on my way there, bumped into Raena, Hazel and Shobani, had a little chat. Hazel looked at me and gave me a worried looked, she is worried I might turn to the 'dark side' (turning gay) just by judging from the way I dress. Usually, I would be very bothered by such comments, but I guess I kinda sorted things out regarding that already, so I didn't feel much about it. I am comfortable with the way I dress I suppose, and if people would to think good dress sense as signs of turning gay, then I really have nothing much I can say.

Anyway, back to dinner, Jays was abit under the weather, came for the gathering despite having a fever. Take care man. Well, dinner was pretty nice, something that I like, porridge with sweet potatoe, together with side dishes. Was a pretty hearty meal. After which, we head down to bugis for a little dessert. Then after, we went over to bugis village to look around. I wanted to find myself a bag so they were sporting enough to come along. Thou I came back empty-handed, it was not a wasted trip as Jay managed to get himself a couple of CDs. After that, we called it a night since Jays isn't feeling very well. Dawn is pretty enthu about the next outing, and I am too looking forward to it. Thats pretty much my day, not alot, but its enough.

Come to think about it, my heaviest meal would have to be my breakfast and dinner today. Had 4 slices of bread for breakfast and that porridge for dinner, my lunch and snacks are settled with just 2 energy bars, an apple and a plum. Haha.... Anyway, strict diet starts from tml, gonna push myself and hopefully results will show in 2 months... JIA YOU!!!

Long awaited blog...

Just realised I haven't blogged for at least half a month now, terribly sorry people, have been feeling alot of ups and downs this couple of weeks, physically, emotionally, u named it (pretty much all about myself). I know I shouldn't be whining about life, but I guess I will call this phrase of my life a "mini mid life crisis". However, things are already pretty much sorted out, and will just waiting for some answer and finding solutions to some problems at hand and I am pretty much back on the right track. Now for what have been happening the past few weeks.

Hmm, despite problems, I still had time to hang out with my friends, latest being last weekend, having attended a fashion festival and also the recent COC (change of command) ceremony and makan session organised by band A. First the fashion fest, before the show, me and Azre went on a little shopping trip, pretty much popping by sales. First stop was suntec convention halls, things are pretty cheap with many different brands, however looking at the "crowd" and the way things are place, we were doubtful on how genuine the goods are. With that, we decide to head down to Club 21 Bazaar @ Holiday Inn instead at least the goods can be trusted. Thou things are cheap but the untidiness and the ugly sight of "hungry" Singaporean never fails to turn me off from shopping, and believe me, its very difficult to turning me off, especially shopping, so good buy would be like a Kelly Song's gown for $5, its those moments where you ask yourself why u are not a girl. Haha, anyway, had to leave the place empty handed and head back to raffles city for the show. Azre managed to get tickets for the show on sunday at Raffles city, would say its a pretty nice experience. Tickets are courtesy of Max, a junior from SAF band, nice chap, not very talkative for someone in his trade thou, hehe a rare breed for someone working in his profession, oh yah, he is a designer FYI. hehe, Anyway we attended Ecolux, pretty much showcased design that promotes saving the environment and saving resources. For the fact that its an "eco-friendly" show, I give credits to all the designers efforts as some of them are indeed pretty nice. However, its overall a pretty disappointing show as what is showcased didn't really wow me, and thing coming from a fashion newbie, its big news. Most of the piece displayed I would say is pretty much already in the current market I would say, except probably for the final designer, who inspiration I suppose came from her own backyard. I am not critising, just stating what I feel. But one thing is for sure, according to Max, the materials are special thus I guess you have to be in it to feel the difference, but overall, a good first experience, but a pretty disappointing one. Anyway, after that show, had a great get together session, as we met up with some of the ex band mates, people like Nasser, Zul, Azmi and Wei Ming and boy did we created a commotion at lao pasa, haha if there was a award for noisest crowd, I am sure we are top of the league man. In conclusion we had a smashing time.

Next, the makan session, its great to meet the guys after such a long time, and already I donno half the people in it, but I am sure glad to see some of them, people I haven't met ever since ORD, people like mervin. Overall its a simple makan session, pretty formal due to the change of command, but still food was not that bad. After which was shopping for me, Tuan Hao, Azre and Max. Max was abit under the weather, or just tired so he didn't join us for long. As for the 3 of us, we had quite a good time looking around and chit chats. Found a lane @ haji lane selling local designer goods, pretty neat, courtesy of Azre. After that we walked to raffles place and chilled at Ben Jerry's for a short while before we did more shopping. and from suntec we walk back into town when we realise that suntec have really nothing left to shop. Did alot of walking that day, but was really fun.

What else happened? hmm, oh my arm, is on a slow but progressive recovery, stitches are offical off, and sling is off as well, have done my first physio, and got advise on things I should do at home to aid in speeding up the recovery time. This shoulder have pretty much been the root of my problems this couple of weeks. To be honest, I have not workout ever since my last dislocation which is 19th of feb, not even running. To be honest, that got me worried and sinking into depression. The thought of simply putting on weight and all the hard work that I have put in before was to waste depresses me. After my operation, I tried going for long walks, but as I was used to more intesive stuff, walks just dun seem to work for me. After stitches came off, tried to do running straight after, but when I met the physio a few days after, I was discourage from running as jerking that shoulder might not be helpful for the healing wound. So again, my workout plan terminates. Been looking after my diet thou, but everytime I look in the mirror, I worry. I know this is already abit sick in the mind, as in causing me to be mentally unstable, just like those people in Tyra's show, seeing in mirrors and crying saying they look like a monster and all. I used to get quite mad watching that on TV, thinking to myself, whats the point of whining and crying and saying you are fat and in the end of the day doing nothing about it. Now, I too, have turn into them, the only difference is, I want to do something about it but I am not allowed to do anything. My recent visit to the doctor however, changed things around, he gave me permission to run, that is like god sent new I tell you. Went running the following day and i felt great!!!

Now that I have been offically given the green light to exercise, I will definately not gonna stop at just running, will be planning ahead for more things to do, like gym trainings on other part of my body, aim is to hopefully make it into the boat for the November race. Talking about race, was at the recent MR500 race, first time meeting up with them since the last race, and I am glad I was welcomed warmly. Yong think I have shrunk, and so did many others, which is depressing to hear, as all I have lost is muscles and not weight. Overall, the race was not as good as I expected as the team go back empty handed, first time after a long time. Just hope that everything goes well enough and I will be back in no time. Wait for me guyz!!!

Hmm apart from that... I guess thats all I have to update for now, will be going into my strict diet days, with a planned routine of workout really soon, hopefully get back some of my "form" and train a new form really soon. NO PAIN NO GAIN!!! wish me luck guys.... Cheers

Unstitched! both wound and pocket!!!

Today, is the 15th day after my operation, also mark the date that i undo the stitches, and also leaving home without that support. Feels great not getting weird stares from people for carrying such a "high tech" sling that so resemblance of a camera bag. However, movements on my right is still pretty restricted, hopefully a few session of physio will work wonders for me. Have been going running, started this week. Figured that rather than bumming at home, better get my stamina back. Thou its abit odd running with such a stiff right hand, but the feeling after a good run, the breathless feeling from running up the hill, and the sore i get the next day on my thighs and calves made me feel so alive again. Have been getting alot of feedback that I seem skinnier, but in actual fact, my weight have been constant if not increasing. Am I losing muscles and gaining fat? It worries me alot, thou not to the stage where I go crazy over it, but it does worries me. In addition to that, I haven't got a tan ever since my last dislocation, with is at least a couple of months before, so I am now fair and 'small size', not the best combi. Conclusion, TANNING TML!!!

Have been having difficulty finding a tanning buddy, ever since my tanning buddy Shan, left for Manchester last year, tanning have become a very lonely affair. Angie can only tan with me occasionally due to her work committments and dragonboat training (which I too miss dearly). Apart from them, all the rest of my friends dun like getting a tan, or at least I think they dun considering how fair they look. So using the chance now, LOOKING FOR TANNING FANATICS, if you think you are too fair and miss the sun and all, do jio me out for a tan k! you can be my next Tanning Buddy! (haha sounds like those advertising verse used in American Idol) Its open to all sex, thou girls prefered lah, not that I am sexist or anything, but 2 guys tanning together dun really make a good picture, especially when Singaporeans are so judgemental nowadays, you get what I mean. hehe. Alright den, till the time i get a buddy, tanning will still be quality time alone for me.

Now, on something else, its seems that life is getting more demanding, or at least thats how it seems to me, and no income is really hard to come by, expenses comes knocking on my doorstep despite spending most of my time at home. My PC finally broke down on me, and getting it fixed is not gonna be cheap as parts needs to be replaced. I am down to my final month of my disposable contacts, so had to renew a whole new year supply of it. All in all, the 2 expenses have already used up my entire pay for the month of Feb (when i was working at 4skin). Haha beside that, did something to pamper myself. Caught Rocky Balboa in the movie, and was so much in the "Rocky" craze that I bought the entire collection of Rock (1 to 5). Woohoo more movie marathon!!! Thats my months expenses, which excludes my phone bill and internet bill. With all that expenses, its really hard to stay put at home and "shake leg". So here I am, working so "make ends meet". Hey I am not saying all this to get sympathy or whatsoever, I just want to remind myself that its satifying to spend money that I earn, and finally got a taste on the "burden of life" and the importance of money! hehez...

Alright, feeling I am talking trash already, so I will be ending my entries here today, awaiting my computer to come home. If you guys got anything impt to get to me, please sms me rather than email, coz I will take awhile to reply. Thx alot, enjoy the coming weekend ahead! will be going for a tan tml first thing in the morning...woohoo!!! Cheers

Day 5 of my left handed days

Its been 5 days since my operation, and its been 5 days my right have been helplessly handing off that bulky "camera bag" look alike sling. let me just briefly recap on my past few days spent with this "changed" life.

Friday, the day after my operation, woke up with still a little tingle from the GA effect. but was much better compared to thurs. Right arm was huge as i slowly peeled off the shirt, the entire swell and my right arm was twice the size of my left. Did take the pain killer before heading out of the house. You guys must think that I must be the craziest person on earth, going out the day after an operation. As a matter of fact, staying home made me feel really cranky, so better to head out before I exploded at pple unneccessarily at home. First stop, to town to pay a visit to my "ex colleagues". Thou its only been 2 days that I stopped working, but seeing them already bring back some memories from the past month. Apart from that was also to collect my pay. After which, met up with Adeline, Wai Leng, and Sherine, for what I thought was a movie outing, turn out to be purely a shopping trip. Was out to find something for Wai leng rather then myself, as she had a wedding to attend coming fri. But didn't fail to spot a good deal from levis sale corner, located in Wistma Isetan, just besides Mango. Jeans are going from $15 to $119, yes you didn't see wrong, $15 LEVIS jeans... haha where to find? but due to my bulky baggage, I gave it a miss. FYI its till the 8th of march...so any big fan of levis... can check it out lah! hehez... After shopping with them, when down to meet herbert and gang for li hao's birthday @ the Loof, kinda cool, haha and as a tradition, the birthday boy never walks out of the place. Everyone made it home in one piece. Thank god.

Saturday, was again feeling bored not doing anything at home, so head out to chong pang, and get a "hairlift" (as like a make over for my hair). Didn't do very fanciful stuff, just got it highlighted... still figuring out how to style it thou... its difficult enough with 2 hands not to mention now with only 1. By the time I am done, was thinking of heading down kallang to see the dragonboat pple, but it started raining, so it kinda washed off that tot and I headed home in a cab instead. Watched the Prestige alone in my room. Enjoyed it.

Sunday, had my day pretty much planned out, head out to suntec in the afternoon for the career fair, to find out more of the course of my interest for uni, done enough bumming around, time to get my brain back to work. After which, head down to town again, to see the change of guards parade, as my band is playing in it. Was pretty good I must say. One of the parade I miss dearly after leaving the band. After that, headed down to auntie evelyn's place for a little family get together. Crowd seems to be getting smaller every year. but hey, since its an occasional event, i guess i did enjoy it in one way or another.

Today, nothing much happen, went back to the hospital for a follow up on my operation, everything seems to be well. As expected, there will be more follow ups and also physio to help me move my shoulder again. No sports for the coming 6 to 9 months.... wonder how I am going to survive. Seems like there isn't gonna be any medals for me this year at dragonboat! DAMN!!! But honestly I believe in myself, so let see how things goes, love the feeling of the gold around my neck. Meanwhile, have been slacking since before the operation. The layer around my waist seems to be pilling, and looking in the mirror is not that enjoyable anymore. A plan is in the process of construction before I declare a state of emergency on myself. Haha its that serious.

Yup that is so far the things I have accomplished since my operation. Haha not too bad for a 'temp handicap' eh? hehe, my movement might not be as fast, but well, since I am having the time in the world to wait for healing, I am just taking this time to really understand life as a handicap, and also how inconvienent it can be to lose one of the major tool on ur body suddenly. Slow road to recovery, but trying to make it a fufilling one... wish me luck pple.... hehe.. Cheers!

3 days and counting...

Feb, the shortest month of the year, and yet one with so many mishaps.... and not to mention memories, fond and not so fond ones... new friendships, and strangely, a different me. Let me just do a brief recap on the month of Feb.

Starting 1st of Feb, I started a new job in retail line, something that I haven't done in years, initally its was pretty tough, having onli 45 mins break on an 11 hours day, standing most of the time, but as time passes, and with you sort of get the hang of things, things worked out fine. Its pretty interesting to be one of the 'more matured' workers there. Well considering the average age group of the staffs there is about 18, I couldn't help its but to feel OLD there. But hey, age have never been a problem for me, older simply means more responsibilities annd keeping an eye out on the young ones, coz hey, I have been through the exact stage they are in now, right? hehez.

Then there is my dad's condition, something that I am not so keen on remembering but well its really a wake up call, telling me never to take things for granted. and when better to happened den on the eve of CNY, but hey, now that its over, just hope that this year of the golden pig will be better. After spending CNY eve and CNY day in the hospital, got myself into the hospital on the second day of CNY too. Shoulder popped again, so I calmly got my stuff, flagged a cab and got it fixed. 4th time it happen. sucks big time. Yesterday, the very first time i did CNY visiting this year, to Sasa's place. Then was back to my place for a little steamboat, first time in a long time that my place have been so crowded. Tml and wed, final 2 days of work and the month of feb is over. Short month, but looking at the number of things that have happen, its crazy.

For those who are still searching for my workplace in town... haha I am afraid there is only 2 more days left to look for me. Let me limit the scope again, its HEREEN, haha if you still cannot find me, its fated. One more clue, its not NUM, haha, guess many expects me to be there... but nah... hehe Alright then nothing much to say already, 3 more days to my op, feeling nothing at the moment, but guess it will only creep in on wed night. Wish me luck.

Was browsing the net for nice tattoos, and this particular design caught my eye... tink its pretty cool, but just couldn't tink of the place to have it on... not that i am getting one, but if i were to get it... just not sure where it will be..... here it is...

Eye of Horus Tattoos - a continuing indication of the fascination with all things Egypt. The Eye of Horus is the symbol for Horus, the Falcon Sky God. The Eye was a symbol that signified royal power. The ancients believed this symbol of indestructibility would assist in rebirth, due to their beliefs about the soul. The more recent tradition of freemasonry adopted the symbol and as such it has survived to this day, and appears as the Eye of Providence on the recto of the Great Seal of the United States. The Eye of Horus (flanked by Nekhbet and Wadjet) was found under the 12th layer of bandages on Tutankhamun's mummy.

SGH.... scary memories....

Went to visit my dad in the hospital just now. The moment I entered the block, I went unusually quiet. As we stepped out of the lift, the sights of the place brought back memories, memories that I am afraid to face. Thou 7 years have passed, looking at the wards brought memories back like it happened just yesterday. My heart was pounding as I walk down the corridor to my dad's bed. Yes, thats the place where my sister passed off...

Luckly for me, the moment I saw my dad, all the feeling simmered down, and I too managed to catch a breather when I excused myself to go get some biscuit for my dad. Everythings seems fine with him, which I am glad. Still pretty upset for the fact that he thinks keeping his condition from us to not let us worry is right. We are family, yes he is the man of the house, but that doesn't mean he is not human, telling his illness doesn't means he is weak, how can I put that across to him, i wonder... But well, just glad that he is alright, hopefully after this dreadful dog passes, in 2 hours time, and the golden pig arrive, things will be better... I am sure....

Now for a test that i have took... On what kinda shopper I am, its spot on man... haha

Koh, you're a Savvy Shopper

Getting the best for the least is where it's at. And for you, it's your strength in the world of retail. As a savvy shopper, you know all the spots where you can get good deals. Maybe you show up early to be the first in line for the sale of the year. Knowing where and when to go is a huge part of bargain hunting and one you do well. You're probably no stranger to off-retail stores, factory outlets, warehouse sales, sample sales, and closeout sales. That's all par for the course when it comes to getting good deals. That doesn't mean that you'll skimp on the quality of the things you buy. That's what smart shopping is — factoring in the value of the product vs. the price and finding the best buy.

Being a true bargain shopper is a real talent. It requires knowing the tricks of the trade and the right spots to shop. It also requires patience and determination. It's a sport and it's one that you seem to shine in sale after sale. Whether you've got a strict budget or a big bank account, you know how to get the most mileage out of your bucks. Way to go!

For once, dog dun seems like my best fren...

Mr. Dog seems to want end his year with a bang, and a bang indeed, a bang with bad stuff rather then good stuff. So many natural disasters happening around the world, so many spreading of sickness, floods, super abnormal weather, the list goes on. But something more close to home... or rather, happened at home.

Today, got a pretty bad start to the day, got woke up by a bad news. Something is wrong with my dad, according to my cousin (who is a doctor), one of his vein got clogged near his heart, causing him pain and partial numbness. He felt he had to tell us despite my dad asking him to keep the matter from my mum to prevent her from worrying. Sounds noble? more like foolish to me... Anyway, since the news broke out, my mum immediately called him up and ask him to head down to the hospital. His friend gave him a ride there while we went to pray to my sister. will be heading down later in the evening to visit him. Hopefully nothing serious. Just hope this serve as his lesson to smoke lesser. Honestly its for his own good and for ours as well. If only he understands...

Hmm... don't really have the mood to blog about anything else. CNY seem pretty much different this year already. With my dad having to spend first day of CNY in hospital, mum worried. Probably will be hiding home to accompany my mum with things. Guess there won't be visiting this year. Not that I care really, since its happens every year, missing a year won't make much of a difference. All I care now is for my dad's health. Hopefully he can get better soon... I admit, thou we dun have those model father and son relationship, but deep in me, I care... i really do... its just hard for me to express. Take care dad, speedy recovery...

SHOO DOG!!!! hopefully Mr. Pig can bring us a good year ahead!!! PLEASE DO!!!

Updates and more updates!!!

Hey there peepz, I am back, usually I would have lots of things that I want to blog, but whenever I got infront of the computer my mind goes blank, ever got that feeling? (going out to all the bloggers out there)

Anyway, shall recap on my weekend then, didn't hafta work so was off to JB with my buddy Herbert. What was suppose to be an outing for the 2 of us was "interupted" by herbert friend, Shawn. Haha, maybe shouldn't use the work interupted, more like he add spice to our visit as he showered us with a very warm welcome. Felt kinda out of place as it was herbert's friend, but after awhile, we all became friends too. hehez... Shawn's family treated us to lunch before heading out for a day of shopping. I've gotta tell you, if you think bugis village is cheap, wait till you go JB man... haha and I would say its pretty quality goods. Absolutely loved their FOS (Factory Outlet Store) as you really can 'bump' into some treasure, like herbert did, managed to digged out an authentic A&F polo from there. (damn! on step slower!). But hey, I didn't do too badly, managed to get a few nice american brand shirts and all. Herbert's best buy of the day I would say will have to go to the A&F polo. Whereas for me, I guess my best find for the day will be a cultured jeans, not exactly cheap thou, but was worth every cent, its actually a replicant of the very first levis jeans ever made, with a little design by a famous designer. I personally loved it, but not sure about others (not that i care really! hahah kidding...) After that, dinner was with shawn's mum and brother over at a 'market place' which somewhat reminded me of old chomp chomp, and the food was fantastic, the first taste brought me back to old chomp chomp. Its not like that chomp chomp now is not nice, but its just lack the feel.

After that we called it a day, but I am very sure on returning, shall plan another time with herbert to visit. Thats my Johor trip. Sunday, spent half the day installing my toy, which is working now (thank god) , but I just haven't got a show that can "test" out the speakers. hehez... If anyone got any good movies to load, don't be shy k! haha alright then I suppose thats all I have for now, had a long day, so will be going to bed shortly, trying out a new routine tml, trying to introduce exercise to my day, realised that I have not been exercising ever since i started on this job, and its becoming my excuse to not exercise. So before, I fall into the "working class" syndrome, I better do something about it... hehez... alright then, good night peepz... shall update soon, will leave u all with a fantastic clip... enjoy....

It been awhile...

Hey there peepz... am I missed, haha I miss blogging too... haha miss the space to express all my views about this world, share my joy and sorrows, share my love with everyone, and most importantly, crap about everything under the sun!!!

Well the reason of my absence is pretty simple, got a new job that dun allow me to access the internet AT ALL! haha a hint is retail line in orchard. So the next time you guys come shopping in town, do keep a lookout for me k!! heez... Its not really for the money, but really for the experience. Haven't been in a "real" job for a long time, so thought I experience how things is working FULL TIME, and what better FULL TIME then retail, working from 11am to 10pm. So far the experience have been wonderful. The people have been real nice to me, everyone can get along pretty well, maybe the pressure is there when the big bosses are there, but with everyone covering everyone's back, the stress is reduced. So far seen a number of celebs, people like Joanne Peh, Olinda (donno spelling, but was from Singapore Idol last year), and Wendy, better know as Xia xue. thou they try to act unnoticable, but by over accessiorising actually made them more outstanding... talk about a cover up man... But hey then again, they are like anyone of us of camera, so nothing against them man. hehe. FYI, will be in retail line for this month only, not that I don't like it or anything, just that I have an operation coming 1st March. So leaving me with not much of a choice. Yes, its on my stupid shoulder again, after it popped the third time, the doctor finally decided to that desperate measures to prevent it from coming out again. By looking at the MRI from my previous visit (which was already pretty bad), I forsee an operatiob is inevitable as I imagined what damage the three dislocation have caused to my bones. So people, will be another "major" operation after the one I had for wisdom tooth extraction.

Hmm, nothing really left to update liao ba.... CNY coming nearer, and I have not really got any new clothes yet, haha not that I am traditional, but hey, free excuse to do shopping, how to miss when comes to a shopperholic like me... haha but work have been keeping me at bay, and with the low in cash, its just make life more miserable for me, the ability to see but not buy.... kills any shopper man. $$$$ where are you!!!

Oh yah, my next biggest toy is here!!! like last week, haven't found the time to install it, probably doing it over this weekend. Have to plan out my cash flow to maximise my spendings. Already sourcing for affordable clothings that can pull me through CNY without having to wear "old" clothes. Then also new shelfing for my new toy, think will look under IKEA for help in that sector. I guess one thing that helped me recently working in the retail sector that is more in my age range, really let me see the lost fashion sense, or rather the fashion sector that I have overlooked. After glancing at too many fashion magazine and ads, I realised that I have been influence to "high end" fashion, meaning to being over brand consience. I was overly influenced by brands like FCUK, G-Star, GAP, etc that I overlooked that there are other brands, or rather culture, those that is more for my age group, and affordable for "non working class" like myself. So thats one benefit I got so far from work. Other than that, standing there all day, I get to see fashion of Singaporean as they glaced in our shop, absorbing ideas from those that can dress (which ain't many).

Ok lah, guess thats all I have for now... will update when I have the time then... Cheers and have a great CNY ahead! Cheers!

SAD SAD SAD....:(

This week started off at a bad note, a very bad note... Nothing to do with me, rather something that happened, totally irrelavent to me. Taiwaness actress/singer Hsu Wei Lun died on Sunday after a car accident. The news hit me bad, although I know nothing of this actress, but the strange feeling of sorrow hit me pretty bad. I only knew her from the many times I seen her on TV, on those Taiwan Variety Shows. When she first appeared on screen, I found this girl very unique, and really attracts me to keep watching the show. Her gentle and demure character touches me, and really gave me the very "honest" girl feel about her. I am not a person that will go after idol (at least for my age now), but somehow or rather, after this incident happened, the pinch within me made me realised that deep within me, this girl did play a role in influencing my life. Honestly, when I first saw her on TV, I kinda swore that my dream girl will be someone of that calibre, or even dreamed of how nice it would be if such girl would exist in Singapore, or even be dream of being her boyfriend (pretty funny the way I can let my imagination go at times). But with that said, I do miss her, knowing that I can no longer look forward to see her appear in dramas and variety shows saddens me. My condolences is with her family, her friends, her fans, may you all find strenght in life and lead a happy life ahead as she would like us to be. She is full of smiles when she was around, now that she is gone, we shall carry on her mission and bring smile to everyone here. MISS YOU WEI LUN... really do...

A tribute to this angel that have gone home....

CNY closing in...

Today this start of that well for me. Not sure if I got off the wrong side of bed, or something else, its just not right. Got myself a new hair wax yesterday, dun seem to be very strong. ARGH... I guess its most probably a bad hair day! argh..

Well enough on that, had a difficult time getting to office today, the road that I usually take to work is packed with people, all preparing for CNY, which is a couple of weeks away. So the usually empty street is swarming with, people mostly elderly, so their pace can be abit unbearable for someone that walks "with air in my hair" most of the time. But hey, with that slow pace, I got to feel that CNY is finally coming. Chinatown never fails to bring the festive mood for CNY up man. Its a must visit lor, everywhere selling new year goodies, waxed stuff, and all the nice deco which I used to be every enthu about when I was younger.

Yesterday, went out with my buddy herbert, to do some window shopping and scout out good deals to do some shopping. Was kinda looking forward to shopping in bugis village. However, the things don't seem to interest me that much, and with the overwhelming kids trend or rather teenage trend clothing on display, I seem somewhat outta place. Town is still the shopping heaven for me I suppose, thou its difficult to scout the best deals in town, but with a nose for sale, it will never take too long for me to smell a good deal. HAHAHA

Hmm, nothing really left to blog. Hair in a terrible shape, hopefully I can pull through this crisis soon....GROW GOD DAMN IT!!! hahaha okok abit over the edge for a moment. Alright pple, have a great week ahead. Cheers!

Hard to find!!!

Its really hard to find someone to have a good conversation with. By saying conversation, I mean sharing ideas, views on things and occasional crapping around. You really never know what you will get. Take for instance, yesterday as I was heading to town after dragonboat with Jayson. We had a conversation, the type that I haven't had for awhile and greatly missed, we talked about fashion trends to the different thinking of different part of the world. Not trying to act intelligent or any other meaning. Its just that all my conversation have been revolving around a certain type of topics. And having to move away and talk about something else really brings a whole new meaning about life.

Jayson shared with me a copy of his "work", or rather the magazine "Lexean" that his company works on. Was flipping through it, and found many interesting articles that caught my eyes. In particular, there is a few that I think I can share. Firstly, something about creative artist in Singapore VS the censorship board of Singapore government. It mention about the first question a creative team thinks when asked to come out with a play is "What can't I do?" By asking that question, its already taking away some of the creative privileges from them as they have already been ovewhelmed by fear of "offending" the government. The writer also add in very interesting pointers that got me very into the topic. Its strange how looking at things from another person's point of view can actually influence and change a persons thinking, or even get someone that never thought about the "problem" to start thinking.

Secondly, there is also an article that educate me on "loseing weight while snoozing" Yes losing weight while you are sleeping. We are not talking about long hours of sleeping so that u skip meal and lose weight here. Thats unhealthy actually thou you do lose weight using that method too.. its screws your ur system in the long run. But anyway, back to the topic, it talks about how much fat is burn while recovering, and repairing the damage done to your body while working out. Besides that, the amount of fat burned during this period is actually more then those you lose during workout. But hey, that doesn't mean you can stop working out altogether and just sleep your way to a slim and lean figure, it takes both method to get maximum effect.

Last but not least, every magazine is bound to have its fashion bit, and its the bit that I like best. However, this magazine is targetted at successful working class I suppose. Thus the fashion they portary are more to the higher end goods. But one thing I do like about the section, is that it actually teaches you how to dress, rather than show you the various nice clothes on those nice looking models. We have to admit, we don't have figures like models, so I guess its better to teach the people how to dress, rather than getting them to buy what the models are wearing, and think they look just as good in those than the models. GET A LIFE!!! like they say, "Give a man a fish, he will not go hungry for that day. Teach that man to fish, he will not go hungry for the rest of his life"

Haha okok, got a little carried away there, yeah and thats what I gotta share about that magazine, its not a bad read, but honestly, I am still not of age to read it yet. Not that is have any rude content or anything, just that I am still in my youth, and its better for me to enjoy these moment before it passes me. As for things in the magazine, its issue I guess I should be aware of, just not yet a time for me to be worried on just as yet. Haha.... its indeed an "adult magazine" hehe... good read thou... Alright, have a great sunday ahead man. Cheers!

Thank You!

Woo... seem that my spur of the moment blog of got a disscussion going, well I am alright, it was that moment when I need to get things sorted out and vent them out somewhere. But hey, at least I know that my tagboard is working, haha at times its been left untouched for so long that I wonder if it malfunction. hehez... so keep tagging me K! love to get more view and opinions on ways I can improve.

Well, this recent weeks have been a smooth "healing" one for me I must say, both on my physical and "emotional" ones, managed to have plenty sort out. And I realise that people around me do care, I was wrong to have assumed a battle fought alone is better as I didn't want to burden friends with my problems. But hey, what happen was I talked things out, without putting any burden on my friends and we can actually have a conversation about it, which is stress-free and well pretty much lighten my own load. I am really thankful, I truly am. But well, its seems that during this period, many of my other friends are facing some problem of their own. Well, being "past" (hopefully) my personal barrier, and being someone that have gone past that stage for this new year, I am hoping I will be able to help them walk out of that circle too... so guys, if you all ever need a listening ear or someone to talk to... CALL ME K!!!

Alright enough about those, let me just talk abit on my past couple of days. Thursday, a suprise party was planned for angie, I was glad that most people was able to make it, and I could tell angie enjoyed herself. For me, its more like a gathering of friends, coz I practically knew everyone there haha. The night ended in a pretty sudden note actually, haha as angie got abit too much "gas" from all the down down that she have been getting from that night and start puking. So we decided to call it a night and sent her home. On my way back, have a good long chat with Jayson. He read my blog, and gave me some wise advise, which really open up alot of myself. Sorry about the "hard to merge in" part Jays, I guess its just my personal insecurity, but now I am sure we are alright, hopefully I can get out of that barrier soon. Hehe thanx alot man. Yesterday, was shopping day for me, after thursday, hearing all that "victory moment" Jays had "battling" the shopping heaven Shanghai, I really needed some retail therpy. So i went far east to do some shopping with Trisa and Karen. And boy did we had good timing, it was midnight shopping throughout town (now happening every last friday of the month, guess its been awhile just that I haven't paid close enough attention). But well we really hopped from one shop to another. Not suprise that most of the stuff are ladies apparels, there is still a couple with interesting guys stuff. But I suppose I need to change my image abit to fit into some of them. haha. But overall, the trip was a success. Managed to bag a "full attire" (meaning a top and a bottom). Contented but not satisfied, my next stop will be Bugis Village! maybe tml? hmm we will see... haha

I hate my shoulder, after the last dislocation, my mind went back to the shut down mode, which total shuts of my motivation of exercising. The last time this happened, I gain 4 kg, however, thats with the 3 trips that so happening to provide so much good food in the way. Nevertheless, I am desperately trying not to have a history in the making, trying to get my engine up again before CNY comes, which is a definate weight gaining period. Well wish me luck! Alright then, thats all I have for the day, heading off for a paddle already. Shall blog some other time. Don't forget to tag yah! Cheer people!

What people thinks? Y bother?

This blog is pretty much a spur of a moment thing. So yeah, too much thought troubles me, so I better vent some of it here.Why do people care about how others look at them so much? I am one of the guilty party. Yes, I enjoy attention, but only the positive ones, but all I have been getting are all the negative ones... is there something wrong with the way I present myself? Am I doing things wrong?

Its back on the topic of being GAY again. Why do t-shirt and jeans on a guy that is big size and muscular be called manly, and on me, so Gay? Izit because of appearance? Not being tanned enough? the way we carry ourselves? I really wonder man. Sometimes I do take it as a compliment know that guys with abit more "girly" side tend to have better dress sense. But there is a certain level of tolerance. I do dragonboat, so do many others, but why am I the only one getting all this comments? Pretty sick and tired of it lor, to be honest. Walking down then street, people glancing you from head to toe. Some might be admiring my dress sense, but some simply thinks otherwise. I am not saying this out of jumping to conclusion, it happened and I almost snapped. Was walking down the street dressed casually in t-shirt and jeans, nothing special, this 2 ladies walk passed me... glance at me very carefully, and as they walked passed me, I overheard one telling the other "Confirm not straight". That not the only time that day, later that day, it happened again, this time its "Gay with the capital G". I REALLY DONNO WHATS WRONG!!! If anyone can tell me please just tell me...

Enough on that, was talking to jac about relationships (as in BGR). Is it true that girls goes for bad boys? and only after they had their fun and all, that decent guy get their chance in a relationship. I know its pretty unfair for girls to make such a statements, but I mean its not said with no valid backups. I seem many cases of girls crying over guys, that really, I have no idea why. The guy dun really treat them good, but yet, girls goes head over heels for this guys... Some guys (like myself) just don't get it I suppose. What women really want? In my camp days, this is what the "experienced" guys told me:

Girls aged >21 --> Good Looks, Hot Bods, "Bad Ass" Attitude = Character, Love period
Girls aged btw 21 to 25 --> Good Looks, not neccessary hot bods (as long not fat), not much on love, pretty much career (more of the show me the money phrase).

I donno how true it is thou, well I suppose it goes with trend and TV really do make a big influence, especially on the drama they have been coming out with. Jap, Korean, Taiwan... all sort, Jap guys tend to have the more bad ass "cannot be bothered" attitude, but occasionally concern melts gers away type of character. Taiwan is 100% dependant on looks. Guess the most famous now will be Korean I suppose, the soft spoken, well mannered, gentle and really good to girls type. A hit with all gers, and with looks to die for of course. For that, I really haven't a clue on what to do man.

Do tag your views on my 2 issues man... Really want to hear differnt point of view on this. Cheers.

Life is short and unpredictable... cherish while u can...

To think that 2007 is off to a bad start for me, was flooded with questions, causing massive mood shifts, and really horrible feeling. Who can be worse then me? I thought I was the most miserable soul on earth. I was wrong, start of 2007 was bad for me, I admit, but compare to some of my other frens, I am the fortunate one. What right have I got to be complaining about life, and when I say I don't like others to pity me, or care for me, aren't my actions clearly doing exactly opposite? This few weeks of my recovery period, I have learn to accept things and see things in a different propect. And with recent events, it really woke me up from whatever bad feeling I have within. I have supress them once again, and even to the stage of getting rid of some. As things goes by and you u see things in a different point of view, its brings around new life. My mood is like the weather, gloomy before, and now bright as the Sun.

Well what made me say that the start of 2007 is worse to some of my frens, well a number of them are ill, if not injured. One friend of mine, got a fractured right shoulder and also a sprained right ankle. Another is even more serious, she got diagnosed with brain tumour, that was indeed a shocker for me, the news came to me on Saturday, before I went for dragonboat (yes, the season begins again). Got a call from another friend, I was dumbfounded when I first heard the news, she (the patient) have already done the operation, and currently waiting for the result of the lab test. What is my problem compared to theirs? That really "helped" alot in my way of thinking and straighten out alot of path for me. Life is already short enough, so why burden yourself with sad moments. One's life should be filled with happy times, so that when its time you leave this place, you leave with a smile on the face. Its a difficult task to achieve, but as they say, when there is a will, there is a way.

Anyway, back to this friend of mine, went to visit her on sunday. When I first saw her, honestly, I almost couldn't recoginse her. Partly was because her swelling is still in the process of subsiding, but mainly, its because the illness have sucked out all the "sporty spirit" in her. Okok maybe I am being over exaggerating, who can be lively after a major surgery. She still managed to joke with us and all, which is a really good sign. Her road to recovery will be a long one, but with her positive attitude, I am sure it will aid in the healing process. Looking at her, all my so-called "problems" seems so in-significant, there is no room for comparison man. So I have her to thank, for guiding me along a new path.


After kinda settling my problem, life seem somewhat lighter, thou I still kinda lead a loner's life (which I am not complaining), it seems easier for me to go out with my friends now. At least my mind will not wonder elsewhere when I am out, which make me feels bad, and worsen my already bad mood. hehez... I am gonna let bygones be bygones.... close the book for 2006, try to get rid of all the bad memories, and suppress the crazy mood swings. and start 2007 afresh. Hopefully I will no longer hear some terms used on me, will try very hard to change my image and all. Wish me luck. And speedy recovery to my frens... my prayers are with you man... Jia You!!!

Pictures... Memories of 2006 and start 2007 PART II

Pictures... Memories of 2006 and start 2007 PART I

Boring Friday...

What seems like a beautiful start to the weekend didn't start off that great, haha stuck at home, alone, not that I am complaining about it, just that this kinda quiet environment always gets me thinking, sometime logical stuff, sometime just nonsense that will spoil my entire day. Made a few phone calls this morning the moment I got up. First was to MINDEF to settle things on my operation coming march. Then, called Eyeplay for my specs, was told it will be ready in the evening, but is further delayed till early next week due to complication of my lenses. Good things are worth the wait i suppose.

Got bored at home, open up my cupboard, and saw a bottle of hair dye (from the Cleo promo the other time, was given to me by Angie, since she don't use it). Since all my previous colour was all removed from my haircut yesterday, I thought what the heck and do a little DIY hair service at home. Result: Not too bad for a first timer, haha cannot really see the back, but hopefully its ok, i did apply to the back but cannot really see its effect... cannot be bothered, since its for the fun on it. Was pouring a minute ago, but with rain comes rays of sunlight, and now its very sunny. I guess life is pretty much like the weather outside. There are wet moments, with glimpse of hope, and when all well pulls through, u get bright sunny day... For me, weather is still pretty gloomy, but rays of lights are already shinning in little by little... Hopefully i will see my sunny day soon... Haha okok enough of all that, thats what I mean when I say I will think of things.

Enjoy ur weekend ahead then... cheers... will share pic on my next blog....

Day well spent...

Today have been packed for me, so glad I have everything planned out, and everything went according to plan. Let me slowly walk through today's programme.

Morning, got up early, knowing that rain always hits in the afternoon, thus decide to get up a little earlier to get a tan at the beach. Got there by 10 am, the sun was alright, not very strong, and would say pretty cloudy too. Hanged around till about 1230pm, before heading back to mainland. Took the tram today (free for islander) pretty nice, and got to my destination pretty quickly. After which, grabbed a quick lunch and head to SGH or rather HSA for a blood donation. Which took about an hour or so, including all the screening before that. Then, headed down town to get my hair trimmed. Was thinking of leaving my hair long till pehaps after CNY, and see what happens from there, but everyday i looked into the mirror when i get home, the urge of getting it trimmed increase. So i did today, abit regret now, coz its pretty short, but at least my mum feels its nice, says it makes me look young.... haha, what is she talking about? I AM YOUNG MUM!!! haha but I guess I just need time to get used to it. Anyway, after that, was thinking of hanging around town and wait till its time for muay thai as I have things to collect from Alvin. But the rain spoiled my plans man. The rain drops were huge man, and when it poured, it blurred out wistma (looking from tangs, no kidding, it was that heavy) So, getting a little drench, I found my way into Taka, roam around there for awhile, and when the rain simmered down, I headed to Cine. I reckon the rain wasn't gonna stop for awhile, so I got myself a movie ticket and watch a movie instead. Watched "Apocalypto" by Mel Gibson, and I tell you, its brillant man, wasn't sure what the show was about before that, but once I watched it, I must say its pretty good. After the rain, the rain stopped (thank god) , made my way to get skipping ropes from Alvin (who was kind enough to give them to me) and impart a few things I can do on my own while recuperating. Headed home after that, and pretty much sums up my day... Neat huh? heez...

Hmm, something just come up to me, from yesterday's news, califonia experiencing some of the coldest weather yet, and with the recent floods and unusual events happening all over the world, I can help but to think that one day, scene from the movie "Day After Tommorrow" might just come through. Thou the scale might not be as drastic, but so many events from this past years have shown vast reaction from mother nature. Tsunamis, huge earthquakes, floods, typoons... is the world really coming to an end? Can we do something about it? I guess its really time we take our environment into consideration. Its abit late, but better late than never I suppose.

Tml, hmm, haven't got a distinct plan on my day's plan yet. But I forsee alot of phone calls to make. Supposedly will make a trip down to town (again) to collect my glasses. and that pretty much sums up my day. hehe.. shall see how things goes from there... movie again? or more shopping? haha or just home to rot? hahah pretty sad for a friday night, but hey, its great for a guy like me... hehe... alright den... nothing much left liao. enjoy ur weekend ahead. Cheers!

New week, new things to look forward to...

New week, bright sunny morning, almost forgotten how sunny Singapore can be, or rather, humid. Felt pespiration soak my shirt for the first time after such a long while as I walked into the office. Usually it would be just water from rain. Anyway just recapped on my passed week den.

Watch 2 good movies last week. Death Note 2 and The Queen. Its been awhile since I watch movies alone, but its sure a good feeling. Not that I dun enjoy company with friends or anything, but spending quality time alone is really nice once in awhile. Did a little window shopping also, ended up grabbing a jacket from Zara, not too bad. quite like it. Actually saw a couple blazzer that is pretty attractive, was considering getting them but had second thoughts as I dun get the wear them frequently. Now, damn regret not getting as I cannot find them anywhere, all sold out. Sob... Guess its fated ba...

This week got alot of new things. Firstly, my new toy, a 32 " Samsung LCD TV have arrived!was nicely sitting in my room when i got home. The feeling its dame good man. Even watching CNA seems interesting on such huge screen. haha. Friday will be collecting new specs, got a $20 voucher from my last purchase of sunglasses, so since my glasses is not in good shape, thought I put the voucher into good use. Quite cute frame lah, serious black frame with very cool side designs. Kinda like me, look stern from the front, but still a fun side to me. Hehez.

Yesterday was a pretty long day for me, woke up early as I had medical appointment at CGH at 11am in the morning. The place was pretty crowded, so even when I got there on time, I still had to wait for more than 30 mins before its my turn, but hey, thats how hospital works I suppose. Will be undergoing operation for my shoulder, as I feared. The doctor explained the damaged state of my shoulder (with Xray from my previous dislocation) and say that the dislocation that happened recently have inccured more damage to the already bad shoulder. So i have not much of a choice, if I don't operated the chance of its coming out in the coming years is almost definate. Will be having it done on 1st March, after Chinese New Year. Afterwhich is months of recuperation. I can still do gym, according to the doctor, so as long as I don't over extend my shoulder. Thats that only comfort I get I suppose. After consultation, headed to gym in Tampines, thought I try somewhere new to gym. I must say, the gym there is HUGE lah. So different from hougang and thomson. Feels like a "single storey california gym", thou the equipment are not as extensive compared to cali, but enough to work all muscle groups. Did more cardio and just some light weights on my arms. After that, head down to town to get tickets for the movie "One Last Dance". Watched it with Sherine, Adeline and Wai Leng. Love the way the director played around with the procedure of the scenes, it makes people confuse but to the end all light will come through. A great local production for once. Definately must watch. Before that, I roamed around PS, was damn bored coz there is really nothing to see in PS. After the show, got home, took a shower and call it a night, was THAT tired.

Today, at work as usual. Nothing special happening today, so shall not blog anything about it. Tml and friday will not be working. so hafta plan what I am gonna do. But thats it for now... cannot wait till friday for my spec collection. Think is about time I check on the home theatre too.. hehe.. alright then, thats all for now.. CHEERS!!!

Rainy Rainy Weekend...

Its been raining since yesterday, definately floods expected in low lying areas again. More cleaning up for residents of that area again. Pity them man. Monsoon came pretty late this year, and it seems to take longer to leave as well. Used to hate the weather, but the longer it persist, kinda adapted to it, and at least it keeps the tempreture cooling, like having "mini winter" in Singapore, good!

Completed the Korean show i borrowed from Sherine the other time yesterday night. What seems like a definate happy ending have a weird twist leading to a very sad ending. Really admire korean men, for their lack of fear in showing their emotions. Real men do cry I suppose, all those things that crying means weakness, I am thinking otherwise already. Of course when I say cry, I don't refer to the whining and pouring type of cry, but simply tearing when you are sad, I guess thats that the limit a guy can go to when he gets emotional. Overall, would say its a pretty nice show, love the longs the drama used, both the english ones and those written for the show.

Yesterday, went for a little makan session with my SAF band people, so glad and contented that I got a warm welcome the minute I stepped into SAKURA (at Downtown east). Everyone seems pretty glad to see me, from the officers to my (ex) fellow bandmates. Guess all that hard work did pay off in the end. For once after so long, I forget about the blues I am having since donno when, was just enjoying the company of all my friends. Hearing things like "Ryan, wah really missed you playing the bassdrum" and "Hey the bunks seems pretty quiet wo!" make me felt so missed in camp. My presence did make a difference in one way of another I suppose. After that, me and a few others, mainly my brunei gang, went for a little walk in town, shopping and all. Met up with Tuan Hao for awhile. Then as the rest left, only me and Azre continued shopping till late. Have a number of things on the "to Buy" list but have to scout out for the best bargain. Shopping always gives me extra energy man, sometimes I wonder if I should even be born a man, judging from the interest I give in shopping. lolx.

Alright, I am glad to say, things are slowly turning for the better, now that the mess within me, is more or less controlled. But still need time, probably by the end of the month... hopefully. Meanwhile, I am enjoy the life of a loner, doing everything alone, seeing things alone. No company might not be such a bad thing afterall. Everyone fears loneliness, I for one adores it. Really like living in the world of my own. But I hope my isolation period won't inflict any damage on my relationships with my friends. Well I guess we will see how thing goes, will take things a step at a time then... Alright den, have a great week ahead. Cheers!

Where is the sun?

Well, when I am down, I suppose everything just won't go right for me. Was suppose to go tanning today, ended up spending the entire day at home, coz its been raining for THE ENTIRE DAY!!! even the sun is hating me. haiz.... To make matters worse, I am sick, haha yes, I am down with running nose and a slight fever. For a person that have not been sick for the entire year of 2006, this doesn't seem like a good start at all. But whats consoling is at least I fall ill after the performance is over. Thankful for that.

As i said, spent the entire day at home today. Phone hardly rang, or at least i didn't bothered checking in the first place. Spent the day watching vcd i borrowed from Sherine. A pretty nice show I must say. Thou its just a show, but its got my emotions going, felt like I was in the movie, and the actors and actress are actually my frens facing that problem. Have yet complete it, taking my time to do so, coz I really have no idea what I can do if I finish it all at one go. Something to keep me occupied is always good.

Mum and Dad are back to normal liao, thou I am sure this have leave a scar in the relationship, but guess time will heal all wound and mend all scars. At least that means one last thing for me to worry. As for myself, honestly speaking, I have not find the source of my biggest problem. But all I can say is I am waiting it to pass, the depressed feeling make me breathless at times, but goes away after sometime. But the re-occurance rate seems to be increasing, should I seek medical help? At times I really want to talk it all out, but I donno what to say, where to begin, or what to begin with. I am really in a state of confusion. How I wish I have a pair of wings now, and just fly off to a place that no one knows me, start things anew.

The thought of migrating have been hovering in my mind lately. Australia seems like an ideal spot. Mum have told me once that Dad have been thinking about that idea for awhile. For me its easier, I already have relative there, all I need is to get an education there, stay in the country for more then 3 years, get a job and pretty much secure a spot. By then I can fetch my parents over. Its not really a bad idea. Pondering.

Well, I guess thats all for the day, another day have passed, the sun rises again tml, hoping tml to be a better day! Take care and enjoy the week pple. Cheers

Bad start to a week = bad week?

Finally, the concert draws to a close yesterday. So glad to have people coming to support me for the concert. I personally can say its pretty successful, very strong sound, and lots of positive feedback from the crowd. Was very contented to be once again able to play for a band. The feeling is just wonderful. Thx to all that took time off to come watch the concert. Especially to my camp pple, or should I say Ex-camp mates, Azre, Jin Cheng, Derrick and Victor, and also my dragonboat pals, Mina san, Jays, Kim and Vandy. Was kinda suprised that Vandy came actually, for the fact that I just met her once, at a party quite sometime ago. Thx again everyone.

Its has not been a good start to the new year for me. My personal problem have yet to be solved and another problem arises, not with me, but my parents. Was happily thinking of where to go after concert when I recieved a msg from my dad saying something happened at home and its pretty urgent. So after the photo taking session, I rushed home to see what happened. Apparently, they had a big row over a very trival matter again, its really making a mountain out of a molehill matter man. It really breaks my heart to see such things happen in the family. Whats worse, I have to shoulder all these. I know they care for each other so much, and its pretty much their different view in things that cause this argument, so I suppose time will dissolve their problem. But the scar they leave in me will take awhile to heal, and I suppose it will be longer this time since my heart is already wounded in the first place.

At times, I really hope I can return to time when I am a kid, just cry out and forget it... its not possible now. even how hard I tear, I cannot forget and the pain lingers. I used to say those people that jump off building are stupid, how can they give up life just like that, but now I think otherwise, with all the stress building, it gives people the strength to just want to end it once and for all. Don't worry, I will not do anything foolish. On the surface, my parents think I don't care about them, in actual fact I do. I mean which child will not care about their parents? But I mean there is nothing much I can do isn't it. Something my Dad told me yesterday made an impression on me. He said ever since my sis left, he understand that its must be difficult for me, as I was all alone, and there is pretty much no one I can approach to share my feelings with. That, to be honest, is really true... Who can I really share my problems with? or what right do I have to trouble other people with my problems when I clearly know that I am not the only one that have problems around here. I guess thats what holding me back. Really glad and thankful for the inventor of blog, a personal space for me to write out my feelings, at least letting some load off my chest. Other than that, i guess i just have to swallow it all down and hopefully time can lighten off my load.

Didn't realise I have already been typing so much, my chest feels lighter already. My world is so full of dark clouds at the moment, when will I see my first ray of sunlight? feel the warm from the sun within again? I really wonder, but I will go strong no matter what, one thing in my process of gym training strengthen most I would have to say will be my mind power, my determination. Thou, I am not sure how long I can hold, but I will try to remain as positive as possible. At least time is on my side. Wish my parents will patch up soon...

Have a great week ahead people, take care and live well!!!