Attack of the Zzzz Monster!!!

I must have got bitten by the Zzzz monster coz my brain has officially shut down, and my eyes is having difficulty to stay open. Finding things to do to keep myself awake... Haven't felt like that in a long long while... must be really old liao.... just a little fun time and it screw up my entire system... HAHAHAHA...

Today is day one in office for the new year, one colleague left, another will be coming in... but not colleague, but BOSS!!! yes... coming in as a MANAGER position. 7 years working experience (field: unknown), Non chinese (will be interesting to see him talking to the boss (taiwanese)). Work wise.... manageable. Taking a 15mins break just to write in this entry...

I AM SO SLEEPY!~!~!~ EVEN BERROCA DIDN'T WORK FOR ONCE!~!~!~2 more hours....tahan tahan...

Beginning...

After 2 weeks of slacking, doing nothing, eating, drinking and ZERO exercise... I must say its really awesome and fun... and not to mention sinful to the MAX... but hey what the heck right? its the festive seasons.... hehe... now a little recap on how my N.Y.E went....

Thurs

NYE was alright... had to do a little show...which in my opinion, rather messy but we managed to pull it off... clients were happy, everyone was happy, I was happy... hey great... Ended off at about 1am ish (Already New Year Day!!!) so left and walk down the street of orchard road which was still buzzing with live... a rare phenom considering the time. Decided to try my luck with the MRT, which was still in operation due to the festive season (lucky me!!!). Drop by Paulaners to meet, Karen, Sasa, Jac and Keenan. Order myself a couple of pints of beer and thats pretty much the amount of alcohol I had for NYE 'celebration' hee. Had a little chit chat, definately enjoy the band's performance. After which wanted to go Butter for a look see... but was still queuing even at 3am in the morning... so decide against it... saw Sherine and gang so said my NY wishes... retired into the night...home.....say.....4am ish....=p


Friday

Woke up, haven a clue what time it was.... apparently it was 10am if I am not mistaken... bio clock is schedule to wake up at around that time. Hmm... cannot really remember what went on that day... just knew that evening went to Acid Bar for a drink with Cindy, Ethan and a new friend Frankie. Funny guy he is... They headed of to Boiler for more party, me being the old man, decided to call it a night. Home and rested about 2am...


Saturday

Got up at about 10am (as usual), did some shopping with my mum, then came home to prepare for a little gathering at kate's. Shall not get into details but there is only one word to describle the gathering... AWESOME!~!~! already looking forward to my next gathering with them.

Today

Initally tot of going for a tan, but had second tots the moment i looked into the mirror and that flabby thing waving at me... Did not go in the end, ended up being a good family guy and did some spring cleaning for my mum. Met at Debs place for a mini "New Year preparation" gathering. Basically ate the most sinful of things (chips), must have taken enough salt to fill an ocean coz i am downing water like nobodies buiness. Luckly I washed it down with some superb wine just now...

But that pretty much concludes the "Junk Food" season for my year! From now on, Water is my best friend, beer will have to come in second place and drank on special occasions. Food type and intake will have to be more careful, and time to start this stalled engine all over again. One month is a very short time to train... but I still have to make the best of it... TML will be the start of the new year... so looking forward to new challenges, new friends, new chances and opportunities... and of course LOTS of my runs and trainning... =p dun worry, will not bore you all with all the training entries... will pick interesting ones to share (alright Trixy....=P)

Have a great one everyone, for those that is working.... no one enjoy working but hey... lets not start the new year with Monday blues k... try this... looking into a mirror and smile at urself for 10 sec before you head out for work... your day will brighten up.... For those that are studying....study really hard... all the best and enjoy while u are studying... its indeed the best time of your life... trust me... I missed it already.... =P

Good Night one and all.... Have a good one!!

Last of 2009, 365 More of 2010!!!

12 hours left of 2009.... please enjoy what's left and have an awesome 2010 ahead!!!

Holiday Mood

I am in a Holiday mood.....seriously.... super duper bored in office, not that I dun have things to do in office, just that I really dun feel like doing.... Today time is passing super duper extra slowly too... OMG OMG OMG!!!

Nothing much to share today probably just some pictures then...


Me and Trixy at J&J house warming/wedding bash.... can you believe i have been talking to this women GIRL online but this is like the 2nd time we actually met.... first was ages ago while she is still training!!! hahaha

This year Christmas gathering with my flute section. Its has been what....4 to 5 years running... so glad I managed to attend everyone and its always good to meet them =P.

Then another long time no meet up friend aka MODEL, Carol Lee. haha fantastic time... Congraz and a great year ahead k...!!!

hmm....thats all for today... plenty to settle today... a recent event woke me up and dragged me to reality. Really need to plan for 2010... Everything has been too Sunny, so much so that I have not prepare myself for rainy weather.. so yeah.....

TRAIN TRAIN TRAIN....SAVE SAVE SAVE~!~!~!

New Year Resolution!~!~!

Pondering what my 2010 is going to be like.... Kinda excited yet fearful....very mixed feeling I know. This kinda struck me while writing my Xmas and New Year wishes to my friends last week and also a comment by my fren, Trixy just now. She mentioned "Aiya, you blog always about working out....sibei Sian lor" (Haha) I know there is nothing wrong about sports and I am happy doing them, but it can't help but get me wondering is that the impression I give to others about me... HAHAH, I am not all no life guys... believe me =p HAHAHA i just try to enjoy moderately... really refusing to go back to my pang pang self...

Anyway, yeah, will have a good think about what I really do wish to achieve (apart from sports, which i am all excited about). Get featured again? Join ManHunt 2010? Fly? HAHAHA crazy thinking but hey....BRAINSTORMING K~!!~!~hahaha

Something never change thou, new year resolution that is renewed every year - Stay Happy, make sure those around me are happy, and be a better me... and of course good health to everyone.

okok enough of that, now to daily life.... well a couple of must watch movies, Avatar and Sherlock Holmes. MISS IT AND REGRET IT!~!~!~ hee.. yeah its that good... Started my cycling, borrowed the bike on Sat from Cindy (THANKS BABE!~!~) and cycled from town back, passed by Ubi so got the seat adjusted and it started pouring DINOSAURS!~!~!~

Went to Ice Cold Beer with 2 lovely ladies, Sherine and Wai Leng, Had the legendary (but rather sinful) chicken wings and yes... they still taste awesome!!! sometimes it doesn't really take alot to make a wonderful day, just a couple of frens, a good place to chill, couple of beer, a camera (since i am a cam lover - aka whore) and you are in for a good nite (woot woot)

Mid week seems extra enticing this week as this week is really short... CANNOT WAIT LIAO!~!~! ROAR... Party hard one last time and it time to go hardcore!!! dun worry this place will not be filled just with sports regime, but hopefully other colours in my life...

Keep Posted.... Ryan....OUT!!!

Boxing Day!!!

Happy Boxing day everyone..!!! hope the rain didn't dampen off any festive spirits!!! =P Phew, just came back from a friend's place, coz I borrowed her bike (as in bicycle...not vroom vroom bike), and YES I MADE IT BACK ALIVE!~!~!~ muahahaha

Need a bike to start training for OCBC in march, but before that will try to squeeze in a long cycle with the gang (hopefully no work on that weekend) in Jan. Hee... its been a long time since i cycle, and I must say... the feeling is awesome!!! thou I dun have long hair that flies against the wind, but the feeling is still shiok nevertheless. +p

Christmas day was a good boy... stayed home and cleared my clothings.... some are going to salvation army since i am not wearing them no more. while packing yesterday, then I realised that alot of my tees are actually from running events, and boy do i have many of them... NEXT YEAR WILL HAVE MORE!~!~!~

Thats all for today... OH YAH... HAPPY BIRTHDAY SHERINE!~!~!~

Its Christmas!!!

In less than 24 hours we will welcome the festive season.... Rather exciting I must say. Having a little gathering with a few mates for dinner. Hopefully it will be really fun!!!, or rather it will be REALLY FUN I AM SURE!!! alot of catching up to do (as we seriously have not met for ages)

Today's entry will be dedicated to my EVIL TWIN!!! Debster!!! HAPPY BIRTHDAY BABEZ!!!! It was yesterday btw, but hey never too late.
This is my evil twin, thou we might just have met this year, but it just felt like we known each other for ages!!! missing our long coffee sessions and evil moments.HAHAH... Just want to say thank you for everything. Age is definitely a number for us as we are all kids within!!! HAPPY BIRTHDAY once again and Happy Holidayz!!!

Went for her party yesterday, was a simple affair, her with a few good friends, and well... kinda odd as I am one of the rare DB frens she invited, but strangely didn't really felt that out of place like I would in other parties. Probably coz her friends are all in similar lines thus there are always something to talk about. First time I partied till late on a weekday (reached home like 1am) hahaha.... so had a little difficulty waking up today, but lucky coffee does the trick for me.... probably might have to do another shot just to keep me going for the entire day (fyi: usually try to still to one shot per day)

Lots to do after work!!! but kinda looking forward to it!!! woohoo its the holiday holiday holidays... haven't felt the festive mood in a long time!!!

Merry Christmas everyone!!! PARTY HARD and if you drink...please dun drive...=P

Merry Christmas!~!~

Merry Christmas everyone!~!~ I know its abit early but hey... just in case I do not managed to blog by then... Foresee a busy week (nothing new). Anyway, this is from the 2nd most liked paddle of the year (1st is River Regatta), this is the Chrismas Paddle!!! hee... absolutely love this bunch of pple...

Anyway, it seems that everyone is falling ill this festive season... probably all too excited and are partying hard so that they can party harder on the actual day. Nevertheless, my wishes to all out that who are feeling a little under the weather, hope you guys regain good health by tomorrow and prepare to PARTY THE NIGHT AWAY FOR MR. HO HO HO festival!!!

Saturday Saturday!~!~!

Yes, I am in the office, taking a little time off to blog. Was actually planned to come in on boxing day... but i changed it... OF COURSE RIGHT!~!~!~who wants to come back on a long weekend!!! hahaha

Today will be Xmas paddle, a light paddle which i really enjoy and pretty much sum up the year's paddling. So without that for a few Saturdays to come, I would really need much determination not to stray too far away from my regime. (aka DUN GROW FAT!!!! ahaha)

Hmm.... next 2 weeks, very busy, with personal things I suppose, alot of packing to welcome the new year... really need to get to cleaning my ROOM!!! OMG OMG OMG... daunting task... Its the time of the year to really reflect on the year that have past. All the SOUR, SWEET, BITTER, SPICY things that has taken place, have them orgainised, kept and start to plan how the new year is going to be like. Like mention 2010 is going to be a rather exciting year... but I foresee a number of uncertainty ahead... but shall face it with an open heart and see where the journey takes me. I currently have a vision ahead, which, ironically is an entirely different path as I wanted to take on 2 years back. Honestly if you ask me, I never expected myself to consider this path before, but at least with this "vision" I can hopefully work something out. GAMBATE NEH!~!~

As I end 2009 soon, would just like to give my gratitude to all my friends, those old ones that have stood by me all these year, or newer ones that I knew throughout this year. You guys have made my life that much more exciting, and adding colours to my black and white world. Of course, the year was not smooth sailing, so just want to say to my "friends", I forgive you, but will not forget what you do to me. Every wound leaves a scar, so thank you for "disfiguring" me further. To all of you out there, you didn't manage to kill me, now I AM EVEN STRONGER!!!

Everyone's favorite segment to welcoming a new year is to set a new year resolution, and honestly by far I have only hit one resolution (which is to lose weight and get featured in a magazine - which i got featured in 2!!! hahaha) but anyway, I already have my mind set on my resolution for 2010. Just have to bite the bullet and attain it. To those that have been setting resolution and not hitting them and think well I will just let it snowball, let me tell you, attain ur resolution is a very satisfying feeling.!!! You should really try it!!!

Anyway that's for all, I am really just waiting for time to fly, or rather to pass so that I can end work for the week. May everyone have a wondering couple of weeks ahead... ITS TIME TO PARTY!~!~!~wooHooo

Lucky Lucky end of the year for alot of my friends....

TGIF!!! been looking forward to this day since Monday (I bet I am not the only one right??? =P) Thou I still have half a day of work tml, but nevertheless, weekends are worth looking forward to...

Its been a rainy morning for the past 2 days.... never really life raining starts to the day, "dampens" the mood. Thank god today the sun peep through the cloud as I was leaving home.

Hmm...about the week... nothing much actually. Just doing alot of sourcing work, keeping as low profile as possible to prevent stepping on my boss's tail. She has been pretty "sensitive" lately, the slightest movement in the office annoys her. So as usual the office is as quiet as a graveyard (PRAISE THE PERSON WHO INVENTED HEADSETS!~!~!~ AND YOUTUBE!~!~!~)

Recently, or rather this week alone, I witness 2 super duper lucky friend... One is Jacp, my dragonboat friends, who just decides to attend the Blackberry 9700 launch event, and eventually won herself a BB9700!!! its like OMG OMG OMG lucky and blessed lah... hahaha

And to think thats all, NO, today just saw another fren, Amelia, my NYP band friend. Well its not exactly her, but her sister, took part in some snapple bottle cap contest... and she won a CANON EOS D500. OMG OMG OMG right?!?!?

Its lucky to have such lucky friends around I suppose coz I believe that good luck can be influenced (or I choose to believe lah =p). So yeah, congraz to everyone who have ended their year in a lucky/blessed note.... I just cannot wait to get this year done and over with and looking forward to 2010 already!!!

Did a pact with a friend yesterday and we both have something to look forward to this new year!!! GAMBATE NEH JACP SAN!~!~!~

So close to Christmas and I have yet to do anything about it. HAHAHA well not a big festive person to begin with, but will be nice to meet frens, chat up, and CAM WHORE~!~!~hahaha

Alright ba... thats all for today.... staying low profile till the day is over... Ryan...OUT!~!~!

Slow Tuesday...

Looking at my clock and thinking its almost lunchtime....but only to realise its only 10.30am!!!! long way to lunchtime....Time is crawling pass really slowly I must say. I suppose its because the work have kinda tone down and the holiday mood is really starting to set in...

Went to the gym yesterday, after 2 weeks.... (or was it 3 weeks) of not working out AT ALL... and I tell you... I am aching...yes me... haha.... but definately in a good way cause I feel so alive again... It was a love/hate affair in the gym yesterday. I was out of breath super fast and my heart was pumping so heart I was pretty sure it was going to stop at some point of time... but yet the adrenaline going through was so great. Have start my 16 weeks regime all over again (due to the break) and this time hopefully I can complete it... the last time I did this regime i "died" off at the 12th to 13th week i suppose. So yeah with the whole list of event lining up... really hope I can discipline myself to do so... Lots to achieve in the coming year. Anyone want to fund me? =P

Haven't really mentioned much about my weekend, was kind of a long but rather fun weekend I have to say. Saturday we had the Singing competition in JCC again. I realised our muslim frens really dun have a fancy sitting on chairs, its uncomfortable I suppose. Anyway glad the entire thing is over despite the massive overrun and minor hiccups here and there, nothing major happened and everyone left with a smile on their faces. After which I met my girls for dinner, a long awaited gathering so to speak, with our guest of honor, Ms Carol Lee, which have MIA for quite awhile and finally able to meet up. =P Dine and booze the night away (a rather sinful but definitely enjoyable night) Sunday was a lighter affair as I met up with my ex-colleagues for a little dinner and "gossips" Kind of a farewell for one of them as well as she is returning back to Malaysia. Overall was a pretty good weekend spent...

This week is really looking awfully long... just biting on and hanging on... No training no nothing means nothing to look forward for the weekend. will work something out I suppose.

Oh yah.... HAPPY BIRTHDAY TRISA... hee my fellow Sagi.... May you have an awesome day and a beautiful year ahead, throw the past behind and look forward to a brighter future... haha sounds so "motivation speech" =P

That should be all for today I suppose... will be gymming this few days to condition myself back to the regime before sending myself into HELL mode again. The only thing that keeps me going now anyway.

Have an awesome day ahead everyone... 3 more days to the weekends!!!

Happy Birthday Lisa!~!

Happy Birthday Babe!~!~!

Start now... or never....

Just realized that my engine is coming to a haul once again. I am eating normal (or more than normal) but I HAVE NOT BEEN WORKING OUT!~!~!~ all the weight lost during the marathon have came back and even doubled... so its about time i do something about it...

Anyway... I am going back to drilling myself into shape again. So i hereby give my sincere apologies to everyone out there. Its not that I will totally neglect my friends of course, but if there is going to be any outing, please give me prior notice so I can make necessary arrangement to my schedule to accommodate the outing/ plan. I really cannot tell how my schedule will looking like but it should pretty much follow this order:

Monday: Gym
Tuesday: Run (Cardio)
Wednesday Gym
Thursday: Run (Cardio)
Friday: Gym
Saturday: Dragonboat
Sunday: Rest (or Dragonboat prior to the race dates)

So yeah... I am trying very hard to attain something in life, miss that feeling of achievement for awhile already its time to fight and see how far i can push myself this time.

Another apologies and also pointer is Diet, I am trying to restrict my diet too maximise on my workout regime, so I apologise if I restrict myself to not eating somethings, *disclaimer: please do not feel bad if you all eat what you all eat, coz its the choice i make. And also please do not think that whatever you all made is not nice whatsoever k... *

I see 2010 as a very exciting year ahead. I actually listed down some of the major events that I am likely participating and the list is pretty long already!!! ready??? here is goes:

1) MH Urbanathanlon - 12.5km
2) National Vertical Marathon
3) 2 XU Run @ Sentosa (Signed Up) - 12km
4) Sundown Marathon - 42km
5) Army Half Marathon - 21km
6) OCBC Cycling - 20km team (Signed Up)
7) Mizuno Wave Run - 16km (according to this year distance)
8) New Balance Real Run - 15km
9) Nike Human Race - 10km
10)Newton Run (Signed Up) - 30km
11) Passion Run - 10km
12) Run for Hope - 10km
13) Standard Chartered Marathon 2010 - 42km

This is excluding all the Dragonboat races that I might also do: Singapore Dragonboat festival, Sava Sprints, MR500, River Regatte, etc....

So as you can see... PACKED PACKED PACKED... thus I really need personal discipline and also support from all my friends around me.... can use all the luck I can get too... Hopefully its a really really good and fruitful year ahead...talking about it is already getting me excited

LET'S DO IT!~!~!~ I invite those interested to join. my motto remains... If I can do it, everyone can!!! JIA YOU... OOoosshh.....

New Skin

Something new to usher in the new year!!! will keep updating and hopefully evolving to suit my needs lah... Keep watch!!!

End 2009 with a good note....looking forward to a challenging 2010

2009 has been full of ups and downs... but at least I ended it with a bang with a last min marathon, yes you heard me... I only decided to run this marathon like less than a month ago... and yes, am currently "enjoying" the consequences. Came in with a timing of 5hrs 26 mins, nothing compared to my last timing (which is 4 hrs plus) but still, an achievement just completing it.

As 2009 comes to a close, I would like to thank everyone, for whatever contribution they made to my life... each year is a learning experience, and I am really looking forward to an exciting and challenging 2010 ahead, more things to learn, more people to meet, more challenges to conquer and more MEDALS TO WIN!~!~!~

Nothing much has changed on my to buy list... in fact its just growing longer each day (like DUH right?) haha time to pack off the old, send it of to the Great Samies and then bring out the new...

Sports Item on my list

- Shoes (got a new pair of Nike, but will definitely need something more suited for long distance run)
- Bag (Oakley's mouth is getting bigger each day... replacement please appear)
- Compression Tights (Finally got my SKINS.... 2XU next?)
- Shade (lose my shade yet again, need to get cheap on for water sport and a good one for running and land sports)
- Watch (saving for a G shock- old and faithful)

Non sports items...

Too many to mention.... haha

Have alot plan for the new year... there will definitely be pain involve... but hey remember, what don't kill you makes u stronger... so look out world!!! Stronger and meaner me coming right up!!!

End of one... start of next....

Back... 2 weeks of back to back training has taken a toll on my body.... still lack both strength and stamina.... we all know what that means... MORE TRAINING!~!~! HARDER TRAINING.... am going to try put myself through the original 16 weeks training all over again. probably will do so after my current one is up... am at week 15 for this one. Significant change to my body... cannot be the judge coz well i have been looking myself at all time... and as usual, THERE IS ROOM FOR IMPROVEMENT. Discipline is still not there... diet is still really screwed... :( Need to do something about it... and fast...

This weekend, Sava Sprints, well not very confident that we can win anything, but hey, good warm up for the November one. which I am really really keen to repeat my glory, my gold medal need some company. There is only one way around it... make A boat, and how, good time trials... JIA YOU!~!~!~

Starting to like OC, but the distance still killing me. Oh yah, my shades snapped... Freaking hell a week before the race... and i always have difficulty finding a pair that suits my face, and so when there is so many things already on my to buy list... OMG!~!~!~ hahaha tink will source for cheaper alternative liao... Currently items that I will likely be buying over the coming months will be:

A pair of runners (Newton or Asiscs)
A pair of running tights (long)
A long sleeve compression top (optional- can wait)
A Bag

now A pair of shades...

MONEY MONEY COME!~!~! hahaha

Not to mention the many clothes that caught my eyes... HAHAHA i guess i haven't been shopping for a long time... so many things seems to be appealing to me... HAHA hopefully I can work myself into a good shape to look good in them. HAHAHA

Apart from dragonboat racing, there is the number of up coming runs.. (FUN FUN FUN) First up would be Nike run, follow by NB run, then will be Run for Hope and then the fun walk... still recruit more pple to do so... so yeah... its all for a good cause... Likely going for the 100km one... not sure am going to survive, sure will try... hahah good way to end off the year... hehe

Alright lah... off to watch TV liao... NITES ALL... sorry if I have neglected anyone due to my regime... need to get some discipline back in life... and also in my diet... pray for me... i can use all the prayers i can get... HAHAHA

OOSSHHH....

Quick Entry.... Siong Weekend...

Thought I just drop by before heading of to watch Criminal Mind... Monday ain't exactly blue for me... but things went pretty smoothly for me I should think. Just need to get my logistics cleared... and more planning and I am more or less set. Hate last min amendments, but that's how things runs i suppose.... its never a smooth ride... hehe.

Enough about work, now toOoOOOooo..... Training HAHAHA well nothing much to write about it... just that it is SIONG liao..which i like... hahah abit sadist but I still feel its not up there yet... not when we are only 2 weeks from the race... I got the feeling there are pple in the boat with the "I am new, so i can slack and give up mentality" abit sian when kana such a thing... but yeah... what to do... things really did change over the years... only thing i can do is to instill discipline in myself and hopefully influence the rest to do so too... 2 weeks from race.... normally by now there will be a drive and urge that medals are near... this time... NOTHING... dun even think we can qualify if you ask me... haiz... praying for the best and hopefully enjoy a good race... thats all i can ask for... Well probably because so many regulars are not rowing... and I am not even close to the rest of them... RYAN you really need to learn to be more chill and socialble.... JIAYOU

Sunday was the ultimate killer.... almost fainted out at sea... Word of advise for those that is planning to do OC after DB... HAVE LUNCH!~!~! its better to puke than to starve... that for sure... shall not go into details but have never yearn to return from training so much for the first time... shall work our something different this coming week. Alright lah... nothing much to share liao... shall not bore you with my training story anymore... 3 weeks to end my first set of regime... 2 weeks to the races.... OOOSSSHHHH jia you!~!~1

Finally...

Just realised its been really really long since I have entered an entry.... Tot I scribble something before it start to develop cob "web" (get it... haha... okok bad joke) Anyway, for those that don't know, I have already started work, slightly over 2 months already, closing the end of my probation period. Intention of leaving, but yet, weighing things out at the present situation and still stuck in the middle. Don't get me wrong, its not that the job is not fun or anything, just that its not the line i intend to stay for long, eventually would still love to enter the great world of the hospitality line. All the rotating shift, smiles of customers, complaints... *sniff* arh.... I can smell them already.

Anyway about life, nothing much to talk about actually, pretty much lost much of it ever since I left school. Its true that the best time of your life are really spent in school. Frens, endless gossips and complaining together, rushing assignments to the wee hours of the morning just to meet impossible deadlines. Maybe abit sadist, but I do miss and would love to go back to that again someday... Convocation has been confirmed. Its going to be on the 30th October 2009 at Hilton Hotel. Didn't ask my parents to come, partly felt its abit ex for them to come see me recieve a cert, which i rather used the money for a nice family portrait. Guess I will be alone then. So Frens if you wish to come support. PLEASE DO DROP BY!~!~ hahaha

Have been feeling moody since Monday, thou its been a public holiday, we get to rest and all that, i kinda prefer to work as it keeps my mind occupied and dun allow it to stray to 'other' things. Well many might think its over for so long liao... why am I still brooding over it. The only answer is, if it is so easy, it will not be called love. HAHAHA damn chim right...

I guess I am feeling it a little bit more because... well... this friday will supposedly be our anniversary, 2nd year to be exact. The same day 2 days ago, I embark on a new journey, and then again 2 years later, things have pretty much gone back to how I was long long time ago, the only difference is a scar that still occasionally bleeds from time to time. Thinking back on all that have went past these 2 years, is both sweet yet kinda painful... but never once have I thought this is how love felt like. A friend once shared with me, Break ups are like climbing a monkey bar, you have to learn to let go in order to move on. I understand that quote, but accepting it is an entirely different matter. Till today, I still do not have the courage to do alot of things, I know this is a battle with myself, coz only I can decide when to move on and all. I also realised its a Heart vs Mind thing again, like back then when i tried to lose weight, thats why I have been keenly working out, training up my mind to take control once again.

Giving up has never been through my mind, in all the things I have done in my life. But when force to do so... you just feel really really helpless I suppose. After not blogging for so long, I almost forget that this is one avenue that I can still release the pressure within when I have no one to turn to (or rather dun wish to bore my fren with all this bullsh*t anymore).

Like mentioned, I still lack courage in many many things, and all this lingers... and is really tying me down, when will i ever take action on them? I guess I will never know, but another thing i used to conqure myself would be that, the other party will not know the suffering I am going through, its not much that I wish for her to know in the first place, I rather suffer alone, dun hurt my family, my frens, and all that care about me. I have learn to put on a mask for the first time in my life, for such matters.

Comparing to others, I guess I am fortunate, as I get to tasted what it is like to be loved and to love. Well, it really does things to you I guess. But I will consider it as one of the hardest fall I have ever took in life by far. I deserve to pad myself in the back coz, yes I am indeed numbing myself by flooding my brains, but at least I do not hurt my body, I train it to be stronger.

Without realising it, I have already typed out so much feeling, pouring out is always good, feels slightly lighter. KTV visit dun even seem the same anymore, pehaps now I can sing with more feeling... HAHAHA shall test it out the next time.

Well enough about that, hmm... apart from that has been working my ass off to attain the figure i wish to get, there is alot of work still left to be done, and I am already into the final month of my 16 weeks regime. Gymming is tiring but I always feel good after "surviving" the routine. But I must say, its taking away alot of my social life. I will also take this opportunity to apologies to all my friends out there that I have fly plane these few months. I dislike the me now thats why I am improving myself, but changing myself physically has a price to pay i suppose. All my friends are important to me. I promise to change and manage my time better. PLEASE GIVE ME A SECOND CHANCE.

Guess thats what I have for now, enough for all the months of not blogging for now i suppose. Promise I will not make all of you wait that long for the next entry, will blog more regularly. Time to get myself a good camera so that I can post pictures on the blog too... HEHE will be posted soon, for now... good night, sweet dreams, sleep tight..... *sore throat*....

Ten Rules for Being Human by Cherie Carter-Scott

1.	You will receive a body. You may like it or hate it, but it's yours to keep for the entire period.
2.	You will learn lessons. You are enrolled in a full-time informal school called, "life."
3.	There are no mistakes, only lessons. Growth is a process of trial, error, and experimentation. The "failed" experiments are as much a part of the process as the experiments that ultimately "work."
4.	Lessons are repeated until they are learned. A lesson will be presented to you in various forms until you have learned it. When you have learned it, you can go on to the next lesson.
5.	Learning lessons does not end. There's no part of life that doesn't contain its lessons. If you're alive, that means there are still lessons to be learned.
6.	"There" is no better a place than "here." When your "there" has become a "here", you will simply obtain another "there" that will again look better than "here."
7.	Other people are merely mirrors of you. You cannot love or hate something about another person unless it reflects to you something you love or hate about yourself.
8.	What you make of your life is up to you. You have all the tools and resources you need. What you do with them is up to you. The choice is yours.
9.	Your answers lie within you. The answers to life's questions lie within you. All you need to do is look, listen, and trust.
10.	You will forget all this.

Great Trip.... Great Memories....

Just found a block of time before I head out for band prac, yah, you heard be correctly... band prac... hahaha been trying to find time to do so... finally have sometime (in fact, lots of it now) hahaha...

Today's blog will be on my trip to KL, a very enjoyable overseas trip. Got to know very friendly people, Claudy and Chris... and of course, a new and cute friend... BULLET will let pictures do most of the talking... This was the Labour Day weekend... its truely very fun, which now thinking back still brings lots of smile one my face...



This is taken while meeting Serene at Tanah Merah, waiting for the train to the airport... never fail to have a nice post and glam smile for the camera... hee



This was on the plane, taken while we took out our Strategic Management books to read, yes I know its holiday, but at that point of time, both of us just couldn't stand assignment piling up.. so in order to enjoy the trip, we have to make use of whatever spare time we have to read...read... ReAD!~!~! hahaha



This is the first stop... haha the very mission we go to neighbouring country for... haha and of course its ice cream waffle is fantastic, thou the person got the flavor wrong... but its still taste good coz its A&W!~!~!~ haha



And introducing... this is the new fren we made while we are over there... his name is Bullet... haha adorable little thing with endless amount of energy... haha when he pants it seems like he is smiling... its Cute lah... hehe


And this are the wonderful people that hosted us during our short trip, claudy on the left and chris on the right... Thank alot guys... really had loads of fun during the trip...

As much as going overseas might be fun, its equally important who you go with... if you go with someone that you dun enjoy with... be it Paris or Maldives the trip will be meaningless. But traveling with the person u love... and enjoy being with... even sentosa or a trip to the zoo seems like endless fun.... I am glad I had this opportunity and chance to experience this...

So this is the blog for now... will see if there is more wonderful to share soon... cheers!~!~