Monday, March 05, 2007
Day 5 of my left handed days
Friday, the day after my operation, woke up with still a little tingle from the GA effect. but was much better compared to thurs. Right arm was huge as i slowly peeled off the shirt, the entire swell and my right arm was twice the size of my left. Did take the pain killer before heading out of the house. You guys must think that I must be the craziest person on earth, going out the day after an operation. As a matter of fact, staying home made me feel really cranky, so better to head out before I exploded at pple unneccessarily at home. First stop, to town to pay a visit to my "ex colleagues". Thou its only been 2 days that I stopped working, but seeing them already bring back some memories from the past month. Apart from that was also to collect my pay. After which, met up with Adeline, Wai Leng, and Sherine, for what I thought was a movie outing, turn out to be purely a shopping trip. Was out to find something for Wai leng rather then myself, as she had a wedding to attend coming fri. But didn't fail to spot a good deal from levis sale corner, located in Wistma Isetan, just besides Mango. Jeans are going from $15 to $119, yes you didn't see wrong, $15 LEVIS jeans... haha where to find? but due to my bulky baggage, I gave it a miss. FYI its till the 8th of march...so any big fan of levis... can check it out lah! hehez... After shopping with them, when down to meet herbert and gang for li hao's birthday @ the Loof, kinda cool, haha and as a tradition, the birthday boy never walks out of the place. Everyone made it home in one piece. Thank god.
Saturday, was again feeling bored not doing anything at home, so head out to chong pang, and get a "hairlift" (as like a make over for my hair). Didn't do very fanciful stuff, just got it highlighted... still figuring out how to style it thou... its difficult enough with 2 hands not to mention now with only 1. By the time I am done, was thinking of heading down kallang to see the dragonboat pple, but it started raining, so it kinda washed off that tot and I headed home in a cab instead. Watched the Prestige alone in my room. Enjoyed it.
Sunday, had my day pretty much planned out, head out to suntec in the afternoon for the career fair, to find out more of the course of my interest for uni, done enough bumming around, time to get my brain back to work. After which, head down to town again, to see the change of guards parade, as my band is playing in it. Was pretty good I must say. One of the parade I miss dearly after leaving the band. After that, headed down to auntie evelyn's place for a little family get together. Crowd seems to be getting smaller every year. but hey, since its an occasional event, i guess i did enjoy it in one way or another.
Today, nothing much happen, went back to the hospital for a follow up on my operation, everything seems to be well. As expected, there will be more follow ups and also physio to help me move my shoulder again. No sports for the coming 6 to 9 months.... wonder how I am going to survive. Seems like there isn't gonna be any medals for me this year at dragonboat! DAMN!!! But honestly I believe in myself, so let see how things goes, love the feeling of the gold around my neck. Meanwhile, have been slacking since before the operation. The layer around my waist seems to be pilling, and looking in the mirror is not that enjoyable anymore. A plan is in the process of construction before I declare a state of emergency on myself. Haha its that serious.
Yup that is so far the things I have accomplished since my operation. Haha not too bad for a 'temp handicap' eh? hehe, my movement might not be as fast, but well, since I am having the time in the world to wait for healing, I am just taking this time to really understand life as a handicap, and also how inconvienent it can be to lose one of the major tool on ur body suddenly. Slow road to recovery, but trying to make it a fufilling one... wish me luck pple.... hehe.. Cheers!
Sunday, February 25, 2007
3 days and counting...
Starting 1st of Feb, I started a new job in retail line, something that I haven't done in years, initally its was pretty tough, having onli 45 mins break on an 11 hours day, standing most of the time, but as time passes, and with you sort of get the hang of things, things worked out fine. Its pretty interesting to be one of the 'more matured' workers there. Well considering the average age group of the staffs there is about 18, I couldn't help its but to feel OLD there. But hey, age have never been a problem for me, older simply means more responsibilities annd keeping an eye out on the young ones, coz hey, I have been through the exact stage they are in now, right? hehez.
Then there is my dad's condition, something that I am not so keen on remembering but well its really a wake up call, telling me never to take things for granted. and when better to happened den on the eve of CNY, but hey, now that its over, just hope that this year of the golden pig will be better. After spending CNY eve and CNY day in the hospital, got myself into the hospital on the second day of CNY too. Shoulder popped again, so I calmly got my stuff, flagged a cab and got it fixed. 4th time it happen. sucks big time. Yesterday, the very first time i did CNY visiting this year, to Sasa's place. Then was back to my place for a little steamboat, first time in a long time that my place have been so crowded. Tml and wed, final 2 days of work and the month of feb is over. Short month, but looking at the number of things that have happen, its crazy.
For those who are still searching for my workplace in town... haha I am afraid there is only 2 more days left to look for me. Let me limit the scope again, its HEREEN, haha if you still cannot find me, its fated. One more clue, its not NUM, haha, guess many expects me to be there... but nah... hehe Alright then nothing much to say already, 3 more days to my op, feeling nothing at the moment, but guess it will only creep in on wed night. Wish me luck.
Was browsing the net for nice tattoos, and this particular design caught my eye... tink its pretty cool, but just couldn't tink of the place to have it on... not that i am getting one, but if i were to get it... just not sure where it will be..... here it is...
Eye of Horus Tattoos - a continuing indication of the fascination with all things Egypt. The Eye of Horus is the symbol for Horus, the Falcon Sky God. The Eye was a symbol that signified royal power. The ancients believed this symbol of indestructibility would assist in rebirth, due to their beliefs about the soul. The more recent tradition of freemasonry adopted the symbol and as such it has survived to this day, and appears as the Eye of Providence on the recto of the Great Seal of the United States. The Eye of Horus (flanked by Nekhbet and Wadjet) was found under the 12th layer of bandages on Tutankhamun's mummy.
Monday, February 19, 2007
SGH.... scary memories....
Luckly for me, the moment I saw my dad, all the feeling simmered down, and I too managed to catch a breather when I excused myself to go get some biscuit for my dad. Everythings seems fine with him, which I am glad. Still pretty upset for the fact that he thinks keeping his condition from us to not let us worry is right. We are family, yes he is the man of the house, but that doesn't mean he is not human, telling his illness doesn't means he is weak, how can I put that across to him, i wonder... But well, just glad that he is alright, hopefully after this dreadful dog passes, in 2 hours time, and the golden pig arrive, things will be better... I am sure....
Now for a test that i have took... On what kinda shopper I am, its spot on man... haha
Koh, you're a Savvy Shopper
Getting the best for the least is where it's at. And for you, it's your strength in the world of retail. As a savvy shopper, you know all the spots where you can get good deals. Maybe you show up early to be the first in line for the sale of the year. Knowing where and when to go is a huge part of bargain hunting and one you do well. You're probably no stranger to off-retail stores, factory outlets, warehouse sales, sample sales, and closeout sales. That's all par for the course when it comes to getting good deals. That doesn't mean that you'll skimp on the quality of the things you buy. That's what smart shopping is — factoring in the value of the product vs. the price and finding the best buy.
Being a true bargain shopper is a real talent. It requires knowing the tricks of the trade and the right spots to shop. It also requires patience and determination. It's a sport and it's one that you seem to shine in sale after sale. Whether you've got a strict budget or a big bank account, you know how to get the most mileage out of your bucks. Way to go!
Saturday, February 17, 2007
For once, dog dun seems like my best fren...
Today, got a pretty bad start to the day, got woke up by a bad news. Something is wrong with my dad, according to my cousin (who is a doctor), one of his vein got clogged near his heart, causing him pain and partial numbness. He felt he had to tell us despite my dad asking him to keep the matter from my mum to prevent her from worrying. Sounds noble? more like foolish to me... Anyway, since the news broke out, my mum immediately called him up and ask him to head down to the hospital. His friend gave him a ride there while we went to pray to my sister. will be heading down later in the evening to visit him. Hopefully nothing serious. Just hope this serve as his lesson to smoke lesser. Honestly its for his own good and for ours as well. If only he understands...
Hmm... don't really have the mood to blog about anything else. CNY seem pretty much different this year already. With my dad having to spend first day of CNY in hospital, mum worried. Probably will be hiding home to accompany my mum with things. Guess there won't be visiting this year. Not that I care really, since its happens every year, missing a year won't make much of a difference. All I care now is for my dad's health. Hopefully he can get better soon... I admit, thou we dun have those model father and son relationship, but deep in me, I care... i really do... its just hard for me to express. Take care dad, speedy recovery...
SHOO DOG!!!! hopefully Mr. Pig can bring us a good year ahead!!! PLEASE DO!!!
Tuesday, February 13, 2007
Updates and more updates!!!
Anyway, shall recap on my weekend then, didn't hafta work so was off to JB with my buddy Herbert. What was suppose to be an outing for the 2 of us was "interupted" by herbert friend, Shawn. Haha, maybe shouldn't use the work interupted, more like he add spice to our visit as he showered us with a very warm welcome. Felt kinda out of place as it was herbert's friend, but after awhile, we all became friends too. hehez... Shawn's family treated us to lunch before heading out for a day of shopping. I've gotta tell you, if you think bugis village is cheap, wait till you go JB man... haha and I would say its pretty quality goods. Absolutely loved their FOS (Factory Outlet Store) as you really can 'bump' into some treasure, like herbert did, managed to digged out an authentic A&F polo from there. (damn! on step slower!). But hey, I didn't do too badly, managed to get a few nice american brand shirts and all. Herbert's best buy of the day I would say will have to go to the A&F polo. Whereas for me, I guess my best find for the day will be a cultured jeans, not exactly cheap thou, but was worth every cent, its actually a replicant of the very first levis jeans ever made, with a little design by a famous designer. I personally loved it, but not sure about others (not that i care really! hahah kidding...) After that, dinner was with shawn's mum and brother over at a 'market place' which somewhat reminded me of old chomp chomp, and the food was fantastic, the first taste brought me back to old chomp chomp. Its not like that chomp chomp now is not nice, but its just lack the feel.
After that we called it a day, but I am very sure on returning, shall plan another time with herbert to visit. Thats my Johor trip. Sunday, spent half the day installing my toy, which is working now (thank god) , but I just haven't got a show that can "test" out the speakers. hehez... If anyone got any good movies to load, don't be shy k! haha alright then I suppose thats all I have for now, had a long day, so will be going to bed shortly, trying out a new routine tml, trying to introduce exercise to my day, realised that I have not been exercising ever since i started on this job, and its becoming my excuse to not exercise. So before, I fall into the "working class" syndrome, I better do something about it... hehez... alright then, good night peepz... shall update soon, will leave u all with a fantastic clip... enjoy....
Tuesday, February 06, 2007
It been awhile...
Well the reason of my absence is pretty simple, got a new job that dun allow me to access the internet AT ALL! haha a hint is retail line in orchard. So the next time you guys come shopping in town, do keep a lookout for me k!! heez... Its not really for the money, but really for the experience. Haven't been in a "real" job for a long time, so thought I experience how things is working FULL TIME, and what better FULL TIME then retail, working from 11am to 10pm. So far the experience have been wonderful. The people have been real nice to me, everyone can get along pretty well, maybe the pressure is there when the big bosses are there, but with everyone covering everyone's back, the stress is reduced. So far seen a number of celebs, people like Joanne Peh, Olinda (donno spelling, but was from Singapore Idol last year), and Wendy, better know as Xia xue. thou they try to act unnoticable, but by over accessiorising actually made them more outstanding... talk about a cover up man... But hey then again, they are like anyone of us of camera, so nothing against them man. hehe. FYI, will be in retail line for this month only, not that I don't like it or anything, just that I have an operation coming 1st March. So leaving me with not much of a choice. Yes, its on my stupid shoulder again, after it popped the third time, the doctor finally decided to that desperate measures to prevent it from coming out again. By looking at the MRI from my previous visit (which was already pretty bad), I forsee an operatiob is inevitable as I imagined what damage the three dislocation have caused to my bones. So people, will be another "major" operation after the one I had for wisdom tooth extraction.
Hmm, nothing really left to update liao ba.... CNY coming nearer, and I have not really got any new clothes yet, haha not that I am traditional, but hey, free excuse to do shopping, how to miss when comes to a shopperholic like me... haha but work have been keeping me at bay, and with the low in cash, its just make life more miserable for me, the ability to see but not buy.... kills any shopper man. $$$$ where are you!!!
Oh yah, my next biggest toy is here!!! like last week, haven't found the time to install it, probably doing it over this weekend. Have to plan out my cash flow to maximise my spendings. Already sourcing for affordable clothings that can pull me through CNY without having to wear "old" clothes. Then also new shelfing for my new toy, think will look under IKEA for help in that sector. I guess one thing that helped me recently working in the retail sector that is more in my age range, really let me see the lost fashion sense, or rather the fashion sector that I have overlooked. After glancing at too many fashion magazine and ads, I realised that I have been influence to "high end" fashion, meaning to being over brand consience. I was overly influenced by brands like FCUK, G-Star, GAP, etc that I overlooked that there are other brands, or rather culture, those that is more for my age group, and affordable for "non working class" like myself. So thats one benefit I got so far from work. Other than that, standing there all day, I get to see fashion of Singaporean as they glaced in our shop, absorbing ideas from those that can dress (which ain't many).
Ok lah, guess thats all I have for now... will update when I have the time then... Cheers and have a great CNY ahead! Cheers!
Wednesday, January 31, 2007
SAD SAD SAD....:(
A tribute to this angel that have gone home....
Monday, January 29, 2007
CNY closing in...
Well enough on that, had a difficult time getting to office today, the road that I usually take to work is packed with people, all preparing for CNY, which is a couple of weeks away. So the usually empty street is swarming with, people mostly elderly, so their pace can be abit unbearable for someone that walks "with air in my hair" most of the time. But hey, with that slow pace, I got to feel that CNY is finally coming. Chinatown never fails to bring the festive mood for CNY up man. Its a must visit lor, everywhere selling new year goodies, waxed stuff, and all the nice deco which I used to be every enthu about when I was younger.
Yesterday, went out with my buddy herbert, to do some window shopping and scout out good deals to do some shopping. Was kinda looking forward to shopping in bugis village. However, the things don't seem to interest me that much, and with the overwhelming kids trend or rather teenage trend clothing on display, I seem somewhat outta place. Town is still the shopping heaven for me I suppose, thou its difficult to scout the best deals in town, but with a nose for sale, it will never take too long for me to smell a good deal. HAHAHA
Hmm, nothing really left to blog. Hair in a terrible shape, hopefully I can pull through this crisis soon....GROW GOD DAMN IT!!! hahaha okok abit over the edge for a moment. Alright pple, have a great week ahead. Cheers!
Sunday, January 28, 2007
Hard to find!!!
Jayson shared with me a copy of his "work", or rather the magazine "Lexean" that his company works on. Was flipping through it, and found many interesting articles that caught my eyes. In particular, there is a few that I think I can share. Firstly, something about creative artist in Singapore VS the censorship board of Singapore government. It mention about the first question a creative team thinks when asked to come out with a play is "What can't I do?" By asking that question, its already taking away some of the creative privileges from them as they have already been ovewhelmed by fear of "offending" the government. The writer also add in very interesting pointers that got me very into the topic. Its strange how looking at things from another person's point of view can actually influence and change a persons thinking, or even get someone that never thought about the "problem" to start thinking.
Secondly, there is also an article that educate me on "loseing weight while snoozing" Yes losing weight while you are sleeping. We are not talking about long hours of sleeping so that u skip meal and lose weight here. Thats unhealthy actually thou you do lose weight using that method too.. its screws your ur system in the long run. But anyway, back to the topic, it talks about how much fat is burn while recovering, and repairing the damage done to your body while working out. Besides that, the amount of fat burned during this period is actually more then those you lose during workout. But hey, that doesn't mean you can stop working out altogether and just sleep your way to a slim and lean figure, it takes both method to get maximum effect.
Last but not least, every magazine is bound to have its fashion bit, and its the bit that I like best. However, this magazine is targetted at successful working class I suppose. Thus the fashion they portary are more to the higher end goods. But one thing I do like about the section, is that it actually teaches you how to dress, rather than show you the various nice clothes on those nice looking models. We have to admit, we don't have figures like models, so I guess its better to teach the people how to dress, rather than getting them to buy what the models are wearing, and think they look just as good in those than the models. GET A LIFE!!! like they say, "Give a man a fish, he will not go hungry for that day. Teach that man to fish, he will not go hungry for the rest of his life"
Haha okok, got a little carried away there, yeah and thats what I gotta share about that magazine, its not a bad read, but honestly, I am still not of age to read it yet. Not that is have any rude content or anything, just that I am still in my youth, and its better for me to enjoy these moment before it passes me. As for things in the magazine, its issue I guess I should be aware of, just not yet a time for me to be worried on just as yet. Haha.... its indeed an "adult magazine" hehe... good read thou... Alright, have a great sunday ahead man. Cheers!
Saturday, January 27, 2007
Thank You!
Well, this recent weeks have been a smooth "healing" one for me I must say, both on my physical and "emotional" ones, managed to have plenty sort out. And I realise that people around me do care, I was wrong to have assumed a battle fought alone is better as I didn't want to burden friends with my problems. But hey, what happen was I talked things out, without putting any burden on my friends and we can actually have a conversation about it, which is stress-free and well pretty much lighten my own load. I am really thankful, I truly am. But well, its seems that during this period, many of my other friends are facing some problem of their own. Well, being "past" (hopefully) my personal barrier, and being someone that have gone past that stage for this new year, I am hoping I will be able to help them walk out of that circle too... so guys, if you all ever need a listening ear or someone to talk to... CALL ME K!!!
Alright enough about those, let me just talk abit on my past couple of days. Thursday, a suprise party was planned for angie, I was glad that most people was able to make it, and I could tell angie enjoyed herself. For me, its more like a gathering of friends, coz I practically knew everyone there haha. The night ended in a pretty sudden note actually, haha as angie got abit too much "gas" from all the down down that she have been getting from that night and start puking. So we decided to call it a night and sent her home. On my way back, have a good long chat with Jayson. He read my blog, and gave me some wise advise, which really open up alot of myself. Sorry about the "hard to merge in" part Jays, I guess its just my personal insecurity, but now I am sure we are alright, hopefully I can get out of that barrier soon. Hehe thanx alot man. Yesterday, was shopping day for me, after thursday, hearing all that "victory moment" Jays had "battling" the shopping heaven Shanghai, I really needed some retail therpy. So i went far east to do some shopping with Trisa and Karen. And boy did we had good timing, it was midnight shopping throughout town (now happening every last friday of the month, guess its been awhile just that I haven't paid close enough attention). But well we really hopped from one shop to another. Not suprise that most of the stuff are ladies apparels, there is still a couple with interesting guys stuff. But I suppose I need to change my image abit to fit into some of them. haha. But overall, the trip was a success. Managed to bag a "full attire" (meaning a top and a bottom). Contented but not satisfied, my next stop will be Bugis Village! maybe tml? hmm we will see... haha
I hate my shoulder, after the last dislocation, my mind went back to the shut down mode, which total shuts of my motivation of exercising. The last time this happened, I gain 4 kg, however, thats with the 3 trips that so happening to provide so much good food in the way. Nevertheless, I am desperately trying not to have a history in the making, trying to get my engine up again before CNY comes, which is a definate weight gaining period. Well wish me luck! Alright then, thats all I have for the day, heading off for a paddle already. Shall blog some other time. Don't forget to tag yah! Cheer people!
Tuesday, January 23, 2007
What people thinks? Y bother?
Its back on the topic of being GAY again. Why do t-shirt and jeans on a guy that is big size and muscular be called manly, and on me, so Gay? Izit because of appearance? Not being tanned enough? the way we carry ourselves? I really wonder man. Sometimes I do take it as a compliment know that guys with abit more "girly" side tend to have better dress sense. But there is a certain level of tolerance. I do dragonboat, so do many others, but why am I the only one getting all this comments? Pretty sick and tired of it lor, to be honest. Walking down then street, people glancing you from head to toe. Some might be admiring my dress sense, but some simply thinks otherwise. I am not saying this out of jumping to conclusion, it happened and I almost snapped. Was walking down the street dressed casually in t-shirt and jeans, nothing special, this 2 ladies walk passed me... glance at me very carefully, and as they walked passed me, I overheard one telling the other "Confirm not straight". That not the only time that day, later that day, it happened again, this time its "Gay with the capital G". I REALLY DONNO WHATS WRONG!!! If anyone can tell me please just tell me...
Enough on that, was talking to jac about relationships (as in BGR). Is it true that girls goes for bad boys? and only after they had their fun and all, that decent guy get their chance in a relationship. I know its pretty unfair for girls to make such a statements, but I mean its not said with no valid backups. I seem many cases of girls crying over guys, that really, I have no idea why. The guy dun really treat them good, but yet, girls goes head over heels for this guys... Some guys (like myself) just don't get it I suppose. What women really want? In my camp days, this is what the "experienced" guys told me:
Girls aged >21 --> Good Looks, Hot Bods, "Bad Ass" Attitude = Character, Love period
Girls aged btw 21 to 25 --> Good Looks, not neccessary hot bods (as long not fat), not much on love, pretty much career (more of the show me the money phrase).
I donno how true it is thou, well I suppose it goes with trend and TV really do make a big influence, especially on the drama they have been coming out with. Jap, Korean, Taiwan... all sort, Jap guys tend to have the more bad ass "cannot be bothered" attitude, but occasionally concern melts gers away type of character. Taiwan is 100% dependant on looks. Guess the most famous now will be Korean I suppose, the soft spoken, well mannered, gentle and really good to girls type. A hit with all gers, and with looks to die for of course. For that, I really haven't a clue on what to do man.
Do tag your views on my 2 issues man... Really want to hear differnt point of view on this. Cheers.
Monday, January 22, 2007
Life is short and unpredictable... cherish while u can...
Well what made me say that the start of 2007 is worse to some of my frens, well a number of them are ill, if not injured. One friend of mine, got a fractured right shoulder and also a sprained right ankle. Another is even more serious, she got diagnosed with brain tumour, that was indeed a shocker for me, the news came to me on Saturday, before I went for dragonboat (yes, the season begins again). Got a call from another friend, I was dumbfounded when I first heard the news, she (the patient) have already done the operation, and currently waiting for the result of the lab test. What is my problem compared to theirs? That really "helped" alot in my way of thinking and straighten out alot of path for me. Life is already short enough, so why burden yourself with sad moments. One's life should be filled with happy times, so that when its time you leave this place, you leave with a smile on the face. Its a difficult task to achieve, but as they say, when there is a will, there is a way.
Anyway, back to this friend of mine, went to visit her on sunday. When I first saw her, honestly, I almost couldn't recoginse her. Partly was because her swelling is still in the process of subsiding, but mainly, its because the illness have sucked out all the "sporty spirit" in her. Okok maybe I am being over exaggerating, who can be lively after a major surgery. She still managed to joke with us and all, which is a really good sign. Her road to recovery will be a long one, but with her positive attitude, I am sure it will aid in the healing process. Looking at her, all my so-called "problems" seems so in-significant, there is no room for comparison man. So I have her to thank, for guiding me along a new path.
After kinda settling my problem, life seem somewhat lighter, thou I still kinda lead a loner's life (which I am not complaining), it seems easier for me to go out with my friends now. At least my mind will not wonder elsewhere when I am out, which make me feels bad, and worsen my already bad mood. hehez... I am gonna let bygones be bygones.... close the book for 2006, try to get rid of all the bad memories, and suppress the crazy mood swings. and start 2007 afresh. Hopefully I will no longer hear some terms used on me, will try very hard to change my image and all. Wish me luck. And speedy recovery to my frens... my prayers are with you man... Jia You!!!
Friday, January 19, 2007
Boring Friday...
Got bored at home, open up my cupboard, and saw a bottle of hair dye (from the Cleo promo the other time, was given to me by Angie, since she don't use it). Since all my previous colour was all removed from my haircut yesterday, I thought what the heck and do a little DIY hair service at home. Result: Not too bad for a first timer, haha cannot really see the back, but hopefully its ok, i did apply to the back but cannot really see its effect... cannot be bothered, since its for the fun on it. Was pouring a minute ago, but with rain comes rays of sunlight, and now its very sunny. I guess life is pretty much like the weather outside. There are wet moments, with glimpse of hope, and when all well pulls through, u get bright sunny day... For me, weather is still pretty gloomy, but rays of lights are already shinning in little by little... Hopefully i will see my sunny day soon... Haha okok enough of all that, thats what I mean when I say I will think of things.
Enjoy ur weekend ahead then... cheers... will share pic on my next blog....
Thursday, January 18, 2007
Day well spent...
Morning, got up early, knowing that rain always hits in the afternoon, thus decide to get up a little earlier to get a tan at the beach. Got there by 10 am, the sun was alright, not very strong, and would say pretty cloudy too. Hanged around till about 1230pm, before heading back to mainland. Took the tram today (free for islander) pretty nice, and got to my destination pretty quickly. After which, grabbed a quick lunch and head to SGH or rather HSA for a blood donation. Which took about an hour or so, including all the screening before that. Then, headed down town to get my hair trimmed. Was thinking of leaving my hair long till pehaps after CNY, and see what happens from there, but everyday i looked into the mirror when i get home, the urge of getting it trimmed increase. So i did today, abit regret now, coz its pretty short, but at least my mum feels its nice, says it makes me look young.... haha, what is she talking about? I AM YOUNG MUM!!! haha but I guess I just need time to get used to it. Anyway, after that, was thinking of hanging around town and wait till its time for muay thai as I have things to collect from Alvin. But the rain spoiled my plans man. The rain drops were huge man, and when it poured, it blurred out wistma (looking from tangs, no kidding, it was that heavy) So, getting a little drench, I found my way into Taka, roam around there for awhile, and when the rain simmered down, I headed to Cine. I reckon the rain wasn't gonna stop for awhile, so I got myself a movie ticket and watch a movie instead. Watched "Apocalypto" by Mel Gibson, and I tell you, its brillant man, wasn't sure what the show was about before that, but once I watched it, I must say its pretty good. After the rain, the rain stopped (thank god) , made my way to get skipping ropes from Alvin (who was kind enough to give them to me) and impart a few things I can do on my own while recuperating. Headed home after that, and pretty much sums up my day... Neat huh? heez...
Hmm, something just come up to me, from yesterday's news, califonia experiencing some of the coldest weather yet, and with the recent floods and unusual events happening all over the world, I can help but to think that one day, scene from the movie "Day After Tommorrow" might just come through. Thou the scale might not be as drastic, but so many events from this past years have shown vast reaction from mother nature. Tsunamis, huge earthquakes, floods, typoons... is the world really coming to an end? Can we do something about it? I guess its really time we take our environment into consideration. Its abit late, but better late than never I suppose.
Tml, hmm, haven't got a distinct plan on my day's plan yet. But I forsee alot of phone calls to make. Supposedly will make a trip down to town (again) to collect my glasses. and that pretty much sums up my day. hehe.. shall see how things goes from there... movie again? or more shopping? haha or just home to rot? hahah pretty sad for a friday night, but hey, its great for a guy like me... hehe... alright den... nothing much left liao. enjoy ur weekend ahead. Cheers!
Monday, January 15, 2007
New week, new things to look forward to...
Watch 2 good movies last week. Death Note 2 and The Queen. Its been awhile since I watch movies alone, but its sure a good feeling. Not that I dun enjoy company with friends or anything, but spending quality time alone is really nice once in awhile. Did a little window shopping also, ended up grabbing a jacket from Zara, not too bad. quite like it. Actually saw a couple blazzer that is pretty attractive, was considering getting them but had second thoughts as I dun get the wear them frequently. Now, damn regret not getting as I cannot find them anywhere, all sold out. Sob... Guess its fated ba...
This week got alot of new things. Firstly, my new toy, a 32 " Samsung LCD TV have arrived!was nicely sitting in my room when i got home. The feeling its dame good man. Even watching CNA seems interesting on such huge screen. haha. Friday will be collecting new specs, got a $20 voucher from my last purchase of sunglasses, so since my glasses is not in good shape, thought I put the voucher into good use. Quite cute frame lah, serious black frame with very cool side designs. Kinda like me, look stern from the front, but still a fun side to me. Hehez.
Yesterday was a pretty long day for me, woke up early as I had medical appointment at CGH at 11am in the morning. The place was pretty crowded, so even when I got there on time, I still had to wait for more than 30 mins before its my turn, but hey, thats how hospital works I suppose. Will be undergoing operation for my shoulder, as I feared. The doctor explained the damaged state of my shoulder (with Xray from my previous dislocation) and say that the dislocation that happened recently have inccured more damage to the already bad shoulder. So i have not much of a choice, if I don't operated the chance of its coming out in the coming years is almost definate. Will be having it done on 1st March, after Chinese New Year. Afterwhich is months of recuperation. I can still do gym, according to the doctor, so as long as I don't over extend my shoulder. Thats that only comfort I get I suppose. After consultation, headed to gym in Tampines, thought I try somewhere new to gym. I must say, the gym there is HUGE lah. So different from hougang and thomson. Feels like a "single storey california gym", thou the equipment are not as extensive compared to cali, but enough to work all muscle groups. Did more cardio and just some light weights on my arms. After that, head down to town to get tickets for the movie "One Last Dance". Watched it with Sherine, Adeline and Wai Leng. Love the way the director played around with the procedure of the scenes, it makes people confuse but to the end all light will come through. A great local production for once. Definately must watch. Before that, I roamed around PS, was damn bored coz there is really nothing to see in PS. After the show, got home, took a shower and call it a night, was THAT tired.
Today, at work as usual. Nothing special happening today, so shall not blog anything about it. Tml and friday will not be working. so hafta plan what I am gonna do. But thats it for now... cannot wait till friday for my spec collection. Think is about time I check on the home theatre too.. hehe.. alright then, thats all for now.. CHEERS!!!
Friday, January 12, 2007
Rainy Rainy Weekend...
Completed the Korean show i borrowed from Sherine the other time yesterday night. What seems like a definate happy ending have a weird twist leading to a very sad ending. Really admire korean men, for their lack of fear in showing their emotions. Real men do cry I suppose, all those things that crying means weakness, I am thinking otherwise already. Of course when I say cry, I don't refer to the whining and pouring type of cry, but simply tearing when you are sad, I guess thats that the limit a guy can go to when he gets emotional. Overall, would say its a pretty nice show, love the longs the drama used, both the english ones and those written for the show.
Yesterday, went for a little makan session with my SAF band people, so glad and contented that I got a warm welcome the minute I stepped into SAKURA (at Downtown east). Everyone seems pretty glad to see me, from the officers to my (ex) fellow bandmates. Guess all that hard work did pay off in the end. For once after so long, I forget about the blues I am having since donno when, was just enjoying the company of all my friends. Hearing things like "Ryan, wah really missed you playing the bassdrum" and "Hey the bunks seems pretty quiet wo!" make me felt so missed in camp. My presence did make a difference in one way of another I suppose. After that, me and a few others, mainly my brunei gang, went for a little walk in town, shopping and all. Met up with Tuan Hao for awhile. Then as the rest left, only me and Azre continued shopping till late. Have a number of things on the "to Buy" list but have to scout out for the best bargain. Shopping always gives me extra energy man, sometimes I wonder if I should even be born a man, judging from the interest I give in shopping. lolx.
Alright, I am glad to say, things are slowly turning for the better, now that the mess within me, is more or less controlled. But still need time, probably by the end of the month... hopefully. Meanwhile, I am enjoy the life of a loner, doing everything alone, seeing things alone. No company might not be such a bad thing afterall. Everyone fears loneliness, I for one adores it. Really like living in the world of my own. But I hope my isolation period won't inflict any damage on my relationships with my friends. Well I guess we will see how thing goes, will take things a step at a time then... Alright den, have a great week ahead. Cheers!
Tuesday, January 09, 2007
Where is the sun?
As i said, spent the entire day at home today. Phone hardly rang, or at least i didn't bothered checking in the first place. Spent the day watching vcd i borrowed from Sherine. A pretty nice show I must say. Thou its just a show, but its got my emotions going, felt like I was in the movie, and the actors and actress are actually my frens facing that problem. Have yet complete it, taking my time to do so, coz I really have no idea what I can do if I finish it all at one go. Something to keep me occupied is always good.
Mum and Dad are back to normal liao, thou I am sure this have leave a scar in the relationship, but guess time will heal all wound and mend all scars. At least that means one last thing for me to worry. As for myself, honestly speaking, I have not find the source of my biggest problem. But all I can say is I am waiting it to pass, the depressed feeling make me breathless at times, but goes away after sometime. But the re-occurance rate seems to be increasing, should I seek medical help? At times I really want to talk it all out, but I donno what to say, where to begin, or what to begin with. I am really in a state of confusion. How I wish I have a pair of wings now, and just fly off to a place that no one knows me, start things anew.
The thought of migrating have been hovering in my mind lately. Australia seems like an ideal spot. Mum have told me once that Dad have been thinking about that idea for awhile. For me its easier, I already have relative there, all I need is to get an education there, stay in the country for more then 3 years, get a job and pretty much secure a spot. By then I can fetch my parents over. Its not really a bad idea. Pondering.
Well, I guess thats all for the day, another day have passed, the sun rises again tml, hoping tml to be a better day! Take care and enjoy the week pple. Cheers
Monday, January 08, 2007
Bad start to a week = bad week?
Its has not been a good start to the new year for me. My personal problem have yet to be solved and another problem arises, not with me, but my parents. Was happily thinking of where to go after concert when I recieved a msg from my dad saying something happened at home and its pretty urgent. So after the photo taking session, I rushed home to see what happened. Apparently, they had a big row over a very trival matter again, its really making a mountain out of a molehill matter man. It really breaks my heart to see such things happen in the family. Whats worse, I have to shoulder all these. I know they care for each other so much, and its pretty much their different view in things that cause this argument, so I suppose time will dissolve their problem. But the scar they leave in me will take awhile to heal, and I suppose it will be longer this time since my heart is already wounded in the first place.
At times, I really hope I can return to time when I am a kid, just cry out and forget it... its not possible now. even how hard I tear, I cannot forget and the pain lingers. I used to say those people that jump off building are stupid, how can they give up life just like that, but now I think otherwise, with all the stress building, it gives people the strength to just want to end it once and for all. Don't worry, I will not do anything foolish. On the surface, my parents think I don't care about them, in actual fact I do. I mean which child will not care about their parents? But I mean there is nothing much I can do isn't it. Something my Dad told me yesterday made an impression on me. He said ever since my sis left, he understand that its must be difficult for me, as I was all alone, and there is pretty much no one I can approach to share my feelings with. That, to be honest, is really true... Who can I really share my problems with? or what right do I have to trouble other people with my problems when I clearly know that I am not the only one that have problems around here. I guess thats what holding me back. Really glad and thankful for the inventor of blog, a personal space for me to write out my feelings, at least letting some load off my chest. Other than that, i guess i just have to swallow it all down and hopefully time can lighten off my load.
Didn't realise I have already been typing so much, my chest feels lighter already. My world is so full of dark clouds at the moment, when will I see my first ray of sunlight? feel the warm from the sun within again? I really wonder, but I will go strong no matter what, one thing in my process of gym training strengthen most I would have to say will be my mind power, my determination. Thou, I am not sure how long I can hold, but I will try to remain as positive as possible. At least time is on my side. Wish my parents will patch up soon...
Have a great week ahead people, take care and live well!!!































