Today is the very last day of land training for me on hellweek, the rest is gonna be water training. But today really pushes me to the limit, and really showed me how much the op have taken on my stamina. Here is how tonight program.
We first did one warm up round around the track, then we move on to 4 X 400 m sprints on the track, followed by 4 X 200m sprints, and ends off with 4 X 100m sprints. After that was core workout for the abs. I tell you the whole process almost killed me. Not too sure if I didn't hydrate myself or not enough food, I got a stitches in my third 400m round. Luckily the pain didn't linger long, and I managed to complete the rest and really was at my limits most of the time, desperately trying to catch my breath.
After the runs, we did 4 1/2 mins of bridging (3 X 1 min sets, last set 1.5 mins) 4X 20 V- crunches and 4X side leg lifts. My legs felt heavier den a log at that moment. After that, had a quick shower before heading back. Dog tired now, but already thinking what I can do tml. This guy, by the name of Rob, he is very fast in the run, looked and his size is pretty much like Bob, the Personal Traininer from The Biggest Loser. He was the fastest of the pack for today. Respect, but being as competitive as I am, I will make sure I surpass him someday... *evil grin* hehez... movitvation i guess.
Alright thats all i have for the day... Nites all have have a great weekend ahead....Cheers!
Thursday, June 14, 2007
Day three hell week...
Did not attend the hell week program yesterday as it was water paddling. Thus I made it to the gym instead. A fulfilling 2 hours workout mainly focus on my back. That explains why I am feeling a little sore on my back. But nevertheless, PAIN IS GOOD!!! hahaha
After which, head home for lunch before heading out to SGH for a blood donation. Have been wanting to do it for the longest time, but was waiting for my "probation period" to over (FYI: if you had a surgery and a GA is required, one have to wait three months after that to make a blood donation). Oh yah and try not to have a heavy workout before a donation... haha coz apparently the nurse told me my muscles cause the vein they extract from to collapse thus they have to keep a constant watch on me... hahah....sorry...
After that meaningful task, met up with Jing Si and Karen for a little Shrek at Vivocity!!! Must say the animation is superb man, some of the scene even look real for some moments. It just made me more determine NOT to watch "Dong Hai Zhan" as I can be a mean critic and I won't want to get sue... haha
After that we went window shopping around. The deals at vivo ain't as appealing as those in town. Managed to find 2 aviator that looks pretty decent on me. One from Ray Ban (which is EX lah) and the other from Pull and Bear (which is slightly cheaper then the Guess one I am eyeing at) Will have to see if I have fate with the Guess one thou, coz its going off the shelf like hot cakes. That pretty much sums up my day. short but fullfilling.
Today will be Hell week day 4 for me... haha SPRINT DAY!!! woohoo, enjoyed the last one, hopefully this will be just as fun... It is also known as "Run for your life" run, or the "Run like there is no tommorrow" run, (invented by me). Basically its just run as fast as you can possibly go, short rest in between and then again. Each time the distance gets abit shorter. But basically it works ur recovery time. Then we end the session with core exercise, hehe useful but usually i would be too "dead" to do it properly. haha... BUT WOOHOO cannot wait...gotta settle the school stuff with my mum this afternoon before heading for training, get it done and over with, the adminstrative side of MDIS really could be revamped man... because they are NOT EFFICENT AT ALL!!! my deadline of my offer for my course is coming monday and till today I have yet recieve my offer letter. Lucky they provide a soft copy to my course coordinator and he emailed it to me in advance, if not I would know nuts about it. But that was full of error also, which I have to constantly check with my course coordinator too... haiz... PLEASE DUN ME LIKE UNSW ASIA!!! MDIS!!! hahaha
Ok I guess my words for my past entry have been pretty harsh. Its regarding my friend Azre. So I will clear the air now. We are still friends, most definately, he is a fun person to hang out with and all, besides that fact I get to hear alot of interesting storys from. So it would really be a waste to stop hanging out because of such a minor issue. Thus what I am saying is, I guess things just got a little out of hand and I got uncomfortable, and this being my blog, its my best medium to express my discomfort being any issue at all. But now that the air is cleared, we are still friends, we can still do shopping and bitch till the cows come home k. Heard news that he was pretty upset, which made me pretty upset in bringing up this matter up in the first place. So case closed on this matter... every will be as normal, or rather, I am sure small changes here and there... but its definately for the better... haha okok starting to blabber already.
Thats all for today, shall update more about tonite's training then, expecting it to be the toughest of them all... hehe... feeling the rush already!!!
After which, head home for lunch before heading out to SGH for a blood donation. Have been wanting to do it for the longest time, but was waiting for my "probation period" to over (FYI: if you had a surgery and a GA is required, one have to wait three months after that to make a blood donation). Oh yah and try not to have a heavy workout before a donation... haha coz apparently the nurse told me my muscles cause the vein they extract from to collapse thus they have to keep a constant watch on me... hahah....sorry...
After that meaningful task, met up with Jing Si and Karen for a little Shrek at Vivocity!!! Must say the animation is superb man, some of the scene even look real for some moments. It just made me more determine NOT to watch "Dong Hai Zhan" as I can be a mean critic and I won't want to get sue... haha
After that we went window shopping around. The deals at vivo ain't as appealing as those in town. Managed to find 2 aviator that looks pretty decent on me. One from Ray Ban (which is EX lah) and the other from Pull and Bear (which is slightly cheaper then the Guess one I am eyeing at) Will have to see if I have fate with the Guess one thou, coz its going off the shelf like hot cakes. That pretty much sums up my day. short but fullfilling.
Today will be Hell week day 4 for me... haha SPRINT DAY!!! woohoo, enjoyed the last one, hopefully this will be just as fun... It is also known as "Run for your life" run, or the "Run like there is no tommorrow" run, (invented by me). Basically its just run as fast as you can possibly go, short rest in between and then again. Each time the distance gets abit shorter. But basically it works ur recovery time. Then we end the session with core exercise, hehe useful but usually i would be too "dead" to do it properly. haha... BUT WOOHOO cannot wait...gotta settle the school stuff with my mum this afternoon before heading for training, get it done and over with, the adminstrative side of MDIS really could be revamped man... because they are NOT EFFICENT AT ALL!!! my deadline of my offer for my course is coming monday and till today I have yet recieve my offer letter. Lucky they provide a soft copy to my course coordinator and he emailed it to me in advance, if not I would know nuts about it. But that was full of error also, which I have to constantly check with my course coordinator too... haiz... PLEASE DUN ME LIKE UNSW ASIA!!! MDIS!!! hahaha
Ok I guess my words for my past entry have been pretty harsh. Its regarding my friend Azre. So I will clear the air now. We are still friends, most definately, he is a fun person to hang out with and all, besides that fact I get to hear alot of interesting storys from. So it would really be a waste to stop hanging out because of such a minor issue. Thus what I am saying is, I guess things just got a little out of hand and I got uncomfortable, and this being my blog, its my best medium to express my discomfort being any issue at all. But now that the air is cleared, we are still friends, we can still do shopping and bitch till the cows come home k. Heard news that he was pretty upset, which made me pretty upset in bringing up this matter up in the first place. So case closed on this matter... every will be as normal, or rather, I am sure small changes here and there... but its definately for the better... haha okok starting to blabber already.
Thats all for today, shall update more about tonite's training then, expecting it to be the toughest of them all... hehe... feeling the rush already!!!
Wednesday, June 13, 2007
Hell Training Day 2
Todays training was more like it... thou it fort canning, its was really fun. Did a round for warm up den we did the stairs training, where we climb up to the top of the stairs, did 20 push up and crunches, and back down doing, then do the same things. Did 6 sets of it before finishing with another round around the park. Feels good after that, dipped in the pool for awhile before washing up and return home.
Conclusion, todays workout is better, can feel my upper back and my abs aching abit... haha. Left with thursday "sprint day" tml its paddle which I guess I won't be doing. Guess I will just hit the gym tml den... tats that
Oh for my 2 rounds I clocked 8 min50sec for the warm up and 8mins 30 sec for the cool down... satisfied i guess... hehez
Conclusion, todays workout is better, can feel my upper back and my abs aching abit... haha. Left with thursday "sprint day" tml its paddle which I guess I won't be doing. Guess I will just hit the gym tml den... tats that
Oh for my 2 rounds I clocked 8 min50sec for the warm up and 8mins 30 sec for the cool down... satisfied i guess... hehez
Monday, June 11, 2007
HELL WEEK COMMENCE!!!
Just got back from my first session of hell week. Comment, erm... not really as much kick as the last time. perhaps its because i took it easy in the chin ups so I dun really feel the strain on my arms after this evening session. Hoping tml will be better
Determination? where are u?
The more I try to tell myself to stop, the worse I get. What happened to the discipline self? Been telling myself to abstain from junk food, control my diet, get on with my regime. But its seems that I have been giving in to temptation really easily lately. The devil within keeps probing, "A little won't hurt, just have to run an additional round" or "You deserve to pamper yourself once in awhile", but this "once in awhile" seems to be picking up. Hoping this hell week will change me back to the person I used to be, the one that works out at least 1 1/2 hrs a day in the gym and an hr run in the evening. The routine I followed during my times in the camp, but now that I am out, the routine is broken, I became less commited and very LAZY!!!
Weekend, pretty boring I must say. Saturday, went for band practice, initally was planning to make it a little earlier to do some practise. But only managed to make it on time due to delays here and there. Got locked outside the room, but with Salleh "superb skills" we found our way in the back door. We were about to be roast alive. Band prac wasn't that bad lah, played pretty interesting pieces. So glad everyone managed to make it despite some having to leave earlier, but the effort is appreciated. After band, had dinner with Pei Yee, Sasa, Xiu, and another friend. Food is not too bad, but the serving is very sinful. I had a double platter beef burger, the serving is so big I could have it as 2 seperate meal. But my nature being the type that don't waste food, I finised it up guilty. Went for a little last min shopping before the shops closed for the day, as well as to digest that monster meal. Even made a little trip down to Mens 2007 for a little walk. Thou most of the item are pretty much closed as we got there pretty late. Many promoters still hunted us down like lions and fresh meat. Managed to get out in one piece. After that, a little more shopping before KTV!!! haha, was a pretty random thing lah, but we all sang to the wee hours of the morning (we refering to Sasa, Xiu and Myself).
Sunday, was suppose to go for Hellweek beefcake, but overslept (having only sleeping at 4am) thus gave that a miss. Met up with Max and Azre later in the day to do some shopping. Was pretty alright, managed to find a shop in far east selling merchandise imported from Hong Kong. Not too bad too, at pretty reasonable price. Max got himself a nice top from there. After which was more shopping and everyone grew tired as the day passes. Hmm, wonder why, but shopping trips have grown pretty boring. To be honest, there is a fear on Azre for me already. I am not as comfortable going out with him anymore, perhaps from his behaviors. Its not that its that much different from the last time, but I guess last time the principles are clear. But now, I am not sure about him.
Today, been slacking and looking forward to training later, cannot wait is the word to use. Wonder what Yong (our coach) have up his sleeve this time round. The last hell week saw the team with a gold in the expart race and our first sliver on national level. So this time round i am sure more is expected. Training is going to get more tough I expect. Just cannot wait. Heard yesterday's training was a blast. So hoping today will be the same too. Gonna go pack for later... will update soon... going to hell, give me strenght, wish me luck!!!
Weekend, pretty boring I must say. Saturday, went for band practice, initally was planning to make it a little earlier to do some practise. But only managed to make it on time due to delays here and there. Got locked outside the room, but with Salleh "superb skills" we found our way in the back door. We were about to be roast alive. Band prac wasn't that bad lah, played pretty interesting pieces. So glad everyone managed to make it despite some having to leave earlier, but the effort is appreciated. After band, had dinner with Pei Yee, Sasa, Xiu, and another friend. Food is not too bad, but the serving is very sinful. I had a double platter beef burger, the serving is so big I could have it as 2 seperate meal. But my nature being the type that don't waste food, I finised it up guilty. Went for a little last min shopping before the shops closed for the day, as well as to digest that monster meal. Even made a little trip down to Mens 2007 for a little walk. Thou most of the item are pretty much closed as we got there pretty late. Many promoters still hunted us down like lions and fresh meat. Managed to get out in one piece. After that, a little more shopping before KTV!!! haha, was a pretty random thing lah, but we all sang to the wee hours of the morning (we refering to Sasa, Xiu and Myself).
Sunday, was suppose to go for Hellweek beefcake, but overslept (having only sleeping at 4am) thus gave that a miss. Met up with Max and Azre later in the day to do some shopping. Was pretty alright, managed to find a shop in far east selling merchandise imported from Hong Kong. Not too bad too, at pretty reasonable price. Max got himself a nice top from there. After which was more shopping and everyone grew tired as the day passes. Hmm, wonder why, but shopping trips have grown pretty boring. To be honest, there is a fear on Azre for me already. I am not as comfortable going out with him anymore, perhaps from his behaviors. Its not that its that much different from the last time, but I guess last time the principles are clear. But now, I am not sure about him.
Today, been slacking and looking forward to training later, cannot wait is the word to use. Wonder what Yong (our coach) have up his sleeve this time round. The last hell week saw the team with a gold in the expart race and our first sliver on national level. So this time round i am sure more is expected. Training is going to get more tough I expect. Just cannot wait. Heard yesterday's training was a blast. So hoping today will be the same too. Gonna go pack for later... will update soon... going to hell, give me strenght, wish me luck!!!
Friday, June 08, 2007
Change for the better?
Today, helped out with shifting (as in packing and unpacking) of the company... one word... TIRED LAH!!! haha haven't been so tired for a long time, even more tiring then shopping man. Haha Well, seeing this new place, make me miss chinatown already. The new place is at Geylang btw... The sight, sound and everything around chinatown, No More...
Well, a new place, a new beginning, a fresh start I hope. Thou the job is not likely to change, but I guess I will stay awhile more till I get stable with my school. Ladies and Gentlemen, I chose MDIS. hehez, I guess the bottomline is not how prestiguus the school is, rather do u see a path ahead of you with whatever u wish to pursue. Thou, I am sure the path ahead will be bright if I had chosen SMU, but till today, its still a blur view ahead. Whereas, for the other one, I can already see many possibilities ahead. NO REGRETS and no turning back now... wish me luck.
Seen my past 2 blog, kinda woke up the "fighting Ryan" in me, Why am I submitting to confusion again? depressed? what is there to depress? self pity? attention seeking? haha, thou there is so many question, but I have yet find any answer to them, but one thing is for sure, I am clear that I am no longer sinking lower, and will not allow myself to do so too...FIGHTING!!! Thank you everyone that have showered me with concern, felt alot better to know I am not fighting this battle alone. Life is too short to be depressed, an advise I give others when they are feeling down. Its time to use it on myself!!! Time to move on.
Apart from changing my work environment, did some changes to myself too. Get my hair trimmed after such a long time. My stylist tinks my colour is horrible, to be honest I tot so too... Thus, I GOT IT CHANGED!!! hehez... pretty satified with it, thou not many people notice, but so far feedback have been not too bad... Now playing around with different styles.... hopefully I can keep up the "trend" hehez
Next week is HELL (aka Heavenly) Week from the dragonboat team, thou I haven't been going down for paddle, I am still looking forward to this training nevertheless. Gets you dog tired but feeling brand new after that week, or rather, feel like superman... hehez. TRAINING!!! got a target to reach!!!
Thats all for now lah... shall update soon... Nites and great weekend ahead....
Well, a new place, a new beginning, a fresh start I hope. Thou the job is not likely to change, but I guess I will stay awhile more till I get stable with my school. Ladies and Gentlemen, I chose MDIS. hehez, I guess the bottomline is not how prestiguus the school is, rather do u see a path ahead of you with whatever u wish to pursue. Thou, I am sure the path ahead will be bright if I had chosen SMU, but till today, its still a blur view ahead. Whereas, for the other one, I can already see many possibilities ahead. NO REGRETS and no turning back now... wish me luck.
Seen my past 2 blog, kinda woke up the "fighting Ryan" in me, Why am I submitting to confusion again? depressed? what is there to depress? self pity? attention seeking? haha, thou there is so many question, but I have yet find any answer to them, but one thing is for sure, I am clear that I am no longer sinking lower, and will not allow myself to do so too...FIGHTING!!! Thank you everyone that have showered me with concern, felt alot better to know I am not fighting this battle alone. Life is too short to be depressed, an advise I give others when they are feeling down. Its time to use it on myself!!! Time to move on.
Apart from changing my work environment, did some changes to myself too. Get my hair trimmed after such a long time. My stylist tinks my colour is horrible, to be honest I tot so too... Thus, I GOT IT CHANGED!!! hehez... pretty satified with it, thou not many people notice, but so far feedback have been not too bad... Now playing around with different styles.... hopefully I can keep up the "trend" hehez
Next week is HELL (aka Heavenly) Week from the dragonboat team, thou I haven't been going down for paddle, I am still looking forward to this training nevertheless. Gets you dog tired but feeling brand new after that week, or rather, feel like superman... hehez. TRAINING!!! got a target to reach!!!
Thats all for now lah... shall update soon... Nites and great weekend ahead....
Sunday, June 03, 2007
Saturday, June 02, 2007
Sliding....
I am a great pretender... something I can proudly say... and I think I have bad mood swings, even worse then girls during their period, coz mine can come as and went it wants. Friendless? cannot blame, its me attitude to blame.
Just got back from band prac moments ago, was such a strong section last week, and this week only down to me and karen. WHAT HAPPENED TO THE REST!!! haha... I know wl have NDP, so thats ok... But well, its ok lah... I guess everyone have their own plans, and I won't be back for long too... just till I can get back into the water lah. 2 things that can really cast my trouble aside, making music and sports (DRAGONBOAT!!!). Was feeling ok just now, till pehaps after band ended... when things rosed again from within. Jac jioed ktv, and for the first time, there was no excitement. So I gave it a miss and now i am home. Guess I will be thinking too much if I say "hope they dun think i am anti social" haha, the very low confidence Ryan is back to find me again. Donno what hit me to make me feel this way in the first place. Time to look at myself again.
Yesterday went out with the guys, namely Max and Azre, and later on met up with Tuan and partner. Would say its alright lah, but as they met for the sole purpose of introduction, thus there wasn't much to do, and was damn odd lor. Haiz, dun feel comfortable at all, felt PART OF IT... which is not what I want to feel... Know its all for fun laughter peace and joy, but I guess in public, its too much for me to handle lah. Thou its been so many times, I am still no used to it.... and I guess I will never get used to it.
Haiz... that all ba, today went to the physio in the morning, didn't make much progress, kinda disappointed. But given green light to swim already. Another item I can do!!! woohoo!!! will strenghten my arms and hopefully will see results in 3 weeks time... wish me luck... RYAN!!! WHERE ARE YOU!!!
Just got back from band prac moments ago, was such a strong section last week, and this week only down to me and karen. WHAT HAPPENED TO THE REST!!! haha... I know wl have NDP, so thats ok... But well, its ok lah... I guess everyone have their own plans, and I won't be back for long too... just till I can get back into the water lah. 2 things that can really cast my trouble aside, making music and sports (DRAGONBOAT!!!). Was feeling ok just now, till pehaps after band ended... when things rosed again from within. Jac jioed ktv, and for the first time, there was no excitement. So I gave it a miss and now i am home. Guess I will be thinking too much if I say "hope they dun think i am anti social" haha, the very low confidence Ryan is back to find me again. Donno what hit me to make me feel this way in the first place. Time to look at myself again.
Yesterday went out with the guys, namely Max and Azre, and later on met up with Tuan and partner. Would say its alright lah, but as they met for the sole purpose of introduction, thus there wasn't much to do, and was damn odd lor. Haiz, dun feel comfortable at all, felt PART OF IT... which is not what I want to feel... Know its all for fun laughter peace and joy, but I guess in public, its too much for me to handle lah. Thou its been so many times, I am still no used to it.... and I guess I will never get used to it.
Haiz... that all ba, today went to the physio in the morning, didn't make much progress, kinda disappointed. But given green light to swim already. Another item I can do!!! woohoo!!! will strenghten my arms and hopefully will see results in 3 weeks time... wish me luck... RYAN!!! WHERE ARE YOU!!!
Thursday, May 31, 2007
Shoo... Moody go away!!!
Not sure what I am up to? Just feeling really moody, started today, weird that its on a PH, or rather could be because of this PH. Everything seems very wrong today, I don't know why but nothing seems to go well for me today. Lonely once more...
Today, head down to the gym, first thing on my "To Do" list as I missed it yesterday (due to band prac). After which, was bored and didn't want to go home, so went down down town for a walk and catch a glimps of GSS since it started. Was initally planning to meet Herbert for a movie in the afternoon (since he complained that the is losing life to army), but sudden plan change to the evening kinda puts me off (guess he is tired). Tried getting my regular kakis out, but they were busy with their own activities, while others are just too tired from clubbing the night before. So me, Ryan, walked around town alone again, not the first time neither. Something I pretty much enjoyed doing lah at times. About 6ish, was deciding to go back when herbert decided to come down. However we didn't meet up, why? coz my bloody phone decided to DIE on me. So No Phone = Lost in the third dimension. Rushed home to get it charge and stuck home after. Caught 50 first dates, still so nice thou its not the first time i watched it. Will be catching Ocean 11 later.
I am losing its again, the same feeling that is pestering me begining this year is back to haunt me. I don't know whats making me feel this way, but I donno how to get rid of it. Another isolation phrase? someone to talk to? who? I have alot of friends and I am sure they are willing to lend me a listening ear, but I donno even know whats bothering me to start with. It fustrates me sometimes...GOD!!!
I am bossy, that I have to admit, but there are people that can be bossy without guilt and some people that bossy and feel guilty after. I belong in the 2nd type, I will do something and den soon after reflect and think what is going through the other person's mind. You can call that thinking too much, but I dun want it, honestly, if I can get rid of it, I am more then happy to dump it. But unfortunately, I don't know how. Its going to be another tough month ahead, I forsee it already...
Why do I keep going through such thing? why? I don't use to have such things, seems to creep into me ever since my sister crossed over? Did my sister used to feel such things? so I inherited this emotions? I realised that ever since my sister's crossing, I have change in many ways. Apart from the growing up part, I kinda taken the role as both a son and a "daughter" to my parents. No that I have turn feminie thou, just that I became a little more emotional, and more gentle in some sense. That kinda made me weak get into "the state" pretty easily i guess. Mr. Moody, please go away soon....
Will there be a rainbow tml?
Today, head down to the gym, first thing on my "To Do" list as I missed it yesterday (due to band prac). After which, was bored and didn't want to go home, so went down down town for a walk and catch a glimps of GSS since it started. Was initally planning to meet Herbert for a movie in the afternoon (since he complained that the is losing life to army), but sudden plan change to the evening kinda puts me off (guess he is tired). Tried getting my regular kakis out, but they were busy with their own activities, while others are just too tired from clubbing the night before. So me, Ryan, walked around town alone again, not the first time neither. Something I pretty much enjoyed doing lah at times. About 6ish, was deciding to go back when herbert decided to come down. However we didn't meet up, why? coz my bloody phone decided to DIE on me. So No Phone = Lost in the third dimension. Rushed home to get it charge and stuck home after. Caught 50 first dates, still so nice thou its not the first time i watched it. Will be catching Ocean 11 later.
I am losing its again, the same feeling that is pestering me begining this year is back to haunt me. I don't know whats making me feel this way, but I donno how to get rid of it. Another isolation phrase? someone to talk to? who? I have alot of friends and I am sure they are willing to lend me a listening ear, but I donno even know whats bothering me to start with. It fustrates me sometimes...GOD!!!
I am bossy, that I have to admit, but there are people that can be bossy without guilt and some people that bossy and feel guilty after. I belong in the 2nd type, I will do something and den soon after reflect and think what is going through the other person's mind. You can call that thinking too much, but I dun want it, honestly, if I can get rid of it, I am more then happy to dump it. But unfortunately, I don't know how. Its going to be another tough month ahead, I forsee it already...
Why do I keep going through such thing? why? I don't use to have such things, seems to creep into me ever since my sister crossed over? Did my sister used to feel such things? so I inherited this emotions? I realised that ever since my sister's crossing, I have change in many ways. Apart from the growing up part, I kinda taken the role as both a son and a "daughter" to my parents. No that I have turn feminie thou, just that I became a little more emotional, and more gentle in some sense. That kinda made me weak get into "the state" pretty easily i guess. Mr. Moody, please go away soon....
Will there be a rainbow tml?
Monday, May 28, 2007
Birthday filled weekend...
This weekend is all about BIRTHDAYS!!! as we have birthday three days straight... Friday, ADELINE BIRTHDAY, Saturday, NAVIN BIRTHDAY, Sunday, MY MUMMY BIRTHDAY!!! hehez... so to everyone that had their birthday... HAPPY BIRTHDAY!!!
Its have not only been a birthday weekend, but one that I have been having a havoc... lets start off Friday. Met up with 4 beauties for dinner (namely Irene, Jac, Karen and Trisa, guess its only me that will get this privilege lah...heez) Went to Raku Restaurant, ALL MY FELLOW BLOGGERS, for your own good... DO NOT GO THERE IF U ARE PLANNING A GOOD NIGHT OUT!!! coz I certainly didn't enjoy the experience there one bit. The food ain't fantastic (but wasn't horrible, still edible lah), other than the ambience of the place, there is really nothing acceptable of the place. Its has got to be the place with the worse service attitude so far, of all the place I have been to in town that is. You get better service in Kopitiam lah!!! so angry... But in such great company, I try to keep my cool, and we had lots to talk about. After that, everyone seems to be in the vibes for a little KTV and we did. Would say its pretty enjoyable, and pretty stressful, as everyone was such good singers and me being a noob at my worse form... haha but I had fun lah... Left the place at 3 am, and keenan (Jac bf) came to fetch the ladies off, I took a little stroll in town before heading home. Town at 3 am isn't exactly as "ghostly" as I tot, its still pretty buzzing with activities at some corners of streets and all. Reached home at 4ish, showered waited for my hair to dry and finally hit the sack at close to 5am.
Saturday, got up at 10 ish, its became so routine that I watch up at that time everyday that no matter how late i sleep i will wake at that time. Went for band practise, wasn't that bad, got close to a full section and was once again the strongest section present... haha. After band prac we all meet at MS Kenny Rogers for a little dinner and "mini celebration" for Adeline. But somehow I guess that evening was not too well planned as there was not plans after dinner. Still we managed to have a little chit chatting session over at Rocky Masters. After that was home, but I went for my buddy Navin party at Gotham. The party was alright, haven't club in a very long while but it was great, thou I am sure there won't be one in a long time to come. Ended the evening at 5am ish, got a cab back in the wee hours of the morning. DEAD after...
Sunday, got up super late (say 1ish in the afternoon) haha must be the booze lah... desperately searching for water and all... Just reminded me why I hate clubbing in the first place. my vest and cap STINK BIG TIME of smoke and all man... had to air it out the entire day. Spent the rest of the day hydrating myself and stoning. Gave mum a big fat ang bao, as I always say, if you donno what to get, best is to let her get it herself. hahaha LOVE U MUM!!!
That pretty much sums up my bithday filled weekend. Later will be trying to lose some of the calories gained over the weekend in the gym... Decision more or less make for uni lah. just waiting for the papers to arrive, which is takeing forever lah. Alright den... shall update soon... CHEERS
Its have not only been a birthday weekend, but one that I have been having a havoc... lets start off Friday. Met up with 4 beauties for dinner (namely Irene, Jac, Karen and Trisa, guess its only me that will get this privilege lah...heez) Went to Raku Restaurant, ALL MY FELLOW BLOGGERS, for your own good... DO NOT GO THERE IF U ARE PLANNING A GOOD NIGHT OUT!!! coz I certainly didn't enjoy the experience there one bit. The food ain't fantastic (but wasn't horrible, still edible lah), other than the ambience of the place, there is really nothing acceptable of the place. Its has got to be the place with the worse service attitude so far, of all the place I have been to in town that is. You get better service in Kopitiam lah!!! so angry... But in such great company, I try to keep my cool, and we had lots to talk about. After that, everyone seems to be in the vibes for a little KTV and we did. Would say its pretty enjoyable, and pretty stressful, as everyone was such good singers and me being a noob at my worse form... haha but I had fun lah... Left the place at 3 am, and keenan (Jac bf) came to fetch the ladies off, I took a little stroll in town before heading home. Town at 3 am isn't exactly as "ghostly" as I tot, its still pretty buzzing with activities at some corners of streets and all. Reached home at 4ish, showered waited for my hair to dry and finally hit the sack at close to 5am.
Saturday, got up at 10 ish, its became so routine that I watch up at that time everyday that no matter how late i sleep i will wake at that time. Went for band practise, wasn't that bad, got close to a full section and was once again the strongest section present... haha. After band prac we all meet at MS Kenny Rogers for a little dinner and "mini celebration" for Adeline. But somehow I guess that evening was not too well planned as there was not plans after dinner. Still we managed to have a little chit chatting session over at Rocky Masters. After that was home, but I went for my buddy Navin party at Gotham. The party was alright, haven't club in a very long while but it was great, thou I am sure there won't be one in a long time to come. Ended the evening at 5am ish, got a cab back in the wee hours of the morning. DEAD after...
Sunday, got up super late (say 1ish in the afternoon) haha must be the booze lah... desperately searching for water and all... Just reminded me why I hate clubbing in the first place. my vest and cap STINK BIG TIME of smoke and all man... had to air it out the entire day. Spent the rest of the day hydrating myself and stoning. Gave mum a big fat ang bao, as I always say, if you donno what to get, best is to let her get it herself. hahaha LOVE U MUM!!!
That pretty much sums up my bithday filled weekend. Later will be trying to lose some of the calories gained over the weekend in the gym... Decision more or less make for uni lah. just waiting for the papers to arrive, which is takeing forever lah. Alright den... shall update soon... CHEERS
Saturday, May 26, 2007
| Your Personality Is |
You are both logical and creative. You are full of ideas. You are so rational that you analyze everything. This drives people a little crazy! Intelligence is important to you. You always like to be around smart people. In fact, you're often a little short with people who don't impress you mentally. You seem distant to some - but it's usually because you're deep in thought. Those who understand you best are fellow Rationals. In love, you tend to approach things with logic. You seek a compatible mate - who is also very intelligent. At work, you tend to gravitate toward idea building careers - like programming, medicine, or academia. With others, you are very honest and direct. People often can't take your criticism well. As far as your looks go, you're coasting on what you were born with. You think fashion is silly. On weekends, you spend most of your time thinking, experimenting with new ideas, or learning new things. |
Tuesday, May 22, 2007
TAIWAN HUA!!!!
In SHE new hit album, Zhong Guo Hua seems to have stirred displease with taiwannese, thus to counter the effect... this is wat they come up with... DAMN COOL LAH!!!
Fun but sinful weekend...
Last weekend would have to be the most sinful weekend I have thus far, considering the amount of food i stuffed into my body, but I am not going to cover too much of that, rather I would just talked about yesterday. hehez...
My day started off with KTV session with my regular KTV kakis (Trisa and Karen), my "BEE GEES Buddy (Wai Leng) a few "guest celebrities" namely Faye/Hebe (Jing Si), Sun Yan Zi (Sarah Jane) and Jay (Jackson)... haha star studded afternoon making lotsa nice music. Its was alot of fun, I took on the old man's role singing songs of my era, with those super old MV. haha But hoped everyone had fun. After that we proceeded to RP (republic poly not raffles place) for a concert. Was not a bad concert if not for the many "additional instrumentions" from the kids in the audience and the fire alarm proudly sponsored by RP.
After concert, we head to Causeway point for dinner, Sasa give me a chance to drive, and under the constant pressure of 6 lives being in my hand, I got them to the mall pretty safely. Kinda renewed my licence after one year of absence from driving, my parking skills have totally gone down the drain. Haiz... but its feels good to be behind the wheels again. Not to mention I stalled twice, argh... even when I am learning i didn't stall that many times... sian...
After dinner we went to UK fun fair, alot of childhood rides... and we could resist the temptation for the "Votex of terror". So 4 of us (Trisa, Jing si, Wei Xiang, and myself) went for it while the rest looked from below... IT WAS DAMN FUN LAH!!! the last time i had so much thrill was when I was sec 2 at Movie world riding on lethal weapon roller coaster. We walked about a little longer after that, but decided to call it a night before more rides temptation catches us... haha Fun Fun Fun sunday...
the Daredevils....
the supporters...Saturday, May 19, 2007
Women....Love... a selfish affair...
I know many girls are not going to be happy with my these entry... but I guess its about time someone shows girls the meaning of love... A little "situation" had triggered me to write this... Its been long enough... time to let some out...
Girls in love, yes blissful, sweet, romantic.... guys too, but shortlived, coz apart from selfishly saying we lose our freedom, its kinda the beginning to a "watched life". I know its very blunt to put things that way, but its not a bad way, coz we do enjoy being watched to tell you the true, the feeling of someone there by your side, and care for you when you are down, and share your happy times and all. But in love sometimes, as girls will put it, they cared too much and they become insecure about themselves... there is where problems comes in, yes, guy thou they don't say much, they are hurt.
"If ever you fall in love with someone else, please let me know in advance" seems like nothing wrong when said in a joking manner, but constantly being told sentence like this hurts a guy in many ways, and also will get the minds of the guy working. "What did I do wrong?", "Why does she say such things?", "Does she not have fate for the love I have for her?" the question continues. When you girls thinks that you are the only one that worries about relationship problems, you are very wrong man, coz guys, no matter how manly he is, do have his moments with relationship problems too. And when you gers think that when a group of guys gathering, all they could talk about is soccer, games, girls or sex, think again. Guys need girls, speaking for the majority, and no matter how "cool" they seem or are, they show affections in their own little way. Girls might not see its as something big, and even take their actions for granted, but its guys ways of showing love. Me having many female friends myself, would relatively say, girls nowadays sets high benchmark when it comes to guys, and with influence of drama series, it becomes worse. Yes they will say that well show is show, it will never happened real life and the don't really expect it to happen, but somewhere within them, we know its not true. And us being guys (in general) will try to meet their expectation unknowingly. Thats our way of showing I suppose.
Girls over insecurity can harm guys in the most deep way I must say. A worried wife trys to contact her husband, who usually have his mobile on almost everytime. He went missing for awhile, mobile off, contact non of his friends. Finally when he called back, the wife sigh a breath of relief... .so sweet right? But the wife asked "Are you having an affair outside? if not why are you in contactable?". All of a sudden, all the sweetness just turns sour. A moment of over worrying, an unforgiving probing, a deep wound to the husband. We are talking about a 25 years marriage on the line. No to say after 25 years, things will not go out of track, but being together for 25 years, you would expect some kinda bond to be there, that mutual trust, that unconditional love. After sighing a breath of relief, the wife might just forget the entire incident, but as for the husband, i am guessing the question is burning fresh in his mind. Questions will follow, wondering what is making his wife thinks that way, and I guess have deeply brought pain to him.
Girls, try to see things from guys point of view too. True enough some of these sentence you girls say, can be for real or meant to be a joke. I also understand you gers must have a reason for saying this, either from bad past experience, or influence from media or frens unfortunate encounters. To us guys, we take it personally, thou we dun seem to be bothered at times, but in actual fact, we take every words our love says into consideration, and in the hours of the night as we rest in bed, we ponder over what have happened and what have been said and start questioning ourselves when things goes wrong. This the behind the scene of what guys are going through, many do not show due to the three letter word starting with "E". But I am telling you, this is what we experience, so don't go around thinking when there is a breakup, girls are always the victim. We just learn to look ahead faster then girls, pick ourselves up sooner, and move on, with that little part of us that still wish the girl well, regardless who ask for the break up. Males are no romantic creatures, thats why there is female to teach them and show them, its pretty much the say as it takes 2 hands to clap.
Venting it out makes me feel so much better. Mood haven't been very good lately so its always good to vent things out through a different medium. Will be going into isolation mode again I suppose. Realised I can think things out better alone... Loner rulez!!!
Girls in love, yes blissful, sweet, romantic.... guys too, but shortlived, coz apart from selfishly saying we lose our freedom, its kinda the beginning to a "watched life". I know its very blunt to put things that way, but its not a bad way, coz we do enjoy being watched to tell you the true, the feeling of someone there by your side, and care for you when you are down, and share your happy times and all. But in love sometimes, as girls will put it, they cared too much and they become insecure about themselves... there is where problems comes in, yes, guy thou they don't say much, they are hurt.
"If ever you fall in love with someone else, please let me know in advance" seems like nothing wrong when said in a joking manner, but constantly being told sentence like this hurts a guy in many ways, and also will get the minds of the guy working. "What did I do wrong?", "Why does she say such things?", "Does she not have fate for the love I have for her?" the question continues. When you girls thinks that you are the only one that worries about relationship problems, you are very wrong man, coz guys, no matter how manly he is, do have his moments with relationship problems too. And when you gers think that when a group of guys gathering, all they could talk about is soccer, games, girls or sex, think again. Guys need girls, speaking for the majority, and no matter how "cool" they seem or are, they show affections in their own little way. Girls might not see its as something big, and even take their actions for granted, but its guys ways of showing love. Me having many female friends myself, would relatively say, girls nowadays sets high benchmark when it comes to guys, and with influence of drama series, it becomes worse. Yes they will say that well show is show, it will never happened real life and the don't really expect it to happen, but somewhere within them, we know its not true. And us being guys (in general) will try to meet their expectation unknowingly. Thats our way of showing I suppose.
Girls over insecurity can harm guys in the most deep way I must say. A worried wife trys to contact her husband, who usually have his mobile on almost everytime. He went missing for awhile, mobile off, contact non of his friends. Finally when he called back, the wife sigh a breath of relief... .so sweet right? But the wife asked "Are you having an affair outside? if not why are you in contactable?". All of a sudden, all the sweetness just turns sour. A moment of over worrying, an unforgiving probing, a deep wound to the husband. We are talking about a 25 years marriage on the line. No to say after 25 years, things will not go out of track, but being together for 25 years, you would expect some kinda bond to be there, that mutual trust, that unconditional love. After sighing a breath of relief, the wife might just forget the entire incident, but as for the husband, i am guessing the question is burning fresh in his mind. Questions will follow, wondering what is making his wife thinks that way, and I guess have deeply brought pain to him.
Girls, try to see things from guys point of view too. True enough some of these sentence you girls say, can be for real or meant to be a joke. I also understand you gers must have a reason for saying this, either from bad past experience, or influence from media or frens unfortunate encounters. To us guys, we take it personally, thou we dun seem to be bothered at times, but in actual fact, we take every words our love says into consideration, and in the hours of the night as we rest in bed, we ponder over what have happened and what have been said and start questioning ourselves when things goes wrong. This the behind the scene of what guys are going through, many do not show due to the three letter word starting with "E". But I am telling you, this is what we experience, so don't go around thinking when there is a breakup, girls are always the victim. We just learn to look ahead faster then girls, pick ourselves up sooner, and move on, with that little part of us that still wish the girl well, regardless who ask for the break up. Males are no romantic creatures, thats why there is female to teach them and show them, its pretty much the say as it takes 2 hands to clap.
Venting it out makes me feel so much better. Mood haven't been very good lately so its always good to vent things out through a different medium. Will be going into isolation mode again I suppose. Realised I can think things out better alone... Loner rulez!!!
The day I left...
What have got into me tonight? Beer? cannot be, I only had 2 bottle. The music? the ambience? the crowd? the loud music? or I guess its just me...One night alone, I guess I have lost my buddies, a moment of foolishness, a moment of bordem... a lifetime of regrets...
Took time off today to settle some personal things and go get a birthday gift for Herbert as its his birthday... After getting his gift, headed down to city hall to meet up with him. Treated us to nice japanese food, together with few more other guys... (total up to 9 guys). Had lots of fun and laughter peace and joy. After which headed off to a pub at suntec, to have a few drinks... Kinda got bored after awhile, so took a breather outside. I wonder if age is coming up, or I haven't been in the scene for too long and was not used to it. The loud music was kinda annoying me, and looking from outside, everyone seems to get restless within. Then, I did the most anti-social move of the evening, I took my bag, wish them goodnight, wish Herbert and Hui fen (another friend we met at the pub) happy birthday, and headed home. Guess everyone was dumbfounded by my actions... Honestly, I was too after I left, people who knows me knows that I will never walk away from parties, let alone my best friend's. I didn't go straight home, I went for a breather walk and walked back into town. Did alot of soul searching in the process... but well when I made the decision, I know there was no turning back... I have screwed years of friendship...
These gang of mine was since my secondary school time, and till now, I will still say my best times of my life is during my secondary school, and credits will generally goes to this gang of frens. We can have fun in just a simple gathering. But lately, due to different commitment and my diet and all, I have been drifting further away from them. I literally meet up with them once every blue moon, and I guess they felt it as well. Take yesterday for instance, when li hao jio-ed me to attend his little performance at SMU, I actually went down, and he commented "Wah rare occasion that the 5 of us is back together, must buy 4d". Thats is enough to show how drifted apart I was from them. Well, I guess after tonight, its offically a gang of 4 and not 5 I guess.
Sorry brothers... at least I know you guys have never forsake me... but it is I that have been forsaking you...
Wednesday, May 16, 2007
New Twist... Doctor day...
Haha everyone must be wondering why am I up so early on a mid week (9+ is pretty early considering I am usually up at 10ish everyday) well thats because I am going to see the physio later. OMG, haven't been doing what she have instructed me to do thou... so I AM SO DEAD LAH, manage only one session in the gym (which was yesterday) ever since my last physio session. Hopefully I have advance to another stage, say erm... I can start swimming? hehez...
Decide to give this year's triathlon, or rather mini triathlon (not so zai to do the full) a miss, haven't offically got the green light to swim so shall not risk such move. But there is alot of running events awaiting me in the coming half a year... hehez... hopefully by the end of the year can see a leaner and meaner RYAN KOH, hahah...
As for my uni diliemma, there is a new twist of fate as MDIS finally confirms with me after my hot pursuit. hehez. Here is the break down of the current offers I get. Lets start with SMU, they offer a degree in Infoccom System Management, a 4 years course, with a definate option of a 2nd major from any other schools in SMU in the second year. Great school, super nice campus, and being one of the youngest course in SMU, a small group of say 200 pple. No liable for any exemption of modules till test is taken. Pretty employable course (meaning able to go into almost all fields, not including specialist jobs). Now moving to MDIS, I applied for Degree in Hotel and Resort Management with University of Southern Cross, Sydney Australia, and what initally was a 3 year course, due to amendments from the uni side, have been reduced to 2 years. With my diploma, I am entitled to 6 modules exemption, so out of 24 mod, I am doing only 18. Was informed there is new facilities set up in the school and my batch would be the first batch to enjoy the facility. Finally can opt for a semester to be completed in Australia depending on myself. Job scope pretty much remains in the Hotel and resort industry, or just service sector.
So there is a simple breakdown on my diliemma, what great mental stress these 2 degree offers have brought to me is very difficult to put in words man. I have recieved many advise from friends and family, but they always ends up with "Do what you heart tells you" which is pretty much back to square one for me. The only person that gave me a straight answer was Carol (thx babe). Do share your views with me k, if any... I have till June to make the decision, then its final.
Anyway, guess thats all I have for now lah... nothing much let to blog liao, nothing much yet I suppose. Oh yah on my previous post on the JC boy incident, it did create a great responds from the crowd. Its very interesting that what started from a stupid card can become a nation wide discussion topic (well for the fact Singapore is so small, news spread fast). a very stupid way to fame if you ask me... hehez... SEEYA!!!
Decide to give this year's triathlon, or rather mini triathlon (not so zai to do the full) a miss, haven't offically got the green light to swim so shall not risk such move. But there is alot of running events awaiting me in the coming half a year... hehez... hopefully by the end of the year can see a leaner and meaner RYAN KOH, hahah...
As for my uni diliemma, there is a new twist of fate as MDIS finally confirms with me after my hot pursuit. hehez. Here is the break down of the current offers I get. Lets start with SMU, they offer a degree in Infoccom System Management, a 4 years course, with a definate option of a 2nd major from any other schools in SMU in the second year. Great school, super nice campus, and being one of the youngest course in SMU, a small group of say 200 pple. No liable for any exemption of modules till test is taken. Pretty employable course (meaning able to go into almost all fields, not including specialist jobs). Now moving to MDIS, I applied for Degree in Hotel and Resort Management with University of Southern Cross, Sydney Australia, and what initally was a 3 year course, due to amendments from the uni side, have been reduced to 2 years. With my diploma, I am entitled to 6 modules exemption, so out of 24 mod, I am doing only 18. Was informed there is new facilities set up in the school and my batch would be the first batch to enjoy the facility. Finally can opt for a semester to be completed in Australia depending on myself. Job scope pretty much remains in the Hotel and resort industry, or just service sector.
So there is a simple breakdown on my diliemma, what great mental stress these 2 degree offers have brought to me is very difficult to put in words man. I have recieved many advise from friends and family, but they always ends up with "Do what you heart tells you" which is pretty much back to square one for me. The only person that gave me a straight answer was Carol (thx babe). Do share your views with me k, if any... I have till June to make the decision, then its final.
Anyway, guess thats all I have for now lah... nothing much let to blog liao, nothing much yet I suppose. Oh yah on my previous post on the JC boy incident, it did create a great responds from the crowd. Its very interesting that what started from a stupid card can become a nation wide discussion topic (well for the fact Singapore is so small, news spread fast). a very stupid way to fame if you ask me... hehez... SEEYA!!!
Monday, May 14, 2007
IQ = BRAINs? maybe not...
Was reading in the yesterday's papers about this guy from a GOOD REPUTABLE JC hitting a bus driver, just for a stupid card? Is it worth it? Its damn dumb! trouble kids get themselve into sometimes, and when matters get big, they cry... and all the shame to the poor father that have to get all the blame and even kneeing to beg for forgiveness. A moment Hero, a lifetime Zero.... Imagine going back to school, not only being known as the guy that hit a bus driver, but someone that is not responsible for his own action and have to make his dad shield him. Instant karma at its best, hitting a person his dad's age, and his dad gets all the shame... LIVE UP TO THAT!!!
I understand at the moment of anger, your mind switch off and your fist just springs into action, but all over a card, all over a girl rather? Is that girlfriend worth it, or rather the question is, "what was she tinking?" I mean she should be stopping her boyfriend. I just find everything so wrong. The victim, a man just doing his job, one sentence mention in his interview really touched me. He says, "I was taken aback when I got hit, a kid even younger than my own child hit me, but how could I hit back? He was just a child, but i felt my respect taken away from me." Getting beaten is not really about the external wounds, but the internal one, the ones that affects ur inner self. This boy did not only inflict damage to the bus driver, but also his dad, just think of the shame the father have to bear for the rest of his life. This scar that never heals. But a father's love is undoubtly great man. As the saying goes "Under every guys knees there is gold" thus its not easy for guys to kneel or beg, but it seems that the boy's dad have already given up all for his child, the ultermate love. Hopefully this will serve as a lesson for many, and i do hope that this boy gets a second chance on behalf of his dad. It really a story u will look back and laugh thinking "All these trouble for a card? worth it?"
Ok enough on my views on news lah... haha once in awhile I can get pretty annoyed by things in news that I really need to express... feels better once its off the chest. Back to my weekend. Hmm... Saturday, went for SMU briefing, my inital plan of just going for a listen even thou my mind have been fixed was once again thrown back into a diliemma. I have to admit, SMU is very very persuasive as they really do show the true potential that you will be facing upon graduation. Felt terrible after walking out from the lecture theatre. Confused confused confused... was initally suppose to meet up with Sherine and Adeline to shop, but only to find out they cancelled it due to bad weather, so I went walk around alone instead, at the same time find plans with others. Great Singapore Sale is creeping close, and my wallet is already itching to be emptied... haha (it not very full to start with) but my determination is keeping my wallet firmly in my pocket. But later that evening manage to go KTV with karen and Trisa, first time with sasa again after her chickenpox! and it was FUN lah... haha got so hooked on to singing lately, not sure why... love to hear my voice amplified pehaps... hehez. After that, we reluctantly called it a night as nothing else was left open and head home. That session keep me lost from the diliemma for awhile but found me back after i reached home... didn't had a sound sleep.
Sunday, MUMMY's DAY!!! didn't managed to get anything for my mummy, not very good with getting things for mum to begin with coz I really have no idea what she like. Stopped shopping with her since secondary school? maybe earlier. Anyway brought her out for sushi, kept promising to bring her one day but never manage to find the time. So what better day then mother's day. Did enjoy a little quiet moment with my mum, we seem to have endless topics, she would tell me alot about her gang of frens, which suprisingly never bores me. I too took the oppotunity to tell her about my uni diliemma even with the knowledge of what her answer would be. "As long as you are happy, we will support you". After lunch, my mum headed to the hospital to see my auntie who undergone an operation for her leg. So I headed home and rot for the rest of my day. Finished Pirates of the Carribean, the Black Pearl and the rest of my Full House. haha, then ended of my day with some exercise, simple skipping a stair climbing...
Nothing special for today or this week rather, at least none i can forsee as yet. smooth sailing as usual. Nothing to look forward to, just hoping this diliemma would be over real soon. alright thats it for me... cheers and great week ahead.
I understand at the moment of anger, your mind switch off and your fist just springs into action, but all over a card, all over a girl rather? Is that girlfriend worth it, or rather the question is, "what was she tinking?" I mean she should be stopping her boyfriend. I just find everything so wrong. The victim, a man just doing his job, one sentence mention in his interview really touched me. He says, "I was taken aback when I got hit, a kid even younger than my own child hit me, but how could I hit back? He was just a child, but i felt my respect taken away from me." Getting beaten is not really about the external wounds, but the internal one, the ones that affects ur inner self. This boy did not only inflict damage to the bus driver, but also his dad, just think of the shame the father have to bear for the rest of his life. This scar that never heals. But a father's love is undoubtly great man. As the saying goes "Under every guys knees there is gold" thus its not easy for guys to kneel or beg, but it seems that the boy's dad have already given up all for his child, the ultermate love. Hopefully this will serve as a lesson for many, and i do hope that this boy gets a second chance on behalf of his dad. It really a story u will look back and laugh thinking "All these trouble for a card? worth it?"
Ok enough on my views on news lah... haha once in awhile I can get pretty annoyed by things in news that I really need to express... feels better once its off the chest. Back to my weekend. Hmm... Saturday, went for SMU briefing, my inital plan of just going for a listen even thou my mind have been fixed was once again thrown back into a diliemma. I have to admit, SMU is very very persuasive as they really do show the true potential that you will be facing upon graduation. Felt terrible after walking out from the lecture theatre. Confused confused confused... was initally suppose to meet up with Sherine and Adeline to shop, but only to find out they cancelled it due to bad weather, so I went walk around alone instead, at the same time find plans with others. Great Singapore Sale is creeping close, and my wallet is already itching to be emptied... haha (it not very full to start with) but my determination is keeping my wallet firmly in my pocket. But later that evening manage to go KTV with karen and Trisa, first time with sasa again after her chickenpox! and it was FUN lah... haha got so hooked on to singing lately, not sure why... love to hear my voice amplified pehaps... hehez. After that, we reluctantly called it a night as nothing else was left open and head home. That session keep me lost from the diliemma for awhile but found me back after i reached home... didn't had a sound sleep.
Sunday, MUMMY's DAY!!! didn't managed to get anything for my mummy, not very good with getting things for mum to begin with coz I really have no idea what she like. Stopped shopping with her since secondary school? maybe earlier. Anyway brought her out for sushi, kept promising to bring her one day but never manage to find the time. So what better day then mother's day. Did enjoy a little quiet moment with my mum, we seem to have endless topics, she would tell me alot about her gang of frens, which suprisingly never bores me. I too took the oppotunity to tell her about my uni diliemma even with the knowledge of what her answer would be. "As long as you are happy, we will support you". After lunch, my mum headed to the hospital to see my auntie who undergone an operation for her leg. So I headed home and rot for the rest of my day. Finished Pirates of the Carribean, the Black Pearl and the rest of my Full House. haha, then ended of my day with some exercise, simple skipping a stair climbing...
Nothing special for today or this week rather, at least none i can forsee as yet. smooth sailing as usual. Nothing to look forward to, just hoping this diliemma would be over real soon. alright thats it for me... cheers and great week ahead.
Thursday, May 10, 2007
Dr. Ryan Koh - Love Doctor...
Apart from my diliemma about my recent uni choice, I have been poking my nose into other people's business, or love life I suppose. I am like reliving my past, as I help out fren's that faced problem with their relationship. Its a BIG THING, for someone that have been single all my life, and for the fact that people thinks I am very knowledgable in relationships. Love GURU? pehaps... But all I did pretty much is providing a listening ear, and giving opinion from a third party point of view and hopefully problems can be resolved in a peaceful manner. Maybe I should start a clinic for my business? haha...
Well the past few days was pretty alright for me lah, went for the SAF band public performance at Taka yesterday. What I thought was a short performance, ended up taking and hour plus, ITS A FULL CONCERT LAH!!! hehez, but its nice to see them lah... rare occasion to see parade band getting to sit down and perform. But I guess its as its a weekday night, there wasn't much crowd. Then again, I am pretty proud to see many ex-bandmates lah. hehez..
Back to the topic on LOVE. What is LOVE? A simple question but one that is very difficult to answer or rather have many different ones. And when someone say they are in love, but at times they ponder if its their true love? Define true love? Is there a definate answer to this four letter word? To me it seems infinte too. Can past love still be frens? is that even possible? knowing that you love someone that dun really love you back, worth it? if its not, why izit so difficult to let go and move on? How to satisfy a hunger for love, how can I tell that he/she still loves me after all this time? How come this guy is such a jerk, but a part of me still accepts him, makes me miss him, makes me happy when getting a call, or even an sms from him? is this love too? So many questions, so little answers.... these is only a portion of the question i faced while helping out... not that bad eh... do tag your views man... on you defination on love... Cheers!
Well the past few days was pretty alright for me lah, went for the SAF band public performance at Taka yesterday. What I thought was a short performance, ended up taking and hour plus, ITS A FULL CONCERT LAH!!! hehez, but its nice to see them lah... rare occasion to see parade band getting to sit down and perform. But I guess its as its a weekday night, there wasn't much crowd. Then again, I am pretty proud to see many ex-bandmates lah. hehez..
Back to the topic on LOVE. What is LOVE? A simple question but one that is very difficult to answer or rather have many different ones. And when someone say they are in love, but at times they ponder if its their true love? Define true love? Is there a definate answer to this four letter word? To me it seems infinte too. Can past love still be frens? is that even possible? knowing that you love someone that dun really love you back, worth it? if its not, why izit so difficult to let go and move on? How to satisfy a hunger for love, how can I tell that he/she still loves me after all this time? How come this guy is such a jerk, but a part of me still accepts him, makes me miss him, makes me happy when getting a call, or even an sms from him? is this love too? So many questions, so little answers.... these is only a portion of the question i faced while helping out... not that bad eh... do tag your views man... on you defination on love... Cheers!
Sunday, May 06, 2007
Things are picking up... i tink...
After that fall on wednesday, nothing bad happened to me (at least I hope nothing will ever happen). Anyway, got my mail and phone notice, that I made it into Singapore Management University. Yes, me, Ryan Koh, made it into SMU. shocker huh? everyone that heard this news seemed pretty excited for me, and I have been recieving alot of congraz, but why am I not even half as enthu as they are?
Ever since I finished the interview that day? I really had a very strong gut feeling that I would make it somehow. I honestly didn't do well in that interview, just that I did showed more confidence over the rest of my fellow interviewees. Apart from that, we are pretty equal I must say. But from the amount of eye contact I got compared to the rest. I kinda felt "special" like it was more like a one to one session rather than a group. I guess its true as the saying goes "when you try for something too hard, u might not get it, but when u really cannot be too bothered, the thing comes knocking on the door".
Enough about school I guess, really alot of consideration. Now back to my norm life. Guess its better then many other pple and its pretty unfair to be whining... but hey a blog is a place to destress to a certain extend, isn't it? nothing special happened this week, except maybe for today, or yesterday rather (considering its already past midnight). Did went back for paddling, after like 1/2 year of absence. Was very warmed by the reception, everyone asking about me, people glad to see me back and all, its feels like family when I am with them. Training was alright today, wasn't in the best boat but still managed to pull of a number of close wins. Its my mindset I guess, its been drilled into me, regardless it being just training or competition, my mind switches to a competitive mode, even i cannot explain. The desire to win is so strong that many times it overwhelms me... Its only after I got ashore just now that I have been pretty bossy on the boat, shouting orders and stuff. Felt bad, its like just returning after 6mths absense and I am already giving orders? boy do i hate myself.
Anyway, enough on that part i suppose, i did enjoy paddling, and am really looking forward to tml when the aches starts to set in me... sadist right? hehez.. I see its as and enjoyment, kinda the result of pushing urself. Always feels good. Was suppose to head straight into town after training, unfortunately one side of my contact lenses got washed out during training, and since I was going for a movie, I had to go home and get changed. Rush home, dumped my wet stuff, changed to my specs and head straight out, grabbing to buns as dinner as I was starving. Got there about 745 and met up with ZhongXi and Sherine first. By the time I got there, kinda lost all appetite and the 2 buns I took seems to have already expanded and filled me up. So as the three of them (including Xiu that have join us shortly) had their dinner, i just took a couple of glass of water. After that we carried on with the movie "Spiderman 3"
Maybe my expectation for the movie was abit high, as the last 2 was good. So this one was kinda below expectation for me. Thou there was an introduction of 2 new villains, but much time from this 2 1/2 hr movie is spent on romance and all, which can get pretty draggy at times. But I would give credit as they didn't leave much room for audience to ponder, like "why izit like that? or what happened to _____?" kind. Detailed but pretty dragy, overall still a blockbuster to catch... Spiderman 4? don't mind watching if there is one, but looking forward to it... hmm... i would consider about it...
This is my take on Spiderman 3, didn't want to get into details as many should not have watch it yet. So shall not spoil the fun for everyone. Well its really a small town i must say, just cafe cartel alone, I met Jinsi and gang having dinner, as well as my buddy herbert. hehez...Its a small small world...
Well i guess thats all I have, tml will be Sunday, shall enjoy myself and pehaps drop by town for cog. Till den, have a great Sunday, rest well for now and candy dreams....
Ever since I finished the interview that day? I really had a very strong gut feeling that I would make it somehow. I honestly didn't do well in that interview, just that I did showed more confidence over the rest of my fellow interviewees. Apart from that, we are pretty equal I must say. But from the amount of eye contact I got compared to the rest. I kinda felt "special" like it was more like a one to one session rather than a group. I guess its true as the saying goes "when you try for something too hard, u might not get it, but when u really cannot be too bothered, the thing comes knocking on the door".
Enough about school I guess, really alot of consideration. Now back to my norm life. Guess its better then many other pple and its pretty unfair to be whining... but hey a blog is a place to destress to a certain extend, isn't it? nothing special happened this week, except maybe for today, or yesterday rather (considering its already past midnight). Did went back for paddling, after like 1/2 year of absence. Was very warmed by the reception, everyone asking about me, people glad to see me back and all, its feels like family when I am with them. Training was alright today, wasn't in the best boat but still managed to pull of a number of close wins. Its my mindset I guess, its been drilled into me, regardless it being just training or competition, my mind switches to a competitive mode, even i cannot explain. The desire to win is so strong that many times it overwhelms me... Its only after I got ashore just now that I have been pretty bossy on the boat, shouting orders and stuff. Felt bad, its like just returning after 6mths absense and I am already giving orders? boy do i hate myself.
Anyway, enough on that part i suppose, i did enjoy paddling, and am really looking forward to tml when the aches starts to set in me... sadist right? hehez.. I see its as and enjoyment, kinda the result of pushing urself. Always feels good. Was suppose to head straight into town after training, unfortunately one side of my contact lenses got washed out during training, and since I was going for a movie, I had to go home and get changed. Rush home, dumped my wet stuff, changed to my specs and head straight out, grabbing to buns as dinner as I was starving. Got there about 745 and met up with ZhongXi and Sherine first. By the time I got there, kinda lost all appetite and the 2 buns I took seems to have already expanded and filled me up. So as the three of them (including Xiu that have join us shortly) had their dinner, i just took a couple of glass of water. After that we carried on with the movie "Spiderman 3"
Maybe my expectation for the movie was abit high, as the last 2 was good. So this one was kinda below expectation for me. Thou there was an introduction of 2 new villains, but much time from this 2 1/2 hr movie is spent on romance and all, which can get pretty draggy at times. But I would give credit as they didn't leave much room for audience to ponder, like "why izit like that? or what happened to _____?" kind. Detailed but pretty dragy, overall still a blockbuster to catch... Spiderman 4? don't mind watching if there is one, but looking forward to it... hmm... i would consider about it...
This is my take on Spiderman 3, didn't want to get into details as many should not have watch it yet. So shall not spoil the fun for everyone. Well its really a small town i must say, just cafe cartel alone, I met Jinsi and gang having dinner, as well as my buddy herbert. hehez...Its a small small world...
Well i guess thats all I have, tml will be Sunday, shall enjoy myself and pehaps drop by town for cog. Till den, have a great Sunday, rest well for now and candy dreams....
Wednesday, May 02, 2007
May just got worse...
To think yesterday was bad, today was no better. Well, again it was the way of ending the day. This is how the entire things went, went for a jog around my neighbourhood. Usually would make a clockwise run, but decided to take a counter clockwise route today instead. As I literally sprint down a slope, I saw a construction worker up front fixing something. He parked his bike right in the middle of the pathway, so naturally I took the inner way to avoid the sharp barriers at the side of the road. As I take the leap, something caught my left ankle, and I took a plunge into the ground.
Initally, a sharp pain hit me, I couldn't move despite the worker attempt to help me up. Its took me awhile to catch my breathe and mustered my strenght to get myself off the ground. My ankle was hurting but thank god it wasted sprained. I kicked on the pole of the board that guy was fixing. It was so well hidden that, travelling at that speen, its impossible to see. Was very mad with the worker, but seeing him apologising non stopped, and checking if I am alright, the heat within me cooled down. He is here to earn a leaving, no point blowing up the matter and have him sent back over this small matter right? Besides, I only have a few scratches here and there. After a short while rest, I ran back home at a slower pace, determined to complete my workout.
2 days into the month of may and already fell 2 days in a row... how unlucky is that... Tml will be better? i certainly hope so... for now... its nursing my wounds lah... Nights everyone!
Initally, a sharp pain hit me, I couldn't move despite the worker attempt to help me up. Its took me awhile to catch my breathe and mustered my strenght to get myself off the ground. My ankle was hurting but thank god it wasted sprained. I kicked on the pole of the board that guy was fixing. It was so well hidden that, travelling at that speen, its impossible to see. Was very mad with the worker, but seeing him apologising non stopped, and checking if I am alright, the heat within me cooled down. He is here to earn a leaving, no point blowing up the matter and have him sent back over this small matter right? Besides, I only have a few scratches here and there. After a short while rest, I ran back home at a slower pace, determined to complete my workout.
2 days into the month of may and already fell 2 days in a row... how unlucky is that... Tml will be better? i certainly hope so... for now... its nursing my wounds lah... Nights everyone!
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