Tuesday, April 14, 2009
I am not loving myself again
This is a random entry for me to vent out i guess.... feeling very vexed... a mixture of alot of things, Lost, Stress, Inferior, Low self-esteem, Anger, and many many more, all negative air....
I really wan to break free, I wan better, I keep comparing, to my past, my fun times, and ask why isn't it like in the past.... what happened? Why dun i have moments that i laugh from the heart anymore, why are my happy moments getting shorter and shorter... why is there so many things in my head...
I guess the crunch time is finally getting to me... and saying age is catching up is utterly bulls*it but i am afraid thats that only excuse I can find for myself. Time management down the drain, multi-task my foot, motivated to hell with...
I need to love myself again.... but how?...
Thursday, April 09, 2009
Chill... have a laugh
Signboard Outside A Prostitute's House:
Married MEN Not Allowed.
We Serve The Needy, Not The Greedy...
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Lady : Is this my train?
Station Master : No, it belongs to the Railway Company.
Lady : Don't try to be funny. I mean to ask if I can take this train to New Delhi .
Station Master : No Madam, I'm afraid it's too heavy.
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A drunkard was brought to court.
Just before the trial there was a commotion in the gallery.
The judge pounded the gravel on his table and shouted, "Order, order."
The drunkard immediately responded, "Thank you, your honor, I'll have a scotch and soda."
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Man Quits Smoking Because Of Will Power.
He Quits Drinking Because Of Will Power.
But He Quits Womanizing Because He Has The Will But No Power.
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Customer : Waiter, do you serve crabs?
Waiter : Please sit down sir, we serve everyone.
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Customer : Waiter, is this a lamb chop or pork chop?
Waiter : Can't you tell the difference by taste?
Customer : No, I can't.
Waiter : Then does it really matter ?
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Little Susie came running into the house after school one day,shouting,
"Daddy! Daddy! I got a 100 in school today!"
"That's great, Sweetheart," said her daddy.
"Come in to the living room and tell me about it."
"Well," began the confession, "I got 50 in spelling, 30 in math's and 20 in science."
Customer : Waiter, there's a dead beetle in my soup.
Waiter : Yes sir, they are not very good swimmers.
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Customer : Waiter, there's a fly in my soup.
Waiter : That's all right sir, he won't drink much.
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Waiter : I've stewed liver, boiled tongue and frog's leg.
Customer : Don't tell me your problems. Give the menu card.
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Customer : Waiter, there's a fly swimming in my soup.
Waiter : So what do you expect me to do, call a lifeguard?
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Customer : Waiter, what's the meaning of this fly in my tea up?
Waiter : I wouldn't know sir, I'm a waiter, not a fortune teller.
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1st thief : Oh ! The police is here. Quick! Jump out of the window!
2nd thief : But this is the 13th floor.
1st thief : Hurry! this is no time for superstitions .
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Man : How old is your father?
Boy : As old as me.
Man : How can that be?
Boy : He became a father only when I was born.
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Customer : Waiter, this soup tastes funny.
Waiter : Funny? But then why aren't you laughing?
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Teacher : Peter, why are you late for school again?
Peter: Well, Miss, I dreamed that I was playing football and the game went into extra time.
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An absent-minded man went to see a psychiatrist.
'My trouble is,' he said, 'that I keep forgetting things.'
'How long has this been going on?' asked the psychiatrist.
' How long has what been going on?' said the man.
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Girl : Do you love me?
Boy : Yes Dear.
Girl : Would you die for me?
Boy : No, mine is undying love.
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Wife : Do you want dinner?
Husband : Sure, what are my choices?
Wife : Yes and no.
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Customer : If I post this letter tonight, will it get to Delhi in two days time?
Post Master : Yes sir, it definitely will.
Customer : I bet you, it won't.
Post Master : Why not?
Customer : It's addressed to Mumbai.
Saturday, March 28, 2009
Enough is enough....
This school is ugly, all the publicity it does is really covering up the ugly truth about its internal problem. Its like a spider web, nice to look at... but once u get urself entangled in one... its goodbye to you... I am pretty certain that this will be my first and final time having any affiliation with this organization. If ever I have the need to further my education, they will NOT even be in my list of considerations. I dare say that this school have provided me nothing my just a room to obtain my education, which honestly I can get so anywhere else too... but in every pile of rubbish, there is bound to be some treasure, and i do pity those kind soul in the organization that is trapped in there for watever reason.
Another thing, is teamwork, currently have a love hate relationship with this term. Supposingly teamwork should lighten burden of individual as the workload is being shared among more many others within a team. However, thats the nice picture about teamwork. When its not that way, burden seems to increase and even double as it seems. What i mean by increase workload, does not have to be physical, but mental. For instance, having your teammate to wait for you, worry about your progress while they communicate and one just decide to stay out of the loop, and having to constantly chase you for ur contribution. I mean come on, this kinda thing we do back then in secondary school man. And when we finally get the work, its CRAP, literally. so I mean why do we have to go through this kinda thing, and in the end all get the same grades. I believe in equal contribution, but am proven time and time again that some are just out to hitch a free ride on others... is that call working smart while other work hard? Honestly I can't do that feeling guilt free.
Anyway, I pretty much made my mind up about rotten apples, to remove them before they damage the rest of my crops... I have enough of free riders!!!!
ANGRY ANGRY ENTRY
Friday, March 20, 2009
Back for the final time...
Alright enough on the sudden interest in study... Reality sets, and yes... my internship period with MacroVic has end (in a rather positive note) and also my reservist. Dreaded reservist initally, having the thought of meeting a bunch of guys that I don't know and also having it so far away from home. But when found that most of us have a common thinking, the bond kinda came, and also expanded my circle of frens. It can be nice to get away from the hussle and bustle of life and slip into ur "greenie" I guess. Hahaha yet another sadist thought. I guess I felt this way coz the course is enjoyable, so was the company. Nevertheless its over, and next one is likely next year!~!~ (PLEASE PLEASE!~!~!) hahaha. Well, now, I am offically unemployed.. am considering finding another job as this sem is super packed... and the assignments are already piling up. The down side is my balance in my bank is dropping as fast as the financial market. I am slipping into a mini financial crisis, who will be give me a bailout??? HAHAHA
As I sort my thoughts out... and weighing my options... I will keep my eyes out and start changing my personal thinking then... I have personal issues to settle, to sort out. It was made clearer to me, especially in this tough times... Other out there are stronger then me, and they are losing job, and the market ain't giving much supply which is causing a surplus in demand (hahah been learning econs lately, many are going to kill me coz I am exempted fromt he module but i still attend lesson) so yah... need to change my pespective soon.
Anyway thats all I have for now.... So far this year, I got more indepth knowledge into events, and also a new licence!~!~ woohoo and also a song that I heard from army, that I think I should share... nice... and the mv is pretty touching... enjoy
Tuesday, February 24, 2009
Army daze
Tuesday, February 17, 2009
MEN ARE JUST HAPPIER PEOPLE
If Laura, Kate and Sarah go out for lunch, they will call each other Laura, Kate and Sarah.
If Mike, Dave and John go out, they will affectionately refer to each other as Fat Boy, Godzilla and Four-eyes.
EATING OUT
When the bill arrives, Mike, Dave and John will each throw in $20, even though it's only for $32.50. None of them will have anything smaller and none will actually admit they want change back.
When the girls get their bill, out come the pocket calculators.
MONEY
A man will pay $2 for a $1 item he needs.
A woman will pay $1 for a $2 item that she doesn't need... but it's on sale.
BATHROOMS
A man has six items in his bathroom: toothbrush and toothpaste, shaving cream, razor, a bar of soap, and a towel.
The average number of items in the typical woman's bathroom is 337. A man would not be able to identify more than 20 of these items.
ARGUMENTS
A woman has the last word in any argument.
Anything a man says after that is the beginning of a new argument.
FUTURE
A woman worries about the future until she gets a husband.
A man never worries about the future until he gets a wife.
SUCCESS
A successful man is one who makes more money than his wife can spend.
A successful woman is one who can find such a man.
MARRIAGE
A woman marries a man expecting he will change, but he doesn't.
A man marries a woman expecting that she won't change, but she does.
DRESSING UP
A woman will dress up to go shopping, water the plants, empty the trash, answer the phone, read a book, and get the mail.
A man will dress up for weddings and funerals.
NATURAL
Men wake up as good-looking as they went to bed.
Women somehow deteriorate during the night.
OFFSPRING
Ah, children. A woman knows all about her children. She knows about dentist appointments and romances, best friends, favorite foods, secret fears and hopes and dreams.
A man is vaguely aware of some short people living in the house.
Thursday, February 12, 2009
Need a breather...
So since I am having a mental block for that... tot I post a blog entry instead... hehe... This entry marks my 500th entry!!! *applause* been doing so over this year... finally hit the great five. hee.
Lets start with the week headlines... monday, while walking for lunch... found a bird being stuck in the drain, must have falling in, kind of a baby state coz it still cannot fly, and since there is the factory near my area that has been pouring out cemented water, the drain is flooded with muddy clay like substance, I could help seeing it struggling so i just grab a plastic bag and 'rescue it' the bird looks muddily wet, and not knowing what to do (like duh... i was heading for lunch, cannot possibly bring it along and treat it kopi can't i) I left it under a tree using a few branch to cover it. When I return, its still there, which pretty much confirm my assumption that it is a baby. So I called the SPCA, and they say they will come and collect it. In a series of miscommunication, they did not come and only came the next day, so we place it in a cage in the office.
Here is the sad part, just hours before the SPCA arise, someone life the bird on the floor (which was initally on a table, so the papaya in it attracted ants, and since the bird is along in it... they started to attack it too... I was devastated to see the state the bird was in.... its horrifying... its BIG ASS ANTS MAN i quickly drench the bird with water getting some of the ants out. When i past the bird to the man from the SPCA, I felt so sorry for the little fellow, its seems like my rescue for it turn out to be his final journey as i know there is no way they will keep it alive at the state its bring brought in. The bird was not died and looked at me one last time before the SPCA took it away... thinking about it now still brings back horrible memories...
Thats the headline, now down to entertainment news, There is this play that is currently going on at the Victoria Theatre call the Dark Knuts. I managed to catch its opening night thanks to Sarah for her invite. Its a good show, will not talk about the content of the show (dun wan to spoil the fun) but all i can say is that its a gigantic spoof act. So its good for movie lover, play lover, and tv lover. Recommended to watch (NOTE: more local humor)
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Its pretty much the bibliography of this kung fu legend and an art that was pretty much lost and apparently the teacher of kung fu legend Bruce Lee, Legend of a legend lah... hehe so anyway, this movie was about his young age... the sequel will likely be about the time he has with bruce lee... and speculation thus far the person they have in mind to play that role is.........>AARON KWOK!!!!
I mean give me a break already which part of aaron look like bruce lee.... I am just going to let the picture do the talking... you be the judge...


i tink the bad guy from kung fu hustle has a closer looking feature man... HAHAH *roll eye*
Thursday, February 05, 2009
Niu year! MOOooOOO
here is whatever I have... enjoy...

This was taken on chu xi.... pretty much count down to the year of the ox with these buddies of mine... haha been frens for so many years... its great to have them to usher in the new year with me... hehe... its a post majong shot... hee

As for these ladies, wanted to go chinatown for abit of a festive mood... haha but well let just say our tummy was on strike so just after 1/2 hour there, we were off to NEWTON CIRCUS!~!~ to have the gong gong and the la la (yah to be stupid singers!~!~! hahahah) it was an enjoyable night.. OH YAH IRENE!~!~ I WAN THE PICTURES LEH!~!~! hee...

And finally the only CNY pictures I took, hee must be think why there is only 2 of us, well I AM SHY!~!~! hahaha nah... there is the senior clan (or serene calls them the "fossil clan") and the youngsters clan, of course i mixed around the youngsters lah, its too stressful being around the other clan... so this is taken while we are happily chatting up over dinner... and there was Serene's cousin, whom I met for the first time... so yah... hehe SHY lah... hehe but it was really enjoyable...
Thats about it for my CNY... people make new year resolution, but I make NIU year resolution, which is for everyone to have good health, faster recovery of the economy and of course jobs for everyone... So Ms. Universe right... okok something for myself then... I want to look like Jason Statham from the Transporter... haha know the dream is abit far fetched... but dare to dream and u will succeed... donno hu i heard it from... but whatever lah.. hehe HAPPY NIU YEAR EVERYONE!~!~!~
Thursday, January 15, 2009
Sentosa
Tuesday, January 13, 2009
Emo day...
Monday, January 12, 2009
I Got Tagged
* im being tagged by Peili =) *
1) I am happily attached with dearest...
2) I adore donnie yen & Jason Statham!!!
3) I want to do something drastic to my hair...
4) I am called back for reservist!~!~! WHY!!!!
5) I miss poly life...
6) I miss the beach...
7) I love to cook simple home cook meal with Serene
8) I should really start my spring cleaning.... at least for my room.
9) I need retail therapy!~!~!~
10) I miss working out in the gym...
11) My Cousin is PREGNANT!~!~! I am gonna be an uncle soon!!!
12) I am currently reading Time Traveller's Wife
13) I cannot feel the CNY mood. *partly coz it means i have to go back for reservist...
14) I wan a dog... a shiba inu will be good!~!~
15) Am looking like la bi xiao xin.... need to do something with my brows.. haha
16) I own the most number of shoes at home... haha
17) I need to start running again...
18) I am as fair as snow white....
19) Thinking of doing a tattoo..
20) I was fat. well everyone knows haa, but am still fat :~(
im tagging Serene (chia), Wai Leng, Cindy, Fong Cheng, Sasa, Karen, Joyce, Fen, Chuance, Dennes
Wednesday, January 07, 2009
The Past....OMG!~!~!~
Picture 1: taken while first landed in Aussie on my school trip while waiting for our bus...

Yes... in case you are wondering... the man in the picture is me... haha trying to make a farnie face which ended up looking pretty scary... i got a fright myself too while browsing... the lady in my background is Sherine... guess she is taking in fresh air from foreign soil... wonder if i should tell her I farted at that point of time... HAHAHAHA P.S. I still have that pair of specs... its from Okealy...
Picture 2 taken on one of my haircut sessions....

This was my poly days... haha you should have seen me doing mohawk... hahah with golden mane... I really look like the horse from the Hong Kong Golden horse awards man... HAHAHA
Picture 3 was also taken during my trip to aussie, in Bathurst.

While i was ever the fortunate one to be taking pictures with the pretty ladies with 'killer looks'... i too have the "killer Look"... haha my HAIR!~!~ whatever was I tinking I donno... i just remember using alot of gatsby super strong hold gel(back then it was still gel yah) and wah la!~!~ it can withstand the wind and definitely puncture someone man... dun play play arh... hehe that was later know as the Shit hairstyle or "dai bian tou" as it resembles the shape and the colour of shit -___-"'
Picture 4 was during one of my shopping trip after working hours.... remember it was sale in BI so we just went it tried and took picture with it... hahah remember how we always had the 'model' dream... hahahaha

Fun times back then...
Last picture was my first encounter with felicia chin... haha during my unit Dinner and Dance so exciting...

I was new... so that explains my hairstyle.... erm... what hairstyle... hahahah i mean the lack of hairstyle... hee...
Time files... and looking back all these serves evolves many wonderful memories, at the same time teach me alot... I thank the invention of cameras... without it... there is really nothing to look back and laugh on... HAHAHA
Tuesday, January 06, 2009
Monday, January 05, 2009
New Year!!!
Quite a few resolution for the new year.... starting with the more brief ones
1) Good Health to my family and friends, especially Serene, whom haven't been in the pink of health for a long time
2) Happiness to all...
3) Less war/man-made disasters
3) To get a job after my attachment (any lobang please intro k =P)
Now for the more specific one
1) Drop weight healthy to 70kg (my ideal) currently hovering around 75-76kg
2) More active in sports (go back to dragonboat pehaps)
3) Improve to be a better person (both in charater and also attitude)
That's all i can think of for now... Have a great year ahead everyone!~!~!
Tuesday, December 30, 2008
Happy Birthday!!!

Hee seem like you are having a great day thus far... hopefully we can have a greater evening later!~!~! woo hoo...
Anyway my weekend was pretty alright, very simple yet fulfilling... first will be the long awaited band gathering with the gang... farnie pple, lots of laugh, hell alot of bitching and plenty of fun, unfortunately its after work, so was already dragging myself there already. here is everyone for the evening...
(from L to R): Shawn, Zheng Guo, Serene, Azre, Myself, Nasser, Zul, Jovina, Azmi, Joel, Wei Ming, Tuan Hao (zul like resting on jovina lah... so farnie!!! hahahaha)
thats for fri... sat went to out with dear for a hair cut (which hardly anyone noticed...pfft.. hee) and a little shopping, a little episode took place... kinda spoiled my mood but was resolved... since dear was there... sorry for that little episode dear... heez...
After that met May and Irene at Kenny Rogers (MS) for dinner. Got gift and cards from them, also exchanged my christmas well wishes with them... then walk about into Zara (having sale, who can resist) but nothing was good and they are starting to have alot of "Made in China" goods OMG!~!~! didn't buy anything, probably during futher reduction i might consider (if i have the money even~~~ HAHAHAHA)
Anyway went to On the bund again, first time after its launch.... the place was much quieter... I couldn't quite make out the concept yet... and asian fine diner? a fine diner gone wrong? i really donno, anyhow... we met Carol there for some dessert and drinks.... set outside where the view was pretty alright and will look superb once the IR is up. Nothing much to talk honestly..so here is a pic of how it looked...
My verdict, No good... yes i know it sounds abit to straight forward... but honestly, other then the chocolate cake that can make it (thou is still a little too sweet), the rest is below standard (and i dun consider myself to have high standards when it comes to dessert...) Anyway the verdict was unanimous. Then the service, honestly I admit i have became more aware of service quality after I have done this course, and I can tell you, its not very up to standard, there is "selective service" based of dressing (not to say we are there in sandals and berms lah... but you get what i mean) There is no proper system inplace, I dun see the staff taking down orders (by writting down), and when the bill came, I WAS OVERCHARGE for a drink I haven't had... I was partly to blame coz i didn't check before I foot the bill... =P oh well, the experience wasn't fantastic, but it was not bad neither, but at the rate its going, they better be thinking of something really fast if not i dun see them passing next year, especially when the recession has taken a toll in Spore...
Attendee for on the bund!~!~!~
Friday, December 26, 2008
Flash Back
Members from my dragonboat team, they are a fun bunch... haven't been back a long time, miss the people and the BEER!!! omg... haha
Its been 2 years since this brunei trip, but it still never fail to make topic every time its mention, ignore the oversized top please... haha i didn't pack anything "ethnic" for the trip lah.. =P
This is Claire, dear's fren, taken this photo on the first time we met, still remember it was outside cineleisure if i am not mistaken.
My (and dear's) sisters in class... hahah after this picture, we were positive that "Bimbo United" was formed (hor Su!~!~! hee)
This is the memorable Halloween party (for many many reasons hor Joyce =P *winks*) anyway lets just say it was VERY VERY FUN!!! hee still remember I did the new balance run the very next day too hahah
This was a trip with MDIS, the inital registration was bumpy, but the trip was enjoyable... hehe thou not enough shopping lah...Grr... will love to go back again
Finally, my trip to Thailand with dear eary this year (when the whole riot thingy have not started) and just check out the hair lah... spend hours doing it ok... dun play play.. hee just love to play with hairstyles... hee at least when i still have hair lah... =P
Oh well thats all for now... have a great weekend peepz!!!
Seasons Greeting!!!

Eve I watch Ip Man with dear at AMK hub, after having dinner with May at Yishun, was kind of a last min thing, as dear had family gathering so just grab a bite before meeting her. Anyway had Xing Wang and they had this new noodles in Papaya soup... yes... something like the soup for fried fish soup kinda thing.... took the risk of boob enhancement (Tip for girls: papaya milk is say to enhance ur chest line) and tried it anyway. Verdict: its not bad, initally didn't like the idea of fruits in my main dish, but after I tried it, its actually not too bad, yes the sweetness of the papaya does make the taste interesting, but it does not leave behind it trace of papaya-ish taste in other parts of the noodles. so overall its good and recommendable to others to try....
Shortly after dinner, left to meet dear at amk. Poor girl waited for long... sorry dear... after that we decided to just sit around and wait for our movie. Had hot chocolate and she did lemon tea, one too sweet, the other taste like water!!! hahaa wonder if the mistaken and put the sugar syrup into mine... Anyway, the drink managed to last us before the show of IP man. Verdict on the show: VERY NICE LAH!!! hee... probably because I like wu shu films, and fighting shows for that matter, its rather wong fei hong-ish, but less the typical country pumpkim feel lah... worth watching and dun mind catching it again. And thats my Eve.
Christmas day, really more of a PH then a day to celebrate, just stayed in bed a little later then usual, and gave my alarm clock a break. In summary, I just left home to get groceries for dinner, which was fantastic, made and eaten by US (me and dear..) hahahaha
That its lah... Have a great holiday all and looking forward to 2009!!!
Wednesday, December 24, 2008
Snowing in Singapore?
Tuesday, December 23, 2008
My last weekend...

On saturday, attended one of serene's colleague wedding at fort canning... Congaz yusri!!!
This is us on the way to the wedding... hehe got free shuttle service...

Since it was a wedding lunch... we went out after the lunch to meet Joyce, my shopping kaki from my class... (thx to me hor... she got her gucci bag... hahaha am proud that i am such an 'evil' fren!!! hahaha)
this is a photo of me and her!!! (Aya the bag not in the pic...=P)
Monday, December 15, 2008
One On The Bund Launch
Carol and I, she invited me... hehe... she slim down so much... making me look fat just standing beside her.. OMG...haha but then again, I wasn't skinny to begin with...HECK!!!




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